Hibahere

@sholomar definitely

@Yimpa indeed

@Princess Arabia ah I agree with you on this one

What is it about embracing death that ends all suffering while you live? Life =suffering But... Once you know that this is temporary and relative it somewhat becomes less painful I've seen people who have lost limbs and are still the happiest Have they truly embraced their real nature as God or spirit? What is it about oneself that makes him so strong and indestructible in the face of adversity ? How does the human psychology work when this happens? What exactly changes ?

@Schizophonia we do actually consume a lot of rice here and our dishes are loaded with oil fat and salt. So I decided to change it up a bit

@tuku747 indeed 💫

@TheCloud thanks for your consideration:). I gym 5 to 6 days a week...I do eat well and sleep well the main issue is just the other mental and emotional side of the problem

If life was an empty canvas I could paint, paint and paint until my arms cramped.......... Its not. It's pain and suffering. A few months ago i used to be a wise wise girl because life didn't throw any particular burdens at me. I laugh when I recall that I once used to be so cool. Seasons changed and layers upon layers of me shed apart, crumbling to ashes. Out came the needy, the vulnerable, the desperate, the cry for help, the one that needs certainty, the one that has panick attacks, the one that can't function and the one that's yearning for love. Failed attempts to make others understand what I am going through, turning to therapists would never help as well. Trauma upon trauma from generations seeped into my frail being, being screamed at every day, being emotionally abused, health anxiety, horrific symptoms, traumas surrounding love and relationships, and now im here.......at my weakest, listening to cigarettes after sex. Anxiety blowing my core away, days upon days with pain in my chest from the rushes of adrenaline. Can life get harder than this? Will it ever get better? I never imagined. Deep shadows seeping out from my skin into awareness, showing up in my dreams as blood spewing out from by body. Repressed for years. Plagued with anxiety.... I sometimes think....what if I can no longer bear the burden, what if I can no longer take the pain and what if it gets worse, wat if I never see the light at the end of the tunnel....It's a bummer but I might have to end it all, cut it short and go back to where I belong.

@Osaid this moved me truly. I felt understood and appreciated after reading your reply. I have no words, thanks for making my day. :")

@HMD done ?

@manuel bon yesss exactly its hard. But I am open to the possibility that my partner doesn't have to be as aware as me or more than me. But at least around the same level.

Hello actualized.org users! I hope you all are doing well. My question I'd specifically that if you are someone who is looking forward to a serious relationship or wife/husband what are the qualities you want in them ideally? If you are at a certain level of awareness/consciousness would you want them to match it? Or are there other qualities you look for. And why? Elaborate. Thanks !

@Rishabh R you will have to attract good experiences once or twice to really actually convince your mind that good people do exist. Been thwre done that. I know how u feel

@manuel bon oh wow I'm glad that most people are open to this possibility. I personally have a hard time with this. I want my partner to be a great part of my life so if he was not interested in this stuff it would feel like he doesnt know me fully and id feel depressed.

@Yimpa can you explain what it means to love without any logical reason? Thanks

Today I had to cut off yet another "friend" and now I'm left with 2. I have been dealing with some very strong feelings and trauma along the way. One was related to my health anxiety and there were some other traumas as well. I tried shamanic breathing. It was a fault but also a good think because it was the catalyst of the changes I've been going through as of now- 1. Ringing and bells in ears...although it's stopped now 2. I saw a black shadow man figure 3. Immense feelings of fear and threat 4. An increase in anxiety and a bout of depression. 5. Suicidal thoughts. 6. Past memories arising 7. Traumas becoming amplified 8. Anger levels increased so much lead to me breaking things I would like to note that I'm much better now and none of the symptoms are continuing now. I did the breathing for barely 5 minutes and twice. I started to spiral do much into a dark abyss that I literally considered going back to being a normie. But when there's no going back I had to push through. Coming to some realisations I took a hard look at my life. I cut off a very toxic friend who was a normie. I understood that I couldn't deal with anymore bs. No company is better than bad company and now I'm at a point where if done well I can really enjoy my own company. Its hard enough to find someone who is into spirituality...and it's it's harder to find people like this and make friends with them. I used to feel very lonely and I had this limiting belief and I still do that most people in my country don't do self development they are at stage red and I'm doomed in love and in friendship forever. But slowly I'm trying to make peace with the fact that only in solitude will I discover myself and shine with my authenticity. And that is the place from where I want to attract friends and love. I believe that the universe never lets you down. It always keeps sending people your way. So there's nothing to worry about...I keep telling myself. But ever since self development started getting serious for me I've been going through a lot and sometimes I do think of giving up and it breaks me. It scares me that I have so much trauma to work through which is gonna manifest in ugly ways...I'm genuinely scared but deep down I know its for the better good of me. Its for my expansion after all and for recognising that I am indeed reality...God...whatever you call it. One day my ego will die...I will die as well. I need to make peace with a lot of things.. Hiba

My ears are bleeding with these stage orange broken men saying cheating is okay and "biologically wored in men". What are you perspectives on it. Imagine that you have your ideal wife or girlfriend, you both meet each others needs and are fully compatible. Even if you are presented with an opportunity would you still cheat just for "thrill"? Why and if not then also why?

This is gold

@supremeyingyang Oh nice, Greetings from Pakistan ?

@Spiral now this is a situation I can actually empathise on because it's a real issue. I think along the marriage women get very lazy and stop prioritising their Husbands so it's the females fault here as well

@supremeyingyang where are you from

@Emerald beautiful that clears up pretty much every confusion

I do not know where to pin myself in spiral dynamics or the actualization spectrum but I know for a fact that I am. I know for a fact that I am way below and there is a lot of growth that awaits me far away somewhere in the distant galaxies. For a few minutes today I did a thought experiment. I imagined that if in fact everything is perspectives and opinions what if actualized org is one as well, what if religion is one as well what if everything else is a perspective as well...what if everything is....my world views came crumbling down to ashes. It felt like I was being ripped apart limb from limb. It felt like "reality" became realer. And at the same time reality felt like a dream. It felt like I was living in a huge dream. I felt nihilistic. What if the left and the right and even the middle are perspectives as well....the more I went deeper the more my world views became vague. My mind withered away like petals on a dying rose. Then... I dared not to imagine what if I am not human at all what if human is a perspective as well. What if being a biological being is nothing but imagination. My body started to shake, I felt chills, I felt like I was dissolving. How did my mind dare to reach such lengths, how can I dare to think this way. Oh lord send me to a cabin in the wilderness far far away....maybe there I will get the answers to everything

@Leo Gura There, we have the word of top G.?

@trenton best answer