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@Sabth Where are you from? If you live relatively close to Egypt, it can be easier to get there of course. I am from Italy, and from here you can work any 9 to 5 job that in a year will give you the chance to go there (if you save your money properly).

@NoSelfSelf Totally agree on that one. @The Redeemer Also, my opinion is that loyalty has to start from the moment you both understand or decide that you're exclusively dating each other. You can't test her loyalty: a relationship is based on trust, and even though you might not know her\him properly at the beginning, you have to let go of that overthinking. If she breaks your trust, then let her go. Of course, when emotions get involved it's not that easy.

This will blow your mind. The best music for me to listen to while tripping. It's a live concert, can get intense, but truly amazing. Let me know what you think of it, if you listen to it high.

Penis Envy is quite a strong strain, do some research about the dosage, and start with a light-medium one (which is less than other shrooms, typically around 2gs). After the first try, you see how they affect you and know if you can have more next time. I think you're in for a treat, let me know if you try them, you can PM and let me know! (never tried PE before) @jonatech256

I don't know if it is part of the same problem, but every time I acces to actualized.org (especially to the different sections of the forum), it takes a while to load. (Could be that it's only my phone, even if it's new...)

@Kksd74628 Yes don't worry, my lifestyle is under control, I do daily meditation, yoga/stretching, eat and drink healthy and exercise at least every second day. I have high goals, and I am not looking for something to get things done, and I don't need amphetamines. I am just experimenting with biohacking and trying to get high-quality performances in everything I do. Of course, I am not looking for shortcuts, getting high, or anything unhealthy. I am currently getting more and more Leo's content, I take notes, study, brainstorm, and contemplate. I don't know him, thank you, I will check him out.

I live in the Netherlands, and I was looking for Modafinil or Adrafinil so I can boost my productivity, but couldn't find any of them. I saw that Fladrafinil is a legal research chemical, but I can't find any info about it online, except for some on Wikipedia (which says it is closely related to Adrafinil and Modafinil, but how?). Do you know it? Have you tried it? Is it similar to Modafinil? Is it harmful to your body? I want as much info as possible before purchasing it.

@KatiesKarma That's a good decision

@Majed Of course, but I believe that sexuality is a spectrum and it doesn't make sense to put all these labels and create schemes for something that just comes differently for everyone. You are who you are and you like what you like, and it's ok, we don't need to label it.

@Majed All these labels you are giving to "sexual taste", are also a social construct.

@Kksd74628 Thank you for your advice, I appreciate it! I often use supplements for mental performance, like Ginko Biloba or Sulbutiamine, but to be honest, I didn't see much difference (it's been a year since I started), maybe some clarity and less mental fog, but I am not really sure. I did try also other things (getting inspired also from Leo's video about nootropics), but still, I was not really satisfied with the results. So I thought to try Modafinil or Noopept, but of course not on a daily basis. Right now I meditate daily for 10 to 15 minutes (lately I do only mindfulness-guided meditations since I'm on vacation at my family's and I find it difficult to stick to my usual routine, which is at least 20-30 min to 1h unguided), and for the cold showers sometimes it's difficult since in the Netherlands is quite cold, but I always try haha.

If this is a derivate of LSD then yes, you should get informed. (In that case, which one did you buy?) If it's not, then you could take all the 100ug. This dose is quite fine for me, it's not too strong, but it is still a remarkable experience. If you think in the past you got 100ug and that was too much, then you could try 70ug, and then the rest save it for later trips or just microdose. I sometimes take 30 to 50ug and just go through the day. It always gives me a nice vibrant feeling to the things I do.

I don't have any experience with 5meo, and not even with samadhi; but from all the content I watched about the molecule, imo the two are similar... Would be interesting to do some more research about samadhi (never heard it before this video).

First, you say that: and then you explain that there are different chromosome patterns. Then I would say that you're contradicting yourself and that there actually is a biological reality to "girls". I also want to add that since there are more than two categories, the distinction between male and female doesn't collapse, simply there are just more possibilities. By the way, I never doubted that there is more than just girls and guys, as you asked: I replied by saying that Consciousness has no gender, but in this material Reality there are genders, and it is normal to be attracted to them. This is why Leo is attracted to girls.

If you watch the video he posted about this topic, you will understand what he means by gender as a social construct. Your authentic Higher Self, consciousness, has no gender; of course, in this material reality we are born in a physical body, therefore we have a biological gender and we like girls/guys.

Hello people! I have a situation I have never been in before, and I need some advice, but first, you should know some background, so you can try to understand what is going on in my head. I had one relationship that lasted more or less six years and after that fell deeply in love with another girl who didn't like me back as much, and it never worked out. I never really tried pick-up (I'm quite shy, and not confident - even tho in the last year I understood that I should not care about what people think of me, I still struggle with that a little bit), therefore I don't know how flirting works, I prefer serious talks and deep connection. But how can serious talks work if I want to have some experience and not focus so much on serious relationships? Another thing you have to know about me: I am picky when it comes to how a girl looks. If I am not physically attracted I will not even think of something with her. So here comes the situation: yesterday I started texting with a girl I matched with on Tinder (btw it's the first time I have an actual conversation on a dating app), and we have been texting quite a lot, IMO (of course no flirting, just normal conversations). In her profile pictures, it is not really possible to see her face; but now we exchanged phone numbers, and on her Whatsapp profile pic I see her, and I am not attracted to her. Now, I don't know what to do. I want to have some experience, but I don't want to force myself and do things with someone I am not attracted to; and most importantly, I REALLY don't want to use her (or any other girl) just to satisfy my needs. Also, you guys have to understand that I am not deliberately picky, it comes from the inside, even though I know that I should never judge a book by its cover, and a person by how they look. But it is also true that I don't feel like kissing or having intimate contact with someone I don't like. I know I overthink a lot, but I don't want to hurt anyone, I want to have experience, but still be respectful. It's just that the last time I had sex, or even only kissed someone, was two years ago, and now I would like to do something, you know. Do you have any advice on the situation with this girl? Thank you for reading my post, I sincerely appreciate it. Send you love!

