Sincerity

Because he’s basically known for just being a Youtuber now. I think having written great books could vastly increase his fame in the future. Especially in the far future, perhaps beyond our lifetime. Podcasts can raise his fame now.

This is nonsense.

Tired again today. But it’s fine. I visited my family today. It was boring. I anticipate I’ll do psychedelics more this year. I feel a calling. Exciting! The music’s played by the madmen.

But I do have the option to "switch" and be better. Yesterday I did quite a lot. I got my work for the day done. I spent ~3 hours on a course to raise my skills. I went to the gym. I meditated at 8PM like I always do. I had a stream of great insights regarding relationships and what I want, which I noted down. Before bed, I watched some career-related videos on YT, from genuine interest. I felt better after that, and I feel better today. I have a lot of energy to do things. Oh, and I finally called my parents to tell about the breakup. This released a big amount of energy in me, I was actually surprised by it. I'm inspired by Paul Graham's perspective on great work. I want to do great work. I want to be a professional creator in life.

I’m feeling down. I just want to lie on the bed. That’s not what’s happening - I’m actually doing quite a bit. Energy is flowing. But I don’t feel well mentally. I watched this crazy movie on Monday which is currently in theaters: Marty Supreme. I think I’ve never been so stressed while watching a movie lol. It was a fucking wild ride. The breakup is proceeding. We’re still living together until the end of April when our lease is finished. We’re on good terms. Pain is coming up. In two weeks, I’ll be travelling to live for a week in the city I plan to move to after April. I’ll be living in two different places, actually. All for the sake of testing the „vibe” there. Seeing what I like and dislike. It’s still a short time, but I sense it’s enough. I know that city a fair bit anyway - I’ve been there many times, even lived there as a child. I’m looking for a new job with better pay. That’s ongoing. Sometimes I don’t want to wake up in the morning.

Bruh, I thought it was about Vitaly as well. Carl obviously didn’t make the post clear if so many people misunderstood it. The other guy’s energy is quite light. Surely not „dense as fuck”. That was about Vitaly.

@riplo Just read your last post. You’re going great work man!!! I’ve also read the War of Art recently - over a long period of time, rereading many times, thinking about it a lot. It’s great that it’s inspiring you too. Cheers. You’re awesome man, don’t forget it.

I know it from experience, but don’t think about it most of the time. I can feel into it though. I am God.

I finally watched the video yesterday/today. It was great - thanks Leo. The endeavour to ask „where did I get that idea/thought?” is powerful. I’ll ask that more often, primarily in the areas of life I’m working on right now. More conformity examples that came to mind: How people dance What music people listen to But the biggest one: how people approach relationships in general. Sooo much fucking conformity. Which I’m currently realizing in myself of course, and wish to develop my own ideas of how I want my relationships to look like. Based on who I am, what I tolerate, etc.. I’ve been foolish there so far, buying the ideas that culture has given me.

Thanks man! Will try it out.

Lol. Das true.

@Oppositionless @yetineti @MarkKol That’s powerful! You guys are so strong. Honestly. What a bunch of awesome people.

Thanks, I didn’t see these posts. I mostly read the last responses. There is indeed a sense of condescension here. Whether that guy you posted would last in a boxing gym - I don’t know. So I’ll reserve judgement.

I don’t think his responses here warrant this comment.

His energy is not light at all. It’s dense as fuck.