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But why something derived is not original?

I disagree with this one... How Did you get this insight?

Actually I read that it's one of the possible side effects

Rhodiola had a negative impact on my immune system, it made me super weak

My parents had a very toxic personality and they harmed me in many ways, saying that all they did was because of love (and still are toxic, but now it's getting better since I don't live with them anymore). 2 years ago my dad had an accident and now he's 100% disabled, with a terrible brain injury. His family abandoned him (and us), and I can tell you that they are living a good life, maybe even better cause they don't have to deal with the usual "family fights" or these kinds of things. I also thought about pros and cons about leaving the family and my dad. But my conclusion is that I prefer living a life giving love and helping my parents, than having a normal life but without my parents. It doesn't matter how toxic they were, I will always love them and help as much as I can.

Hey guys, I wanna ask your help for a situation. First of all: happy new year! Second of all: Yesterday a friend of mine and I went to Amsterdam to have a nice year's eve, we didn't want to have a crazy night, but just to see the fireworks etc. At the end we drank and danced the whole night till the sunrise. I never drink so I am not used to alcohol at all, and walking back home I fell and hit my head on the floor. Now after 6 hours of sleep (definitely not enough, but I can't sleep more) my head is spinning and hurting a lot. I think this could be from the hit in the head, and not the alcohol (I know how my body feels when I'm hungover, and this is not it, I think). Do you have any tips on how to lessen the pain and spinning? I am drinking lots of water, eating, and I also took ibuprofen, but it's not really helping. Thank you guys

@Candle for me it's not like that, I feel no pressure when I cry, I know I'm not the most beautiful person when I do but I don't care. The problem I have is another one. I want to cry more often but I'm like emotionally blocked

Thank you for sharing your story

@Leo Gura @Dazgwny ok thank you Damn sounds intense but good that you're okay. I think I'm also scared cause my dad has a brain injury and I'm always paranoid when it comes to hitting the head or these kinds of things

Wow man you got this! You're doing great, love your determination

I wouldn't consider myself unlucky if I were in your situation... Listen to your body, if you can't do drugs then don't do them, you don't need to know why

Hello friends! I'm not a coffee drinker, but I really like the taste, especially if combined with milk. I got interested in its good effects after I saw some videos from Michael Pollan talking about it, and I like to read his book: How Caffeine Created the Modern World. I want to start drinking it but not be dependent on it, my mom can't start or live a day without it, and I don't wanna be like her. So my questions to you are: How much coffee do you drink? Are you addicted to it? Which is in your opinion the perfect way to take coffee regularly without being addicted to it, but still get the good benefits?

In this case I would open a window and breathe fresh air. I would eat something sweet and maybe stretch/focus on my breath. How is it going? How are you feeling?

Imo it can be good to have great experiences, but personally, I get addicted to it very easily. So I try to stay away from it, cause I can't use it only as a spiritual tool.

🟤 Quote by Osho: Orgasm There are moments, a few moments, far and few between, when ego disappears because you are in such a total drunkenness. In love it sometimes happens; in orgasm it sometimes happens. In deep orgasm your history disappears, your past recedes, goes on receding, receding, and disappears. You don't have any history in orgasm, you don't have any past, you don't have any mind, you don't have any autobiography. You are utterly here now. You don't know who you are, you don't have any identity. In that moment the ego is not functioning, hence the joy of orgasm, the refreshing quality of it, the rejuvenation of it. That's why it leaves you so silent, so quiet, so relaxed, so fulfilled. But again the ego comes in, the past enters and encroaches on the present. Again history starts functioning and you stop functioning. The ego is your history, it is not a reality. And it is your enemy; the ego is the enemy. Every person comes around this corner many times in life, because life moves in a circle. Again and again we come to the same point, but because of fear we escape from it. Otherwise the ego is a falsity. In fact, to let it die should be the easiest thing and to keep it alive should be the hardest thing, but we keep it alive and we think it is easier.

I decided to start a journal; I want to be motivated to do it, so I am publishing it here, intending to share things about myself, not only so I can keep track of multiple things, but also so you can get to know me. Here I will document everything I am involved with in my everyday life; I want to make the journal organized so it's easy to read for anyone who decides to open it and me. I will write about my spiritual journey, the search for my life purpose, new experiences, emotional healing and growth, my road towards financial freedom, my mental and physical health, and my relationship with the people around me in my life. I want to share interesting quotes, parts of books I like, or that resonate with me, and my ideas about whatever comes up in my mind that can be significant or not. How it will be organized: Every post will talk about a specific thing, and at the beginning, I will add a color that will represent a specific topic. Here I leave the list of topics with respective colors. 🔴 = Relationships, Family, Sexuality 🟠 = Mental & Physical Health, Emotions 🟡 = Money, Financial Freedom 🟢 = Spirituality 🔵 = Psychedelics 🟣 = Life Purpose, Career 🟤 = Quotes, Books, Websites ⚫ = About me, Goals, Ideas 🔘 = Contemplation I hope I was clear enough with the explanation. Thank you for reading and being present with me towards my growth, healing, and ultimately self-discovery!

