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@Kksd74628 Yes don't worry, my lifestyle is under control, I do daily meditation, yoga/stretching, eat and drink healthy and exercise at least every second day. I have high goals, and I am not looking for something to get things done, and I don't need amphetamines. I am just experimenting with biohacking and trying to get high-quality performances in everything I do. Of course, I am not looking for shortcuts, getting high, or anything unhealthy. I am currently getting more and more Leo's content, I take notes, study, brainstorm, and contemplate. I don't know him, thank you, I will check him out.

I live in the Netherlands, and I was looking for Modafinil or Adrafinil so I can boost my productivity, but couldn't find any of them. I saw that Fladrafinil is a legal research chemical, but I can't find any info about it online, except for some on Wikipedia (which says it is closely related to Adrafinil and Modafinil, but how?). Do you know it? Have you tried it? Is it similar to Modafinil? Is it harmful to your body? I want as much info as possible before purchasing it.

@KatiesKarma That's a good decision

@Majed Of course, but I believe that sexuality is a spectrum and it doesn't make sense to put all these labels and create schemes for something that just comes differently for everyone. You are who you are and you like what you like, and it's ok, we don't need to label it.

@Majed All these labels you are giving to "sexual taste", are also a social construct.

@Kksd74628 Thank you for your advice, I appreciate it! I often use supplements for mental performance, like Ginko Biloba or Sulbutiamine, but to be honest, I didn't see much difference (it's been a year since I started), maybe some clarity and less mental fog, but I am not really sure. I did try also other things (getting inspired also from Leo's video about nootropics), but still, I was not really satisfied with the results. So I thought to try Modafinil or Noopept, but of course not on a daily basis. Right now I meditate daily for 10 to 15 minutes (lately I do only mindfulness-guided meditations since I'm on vacation at my family's and I find it difficult to stick to my usual routine, which is at least 20-30 min to 1h unguided), and for the cold showers sometimes it's difficult since in the Netherlands is quite cold, but I always try haha.

If this is a derivate of LSD then yes, you should get informed. (In that case, which one did you buy?) If it's not, then you could take all the 100ug. This dose is quite fine for me, it's not too strong, but it is still a remarkable experience. If you think in the past you got 100ug and that was too much, then you could try 70ug, and then the rest save it for later trips or just microdose. I sometimes take 30 to 50ug and just go through the day. It always gives me a nice vibrant feeling to the things I do.

I don't have any experience with 5meo, and not even with samadhi; but from all the content I watched about the molecule, imo the two are similar... Would be interesting to do some more research about samadhi (never heard it before this video).

First, you say that: and then you explain that there are different chromosome patterns. Then I would say that you're contradicting yourself and that there actually is a biological reality to "girls". I also want to add that since there are more than two categories, the distinction between male and female doesn't collapse, simply there are just more possibilities. By the way, I never doubted that there is more than just girls and guys, as you asked: I replied by saying that Consciousness has no gender, but in this material Reality there are genders, and it is normal to be attracted to them. This is why Leo is attracted to girls.

If you watch the video he posted about this topic, you will understand what he means by gender as a social construct. Your authentic Higher Self, consciousness, has no gender; of course, in this material reality we are born in a physical body, therefore we have a biological gender and we like girls/guys.

Hello people! I have a situation I have never been in before, and I need some advice, but first, you should know some background, so you can try to understand what is going on in my head. I had one relationship that lasted more or less six years and after that fell deeply in love with another girl who didn't like me back as much, and it never worked out. I never really tried pick-up (I'm quite shy, and not confident - even tho in the last year I understood that I should not care about what people think of me, I still struggle with that a little bit), therefore I don't know how flirting works, I prefer serious talks and deep connection. But how can serious talks work if I want to have some experience and not focus so much on serious relationships? Another thing you have to know about me: I am picky when it comes to how a girl looks. If I am not physically attracted I will not even think of something with her. So here comes the situation: yesterday I started texting with a girl I matched with on Tinder (btw it's the first time I have an actual conversation on a dating app), and we have been texting quite a lot, IMO (of course no flirting, just normal conversations). In her profile pictures, it is not really possible to see her face; but now we exchanged phone numbers, and on her Whatsapp profile pic I see her, and I am not attracted to her. Now, I don't know what to do. I want to have some experience, but I don't want to force myself and do things with someone I am not attracted to; and most importantly, I REALLY don't want to use her (or any other girl) just to satisfy my needs. Also, you guys have to understand that I am not deliberately picky, it comes from the inside, even though I know that I should never judge a book by its cover, and a person by how they look. But it is also true that I don't feel like kissing or having intimate contact with someone I don't like. I know I overthink a lot, but I don't want to hurt anyone, I want to have experience, but still be respectful. It's just that the last time I had sex, or even only kissed someone, was two years ago, and now I would like to do something, you know. Do you have any advice on the situation with this girl? Thank you for reading my post, I sincerely appreciate it. Send you love!

