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⚫ Dad I'm tired of this family situation. I'm tired of having a mentally injured father. He's not my father anymore. I'm tired, sick, sad, and depressed. It's tough and I want this story to end. It's giving too much difficulty and pain to my mom, and everyone around him.

just because someone is worse than me it doesn't mean that i shouldn't be feeling low

@_Archangel_ yeah I think so, I have to learn things from other stages to keep evolving. What I don't like is the fact that even tho I want to learn from the orange stage, I still want to act according to green values and principles, but I think I'm not doing it anymore. Maybe I just need to learn to balance.

I'm a really emotional person and just let go works for me. So I think it's personal: words have different impact on everyone.

The fact that you're emotional doesn't mean that you need arrogance or narcissism.

Wtf

🟠 How am I doing lately? I'm again I started writing in this journal again. I want to make it a habit, do it daily. I want to do it for myself, I want to do it to feel better, grow, and learn. It's been some difficult months, emotionally speaking, and I am struggling a bit in general. I feel I am changing, and it makes me reflect. Before summer 2024, I was all about selflessness, meditation, calmness, and this kind of living. I didn't think about money, I was almost fully in the green stage of SD (at least this is how I felt). I didn't judge people, didn't like gossip, trying to be good with people. A negative thing was that I was smoking a lot of weed, sometimes even daily. I love weed, but I understood that it's not good for me, I would not let myself feel the emotions I had, and it harms the body. Now I see, that after that, I went back to stage orange. Well, actually maybe I never was in that stage fully, since I'm still a student, and I never made money, and didn't live life "as an adult". I started investing, I want to start a business, and make lots of money. But I see that the way I act and the way I am is not the same as before. I talked about this with my girlfriend, and she said that I can be at this stage, think about starting a business and making money, but my values can still be the same from last year. I can still meditate, not complain and judge, not gossip, etc. And that's true, I agree with her, but I am scared because I don't feel like before. I know things change, our body and mind are different every day and change, but I don't want to feel the way I feel. I decided to start a business while I'm still a student, I want to teach meditation and mindfulness to musicians, since I know that these practices are not taught or known a lot in this world. I started an Instagram account and a website, offering coaching and guitar lessons (I am a certified meditation teacher, finished my bachelor's degree in classical guitar, and am currently doing the master's, with my thesis about this topic). I am happy because this is a more conscious business in my opinion, but I don't know how to scale it. I don't have customers yet, I have under 100 followers on Instagram, and the ones I got are only because I spent 20€ in advertising a post. I feel I'm just starting out, but hopefully this can be something great.

@Nemra ah, okay. Yes, it's pretty easy. Although I think they are implementing new regulations and making many of them illegal, I'm not sure; I haven't looked into it yet. Also, I bought only once from a website and everything was fine, but I'm always scared to use these things, idk which are scams and which are not

What do you mean with RCs?@Nemra

@Nemra orange mystery mix.

Truffles are difficult to ingest in my experience, they taste bad and give me lots of nausea, but it's a good legal way to trip in Europe. So it's really difficult to ingest the whole High Hawaiian box, 25 grams is really a lot, for me 15g is still difficult but manageable.

Tripping with truffles 3 times in 4 days doesn't make sense, it's just a waste of money... Also High Hawaiian are a big scam, they might be strong if you take 3/4 or the whole box (25g), but they are not the strongest at all. My last trip was mind-blowing and extremely intense with 10g of another truffle strain.

I've seen and heard many European people from minorities defending Russia, which attacked Ukraine, also to reunite their minority... It's not all trolls, it's for example french minority in Italy complaining about their territory in Italy.

How would you know if the communication is only in your head or not? If you have a telepathic communication with a person you can talk about it later and confirm that indeed you communicated telephatically, with an animal you cannot do that

I got it already! Will finish the one I'm currently reading and continue with this one. Thank you!

I am getting more into investing, and general financial literacy. I finished Robert Kiyosaki's Rich Dad Poor Dad and am currently reading his Guide to Investing. Although he gives interesting points, he uses many different words to talk about the same concepts, without really explaining how to actually do the thing. For example, he talks a lot about making a financial plan, but never explains how actually to make one, he says to go to a professional and do it. I want to find great books, courses, and videos that talk about these things, here I will share everything that I can find. You can share them here, so we can all have a space with great financial resources. Do you have any resources about how to read and understand financial statements?

I'm not really drinking coffee lately, I still want and have to make a food plan including coffee sometimes per week. It's good you're trying to take a break from it

Hello friends! I'm not a coffee drinker, but I really like the taste, especially if combined with milk. I got interested in its good effects after I saw some videos from Michael Pollan talking about it, and I like to read his book: How Caffeine Created the Modern World. I want to start drinking it but not be dependent on it, my mom can't start or live a day without it, and I don't wanna be like her. So my questions to you are: How much coffee do you drink? Are you addicted to it? Which is in your opinion the perfect way to take coffee regularly without being addicted to it, but still get the good benefits?

My girlfriend shared with me this course on how to invest and pick stocks, I am slowly listening to it, but it's kinda difficult cause it's in Spanish and I am still learning the language, so if you have something like this in English (or Italian) would be appreciated!

@Leo Gurais there an app for this forum? Or are you going to make it sooner or later?

Nice talk

Also fentanyl is cheap from what I know (might be wrong, idk). You're doing very good testing the substance, if it makes you feel safer then yes, do also a fentanyl test!

I don't know if there's already a discussion about it here. Musk is not that stupid to not know that's the fascist salute... Kinda scary imo

Yeah true... They should write it every time an ai video or photo appears.

True. All their videos have ai images and videos, it's just to add content and entertainment I guess