🟠30-day Microdosing Journal: DAY #9 and #10 (dose day and no dose) Yesterday I dosed, and it was not an extremely great day. I went to work in the morning, and I was mindful in some moments, but not a lot. I was working, and I had fun. I didn't feel much of the truffles. And after work I came home, I taught guitar, I had a lesson with a student, and after that I went straight to my bed, eating and watching Netflix. It was not great. I felt really addicted to my dopamine. I was constantly looking at my investments. I am new to investing, and I made a lot of money this week, and then at the end I lost it all. I am not in negative right now, I am not in negative, so I didn't lose money, I lost just the profit, which is still not nice at all. But it's okay. What I want to say is that I really feel that I am addicted to stimulation, to dopamine. And yesterday after picking up my girlfriend Sara at a train station in another city, we went home, we had dinner, and I had a couple of more mindful moments, but not much. Today I am really limiting my stimulation. I am not watching anything, I didn't drink any coffee or eat bad things. I have practiced really mindfully, and I am feeling good about it. The only downside is that I am doing some work from my laptop, which I feel is still stimulating my brain, and my dopamine, which I don't love, but still it's not a problem. I am not procrastinating, and I am not watching useless things. I am actually working.

🟤 Quote by Osho: The Real Robbers There is nothing to fear because we don't have anything to lose. All that can be robbed from you is not worthwhile, so why fear, why suspect, why doubt? These are the real robbers: doubt, suspicion, fear. They destroy your very possibility of celebration. So while on earth, celebrate the earth. While this moment lasts, enjoy it to the very core. Because of fear we miss many things. Because of fear we cannot love, or even if we love, it is always half-hearted, it is always so-so. It is always up to a certain extent and not beyond that. We always come to a point beyond which we are afraid, so we get stuck there. We cannot move deeply into friendship because of fear. We cannot pray deeply because of fear. Be conscious but never be cautious. The distinction is very subtle. Consciousness is not rooted in fear. Caution is rooted in fear. One is cautious so that one might never go wrong, but then one cannot go very far. The very fear will not allow you to investigate new lifestyles, new channels for your energy, new directions, new lands. You will always tread the same path again and again, shuttling backward and forward-like a freight train!

🟠30-day Microdosing Journal: (no-dose, and dose day) Okay, so now I will talk about my microdosing, about the 6th and the 7th day, Tuesday and Wednesday. Tuesday was no dose day, and Wednesday was a dose day, and on Tuesday I was not feeling good. I was not feeling good emotionally, I didn't manage to have a mindful day, and my awareness was not so focused, which is fine, it's not a problem. And yesterday, with the dose day, thanks to the microdosing I managed to be more mindful. I had moments where I was full into the moment, and that was actually really good, but I couldn't keep a steady or light awareness, as Osho says, throughout the whole day. I am not working on myself a lot, I am doing a little stretching, and sometimes writing about gratefulness, but I am not doing great, talking about that. I am doing good, speaking of investing money, which is also part of my journey that I want to learn, but apart from this, things are not going so well.

🟤 Quote by Osho: Nonjudgment When you judge, division starts. You may be talking in deep conversation with a friend when suddenly you feel like being silent. You want to stop talking. right in the middle of the sentence. So stop right there, and don't even complete the rest of the sentence, because that will be going against nature. But then judgment comes in. You feel embarrassed about what others will think if you suddenly stop talking in the middle of a sentence. If you suddenly become silent they will not understand, so you somehow manage to complete the sentence. You pretend to show interest, and then you finally escape. That is very costly, and there is no need to do it. Just say that conversation is not coming to you now. You can ask to be excused, and be silent. For a few days perhaps it will be a little troublesome, but by and by people will begin to understand. Don't judge yourself about why you became silent; don't tell yourself that it is not good. Everything is good! In deep acceptance, everything be- comes a blessing. This is how it happened your whole being wanted to be silent. So follow it. Just become a shadow to your totality, and wherever it goes you have to follow because there is no other goal. You will begin to feel a tremendous relaxation surrounding you.