Of course, I agree; but I never said I want a relationship.

We're just getting to know each other, but for now I enjoy talking to her, and I see that for some things we are similar. I believe that I will continue having contact with her as @Roy said. I will see if getting to know her can make me loosen up a bit, and not be so picky when it comes to girl's beauty.

@cjoseph90 Yeah I understand it puts you off, maybe you could also try the shroom grow kit... For the truffles you can try to plug your nose and you won't taste them

It's been a year now since I started my consciousness work, and I feel like I am slowly growing every day always learning something new about myself, how to live, how to do spirituality, and many more things. Along with many topics that I daily contemplate, there is often the one of Death that I never really stop thinking about. Even before starting with spirituality I never really thought of death as a bad thing; then following @Leo Gura's teachings and contemplating everything he says, I understood that death is not a tragic event. But little I knew (and still know) how threatening it is to me (or better, to my Ego) to die. I have never had an NDE or not even an Ego-Death / Ego-Dissolution with psychedelics or meditation/yoga. But in the last year, I had four powerful death realizations (if it is appropriate to call them that). The first one (I took a weed edible) was a year ago, and the other ones (while sober, one of them in a dream) happened in the past two months, and they were all basically the same. I was either lying down or sitting, and thinking/contemplating about Death, and then it just happened. I don't know how to describe it precisely, but it was like a visualization I had: a feeling of darkness and nothingness. It was like my Ego saw its own death; in the moment of the realization, I died, but not completely because I still had thoughts, and I felt really scared. Except for the last one, the one that I remember more vividly, which was a dream. I was in a house with other people, we started seeing lightning striking and destroying buildings around us. In the beginning, I thought that nothing would happen to me, but then as more buildings were falling, I understood that I would have died. At that moment I saw my life stop right in front of me, and then darkness. I understood I finally died. I was not scared, and I remember thinking: "So this is what it feels like to die?". It was a feeling I know I have already felt, somehow, somewhere, sometime. Then I thought that if I am dead I am not supposed to have thoughts, then I woke up. I don't know how to interpret these experiences, especially the dream. I am also quite fascinated by how strong my imagination/visualization could get, even by being sober. I would love to hear your opinion and ideas about it, and let me know if you ever had a similar experience (also without psychedelics).

I can relate to this problem because I practice classical guitar every day, and I need to stay focused to be precise in all my movements, so I can have the best outcome; but often I don't even realize that I am holding my breath, and that makes me physically tense (which is bad for a musician). So I tried to apply my mindfulness meditation practice also while playing, and it works. It is mainly about body awareness: while playing games you can be concentrated, but still keep the focus and be conscious of your body and breath, be as relaxed as possible, and don't let the adrenaline make you tense. If you're tense you hold your breath, and also the other way around of course. In the beginning, it is going to be difficult to do so, but it's a matter of practice, and slowly with time you will notice that it becomes more and more easy to stay concentrated, relaxed and you won't hold your breath as much. Let me know if you try this technique and if it helps

I genuinely appreciate the courage to share this traumatic thing you have lived. I was never sexually abused, but I know how hard it is to share something this difficult. It is great that you still managed to go out there and start pick-up, even after what happened. wish you lots of growth and happiness!

Thank you for the advices @Starlight321, when I get back to the Netherlands I will try the kit for sure. What I meant is that I will get informed on how many mg of psilocybin per gram truffles have, and compare it to a 2 or 3 grams dose of shrooms (which should be 20-30mg, if I'm not wrong). Then I can properly see how many grams of truffles I can take to get a significant trip. This may be hard, as there are so many different types of truffles with different potencies; but I guess I will see.

@Starlight321 Yeah truffles really taste disgusting... I made a tea out of them once but I got even less effects. Do you know if it is easy to grow shrooms with the kit? Have you ever tried? If you have any suggestions on how to do it I'm all ears. Yeah I will compare the mgs of psilocybin between shrooms and truffles.

