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🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - WAVE 2, Intro to Focus 12 01/10/2024 20:15 DAY 16 So my first experience with the first track of the second wave, which is about Focus 12, was really interesting. Initially, I entered the Focus 10 state, and it was not the deepest I have ever been in. And then, when the voice was guiding me towards Focus 12, I felt that, yes, I was going deeper, but it was not a new state of consciousness. It was nothing new. As the exercise continued, as I was listening to the sounds, I started feeling more and more and more relaxed, and I started feeling that I was bigger. But this I still felt already in the past in the Focus 10 state. And towards the end of the exercise, something changed. Towards the end of the exercise, when I was supposed to come back to the Focus 10 state, and eventually to the normal waking state, Focus 1, I started feeling something different. Something was happening to, probably, my state of consciousness. I don't really know how to describe it. I felt like I was huge. I was super big. To some extent, I was still in this room, but at the same time, not. I could still feel the body to some extent, but I was also more than that. I felt like there were two states happening at the same time, the relaxed body state, and the huge ball I also became. I wouldn't know how to explain this thing differently.

I'm grateful for: Starting guitar lessons again Feeling better Meeting a new person

I'm grateful for: Having enough food to eat Having good people around me Starting to meditate again

@aurum I see, thank you for your comment. I think that maybe the problem is learning to find the right sensitivity in the touch. I went to my father's craniosacral therapist, and I did a couple of sessions, and Evey time I felt something changing inside of me, apart from the fact that at the end of the session I had another kind/level of awareness, I don't know how to explain it. Could be placebo, but it affects the same way also my father who has a brain injury and doesn't know at all what's going on, so I'm his case can't be placebo.

I'm starting this course in November, but I am afraid. The book I need to read goes into detail about the body parts, and I'm no expert, I have no particular knowledge about that. But when I went to sign up for the course, the lady working there said that it's not a problem. I hope it's true, otherwise I wasted a lot of money. Has anyone done this course? If you have any advice, pls let me know.

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Exploration Sleep 30/09/2024 17:35 DAY 15 I just did the fifth track two times in a row. The first time I went pretty deep, and since I wanted to go even deeper I decided to restart it and do it again. Conclusion: I have reached a level of relaxation, so deep that I've never reached. Even if in a couple of moments I felt that my throat was itching a bit, I kind of felt like I was floating (as the man guided me to), but I still felt the gravity of course. I don't fully understand what needs to happen when he says to "float, and turn like a log in water". I visualize that and have interesting feelings in my body or even consciousness, and I felt like in my head was slightly spinning, and the head itself towards the end was moving a bit; but I am not sure if that is what I'm supposed to feel. Anyways I think I went deep enough to continue with the next track.

🟣 YT channel with Binaural Beats https://www.youtube.com/@BinauralBeatsMeditations If you want to check out my YT, I just started posting!

I'm grateful for: My dad not getting too much hurt (yesterday he fell and hit his head) Having the possibility to rest Having good friends

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Exploration Sleep 29/09/2024 13:30 DAY 14 I redid the fifth track, and it was a good experience. This time I was not scared, I kept telling myself that everything was fine, and even though in some moments I was about to get scared, I stayed calm. I didn't have a super deep experience, but I did relax a lot, and I will do it again. Also, at the end of the track the man guides you to sleep, but I didn't cause it's the middle of the afternoon, but tomorrow I will let myself sleep.

@jacknine119 youve got this man!

I didn't think of Leo when I wrote the advice. But based on my own research on how to sell courses and other businesses I want to do, people finding you on YT who are interested in what you do will give you a good push (and traffic to your website, etc.). Yes Leo did like this, and thousands of more people also did it. That doesn't mean that you shouldn't. That means that this way works!

you say this a lot but what does it mean to you? I don't understand what is too feminine

If you take Buddhism all the way you will most likely not have a relationship at all. Apart from the fact that it's still a religion Stage Blue of the SD (even if more open-minded), Buddhism won't teach you everything about life. If through Buddhism you learn to be so detached you won't be able to be in a relationship. When you learn about infinite existential love and from there you decide to go into a relationship, you go into a biased egoic kind of love. And if you don't, you feel the infinite love towards your partner, but then how to differentiate it from the love you feel for the whole existence? Your partner won't be special anymore, so why even be in a relationship? If you want to learn and grow in life you need experience, and that is also having a relationship. Being a great philosopher will not teach you what a relationship can teach you. Being in a relationship taught me that my happiness doesn't come from sex and the relationship, I didn't need to become a Buddhist or a philosopher to understand it.

