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I'm grateful for: going out yesterday talking to new people dad getting better not giving up practice stretching every day

🟠🔵⚫ Microdosing Goals Here is the list of things I want to practice, achieve, and push myself to do. Body and Mind Awareness (Mindfulness): Develop a deeper connection with my body and thoughts, staying present throughout the day. Teal Swan’s Self-Love Course: Commit to doing the course and applying the teachings daily. Restart Meditation: Rebuild my meditation practice, even starting with just 10 minutes daily, and gradually extend the sessions. Daily Stretching/Yoga: Incorporate a stretching or yoga routine to enhance physical flexibility, wellness, and mental relaxation. Journaling for Reflection: Write daily reflections about my microdosing experience, emotions, and things in general. Emotional Awareness and Expression: Reconnect with my emotions, practice self-compassion, and find ways to release or express emotions healthily. Focus and Productivity: Improve concentration and productivity in my personal and professional tasks. Gratitude Practice: Cultivate gratitude by listing things I'm thankful for each day. Improve Social Interactions: Going out more, socializing and meeting new people. Creativity Exploration: Explore new ideas, hobbies, or projects. This microdosing month is just the beginning of personal growth.

🟠30-day Microdosing Journal: DAY #2 (no dose) Yesterday was the second day of the microdosing month, I didn't dose. And the day was pretty interesting. I woke up, I practiced, and I went to work. After work I came home, I had dinner, and then I went to a house party. Somebody invited me to go there, but I didn't know anyone, except for my girlfriend who came with me, and my roommate and his girlfriend. And then we went to dance in the night. I was surprised that throughout the day I could maintain a body awareness, a mental awareness that I'm trying to achieve throughout the day in general. I want to always be mindful. This is also one of the goals of the microdosing. Actually, later I will write a goal, a list of goals that I want to learn, of things that I want to learn with microdosing, or thanks to microdosing. And mindfulness is one of them for sure. And yeah, I managed to keep this awareness, I kept my mindfulness on my body, on my mind. Not 24 hours fully, not the whole day, but still it was a really good job. Today I will microdose, and I will write about it, either in the evening or tomorrow.

🟤 Quote by Osho: Retrospective Wisdom The other is never responsible. Just watch. If you become wise in the moment, there will be no problem. But everybody becomes wise when the moment is gone. Retrospective wisdom is worthless. When you have done everything and fought and nagged and bitched and then you become wise and see that there was no point in it, it is too late. It is meaningless you have already done the harm. This wisdom is just pseudo-wisdom. It gives you a feeling "as if you have understood. That is a trick of the ego. This wisdom is not going to help. When you are doing something, at that very moment, simultaneously, the awareness should arise, and you should see that what you are doing is useless. If you can see it when it is there, then you cannot do it. One can never go against one's awareness, and if one goes against it, that awareness is not awareness. Something else is being mistaken for it. So remember, the other is never responsible for anything. The problem is something boiling within you. And of course the one you love is closest. You cannot throw it on some stranger passing on the road, so the closest person becomes the place where you go on throwing and pouring your nonsense. But that has to be avoided because love is very fragile. If you do it too much, if you overdo it, love can disappear.

I didn't want to put any pressure on you, sorry for that. Even if you relapse it's not something to be disappointed about, take note of that, and keep going with your journey.

I think the best way to stop is without taking these things... but of course it's a tool that probably can help, imo tho it's better to just continue naturally

🟠30-day Microdosing Journal: DAY #1 (dose day) So, yesterday I decided to start microdosing magic truffles, which are legally available in the Netherlands. I bought the Golden Teacher truffles. I bought 15 grams, so I can take 1 gram every second day for a month. Yesterday I woke up with some negative thoughts. I was not feeling great. But then I remembered a passage of a book that I am reading, which says that I can choose to be happy. And I understood that the kind of sadness and bad feeling that I was having was not because of something that happened, but just random thoughts that were happening in my brain. I decided then to think of positive things and nice things that happened the day before, the things I am grateful for. And I spontaneously and immediately started having great feelings of happiness in my chest. It has never happened so much that I would feel so much after just changing my thoughts. I was really surprised. Before going to buy the truffles, I ate a smoothie with frozen berries. And it was good, a little bit cold. And that made me feel a little bit weird in my stomach. But that's fine. At 3 I had to start working, so before that, I went to buy the truffles. And around 2.50 I ingested the first gram of the microdose. I was working from 3 to 8 and the experience was really nice. I didn't have any strong effects, but I could feel it. The colors were the same, maybe slightly more vivid. But somehow I was enjoying them more, I was enjoying my surroundings way more. And just looking at people that usually I don't particularly like or dislike, both physically and personally, I could see something more, some kind of different spark. I was happy the whole time I was working. And yesterday was not a really laborious day. And everybody had a positive energy, so that really helped me keep my positive energy. After this, after work, then I went to do some groceries with my girlfriend. And after when we came home we discussed pharmaceutical companies. And we were not agreeing on the topic. And it was really not nice, the conversation. I lost the kind of mindfulness that I was keeping more or less through the whole day. And after this discussion, I didn't manage to get back this awareness and mindfulness. Overall it was a good day.

