LoneWonderer

@Carl-Richard I saw the interview and took what I found intresting and just moved passed what was in my opinion not a correct representation of reality. I wanted to ask you if you knew of any books to help better understand this concept of reasoning to ourselves. I know what you mean but wondered if there are any books out there on the matter of self deception.

So he has one of the highest IQs in the world. Instead of pursuing money he dedicated his life to figuring out the nature of reality and came to the same conclusions Leo did. Was blow away by this one. I was expecting him to give some weird explanation on the orginin of life and god like most of the high IQ yet low wisdom people give but was pleasantly surprised. *His explanation starts at timestamp 16:50

It's out of your control. Respect her decision and accept the outcome whatever it may be.

Will I make this into a habit? Don't know never really bothered ever writing about my life so we'll see. 25, Lost and feel I've been lost my entire life. Around me every symbol of success and a life many would kill for. Adopted at 5 years old by the most loving and caring mother imaginable and accepted into a loving and caring extended family. Grew up travelling and living in exotic places and studying in elite private schools. After school spent 1000s of hours reading hundreds of books, watching 1000s of documentaries, listening to hundreds of podcasts on any and all topic imaginable. Society, psychology, philosophy, religion, history, science, cultures etc etc. Most people will never reach the levels of understanding of reality I've reached at 25 in their entire lives. Always I've been interested in understanding truth, what is this reality REALLY. Now at 25 I've moved and live in my dream country (New Zealand), working on a meaningful relatively well paid job in nature conservation, live in a big shared house next to the beach with lovely roomates, have a nice car. Yet I'm miserable. My life feels empty and always has. There is no love, no connection with others (I'm very introverted and have always struggled with human relationships), every day feels like I'm just going through the motions of existing. Nothing gives me wonder. There are things I could be doing to make my life better (learning dating skills, learning to stand up for myself, love myself, believe in my own self worth) but I'm tired. I don't want to keep trying right now (aware of how my thoughts and words create a reality in which I'm not improving myself). It will be up to me to change and better myself when and if I choose. Doesn't mean I haven't tried and succeeded and I know that if I keep trying I can achieve and improve anything and any part of my life that's lacking. I'm just not motivated to do so (yes, another excuse). Don't know how, or why I keep going. Some point I will do 5 meo dmt. This is what keeps me going. The thought that maybe, just maybe this can help respark wonder and love in my life. Yet everyone keeps telling to be prepared for when it dissapoints me. "Everyone" are just people who never bothered to study or try psychedelics in their lives and probably never will. The've just heard all of the horror stories and the narrative of "don't do drugs". If 5 meo or other psychedelics don't help I'll end it all. I can't take my existence anymore. I'm very much aware of how my thoughts build my reality so no feeling sorry for myself and the thoughts I'm having.

I am the Lone Wonderer if you must know...

The goals are shallow but they are my goals. When I thought this is want I wanted to do it's like a fire of passion arose in me. A sense of Yes, of course! You must try again! This made you happy back then so do it! Give it everything you have! The masculine energy, the spirit of competition, a vent for all the anger and frustration. It's one of those thoughts you'll remember for the rest of your life. It's one of those rare moments when you see the path so clear before you where before there was none. And I will dedicated my life to it. There is only the goal. When I'm on my deathbed I know I'd tried and I'd given everything to make it happen. I didn't waste the rest of my life sleepwalking through life. On my deathbed I'll be proud that I'd REALLY tried.

I will win. Because I can't stand the alternative any longer. Meager existense, comfortable, yet killing me slowly from purposelessness. I have failed in the past but this doesn't reflect the present. Today is a brand new day. I am not defined by my past failings. I am not my failures. I will succeed.

This is where he's gone off the rails by trying to place reality into models. This is where he's stuck by placing limits on the limitless and not fully comprehending the things he talks about.

It is cringe they call him the smartest man, but that's just a click bait title for people who believe their could be such a thing as "the world's smartest man"

@Princess Arabia Yes, I know all this. I don't however want to write long posts trying to explain or justify God as Nothingness (even though even this is not accurate). So I explain it quickly but some people misunderstand that. It's been stated again and again, God is the infinite void from which everything arises. We know this, so I'd rather not go into this again and again when trying to write a quick post.

@Princess Arabia He's got some differences and yes his definition is a little different, but the core of what he's saying is that god creates all of reality and human beings are vehicles for consciousness.

