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I don't want to make this about me anymore, and I don't want it to be made about me. It just... doesn't work, regardless of what I do or don't want. Yet another thing my teenage self was right about.

Interesting, thanks for sharing! Are you generally sensitive with sleep or was this routine unusually overstimulating? Also, how close to sleep do you finish your last set? I've been curious about this sort of routine for the last 10ish years, but I didn't have the time, energy levels, or persistence for it back then. I have actually heard of people doing this type of thing for pistol squats or other callisthenics, but also sometimes for kettlebell and other weight lifting exercises, though it's usually more like 3-6 sets spread out throughout the day. I've heard that it's a good way to build strength very quickly because you rarely get fatigued enough to have to take whole days off for muscle recovery and DOMs, though I imagine long-term fatigue must build up anyway, just at a slower rate.

So it's been a month; how did this experiment go?

This is the answer. Although OP is from Lebanon, aren't there a decent number of people with light eyes and even people with natural dark blonde hair? Depending on his colouring, he might very much be white-passing. ...which doesn't mean very much, because I think a lot of very visibly mixed-race people here in metropolitan Canada/the US (including myself in this category) are often considered white-passing.

I mean to be fair, Gal's acting is like: The clips I saw from Snow White weren't much better lol. It's not exactly motivating to pay money to watch even if I didn't care about her politics at all.

This is so, so painfully last decade... Good song though.

...but did they keep the goofy-ass dialogue and camera panning?

@Av2521 What specifically isn't working out about your hometown?

It could be the Christian fundie homeschooling. It doesn't help, haha.

I mean, there is a point to this, even though the speculations about what pre-agricultural life was like tend to be riddled with unchecked utopian fantasy. But you're right. We're not well-equipped emotionally or spiritually to work at unfulfilling labour which arguably serves no higher purpose in a highly regimented and bureaucratic way. Social isolation and disconnection that is built into our modern lifestyles is a serious issue and it seems to only be getting worse. And it's true that by default, we lived more fully and freely. But take a look around, more and more people are finally starting to direct the anger where it is more appropriate, at the parasitically wealthy and greedy who take and do not give back in proportion to what they've claimed for themselves. There is no balance there. More importantly, there is the drive to do something about it, even if it's only changing the way you live your life and the way you speak about it. Great, so now what do you do about the things that deep down you don't feel like you fully deserve? On one hand, there is the obvious entitlement of thinking: I deserve sex; it's a basic need; it should be easily available whenever I want it. On the other hand, deep down, do you really feel like you deserve it? If you don't, then you will probably hate the woman giving it to you freely and also hate yourself as well. Funny how people can feel both ways.

This is good for absolutely no one. You are comparing two unlike things; why not compare a hypothetical "average woman" with an "average man"? Like, do you really think it's easier being a highly intelligent woman? (By whatever normal metrics that intelligence is measured by these days). If you're considered conventionally attractive enough, people will overlook the weirdness and the psychological baggage that often comes with it, but that can only go so far. In a similar way that people will overlook sociopathy as well, but it's not a great thing lol. I mean, getting sex and being loved isn't a reward for just existing and being an intelligent woman either, but it's not about that, is it? Yes, subpar and emotionally unstimulating sex, which in many cases, is worse than none at all. Just a reminder that the female sex bears more risks for having sex, including assault (sexual and otherwise) and pregnancy.

The premise of this thread is a bit of a mess. I mean, if you're only attracted to the most vulnerable, girlish, "hooking" qualities and expressions of femininity, and that is all femininity is to you because it is all you're willing to let it mean, then that is what you get? Congrats, you made your own echo chamber. And your superficiality and lack of breadth and development in your personal expression are a match for theirs.

I was never too into his comedy, but I guess Bill Burr has evolved to become the voice of reason now, lol. All of the bleeting about "human shields" and Israelis shamelessly and unselfconsciously trying to pass off that logic as Logic with a capital L broke my brain post October 7th. It very much has the energy of:

SWIMMING!: It happened last summer by accident. I live within 5 minutes' walking distance to a beautiful wooded park with various amenities (small golf course, stadium, outdoor swimming pool), and I decided to try out their loonie swims. While I haven't swum for 10+ years since I had a gym/ pool pass for university, surprisingly, I was not as terrible as I thought I would be. I still very much had the primal fear of drowning that I had as a child, which would cause me to struggle to regulate my breath and my muscles would become seized up and uncoordinated, which makes swimming well impossible. I attribute this to having learned to swim a bit later than others (8-12), while many children start learning before they are capable of developing the cognitive/ rational fear of drowning. I took some basic lessons as a kid, I never learned how to swim well, and I had never properly overcome that fear. When loonie swim season (aka. summer) ended, I found myself unexpectedly addicted. I signed up for a rec pass. Luckily for me, I live within 15 minutes' walking distance of the best pool in the city ("best" is a matter of personal perspective; IMO bigger doesn't necessarily mean better). The next month, my husband got me this book for my birthday, because I'm very much in the habit of teaching myself things, both for the joy of the challenge but also saving money if possible. (Though I did also look into adult swim lessons and joining a Master's swim club. Would it be far more efficient if someone taught me in person? ...probably.) PROS: It's no-impact exercise so I can basically do as much as I want to for as long as I want. The cap is my swimming skill and if I start getting rigid and uncoordinated due to muscular fatigue (which is almost always easily fixed by going in the steam room for a while). it helps a lot with muscle recovery and fatigue, especially with strength training helps with flexibility and mobility helps with breath control and coordination (which I find is a very different experience to doing breath work while stationary) it's just generally relaxing and meditative I just feel better afterward! I can't say that I feel rejuvenated after other forms of cardio, especially if I'm pushing myself. It's hard to explain! Unplugging from technology and not being within reach of a phone or computer feels great! not having to worry about sports bras or boob bounceage is amazing. CONS: dealing with my wet-ass long hair despite wearing a swim cap (I haven't quite figured this one out yet, and I might just have to deal with it) too much time spent in the changerooms which feels like wasted time because I'm slow (solution: it's also audiobook time!) certain hours are way too busy, but it is what it is. (even at 6-7am it's still surprisingly busy because of seniors) the amount of time I dealt dealing with shitty goggles and getting water into my eyes (solution: found the perfect goggles, also adapted to it) the amount of time I've dealt with inhaling water (adapted to it, dealt with my primal fears with exposure therapy basically, and also sucking less at swimming) being in tight/ skimpy clothing isn't really much of a choice if you care about performance and don't want clothes flapping around (solution: I adapted to it, I guess lol.) RECENTLY: I'm trying this thing where I get up at the crack of dawn and swim, which is very novel as a night-owl. I got my first racing/ athletic swimsuit, a TYR. I have no idea what to expect, but good gods, is it tight and uncomfortable to get into. I was also planning on getting some short fins, and a few other things... My ideal swim session lately is 2 hours, 30 minutes in the steam room, and 90 minutes swim, but split up into intervals. (often I do 15 minutes steam room to loosen up my muscles, 45 mins swimming, 15 minutes in the steam room to relax my muscles again, and then another 45 minutes swim). The best part about long swims is not rushing.

I could just end this all right now and be the person I actually want to be.