🟤 Book "A Monk's Guide to Happiness" by Gelong Thubten summary - Chapter Five: Getting started Position: Meditation should be done sitting with a straight back, the specific position doesn't matter, as soon as the spine is straight. Eyes open or closed: In general, people meditate with closed eyes, but to some extent, it's better to do it with open eyes: like this, you don't get as sleepy, and you don't associate meditation with a dark image. With open eyes, you get used to meditate seeing something around you, this means that you're training your awareness and you can more easily learn to be more mindful in day-to-day life. Timing and frequency: you can start with a 10-minute alarm (with a gentle sound), and slowly build it up to 30 minutes. Once or twice a day is fine, when you get more experienced you can do it multiple times per day. Method: Observe your body, focus on the touch - the contact with the seat, floor, clothes, etc. Body Scan: from toes to head, and then back to the toes - focus on each small part of the body, slowly moving upwards/downwards like a scanner. Try to meditate without judging and labeling thoughts, feelings, etc. Don't question whether you're meditating or not, just observe what you are feeling.

🟤 Quote by Osho: An Echoing Place The world is an echoing place. If we throw anger, anger comes back; if we give love, love comes back. Love should not be demanding; otherwise it loses wings, it cannot fly. It becomes rooted in the earth, becomes very earthly. Then it is lust and it brings great misery and great suffering. Love should not be conditional, one should not expect anything out of it. It should be for its own sake-not for any reward, not for any result. If there is some motive in it, again, your love cannot become the sky. It is confined to the motive; the motive becomes its definition, its boundary. Unmotivated love has no boundary: it is pure elation, exuberance, it is the fragrance of the heart. And just because there is no desire for any result, it does not mean that results do not happen. They do, they happen a thousandfold because whatever we give to the world comes back, it rebounds. The world is an echoing place. If we throw anger, anger comes back; if we give love, love comes back. But that is a natural phenomenon; one need not think about it. One can trust-it happens on its own. This is the law of karma: whatever you sow, you reap; whatever you give, you receive. So there is no need to think about it, it is automatic. Hate, and you will be hated. Love, and you will be loved.

🟤 Book "A Monk's Guide to Happiness" by Gelong Thubten summary - Chapter Four: Meditation and Mindfulness Nowadays we tend to blend the concept of meditation with the one of mindfulness, but in reality, meditation is when we sit down and use specific techniques to train our mind, while mindfulness is the awareness that we use to bring back our attention to the exercise, and this can be applied to the everyday life. Meditation then is not about emptying our minds, but about being aware of its thoughts and not getting caught up in them; it's about leaning to observe what happens in our mind, and applying that to our day to day life means feeling our feelings and emotions but not getting attached ad carried away from them.

i believe in you, you can do it!

🟤 Quote by Osho: Amateurs and Experts All great discoveries are made by amateurs. It always happens that when you start new work, you are very creative, you are deeply involved, your whole being is in it. Then by and by, as you become acquainted with the territory, rather than being inventive and creative you start being repetitive. This is natural because the more skilled you become in any work, the more repetitive you become. Skill is repetitive. So all great discoveries are made by amateurs, because a skilled person has too much at stake. If something new happens, what will happen to the old skill? The person has learned for years and now has become an expert. So experts never discover anything; they never go beyond the limit of their expertise. On the one hand, they become more and more skillful, and on the other hand they become more and more dull and the work seems to be a drag. Now there is nothing new that can be a thrill to them-they already know what is going to happen, they know what they are going to do; there is no surprise in it. So here is the lesson: it is good to attain a skill, but it is not good to settle with it forever. Whenever the feeling arises in you that now something is looking stale, change it. Invent something. add something new, delete something old. Again be free from the pattern that means be free from the skill-again become an amateur. It needs courage and guts to become an amateur again, but that's how life becomes beautiful.

I'm grateful for: Starting to eat more healthy starting practice trying to be more aware and conscious

🟤 Book "A Monk's Guide to Happiness" by Gelong Thubten summary - Chapter Three: Stress in the 21st century Our society is based on doing, not on being. We constantly want to achieve something, and when we do, we move on to the next thing. We are scared of losing what we have and what we love, we have attachments to things that are not forever. Our food is filled with chemicals that make us eat the whole package, and want more and new food. The more technology evolves, the more our stress level rises. We are working in and for a society where we constantly want to achieve something, likes, a certain status, or other. Meditation can help us tap into our inner-wired happiness, instead of looking for it outside.

🟤 Book "A Monk's Guide to Happiness" by Gelong Thubten summary - Chapter Two: Hard-Wired to be Happy Our natural state of being, our essence is free, is to be happy, but since we get too caught up in our thoughts and feelings, we are not able to be the way our true nature is. We can then learn to simply observe our mind so that we can be aware of the "clouds passing by", but remain the free and still blue sky.