Sincerity

By Roger Thisdell:

I guess a dropping of the "self" construct for good. Associated with eg. a dropping of any feeling of centeredness. I wouldn't know because I'm not there yet as a baseline. But I'm "working" towards it. And it "happened to" my best friend, actually. 😃 There are other people's accounts too, obviously. (I just asked him to confirm whether that 2nd picture resonates with him most. I guessed correctly 😛)

@Davino Do you believe that a permanent shift in awareness towards no-self is possible? Why yes/no? Of course it's not about denial, rejections or any of that. I think it's moreso about embracing the want to become fully aware of the mind's "self"-orientation. IF you experience that want! It's fun then! Otherwise no. Both are true: There is no "me", there are no "selves" I AM, I am God, Everything is Me

This channel is a goldmine: I "study" these videos - listening on 0.9x speed, making notes and thinking them through deeply. And observing the mind in action, of course. I want to deconstruct and become wholly aware of the pervasive "self"-orientation of the mind. My best friend recommended it to me.

What was the most difficult decision that you had to make in life? How do you feel about it now? Let's bring some more genuineness to the forum with this thread. I'd love to hear your serious answers. For me, it's breaking up with my first girlfriend after 2 years. We've lived together for 1,5 years and both grew a ton through the relationship. We love each other and had a good time together, but there have also been frustrations and arguments, often about the same things. I realized we're fundamentally unaligned in some important ways and it's time to let go and try something different. It's been very emotionally difficult, but I have faith in the decision. What about you?

Thank yourself It's always been your drive.

This week I came back to this great video about al-Hallaj. I liked it so much and had so many insights that I watched it twice. 10:55 - I resonate with that wish to have people kill me. I experienced it once on a "spiritual high" for a few days. 22:08 - I also resonate with that desire for spiritual annihilation. Beautiful: 23:40 - I am the Truth/Real! So simple, elegant and direct. 👌 This is what it's all about. Also this: 32:12 - I don't know about the two spirits. I'd omit the second sentence and then it resonates: 34:59 - Al-Hallaj was also awake to Love, seeing it as the core of reality. Very inspiring. I'm not awake to that yet. 37:40 - And lastly, I find al-Hallaj's interpretation of satan very interesting, seeing him as the "ultimate monotheist". I interpret this as embracing "this life" vs rejecting it in favour of God. I enjoy to choose the former (embracing high energetic choices as much as possible), and to me that's the greatest spirituality. The latter doesn't make much sense if given more thought, although I do understand it. I can't help but recall when Leo said that he stopped brushing his teeth because only truth mattered to him anymore. 😆 Perhaps there's some truth in both. I'm considering that someday, embracing energetic choices fully could lead me to full asceticism, rejection of the worldly and total devotion to God. But that'd still be the embrace of this life. So yeah, rejection isn't the way for me. Also, I wonder if al-Hallaj saw himself in that devil, at least to an extent. Overall, very inspiring figure. I want to learn about him more.

Thank you!! And thanks for posting the artist! My favourite piece is on the second screenshot, second from the bottom on the left/middle (woman holding up her hand). Very cool. The title says best portrayals of God. Yours is advanced level - only the pros can see God in that. Jokes aside: yeah, I get it. Nice. I can relate. I recorded a bunch of videos of myself "back in the day". In fact I posted one on the forum 3 years ago: Don't comment on my haircut. 🤣 I was a baby. Thankssss

Good one 😆 Yeah, true open-mindedness includes embracing genuine long-term urges. And sticking to them if enjoyable.

I am God, experiencing Itself.

Niceee, thanks for posting these. I like the first one most. I agree there is "a truth" to the Toroidal Field. And I always forget what it's called. 🤣 Once I saw my entire "visual field" as a Toroidal Field. I didn't know what that thing/shape was back then, and I was surprised to hear it be quite popular. When you say it expresses creation best, what do you mean? Genuinely curious. It does resonate with me a fair bit, but I hesitated to include it in my post, even though I thought about it.

@Frenk Love that one. I should have included a white light, indeed. Nice.

I'd like to create a thread with the best representations of (facets of) God. It's obvious that there can be no single comprehensive representation, since the Nature of God is multi-faceted, paradoxical and mysterious. This is why I'd like to submit a few different "portrayals", which are all meant to represent different aspects of God. It's best to think of them as all being the case at once, instead of singling out any particular one. This list is not exhaustive, and will never be. Obviously all of these are subject to interpretation - however, let's hope that we'll achieve a connection in seeing what is being pointed to. With that said, here we go. 1) I like this one for the fact that everything is unfolding out of nothingness. There's not really a center here. It's nothing. 2) I like this one for being an endless flow of reality. Never-ending dream. No motifs of center or multiplicity here - just an infinite dream always "moving". If the content was changing here infinitely in different ways, that'd be ideal. Perhaps this one might be even better since there's no implied "movement", as if through a tunnel. No illusion of space. Just the infinite morphing of reality. I also like this one. In addition to the flow of reality, it gives me a sense of craziness and incomprehensibility of God. 3) This one often comes to mind for me when I think of consciousness. Imagine this but transparent/nothing-like, and being able to morph into anything it wants, becoming that experience. This one's unique with the representation being an "object" - even though God of course isn't that. But again, think of it as this being the nothing that is everything. Any object "in" consciousness, IS consciousness. It also has that dream-like blue/yellow/pink/white sheen to it. 4) I wanted to include an "simple" impossible object here. Meant to isolate the aspect of paradox and strange-loopiness of God. So here it is: 5) This one has an entity connotation. To me, it implies the aliveness AND the infinite intelligence of God. Absolute incomprehensibility. 6) This one conveys the "statehood" of consciousness, the advancedness of state, and gives a "personal" connotation. It's all personal in the most profound way. It's You. 7) I like this one for it's "double-centeredness" (as opposition to single-centeredness - strange!), and yet at the same time conveying the boundlessness of consciousness. 8) Infinity of Gods. 9) Another one "organized" structure, yet infinite and mysterious. I don't know about you, but I can hear its calmness and perfectness when looking at it. 10) And lastly this one. I like how the eye arises from nothing and "dies" into nothing at the end - while being of it all along. God looking at Itself. Definitely post more cool representations if you have any. Cheers!

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Hooooly shit. This is amazing: Math porn.