Sincerity

Suggestion: make a poll.

Me and my partner created a painting during Christmas. The general theme was to express our feelings towards each other. As you might guess, I painted the upper half (along with the snake) while she did the lower one. We were painting it simultaneously sitting opposite to each other, without planning. This painting is amazing to me. Even disregarding the original intentions behind what we painted, I feel a deep spiritual meaning in the artwork. Though we brought it to life ourselves, It has its own life now. If I saw it in a museum, I'd stare at it and contemplate it for a long time. We plan to make artworks together as a Christmas tradition. I came up with the idea. I feel it'll be so cool to later on see the evolution of our relationship through these yearly paintings. Then we can also engage our kids in the tradition. It'll be something cool we do as a family. Something ours. I see a future with my partner. I'm growing as a man and a being with her. It's exciting! Such a great opportunity for development. And such an amazing person to love. I wanna marry that woman.

This is literally you on an energetic level. A blind mole. Or a different animal but with no eyes / eyes gauged out. Let me elaborate. On an energetic level, the human population is a society of eyeless animals acting in unconscious, predictable ways. This includes you. This includes me. Of course, I came to this realization by observing myself - I saw that I am a dumb, energetic animal and mostly unaware of it. Imagine a entire world of eyeless animals acting in extreme, schematic ways. Basically acting out energies. Controlled by unconscious patterns. Forming in groups with other animals with similar energetic patterns. Some are more peaceful, light and cooperative with each other (= their energetic patterns are more evolved), some are more rabid, dark, preying on others. This is humanity. To see this, you must not look at the outside but ask yourself "In this situation, what is happening on the energetic level?". You can have visions of how energies are playing out. You can feel them. In fact, almost everyone feels them intuitively. Most people have a rather good intuitive understanding of how to operate in the energetic world and they just do it, but they're unconscious of why they're doing it. Some are intentionally working to develop that understanding and experience (very basic example: "How to Win Friends and Influence People"). Some are better at it than others - look at experienced cops handling situations, look at expert manipulators and con men at work, but also look at examples of two people in a healthy, loving relationship dealing with their conflicts in a masterful way, look at stand-up comedy routines, look at politician rallies, look at your inner battles when you want to do something but also kinda don't want to. You can see the dynamics of energy EVERYWHERE. We are blind animals, attracted to whatever smells good to us or sounds pleasing. We then skedaddle blindly in that direction. The only way a blind animal learns is by AWARENESS. Bit by bit, behaviour can change with enough attention given. The animal can give that attention willingly or it will be sooner or later forced to confront things due to suffering. Thanks to consciousness, the animal slowly enhances its senses and learns to operate in better and higher ways in the energetic world. It's not just "better" behaviour as in effectively getting what it wants without concern for anything else, it's better by being more saintly, holy, lighter, more gracious, conscious. You can be a blind terrifying animal rabidly wrecking havoc all around you or a tame, gracious creature becoming so light it starts ascending. And everything in between. Up to you. With awareness, you can witness the energetic world first-hand. You can SEE IT in the mind's eye. Be an observer of it. And then not just react blindly to energies coming in contact with you, but see them and yourself clearly and respond consciously. What an appealing vision: becoming conscious of yourself and things around you. While others are running blind, you can see them and yourself clearly... and smile.

I love David Bowie so much. My favourite singer ever. Nothing's changed since ~5 years ago. CH-CH-CH-CH-CHANGES. Don't you wonder sometimes about sound and vision?

Merry Christmas, Community! 🎄

Actual solipsists... haha. Yeah, "believes" is the crucial word here. Anyway, Merry Christmas.

Post them math videos. Especially those which have broadened your understanding in a cool way, sparked your curiosity, reminded You of the nature of the universe somehow.

I thought we were talking about what's true. Now we're talking about conveying pointers/teachings in a safe manner. This is an entirely different conversation. I care more about the former. What part of this rambling is an entirely valid observation? I really don't know what you're pointing to. The guy made assumptions about why Leo did certain things like removing a video, which are false. Leo didn't remove the video because "he wasn't sure". I remember why he did. And there is no contradiction with the Infinity of Gods video. Reminder that the guy you quoted is not serious in the slightest...