Jesters and all other entities are manifestations of ego. You must let go in the experience, accept in order to transcend them to go to non duality (however much easier said than done). During the trip do your best to recognize entities and realms as manifestations of ego and this will help to push through to higher levels of god.

In particular look for his books: 1. The Entheological Paradigm: Essays on the DMT and 5-MeO-DMT Experience, and the Meaning of it All 2. Entheogenic Liberation: Unraveling the Enigma of Nonduality with 5-MeO-DMT Energetic Therapy Both have some overlap but worth reading as they cover extensive content on the experience.

So I'm tired of going on the internet and on youtube and seeing the same narrative being spun again and again. Things such as "fix your sleep and your life will magically become 10x better" & "fix your diet and your depression will heal"...etc etc. Guys and gals here's the truth (at least in my opinion). There is no one solution to your problems or even several. Yes, these are all good things to do: change your bad food habits, exercise, sleep, socialize, work hard and smart, meditate etc. Individually these things will not fix your problems. You'll still be super fit, healthy and depressed af. However when all aspects of your life get adressed, when you put in the time and effort to adress all your issues (health - physical and mental, psychology, finances, social life, love life, spirituality, your shadow etc) then you really heal. But you are kidding yourself by thinking that working on only a single or a few of the things mentioned above will bring you true peace and satisfaction. However don't get me wrong. I think it's great you master slowly each field one by one, but it's a huge trap to think any one single improvement will fix all your life problems like all these videos and people online claim. Like how absurd is it to think that just by fixing your diet you'll not be depressed anymore. I've been down all these rabbit holes and none worked. However now I'm much better than I ever was only because I've greatly improved many fields of human, psychological, spiritual development for myself through years of hard work (and obviously I'll be improving till I die) and they all sinergize beautifully together. We need a new narrative. A more holistic one. So much garbage online.

@Jacob Morres 🙏

this is a gross oversimplification but I'd define average as anyone in stage orange and below. Again this is a oversimplification as each stage has incredibly acomplished individuals outside of the norm. For me average also means conforming to your culture, tribe, customs, traditions beliefs withought questioning anything. In that sense yes, I also don't understand how people can live their lives this way buuuuuuut it's also true I was brought up questioning everything. If I'd been born in a different family, under different circumstances I'd probably also be "average" and think "average".

I have a question for you I'm not really sure the answer to. Imagine your average joe. He's 40 years old whent to college in America and now does finance on wall street (could be any job really). During his spare time he volunteers and works on his motorbikes. He feels fullfilled with his life he says. Yet if joe picked up a single book on self development or was really forced face the reality of the world ( let's say joe travelled to Africa for a month) his sense of reality would start to collapse. His extremely narrow fullfilling life would start to crumble before his eyes and he'd begin to wake up to a much bigger reality. My question for you is the following: In his day to day life, joe claims to be fullfilled and whole. Yet joe evades that which doesn't fit into his worldview and that which scares him. So how happy can Joe really be? Doesn't this seed of doubt, fear and avoidance pester him in the background slowly leading to full blown depression? Will joe only realise on his deathbed how shallow his life really was? This is all hypothetical case and loads of assumtions about poor joe were made in this post.

You are correct too. But this is a very deep way to see this problem that requires one to build introspection. Introspection will help you see your problems in a new light.

Thanks. I agree with everything you've said here.

Lone Wonderer is the name. I travel mental plains seeking what I seek. Shit, what I seek is myself. Everything else is just a distraction jajaja.

@Spiritual Warfare Hey my man (or woman or whatever you identify as). I've read almost every post on this thread. Here's your solution. Take enough 5 meo dmt and you will have you're question answered. You will become god, all of existence, you will know the answer to life and it will all make sense. That's it.

To everyone taking malt or 5 meo dmt I really highly recommend martin ball's books to make sense of the experience. He breaks down step by step all of the different types of experiences people have on these substances and how to see past the bullshit stories about entities, realms, conversations with god, life lessons and life missions etc your ego will try and create around the trips. The clarity he provides is incredible!

The flying spaghetti monster and Michael Jackson's man in the mirror.

Congress getting together after the elections to go for round two. I think they said the day was Nov 12. Exciting stuff. If even 10% of everything that is being reported about this UFO topic is true it would be absolutely mind-blowing!

@UnbornTao jajaja nice