Of course, I agree; but I never said I want a relationship.

We're just getting to know each other, but for now I enjoy talking to her, and I see that for some things we are similar. I believe that I will continue having contact with her as @Roy said. I will see if getting to know her can make me loosen up a bit, and not be so picky when it comes to girl's beauty.

@cjoseph90 Yeah I understand it puts you off, maybe you could also try the shroom grow kit... For the truffles you can try to plug your nose and you won't taste them

It's been a year now since I started my consciousness work, and I feel like I am slowly growing every day always learning something new about myself, how to live, how to do spirituality, and many more things. Along with many topics that I daily contemplate, there is often the one of Death that I never really stop thinking about. Even before starting with spirituality I never really thought of death as a bad thing; then following @Leo Gura's teachings and contemplating everything he says, I understood that death is not a tragic event. But little I knew (and still know) how threatening it is to me (or better, to my Ego) to die. I have never had an NDE or not even an Ego-Death / Ego-Dissolution with psychedelics or meditation/yoga. But in the last year, I had four powerful death realizations (if it is appropriate to call them that). The first one (I took a weed edible) was a year ago, and the other ones (while sober, one of them in a dream) happened in the past two months, and they were all basically the same. I was either lying down or sitting, and thinking/contemplating about Death, and then it just happened. I don't know how to describe it precisely, but it was like a visualization I had: a feeling of darkness and nothingness. It was like my Ego saw its own death; in the moment of the realization, I died, but not completely because I still had thoughts, and I felt really scared. Except for the last one, the one that I remember more vividly, which was a dream. I was in a house with other people, we started seeing lightning striking and destroying buildings around us. In the beginning, I thought that nothing would happen to me, but then as more buildings were falling, I understood that I would have died. At that moment I saw my life stop right in front of me, and then darkness. I understood I finally died. I was not scared, and I remember thinking: "So this is what it feels like to die?". It was a feeling I know I have already felt, somehow, somewhere, sometime. Then I thought that if I am dead I am not supposed to have thoughts, then I woke up. I don't know how to interpret these experiences, especially the dream. I am also quite fascinated by how strong my imagination/visualization could get, even by being sober. I would love to hear your opinion and ideas about it, and let me know if you ever had a similar experience (also without psychedelics).

I can relate to this problem because I practice classical guitar every day, and I need to stay focused to be precise in all my movements, so I can have the best outcome; but often I don't even realize that I am holding my breath, and that makes me physically tense (which is bad for a musician). So I tried to apply my mindfulness meditation practice also while playing, and it works. It is mainly about body awareness: while playing games you can be concentrated, but still keep the focus and be conscious of your body and breath, be as relaxed as possible, and don't let the adrenaline make you tense. If you're tense you hold your breath, and also the other way around of course. In the beginning, it is going to be difficult to do so, but it's a matter of practice, and slowly with time you will notice that it becomes more and more easy to stay concentrated, relaxed and you won't hold your breath as much. Let me know if you try this technique and if it helps

I genuinely appreciate the courage to share this traumatic thing you have lived. I was never sexually abused, but I know how hard it is to share something this difficult. It is great that you still managed to go out there and start pick-up, even after what happened. wish you lots of growth and happiness!

Thank you for the advices @Starlight321, when I get back to the Netherlands I will try the kit for sure. What I meant is that I will get informed on how many mg of psilocybin per gram truffles have, and compare it to a 2 or 3 grams dose of shrooms (which should be 20-30mg, if I'm not wrong). Then I can properly see how many grams of truffles I can take to get a significant trip. This may be hard, as there are so many different types of truffles with different potencies; but I guess I will see.

@Starlight321 Yeah truffles really taste disgusting... I made a tea out of them once but I got even less effects. Do you know if it is easy to grow shrooms with the kit? Have you ever tried? If you have any suggestions on how to do it I'm all ears. Yeah I will compare the mgs of psilocybin between shrooms and truffles.

@Philipp I've experienced a similar situation. I was in a relationship for two years, and she was (and still is) a great person; but we somehow grew up differently and we decided to break up (about 6 years ago). We decided to stay friends, but we both understood that our friendship will never be as a normal friendship. Every summer after that we would come back to each other, and basically be a couple (we were acting as a couple, even though we didn't officially label our situation as a relationship). Then after some moths the situation would slowly fade away. This has happened for 2 or 3 years in a row, but then the last time I decided to stop any contact with her. I know that I could have done it in a different way, and now she wouldn't be 'pissed' at me, but now I can finally feel that there's a closure. Friendship after breaking up is not a good idea. You should take your distances, and let her go. That doesn't mean that what you experienced together didn't matter and that you don't care about her anymore. But life goes on, and so do we, carrying in our hearts all that we have lived.