@integral As you say I am still young, in my life, I have encountered many things, but I still have so much more to experience. Watching @Leo Gura 's videos about SD, and deepening this topic I understood that I need to exhaust stage by stage to fully get all of them and then move to the next one, so I can eventually reach the turquoise, hopefully, one day.
But my question is: how can I grow spiritually and pursue enlightenment and awakening, while still being able to focus on growing a business, getting a girlfriend, and doing all these things? Maybe I should wait some years and exhaust all these lower stages and when then one day come back to spirituality. The truth is though, that I feel like I can't live without spirituality. I feel like this event that happened with my dad is somehow a wake-up call from the Universe to pursue infinite Love.