@Philipp I've experienced a similar situation. I was in a relationship for two years, and she was (and still is) a great person; but we somehow grew up differently and we decided to break up (about 6 years ago). We decided to stay friends, but we both understood that our friendship will never be as a normal friendship. Every summer after that we would come back to each other, and basically be a couple (we were acting as a couple, even though we didn't officially label our situation as a relationship). Then after some moths the situation would slowly fade away. This has happened for 2 or 3 years in a row, but then the last time I decided to stop any contact with her. I know that I could have done it in a different way, and now she wouldn't be 'pissed' at me, but now I can finally feel that there's a closure. Friendship after breaking up is not a good idea. You should take your distances, and let her go. That doesn't mean that what you experienced together didn't matter and that you don't care about her anymore. But life goes on, and so do we, carrying in our hearts all that we have lived.

@Templeofthemonkeygod @igor699669 yes consciousness experiences everything, and one of the multiple things is also dying as early children. It's not about doing something wrong, but the purpose is having also this kind of experience.

After all the insights that Leo's shared about consciousness it would be quite interesting to hear something about time. Most people know that time is relative; but if we apply it to a bigger scale, maybe from the perspective of the Universe, consciousness, then what does time become? What is it? Does it even exist? I already have some ideas about it, and I would like also to share them in this forum. It would be interesting though to have also a video from Leo about it. What is your opinion on this topic?

@Hibahere I totally get it, and I know that it is hard. But if they're not interested in these things it doesn't mean that they are not willing to know you fully. This is part of who you are and they should accept all of these things. But I know it is also difficult to find someone who is interested at least a little in spiritual things, or even only open to them; therefore it is always good to surround yourself with people who are similar to you and are more open mined.

@Hibahere Personally I just go with the flow, and see how I feel about someone. I know that to me connection is really important, and there are many levels of that: romantic, physical, spiritual, intellectual... The more connected I am with the other person the better it is. Sometimes I believe that I would like to find someone who is at a higher level of awareness, but then thinking about it I understood that it is also about boundaries and acceptance. If the other one is not interested in spiritual "mumbo-jumbo" I will be ok with it, as soon as she is ok with my practices like meditation, self-inquiry, etcetera, but there has to be no judgment.

I am a 22yo Italian guy, and three years ago I moved alone to the Netherlands. I moved here to deepen my skills in the classical guitar so I started studying at the university, and in a year or less, I will have my bachelor's degree. Back then I started meditating, and I didn't know how my life would begin changing fast as it did. I accidentally found Leo's youtube channel, and from the beginning, I understood that he was talking about things that to me matter. When I was living in Italy I had "crazy" (according to people around me) thoughts about life and existence. But finally, I found someone who could teach and guide me. My path towards awakening and discovering Truth started seriously almost a year ago when my dad and brother had a terrible motorcycle accident. My brother had many surgeries, but now he is fine. My dad, though, has severe brain damage, and we are all trying to help him regain his life. I feel like this event happened also to make me understand that I need to get closer to God. so I can learn to live these difficult moments with more wisdom, and less anxiety, and eventually realize that everything that happens is just a form of Love. With this preface, I want to share with you an experience I had a couple of months ago when I was still in the Netherlands. That day I didn't have classes or anything important, only a concert of classical music to attend in another city, so I decided to take a small dose of LSD (probably about 50ug) and go through the day. It was around noon when I took it, and around 7 pm I took the train to attend the concert. I was completely sober the whole day, I didn't feel any of the acid I took. I listened to the first part of the concert, and during the break, I decided to smoke some marijuana. It was a pure joint (not mixed with tobacco like Europeans use to do), and I did only two hits. But little I knew what was going to happen. Entering back in the theatre I understood that the LSD and the weed mixed and I have never felt so high. Waiting for the break to end, I was standing there and looking around me and trying to understand what was happening to me. I checked my phone and tried to act normal, but then I saw my hands, and they looked more real than real. I don't even know how to explain it. When I sat in my seat, I could feel the soup of air we walk through; as if I could feel all the molecules. At that moment I thought I was in direct contact with Reality. Nothing changed in my visual field, but it was just the way I was feeling, connected to everything around me. I wanted to close my eyes and let go, thinking that I could be brought somewhere else, but I couldn't. Not only I am afraid to let go of my ego, but also I was in a freaking theatre surrounded by people. After the concert ended I managed to get back home safely. I had some time now to think about that experience, and I tried to understand what was that about. I believe it could be a really small glimpse of awakening, but at the same time, I don't know what awakening feels like, so I can't compare it or say it for sure. What do you think happened? Thank you for reading my story, I appreciate it. I send you love!