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@Ishanga yes we have to be very careful that it doesn't become a gateway for the ego to gain a false sense of inflation.

There's been multiple ones recently. I haven't even been meditating just praying my basic prayers but skipping on those also. These days I'm very go with the flow and more in my head and I've been trying to ground myself. 1. Hearing voices...not very frequently but rarely I do hear whispers or my name. It never scares me. 2. Detachment from my body...deperesonalization type of experience which lasted for a day. 3. Non threatening presence of entities. Mostly in half asleep or sleep states. 4. I see repeating number a lot even though I refrain fro. Believing those repeating number thingies. 5. Dejavus ...they have become more intense and more frequent. They often happen with a certain person who is close to me on commendable levels and the connection is more than that. They feel too real sometimes it's freaky. 6. The feeling of being separated from my body and third dimension. This has happened twice as well...its like a feeling of being pulled in and out and expanding and contracting within. This often happens when I talk about spirituality or contemplate my nihilism and death with people or even alone. 7. Similar experiences...that manifest the other like a butterfly effect. 8. Ringing in ears...I've always had this but sometimes before sleeping its almost like the ringing of a bell and once it felt like something exploded in my third eye area and I heard the bell striking sound. 9. Dreams have become more existential in nature. Dreams show me how it's like to be formless and infinite...its very scary sometimes. Had a dream about being sucked into different timelines past and present...and when I woke up on eye could see future and the other was seeing the past. I freaked out until the reality 3D appeared in front of my eyes. It was still forming...like glitches and pixels.. I think that sums up most of it. Enjoy while you read, lol. I'd love to hear insights

I have been starting to take diet seriously for a while now. I feel immediately upset after putting any sort of shit food or processed food in my body. I have somewhat of a good taste for vegetables but I'd like to develop it more. Mostly I'm looking for good sources of leutin, zeaxanthin, Vit A, Zinc, Vit E, C and omega 3. I have already incorporated spinach, Broccoli, sweet potatoes, and almonds into my diet but I'd like to make it more diverse and healthier and cleaner. I want to feel like I'm not degrading internally while living and that my cells are nourished and happy with me. Also, processed shit and sugar has terrible consequences on mental health, spiritual health etc. My question is for the health conscious people who have successfully achieved a good diet. How did you start feeling after it? Did your health improve? In what ways? What advice would you give me and recommend more sources of nutrients ? Should I cut out the jolly sugar shit completely or is it okay to enjoy it sometimes?

@sholomar definitely

@Yimpa indeed

@Princess Arabia ah I agree with you on this one

What is it about embracing death that ends all suffering while you live? Life =suffering But... Once you know that this is temporary and relative it somewhat becomes less painful I've seen people who have lost limbs and are still the happiest Have they truly embraced their real nature as God or spirit? What is it about oneself that makes him so strong and indestructible in the face of adversity ? How does the human psychology work when this happens? What exactly changes ?

@Schizophonia we do actually consume a lot of rice here and our dishes are loaded with oil fat and salt. So I decided to change it up a bit

@tuku747 indeed 💫

@TheCloud thanks for your consideration:). I gym 5 to 6 days a week...I do eat well and sleep well the main issue is just the other mental and emotional side of the problem

If life was an empty canvas I could paint, paint and paint until my arms cramped.......... Its not. It's pain and suffering. A few months ago i used to be a wise wise girl because life didn't throw any particular burdens at me. I laugh when I recall that I once used to be so cool. Seasons changed and layers upon layers of me shed apart, crumbling to ashes. Out came the needy, the vulnerable, the desperate, the cry for help, the one that needs certainty, the one that has panick attacks, the one that can't function and the one that's yearning for love. Failed attempts to make others understand what I am going through, turning to therapists would never help as well. Trauma upon trauma from generations seeped into my frail being, being screamed at every day, being emotionally abused, health anxiety, horrific symptoms, traumas surrounding love and relationships, and now im here.......at my weakest, listening to cigarettes after sex. Anxiety blowing my core away, days upon days with pain in my chest from the rushes of adrenaline. Can life get harder than this? Will it ever get better? I never imagined. Deep shadows seeping out from my skin into awareness, showing up in my dreams as blood spewing out from by body. Repressed for years. Plagued with anxiety.... I sometimes think....what if I can no longer bear the burden, what if I can no longer take the pain and what if it gets worse, wat if I never see the light at the end of the tunnel....It's a bummer but I might have to end it all, cut it short and go back to where I belong.

