Sincerity

Damn. 🙄 3 years ago, huh. Was I actually more awake then? Did I fall off? Will I ever measure up to myself? Compared to that love, everything in my life right now feels like bullshit. Kinda sad to think about. I guess my awakenings in 2022 and 2023 were beginner's luck. I've had many after that, but none as "exceptional". Year 2022 was the time of my first LSD trips and God-realizations, which is nostalgic for me. But I think 2023 was even more amazing with the evermore profound awakenings and meaningful (for me) archetypal journeys. Well, it's what it is. At least I'm a tad more mature now. The insights and awakenings are usually quieter and more grounded now. Chasing "exceptionality" might be the error I can't yet get over... which is alright I suppose. Why should we care for what they're selling us, anyway? We're so younger than you know...

Thanks Leo!

Ask yourself: What is unconditional love?

Breathe. Relax. Ground yourself. Take care of your life. With unresolved mental issues, this constant digging might not be too good for you. Don’t worry about others being dream characters. This changes nothing. You still shouldn’t be a shitty person. And in a sense, you are a dream character yourself as well. The negativity you experience is a dream, the persona, all your thoughts, biases, etc… It’s not you creating reality - it’s YOU. For your purposes, this is like someone else creating it, because it’s so Other to you. Don’t disregard the „human” just yet. Rule of the thumb is: start from where you’re REALLY at. You’re not „done with the bullshit dream”. Forget about the bullshit solipsism for a second, drink some water, exercise, watch birds, apologize to your loved ones… clear your mind from all the „spiritual” shit and become more grounded. Constantly „researching rabbit holes of consciousness” is not necessarily the highest or most „spiritual” thing you can do, you know. It sounds like your intention is impure, desperate, debased. That’s not a good place to dive into deep waters from.

Today, as a gift for our month-versary, my girlfriend gave me that sweet octopus from IKEA!!! 🐙 I love octopuses, and I like having reminders of animals I resonate with close to me. I have a long ass gorgeous plush snake, a cool elephant, a ceramic parrot, and more... and now that silly orange octupus. I'm grateful. My girl loves me. And I love her. I gifted her an appointment with a massage therapist and a nice bouquet of flowers.

I adore herons. Such beautiful birds.

RISK: Global Domination is such a good fucking game. You need to have 1000 IQ to win games fairly consistently. I just got back to Risk ~4 days ago. Won around half of the longer games I played. I'm proud of these games that I did win, because I had to make some smart decisions which later paid off and made me come on top. I was satisfied thinking about these calls, and with outsmarting my opponents. Just finished a 2+ hour long game. I was tired as fuck after work and didn't have it in me to act on anything higher. I like to sometimes engage in a "mindless" activity (even though I still had to think here) while also listening to something else, like longer YT videos. I listened to some Bashar talks and this video by Eddy Burback. In regard to that 2+ hour game - ultimately I overcame all my 5 human opponents, who either plainly lost or gave up. But throughout the game there was a bot that grew all the more powerful, because all the players were fighting among themselves. In the end it came down to a 1v1 me vs the bot and I lost by a very small margin - the final dice rolls turned unlucky for me and that was it lol. Still, a good satisfying game. What matters is that I beat the humans.

Real dangerous stuff, especially when trusting ChatGPT as your therapist.

I certainly know @lostingenosmaze isn't.

It’s definitely possible for you. Do you have friends, men or women? Are you partaking in any group classes? This advice is helpful for meeting women as well. Attraction is another thing, but still. If you’re not really social I’d start there, and you have a greater chance of meeting someone.

@theoneandnone I see you've been posting a lot about solipsism recently. While it's cool that you're interested in the workings of reality, I'd encourage you to take a step back and stop thinking about solipsism so much. If it's true, it doesn't go anywhere. Just let things sink in, ground yourself, breathe - all that good stuff. Too much thinking about solipsism can lead you in an unoptimal direction.

Realizing solipsism doesn't produce anything like that. A recognition of something true in reality does not equal acquisition of power over that thing. A recognition is a recognition, and that's it. Perhaps also a release of your own energy. But nothing more. The way to "change" your reality is with your body. You can't just wish for a 6-pack, you have to train for it. Change your environment by redecorating it or going somewhere else. It might not feel as magical and awesome - but actually, it still is.

Hi, great to have you! How do you look back on DMT and your awakenings on psychedelics? What caught your eye in the Buddha's teachings? What interested you the most? What school of buddhism do they teach at your monastery? Why did you choose that particular one? What are the greatest developments that you observe in yourself after these 2 years? How old are you approximately, and what was your profession before turning into a monk? Just to get some context about your journey. Cheers

Yea bro for sure 👍 I won't respond here anymore. Stay at that place forever. Classic 🤣

Irredeemable.

You're not going to reason with him. You're wasting your time. This is why I always strongly and plainly dismiss him: because nothing got through to him in the 5 years he was here, and he's misleading others with his bullshit. I literally met such a person IRL, a newbie to Leo's work who was convinced this guy is awake and all. It is unbelievable to me how people here seriously reply to him and entertain him. He is completely oblivious and deluded about it, BUT says things in a stupidly confident way which makes some people trust him. Nothing ever changes.

Songs I Enjoyed Recently - Oct 2025

Falling Leaves ~ There is something so captivating to me in the falling of leaves. I observe the falling, anticipating that something will happen on the leaf's impact with the ground. Tension is built up, and then immediately released when nothing "spectacular" happens. It's as if there's wisdom to the falling of a leaf that I'm not yet getting. It's intriguing. * * * * * * * * I'm having deep realizations recently. And a clear, profound view of my energies whenever I look into them. I feel like a goldmine. Every day I dig into myself, I become richer. 👑 I am Consciousness. I am Infinite Love. No end to beauty in/around me. A great sense of joy.