@Carl-Richard Again, I don't see a point in considering what teachers are saying/not saying. It's a non-factor to me. This question literally doesn't compute for me since I would never ask it and I have zero interest in thinking about it.

@Javfly33 Cool insights/understanding 👍 @Carl-Richard Agree to disagree.

@Keryo Koffa Do NOT do any harm to your body. Stop with the delusions and ground yourself. You will not "be taken to a different realm by God". You will not "live by dying". You are delusional, wake up! This is reality speaking! Do NOT let yourself make a grave mistake. This place does NOT promote such a reckless attitude.

I have SO MUCH cool shit saved on Pinterest. You have no idea.

Understanding the dynamics of the energetic world is difficult. I have so much more to learn there. I could write a book about it later in life. Almost everyday I get the distinct sense that I just do NOT live in a physical world. I live in an energetic world. I tell this to people closest to me often, because I'm just so perplexed by it. It's so amazing and mysterious. And I really get the sense that reality in front of me is an illusion, a representation of the energetic world, a manifestation, an excuse in a sense. Understanding energy is very useful to me because I can 1) make better decisions in life knowing what's what. Example #1: I'm about to argue with my partner but I see an energetic choice in front of me and I choose better. Example #2: I have a big decision in life to make. I just have to ask myself what I'm leading myself (or being led) to develop energetically long-term. And the solution is to pursue the wished energetic development. And 2) develop techniques for healing myself and working through things which work, since they're grounded in reality as I understand it. It literally does not matter what is happening in experience. What matters are the energetic decisions.

Why care about what others say? The use of the word was surely popularized by Leo, but the truth behind what's tried to be conveyed stands. Leo did not invent the consciousness of FULLNESS of experience. Fullness mean that this is all that is. A good word, came to me yesterday when trying to look for alternatives to solipsism/openness/aloneness. My ranking of words attempting to describe this truth would be solipsism / fullness > aloneness > oneness. Oneness is last since it does not really clearly imply that experience is full, the one and only.

100% Damn, didn't even know about this. Despicable.

Just ask yourself. Why do you want to feel unique? Use your imagination.

Then create your heaven. Here. You're immature, but you can change. Stop resisting life. Having LIVED is your highest passion. Not having died. Physical death won't accomplish anything. Stop shitposting on an internet forum, stop taking psychedelics, get off the couch and take action. Action that will lead to the betterment of your life right now.

Mainstream yes. Niche not necessarily. Watch some Karsten Runquist to get good new niche movie recommendations or just go on Letterboxd and look around. There's always something worthwhile to watch if you take a bit of time to search. I just finished watching Carol (2015) with my gf. It was interesting, we had many thoughts. https://letterboxd.com/film/carol-2015/

I've been avoiding so long replying to this thread lol... but the above is just not the case. Or at least not what true solipsism is. There's no contrast of "my experience" and "other experience". It's experience, which is the one and only. EXPERIENCE. The end. There is no solipsism. Describing oneself as "a solipsist" is cretinic, perhaps even more so than not a solipsist. And yet solipsism is a good word. Or maybe Oneness or Aloneness would be a better one. Every time I see a solipsism thread I am reminded of this meme: But the text should be "Aww, sweet! A solipsism thread!"

I don't think it's really about the resources, but a genuine will with openness to change. A willingness to die, if you will. Desire alone is not enough, one also has to be open to fundamentally do things differently and be different, which really feels like dying. It's very uncommon for people to want to die. A drug addict will often squander any resources he's given. Whereas a person with a strong will and true openness to possibilities would most likely pull something out of nothing. When there's a TRUE will, there's a way. By true I mean willing to do ANYTHING. A country-level willingness to die is even more unlikely than a single person's I think.

