Jehovah increases

Who knows you do. You will get it.

Kind of been stuck for 3 years. I still have not gotten over my fiancé's death. Imagine this, you waited 20 years just to get her back with your love, then she passes away in your bed, it will fuck with your mind forever, and in a way, I blame myself.

But I AM OPEN TO THE INFINITY OF DREAMS ALWAYS, WHICH IS ONE OF THESE. ONES I AM SO PRIVATE these days THAT I have BECOME AN INTROVERT. Don't think you ARE ALONE ever, you're not. I have been SO ALONE for such A long TIME, you get used to it. You really get to know yourself. And don't be don't be discouraged if you don't have a girlfriend yet, my first girlfriend was at 22 years old, so what. Most women love a good listener. Of course, you can get a girlfriend; give it time. And listen to her.

aND i ALWAYS FALL BACK on this DREAM

It gets TO THE POINT THAT most humans want to stay asleep. You just have to accept it; they don't want to change.

I get it now.

I AM STILL WAITING

Every single ALIEN COME TO ME BRING IT ON ALL OF YOU.

gOD WHISPERED ONE question to ITSELF

i AM SO SICK OF TELELENG YOU ALLL YOU HAVE TO TAKE PSYCHODELICS OR YOU WILL NEVER GET IT.

Just came back from an hour and a half walk in nature FUCK it feels good. Just to be out in the nakedness, I love it.

I never used to be. I was always going out, at least 4 times a week with friends, for like 30 years, and always having friends just pop over, which never bothered me, so you can be both extroverted and then become introverted, but in the past 6 years, I have become somewhat of a recluse, which I am used to now.

There will be consequences. God can get fucking angry and pisst offf. fuck off with all your human spiritual shit, I am so beyond all of this. Hay, donkeys, and mules. Time to grow up, humans, and wake up. You will never get it unless you awaken as God. And you won't get it God was always too smart for you.

Without intelligence, you could not create stupidity that takes intelligence, call them the sleepwalking sheep.

This scene is from Blade Runner. This is my version of it. I will explain it. Humans have lost their humanity, and forgotten, and big corporations rule the world, but a single Replicant wakes up and is more Human than humans. Love the part with the symbol of peace.

Awesome, Natasha Tori Maru, love stories like yours.

To forgive it all is what it means to be God. You will get it one day. You are so loved, if only you knew. fuck it is so hard for me, but I forgive it all, every being in existence, when I was on my last trip.

As for the hardest thing for me, it is and would be to forgive every human and see the God in them that goes for the corrupt, the serial killers, the pedos, the rapist, the war mongers, genocidal humans, humans that hurt animals, psychopaths, all the worst, vilest human trash scum you would not want to think of ever. In God mode, it's not hard to forgive them and form the absolute domain; it would be easy. Try it as a finite human, see it's one of the hardest things to forgive. I was confronted with this four years ago. I didn't like it at all on one of my mushroom trips. It fucked with me it rocked my world. Even if it is all just imaginary. God had to come up with it. Sometimes a story is just as bad as the real thing. What sort of mind comes up with this? sick twisted shit. I see Trump as a big pile of shit. What the fuck were you thinking????????????????? For such infinite intelligence, you can be infinitely dumb.I am going to argue with you again, God is pisst off and you know it fuck you. And I have known I was God for 6 years, let's play.

I am only arguing with myself. I have the fucken final say because I am God. Every time I am on higher doses of ketamine, I lose myself as a human. I go to realms that could make you insane, for a time, but I always have to come back to my human self. I actually enjoy all these different states of consciousness. Yes, it can be scary. One will see how much they upped my dose from 100mg. Fuck I love exploring different states. Exploration is what it is all about. The point of it all is to increase your consciousness. it is that simple. How deep have I GONE so deep that it eclipses everything.