what a nice report! glad that you could share this with your parents

this is the book:

I am reading the book that the association gave me; I have to read the first six chapters. They're about: intro to the concept of the craniosacral system, basic terminology, movements of the craniosacral system (ability to touch), techniques of modification of the craniosacral rhythm, etc. To be honest I haven't read much, I got the book last week, and I've been pretty busy so I couldn't read much. I read the long prefaces and the first chapter. I feel scared because I don't want to arrive at the course and see that they talk really specific terminologies of body parts and I don't understand anything. But as I am reading the book I research online about everything that I don't know. Maybe the right way to approach this is to be curious and eager to learn, instead of being scared and thinking "Omg I don't know anything"

Thank you for the reply! @Waves I will do the course in Trieste, with the Associazione Cranio-Sacrale Upledger.

Well, imo you should combine all of the three. What I mean is that you can become a coach and give free content on YT to gain visibility, and also start a blog. One step at a time of course. The first step would be the YT channel, and then you start building your sessions and blog from that.

🟣 Craniosacral Therapy Course In November I will go back to Italy, to start an intensive course to become a craniosacral therapist. This course is divided into five different levels, and I will be doing the first one. I am excited to start this new journey where I will learn something new and valuable, something that can help people feel better. I am a little bit scared though because I am not a doctor/physiotherapist/I am not an expert on the human body and the book I need to read before starting the course is really technical, at least in the beginning. I want to do this course because I know that craniosacral therapy comes from meditative and yogic techniques, and even though it is not scientifically proven yet, I believe it can help a lot.

🟢 Restarting Meditation Today I woke up feeling kind of better, I am still not 1000% feeling great, but good enough to decide to start meditating again. I did 20 minutes without a timer; I'm surprised that I managed to stay that long for the first time. I managed to relax my body a lot and noticed that my mind was all over the place. Also when I was in Italy, my meditation was not really about calming my mind, but just letting it flow. I am not super satisfied with this kind of meditation, I actually don't feel like it's meditation at all. My goal now is to restart a serious practice, to let go of my thinking. I also want to restart the practice I was doing during the summer: I'm talking about Eckart Tolle's teachings on how to let go of the mind and focus on the now. It helped me a lot, and even though it was difficult to keep that practice up, I want to do it again. I will post more about it in the future.

I am really sorry that this happened to you.. if you ever need to talk about it you can pm me! stay strong❤

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Exploration Sleep 28/09/2024 23:50 DAY 13 part 2 I decided to go for the 5th track, and it was the deepest and the best experience so far. I went really deep, at a certain moment I felt (or better, I thought) I would have an OBE. I got really scared, to be honest, and that would not help with my relaxation. I explored different and new levels of consciousness and deep relaxation, but I am not happy that I can't let go. I am scared to let go, I am too attached to my ego. I am even scared to fall asleep when I do exercises to fall asleep... How can I do this track in the best way possible? I will see in the next few days how it goes!

I'm grateful for: Getting better physically Having a nice dinner with my girlfriend Eating healthier lately Journaling Living alone in the Netherlands The sacrifice my family is making for me to live a life apart from the critical family situation

🟢 Thoughts on MEDITATION In the last few days, I haven't meditated. I stopped almost a week ago when I returned to the Netherlands. I know it's normal to lose the routine when big changes happen, but I still want to get back to it. Since I am also doing the Gateway experiment daily, I feel like I am meditating to some extent, but I don't want to confuse the two practices. I am happy that I implemented this new spiritual practice in my daily life, and now I want to start again meditating, so I can do two practices at a time. I feel that like this I can start making big progress in my path. Keeping this journal is helping me, I will keep it up, and try to grow as much as I can!

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Advanced Focus 10 & Release and Recharge 28/09/2024 17:30 DAY 13 So earlier in the morning, I did the third track, and now I just finished the fourth. I have to say that both went really really well, I am really satisfied. I still have a cold, so I can't fully breathe from my nose, and even though I had to breathe from the mouth and it therefore got pretty dry both times, I had a great experience. Especially with the second tape I managed to go really deep into a relaxed state and do all the things instructed. Tomorrow I will continue with the fifth tape; I will for sure redo the fourth, and I might do also the third one before the two, but I will see how the mood is.