Sincerity

Hey y'all This is going to be my new journal on my new account. I left the old acc because I didn't like my username. Let me introduce myself first. My name is Sincerity and I'm from Poland. [image removed] ^ This is me! I'm currently ??? years old. I'm admittedly young but I hope you can see me beyond my age, for what I am I've been on this forum for more than 3 years and until now I've (kinda) held my identity a secret. But lately I've had some realizations in regard to expressing myself more honestly and yeah. Here I am, being more open with you. Now you have a slightly better idea of who's behind the account. (Edit: Ironic haha. But it has to be this way. Everything ends.) I've been on the spiritual path for roughly 4-5 years now and I feel like I've had much progress. I definitely have many insights to share. But I'm still pretty much a beginner and I'm on the journey along with you. Try to keep up, because I feel like I'm growing pretty fast (this year has been insane for me so far, seriously!) I've been mulling over my important values for years and this is where I stand right now: I am primarily about goodness. I am about love. I am about bliss, wisdom, appreciation, responsibility, sincerity, curiosity, discipline and humility. I also really value humor and laughter. You might notice I'm often tongue-in-cheek in my posts I don't like posting very frequently and I'm still not sure what I will even be posting here but tell you what, it's going to come from a place of sincerity Love and have a great day ❤️

Could you share what your way out was? If you're comfortable of course.

I will never be happy. What would ever satisfy me? How would I be consistent in peace or joy with waves of the vast ocean of all sorts of different energies constantly washing over me? I don't see a point in me. I am truly pointless. Even when things have meaning, they don't. Even when some of the stuff I do is cool, it matters not in the end. I might have literally everything, but I'm never capable of really appreciating it. The best partner in the world, a cool place to live, a job I like, everything. What a waste and a disgrace. I hate seeing the news constantly. I hate not wanting to do anything. I hate screaming into the void. And honestly, I hate myself. Expressing this is so stupid, BUT WHAT'S THE OTHER OPTION? I don't want to express ANYTHING, I find it dumb and pointless, and yet this is an expression in itself. Fuck my life, fuck me and fuck everything. The only reason I'm not killing myself is because WHAT WOULD BE THE POINT OF THAT. WHAT WOULD THAT ACCOMPLISH? NOTHING! LITERALLY NOTHING! I AM IN FUCKING HELL AND NOTHING I CAN DO CAN CHANGE ANYTHING. DEATH AND LIFE ARE EQUALLY POINTLESS. I DO NOT HAVE THE ENERGY TO KILL MYSELF, BECAUSE I FIND THIS ENERGY DUMB AND I DECONSTRUCT ITS MEANING ANY TIME IT ARISES. FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DOESN'T ANYTHING HAVE ANY MEANING?!?!?! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This place is some fucking purgatory and it's not making me laugh. It's literally preferable to stay at work or go to sleep earlier rather than engage with this experience. 😂 Fuck this piece of shit hellhole.

Locking. The user is banned.

So that's what you stuck here for for the last 6 years? There are other places with much better shitshows for sure. This place is so tame in comparison, people don't appreciate it...

You didn't even post that much since February. 23 posts in total, that includes your threads started and replies (excluding this thread). 7 being about the dog, which you apparently lied about. So what are you on about? Btw, what was your intention behind this "experiment"? Are you not exposing yourself as a malicious liar right now? No wonder you didn't find these "minds genuinely interested in exploring consciousness, reality, and human existence", lol. Because you ain't one yourself, which is evident from your attitude. Who'd go out of their way to fabricate personal stories on an internet forum and then berate people who spent their time trying to give you advice? "Any halfway intelligent person should have questioned it"... most people just assumed your honesty. That was their mistake apparently, they didn't see your true colours. Honestly, rethink yourself.

The people around me are lonely. How come I'm the only one who has enough interaction? Sometimes too much? It's exhausting. I'm slipping. I just want to live in fantasy. I eat and watch Adventure Time. I am pointless. Maybe I'm the lonely one? I could do so much, but nothing is appealing.

Wow. Your new blog post on Love is your most touching and profoundly clear explanation yet. Thank you!

I had my first sex with my current girlfriend. We've been in the relationship for over a year, living together for 8 months. Each month we're having the best sex we ever had. It's amazing, really. Discovering the ever deeper meanings of masculinity and femininity together.

I'm too good for that.

Surprised no one posted this yet. Credit to my best friend for sharing this song with me.

Aww thanks, that's nice to hear Most of the other guys and gals deserve as much praise. If they're active, they're almost certainly doing good work. Yeah, and the best modding is supposed to be invisible. So that the experience is seamless for others. What is obviously noticed most easily is outbursts by users who felt they were wronged... and even then these posts are usually not hidden away but allowed to be seen, which is a sign of transparency. Also, in the majority of cases when users make these posts, the Mod team and Leo are in alignment that the Mod action was deserved. When you tell another member to fuck off or call them a "mentally retarded idiot", you have no ground at all to complain about being warned. Examples relevant to the original post.

He got that Gawd in him.

Did you give him any money? Also, did he ever advertise himself as a coach, or did he just offer to talk to you?

In my view almost all people who think they are ready to die are not really ready. There might not be feelings of attachment (or something akin to that) on the surface, but they can be buried deeper down. Being "ready to die" really means that you are not afraid of death. I call bs on anyone who says they're not afraid. It's so easy to "hype yourself up", bury fear and think nothing scares you but when push comes to shove, your pupils widen, your chin trembles and fear arises clear as day. I thought I wanted to die once. I did LSD with the intention of "leaving this dream" on that trip. And then I rediscovered critical feelings about my life.

Great questions. •What will you miss the most? The people closest to me. •who do you love and care about? My girlfriend, sister, parents, best friend. •who would you call? Best friend. •what will you do before you die? I would go visit my sister to see/hug her one last time, but would try to not tell her at all costs. I would write a letter to the parents and sister. I would spend the day with my girlfriend, most likely travel with her to the sea to share my last moments. •do you have any regrets? Not really. I'd just regret not doing more for her. Not loving more. • are you ready? No.

Lol what? You're just admitting you are uninformed. No, it's not too soon to make an opinion, wtf

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Funny, literally yesterday I asked God just that. "Why Trump?" The response I got was "You know why" and I agreed, because I sense/think from a higher point of view that it's perfect what's happening, especially for my life personally (requiring me to further get my shit together and man up).

You can ask God questions whenever you want. And get answers. I started redoing that lately, it's amazing.

I agree with you 100%. Hearing that scumbag Vance speak in Munich made my blood boil. And I just PRAY that Europe gets the wake up call and becomes independent from the US. And I pray we unite under one flag as federal Europe. I think the simple truth is that Trump is more alike to Putin in terms of development, rather than the European „allies”. He does not need to be „educated” about Putin. He is simply on a similar level. You cannot change this person. The only thing that would appeal to him would have to be egoic, appeasing him personally, his image. He does not give a fuck about Europe, Ukraine, democracy or even the US. He only cares about himself. Trump is the literal antichrist. To the US, Europe, Ukraine, Palestine, US neighbours… and humanity as a whole, I would argue.

I love this channel.