Only the first season was good imo. The fourth one is especially shit. The quips, the understanding of politics and the "smart character" are done in such a stupid way that I can't help but roll my eyes. But I still look forward to seeing the scene of Butcher murdering Homelander in S5.

It seems @QandC 's comment hit a nerve with you. Good! Recognize this as the great opportunity that it is. This is proof where the crux of your ego lies right now. Seeing it is a crucial step to resolve your suffering. Don't neglect it - if you REALLY want to change something in your life, you HAVE to confront your deepest held beliefs. Your wish to "die and become God" indeed is misguided. I do empathize with it, because I had the same misunderstanding before. You believe you have to kill yourself to become one with "God". Well, don't you think that if you believe this is the way, you will be unconsciously directing yourself to suffering forever, like you've done up to this point? And don't you think that recognizing this belief as incorrect would be VERY hard for you, because you already spent so much time acting on it? And you'd feel like an idiot when you see that it was all for "nothing"? But it's NOT for nothing. THIS is the EXACT way to recognize the value of living and change attitude. Without going through this path, you aren't able to see it. So you don't have to feel stupid, truly. Going through such misunderstanding and suffering is the price for true insight and behaviour change. As I mentioned before, the way to end your suffering is to start to want to LIVE. The way to God is through active life, not through killing yourself. You think your current belief is leading you to God, but in fact it's spiraling you further to hell. I mean, look at your direction. You're only feeling worse. The way to God does NOT have to feel like that, but you believe it does because that's what you've been doing so far. You have to change course. And, importantly, you need to stop hoping for an ultimate awakening after all your suffering. It will not happen. This is an illusion. It is part of your wish to "die and become God" - you believe you have to kill yourself/suffer so that you can reach this idea of God, the "ultimate thing"... But maybe that "ultimate thing" was a delusion all along and you have to start living in reality. See what is in front of you. Maybe you could find something beautiful in that. Wouldn't that be a nice lesson after this journey of suffering you've taken?

Who the hell knows but you? All depends on what is resonating with you now. What you feel you want to internalize. Don't just read the most popular self-help books as recommended by other people. Look for what YOU want. It doesn't even have to be a self-help book, it can be something else (a biography, non fiction books, whatever). Use Google. "Books on clear communication". "Books on becoming more productive". "Biographies of successful inventors". You can use ChatGPT. "I want to become a clearer communicator. Recommend to me the best books for that." Or even better: just go to a bookstore, look through books and find what resonates.

"I like myself as a person" but "I hate being alive in this human life"... How about we get clearer on what it is that you hate, which is weaving your never-ending suffering. 1) Reality in front of you, experience --> No. I'm certain you don't give a fuck about what is actually happening - speaking from experience. All suffering is spun in the mind and it is always referring TO the mind. Your feelings are never actually referring to reality (good to contemplate). 2) A general idea of yourself as a person --> No. Alright. Ideas and fantasies are cool, but what about actual you? 3) A general idea of God --> No. Okay. What about actual God? 4) "This human life with its immense suffering" --> Supposedly this. But what is this actually referring to? I guarantee it's not reality/experience - again, if you observe you can notice that you're never actually hating reality which is real life. You're hating YOURSELF. But what are YOU? Really think about it. What is it that you hate? You say you hate human life, but what is "human life"? What are you referring to? Is it not YOU? You're confused. You don't even realize you hate yourself. Hatred is not just hating the idea of yourself as a person. You don't hate the idea, but you hate YOURSELF! Your idea of yourself is detached from the reality of you, same as your idea of God from actual God. You like the idea, but hate the actual thing... Seriously, think about it. What do you hate? And what are you? See above. You like the idea of God as some emptiness or whatnot, but hate yourself and disregard actual God right in front of you. "I want to die so that I don't have to suffer"... Brother. You'll stop suffering once you start to want to LIVE. By hating yourself, resisting and wanting to die you are only INCREASING your sense of self. Resistance is the ultimate "fuck you" to everything and closing yourself in your shell, away from God, peace, happiness. As long as you want to die, you will be suffering. You are getting exactly what you want. You're using your intention for this. HATING YOURSELF. Decide to change your intention NOW, if you REALLY want to LIVE IN PEACE. I know it's a leap, but you can make it. As above. Your intention is bringing you exactly what is supposed to bring. You want this and you're getting it. So become clear on your intention and motivations. And then change if you want. "Immediate relief"... yeah. The time to change this attitude is now. Until you don't stop banging your head against the wall, you will be banging your head against the wall. Why not stop now, instead of after 100 more hits? The time is NOW. End your suffering NOW. THIS lifetime, not a future one. You have what it takes. Your "problem" is purely spiritual. Start NOW and you'll be better of in no time. Get clear on your intention and you'll change so fast it'll be miraculous. In fact, you'll feel the effects immediately. --- I see myself in you. I went through some dark fucked-up periods where I had no hope and was also hating EVERYTHING. I had my suicide walk to a bridge. I destroyed items from my past, all my notebooks, photos, etc.. I fantasized about stabbing myself all the time. You have a sincere heart. I believe in change. And I believe in you. #NoMoreLifetimes