There is no contradiction. You’re just throwing up words, as always. Think about what you write. I said the not-knowing insight is fine. It’s the delusions of grandeur that are reaching sky high levels. That’s the ridiculous part.

It’s not a personal fight. The message is: you’re full of shit, and your ego is inflated like a balloon. I just hope no one believes the bs you spin around yourself. The „not-knowing what anything is” insight is fine. But this entire post is an ego trip, lol. You don’t even realize how ridiculous (not „insane”, not awake) your posts are.

„You’re not him”, as the kids say.

Digest at your own pace, hehe.

October 25th, 2025 TL;DR: Introducing the concept of meta-energies. "Letting go of control" being one of them - but not necessarily the most rewarding one in all circumstances. I go in depth into why, and what meta-energy could perhaps be a better alternative for long-term use. When I think about meta-energies (or: different ways in how the energetic domain can be approached), I am reminded of this sand resonance experiment. Think of it as the pattern being the intelligence / principle / meta-energy, changing how the energetic reality is playing out in accordance with itself. Amazing.

No, letting go of control is not always the best tactic. As always, I will share my understanding from the energetic reality standpoint. And try to grasp this, because I honestly think that these point are quite deep and not usually understood. To start: A "letting go of control" is a tactic, a philosophy, or a meta-energy, if you will. It's one decision you* can make about how you will approach the energetic reality** of you. Note 1: Actually, it's not really "you" making the "decision". The letting go is an energy in itself, which is arising without your conscious input - even if it feels like it's "being done consciously by you". Note 2: The energetic reality of you is all the energies/motivations that arise in the mind. For greater detail, I invite you to check out the "Basics of Energetic Reality" chapter in my following post: There are more than two tactics/philosophies/meta-energies. It's NOT just letting go of control vs domination. I will give an example of a meta-energy I'm exercising currently and having great "results" with. But coming back to letting go of control: In practice, how is the energetic reality playing out when you decide on this particular philosophy? The answer is: the most intense energy now is being allowed and acted upon. NOT necessarily the currently highest - the most intense. Even when you consciously are in a light state due to the letting go, the energetic reality under the surface is playing out and your might start to do things that aren't necessarily good. For example, a letting go of control energy could allow you to return to your past addictions. Once you are suddenly reminded of an addiction and you feel a surge of great craving (which is an energy, more so a lower one), the letting go philosophy would guide you to just "go with the flow" and act on it. Is coming back to an addiction necessarily bad? Well, no. But you will probably suffer. You might wonder what you are doing wrong. And maybe the lesson from all this would be to then change your tactic/meta-energy. After all, there could be a better one! I'll just briefly say here that I'm speaking from experience. I had the "letting go of control" phase and I was convinced that that should be the superior philosophy. So fucking enlightened and all! But no, not necessarily. And only recently did I really get its pitfall. The "letting go of control" meta-energy has its specific time and place. When? -> When you're being directly guided by someone trustworthy, or when your mind is deeply purified and your energies/inner-guidance are already trustworthy themselves. I think the latter case is possible but takes a lot of purifying work. Also, I think letting go of control is good when you just don’t care about what happens, or when you want to relax and get the feeling of receiving from the world, playing, opening up. Examples of good times to apply the letting go tactic: For a woman: when her man is taking her for a surprise trip. He knows what she loves, and she knows that he knows. A disciple wanting to awaken, under the guidance of a clearly awake master. In general, when you want to learn from someone you consider wiser, you should let go of control and really "open up" for that period, so that the wisdom is absorbed by the mind and the thoughts run freely. Relaxing, walking in nature, dancing, playing in a non-reckless way, etc. Here's a good insight. Different circumstances should elicit different tactics in you. THIS is intelligent. There is a time and space for letting go, but it's NOT the most optimal solution for all circumstances arising. So, to end this, a potentially better meta-energy. Following your highest energy in the moment. This requires having an everyday awareness of the energetic reality you; seeing and understanding the energies than run through your mind, moment to moment. Here's how this looks: In a given moment, when you're not already in some kind of flow and you don't know what to do, think about the options you have in terms of what you could do. Notice which option feels like the highest exciting thing you could act upon - WITHIN YOUR DEGREE OF ABILITY IN THAT MOMENT. And then act on that, until the focus on that particular thing is depleted. Then, find the next highest available option to you. This isn't about being Jesus all the time. Your highest exciting energy in the moment depends on the current state and energetic development you are in. When you're sick, your highest energy will be different from an energy you'd have available if at your peak mental condition. In a sense, it's about doing YOUR current best. But notice: this is NOT a neurotic attempt to dominate and focus on an energy which you THINK would be best for you right now. This is about being conscious of what's REAL in the energetic world right now. What is TRULY the highest thing that excites you right now and that you have the ability to perform? Become aware of it, and then act on that. After I arrived at this meta-energy, I realized this is aligned with Bashar's teaching of "Follow Your Highest Excitement". I think it's similar or even the same lol. So if anyone is a fan of Bashar, this should resonate. Anyway, I hope this is useful. Let me know if I can clarify anything. Peace ✌️

An energy/wish/motivation to undeceive oneself, to be pure, to understand, to be unbiased, to be God-like in that way. ACTED UPON. Not just once - but over, and over, and over, and over again.