🟠30-day Microdosing Journal: DAY #4 & #5 (dose and no-dose) I decided to microdose also on Sunday, so I did two dosing days in a row, and then I didn't take any dose yesterday, and also today I will not, but I will tomorrow. On Sunday was not so great, and neither did yesterday. Especially yesterday I didn't manage to keep any mindful awareness. Yesterday I managed only in the evening before going to sleep, which is still better than nothing in my opinion, but overall I could have done more during the day. On Sunday I was not feeling so good. I also got into some kind of an argument with my girlfriend, which was not too bad, but for sure it didn't make me feel good. I was not feeling great these days. I am a little bit tired of having to practice guitar daily. It's kind of stressful and hard, and I feel like I am not living my life in general. I could live more, I could live better. But, I don't know, maybe I am trying to work on it, maybe not. I am not so sure, honestly. But it's fine. Today I will try to be more mindful, and... I will try to do more stretching, and work on myself a little bit more. I have to keep up with the gratitude journal. I always think I have to do it in the evening, but actually that's just an excuse. I can do it at any time in the day. So I can just keep it up. Even only one thing is good enough. Yesterday I was obsessed with the investments. I feel like I am really back compared to other people. Compared to where people are economically, and where I would like to be. I really don't like this social system based on money. I would like to create an independent life. I would like to have enough money to not care about it. But it feels difficult. Anyways, I will try not to get addicted by investing, and I hope everything will be fine in my life in general.

🟤 Quote by Osho: Laughter Why wait for reasons to laugh? Life as it is should be reason enough to laugh. It is so absurd, it is so ridiculous. It is so beautiful, so wonderful! It is all sorts of things together. It is a great cosmic joke. Laughter is the easiest thing in the world if you allow it, but it has become hard. People laugh very rarely, and even when they laugh it is not true. People laugh as if they are obliging somebody, as if they are fulfilling a certain duty. Laughter is fun. You are not obliging anybody! You should not laugh to make somebody else happy because if you are not happy, you cannot make anybody else happy. You should simply laugh of your own accord, without waiting for reasons to laugh. If you start looking into things, you will not be able to stop laughing. Everything is simply perfect for laughter-nothing is lacking-but we won't allow it. We are very miserly: miserly about laughter, about love, about life. Once you know that miserliness can be dropped, you move into a different dimension. Laughter is the real religion. Everything else is just metaphysics.

🟤 Book "A Monk's Guide to Happiness" by Gelong Thubten summary - Chapter Six: Building the Habit To get great results, the best way is to practice meditation every day, as said previously. Starting 10 minutes a day, and then building it up is a good way. There will be moments where it's difficult to keep the practice, in moments of sadness, sickness, stress, and more. But we have to understand that when we are in these situations, we want to take a break, and meditation is precisely that. It helps you take a break, relax in the moment and feel whatever you feel, without judgment or other comments. It's also good to build a mindfulness habit. The way to start is: to choose a couple of things that you do daily, that will act as mindfulness triggers (e.g. washing your hands, taking the stairs, washing the dishes, or anything else). The next step is: to be mindful of many more moments throughout the day, every time you remember it. The last step is to become mindful of the "easy" stressful moments, and to build awareness for the harder and more stressful moments in life. It's good and healthy to learn to eat mindfully, and also wake up and go to sleep mindfully.

🟤 Quote by Osho: Gratitude Feel as grateful to existence as possible for small things, not only for great things... just for sheer breathing. We don't have any claim on existence, so whatever is given is a gift. Grow more and more in gratitude and thankfulness; let it become your very style. Be grateful to everybody. If one understands gratitude, then one is grateful for things that have been done positively. And one even feels grateful for things that could have been done but were not done. You feel grateful that somebody helped you-this is just the beginning. Then you start feeling grateful that somebody has not harmed you he could have; it was kind of him not to. Once you understand the feeling of gratitude and allow it to sink deeply within you, you will start feeling grateful for everything. And the more grateful you are, the less complaining, grumbling. Once complaining disappears, misery disappears. It exists with complaints. It is hooked with complaints and with the complaining mind. Misery is impossible with gratefulness. This is one of the most important secrets to learn.

🟠30-day Microdosing Journal: DAY #3 (dose day) Yesterday was the second dozing day, and it was not really great. I woke up, I practiced, and then I had lunch, and I ate a lot. I ate a lot of food, and I started watching a series, and I kept watching for two hours, that series. It didn't make me feel good at all, because when I watch too much screen, my eyes feel weird, my head feels a little bit spaced out, and I feel almost as if I am in a movie or something. So then I decided to go for a walk. It was a two hours long walk, and I managed to meditate on a bench. And after that, I had dinner with my roommate, with my girlfriend, and it was really fun and nice. Overall, I managed to be aware and mindful throughout the day. Not a lot as the day before, but sometimes I manage to remember to be mindful, especially during the walk. While watching the movie, not at all, but in some moments of the day, yes, so that is fine. I didn't do stretching or almost any of the other goals I wrote, but that's fine. I don't understand why I keep feeling bad or falling again into this habit of watching a lot, and I cannot stop. I stopped smoking weed, but this summer I started drinking again. I don't do it a lot, but lately, I have been doing it more frequently, and I am not happy about that at all. So I feel a little bit down for that. Apart from all of this, I decided that today I will dose again, because tomorrow I have a medical screening I have to go through, and it is better not to microdose on that day. I also decided to fast for 24 hours. I have never done this before, so let's see how it goes.