Hello. I'll be blunt in hopes that this can wake you up a bit. Listen to yourself. What are you even saying? "I hate myself" and "I want to become one with God". This is LITERALLY a contradiction. Pure misunderstanding. Really see this - YOU ARE DELUDED. You do NOT want to become one with God, BECAUSE YOU HATE YOURSELF. "I fucking hate this stupid human life". No, no you don't. What you hate is yourself. You don't give a shit about life (reality), you hardly ever really look at it, you only care about you. Or, more precisely, you care about hating yourself. Stop kidding yourself that you want God. Your hatred is so great that this couldn't be further from the truth. The thing you think you want is exactly the thing you're fiercely rejecting to the point of wanting to kill yourself. You have a vague fantasy of this "God" you dream of which is just that - a fantasy. You are delusional. The actual God you are rejecting with all your might. And no tripping will help you, because you are trying to use it to escape, therefore further spinning in your resistance. I guarantee you 100% psychedelics won't help you long-term because you're going to use them with the intent of "dying", escaping yourself. Really, you SHOULD give it up. It will NOT work. And you will not really kill yourself because you want what is happening. See: That's the crux of your issue right there. You want all of this happening. On YOUR terms. Which is exactly what you're getting and why you're suffering. Nothing you try will work because you're clinging fiercely and only using everything to resist further. The more you act on that intent, the more you suffer. But you can stop. --- If you want some relief, I'd suggest contemplating what I said above. Be honest with yourself for once. Your motivations are delusional, you think you want God but you're just fooling yourself. You only want you. How about you stop trying to erase yourself? Because the more you try, the more you there is to erase. And suicide is an idiotic "solution". Do you seriously think you can "reset" your energetic system with killing yourself physically? Like, does this make sense to you? You REALLY believe this won't just happen again if you end it like that? Listen man, I get you. I really do. I was going through this shit as well. Long periods, more than once. See this for example, from barely 3 months ago: When you're honest with yourself about the truth of you and your motivations, some knots should be untied. Really, you're just completely misunderstanding yourself. And I get that. I wish you well. I recommend talking to yourself. Split yourself into two - you who hates yourself vs you who'd like to live in peace, harmony, with God. And come to an understanding through dialogue. Best written in a journal, or spoken out loud and recorded. It's fun, try it. I developed the technique on my own. The two halves should both change somehow, it's not just about changing the "bad one". Talk to yourself with patience and an intent for compromise. And if there is genuine understanding, there appears the space for genuine behaviour change. I also recommend just having the intent to live in peace. I am 100% sure you never actually wished for peace. You only wished to escape, resist suffering and fight yourself, therefore exacerbating the problem due to your intention being fucked. If you really want freedom, wish for it, out of a pure heart. Cry out for it: If this resonates, you can DM me to talk further. I'm open to you and I wish you well. Good luck. With love, Sincerity