@Osaid this moved me truly. I felt understood and appreciated after reading your reply. I have no words, thanks for making my day. :")

@HMD done ?

@manuel bon yesss exactly its hard. But I am open to the possibility that my partner doesn't have to be as aware as me or more than me. But at least around the same level.

Hello actualized.org users! I hope you all are doing well. My question I'd specifically that if you are someone who is looking forward to a serious relationship or wife/husband what are the qualities you want in them ideally? If you are at a certain level of awareness/consciousness would you want them to match it? Or are there other qualities you look for. And why? Elaborate. Thanks !

@Rishabh R you will have to attract good experiences once or twice to really actually convince your mind that good people do exist. Been thwre done that. I know how u feel

@manuel bon oh wow I'm glad that most people are open to this possibility. I personally have a hard time with this. I want my partner to be a great part of my life so if he was not interested in this stuff it would feel like he doesnt know me fully and id feel depressed.

@Yimpa can you explain what it means to love without any logical reason? Thanks

Today I had to cut off yet another "friend" and now I'm left with 2. I have been dealing with some very strong feelings and trauma along the way. One was related to my health anxiety and there were some other traumas as well. I tried shamanic breathing. It was a fault but also a good think because it was the catalyst of the changes I've been going through as of now- 1. Ringing and bells in ears...although it's stopped now 2. I saw a black shadow man figure 3. Immense feelings of fear and threat 4. An increase in anxiety and a bout of depression. 5. Suicidal thoughts. 6. Past memories arising 7. Traumas becoming amplified 8. Anger levels increased so much lead to me breaking things I would like to note that I'm much better now and none of the symptoms are continuing now. I did the breathing for barely 5 minutes and twice. I started to spiral do much into a dark abyss that I literally considered going back to being a normie. But when there's no going back I had to push through. Coming to some realisations I took a hard look at my life. I cut off a very toxic friend who was a normie. I understood that I couldn't deal with anymore bs. No company is better than bad company and now I'm at a point where if done well I can really enjoy my own company. Its hard enough to find someone who is into spirituality...and it's it's harder to find people like this and make friends with them. I used to feel very lonely and I had this limiting belief and I still do that most people in my country don't do self development they are at stage red and I'm doomed in love and in friendship forever. But slowly I'm trying to make peace with the fact that only in solitude will I discover myself and shine with my authenticity. And that is the place from where I want to attract friends and love. I believe that the universe never lets you down. It always keeps sending people your way. So there's nothing to worry about...I keep telling myself. But ever since self development started getting serious for me I've been going through a lot and sometimes I do think of giving up and it breaks me. It scares me that I have so much trauma to work through which is gonna manifest in ugly ways...I'm genuinely scared but deep down I know its for the better good of me. Its for my expansion after all and for recognising that I am indeed reality...God...whatever you call it. One day my ego will die...I will die as well. I need to make peace with a lot of things.. Hiba

My ears are bleeding with these stage orange broken men saying cheating is okay and "biologically wored in men". What are you perspectives on it. Imagine that you have your ideal wife or girlfriend, you both meet each others needs and are fully compatible. Even if you are presented with an opportunity would you still cheat just for "thrill"? Why and if not then also why?

This is gold

@supremeyingyang Oh nice, Greetings from Pakistan ?

@Spiral now this is a situation I can actually empathise on because it's a real issue. I think along the marriage women get very lazy and stop prioritising their Husbands so it's the females fault here as well

@supremeyingyang where are you from

@Emerald beautiful that clears up pretty much every confusion