Sincerity

What does E Y E S spell

The fun is exactly in figuring this out for yourself. Have faith that You're going to do it. And work for it.

That's good. Just please take it under consideration next time before You trip. Enjoy your experience. Don't sweat nothing.

You can makes notes in a notebook or in a text file. Posting while high is discouraged here. Nevertheless, have a nice trip! ❤️ All is good.

Look at this beauty standing on my desk. On Saturday I went to a cafe (contemplated there for 4 hours) and there were tulips placed on every other table. I stared at my tulip a lot. People were looking at me weirdly. I was touching it gently, smelling it every once in a while, taking the entire jug and looking at it closely. I can't believe I forgot how much I love flowers... So today I went and bought myself a tulip. I adore this little guy. I also bought my mom three, since it was Valentine's Day. (We're home alone for the week) Ahh, Valentine's Day. They day of love or whatever. Shouldn't every day be that? I've finished writing a report of all awakenings from the past 2 weeks. It's 20 pages long and I'm really content with it. I'm not sharing it - or at least not planning to right now. What I especially noticed is how strongly I've forgotten the Love... It's so distant now! Just 2 weeks ago I was Loving every stranger I saw Unconditionally. It was inhuman levels of Love. Literally fucking saintly. And now... Now I don't remember it. I'm still in a fairly high state. But I'm not recognizing Myself anymore and I am not Unconditionally Loving. This is my truth of the moment. And I'm okay with that. As I've said multiple times before, I want to accept NOW as much as I possibly can. There is nothing wrong about the state I'm in right now. I love it. I want to love the NOW so much I wouldn't change it for anything other. This would mean that I wouldn't change this current state even for Unconditional Love, because I love what is NOW absolutely. Isn't this exactly how God is? ... I want to be like Him...

Too broad of a question, in my opinion. Failure in what? What is failure? Does it even exist? The #1 failure must be perceiving "failure" haha.

Great work. Very inspiring post! But also I have to agree with @Realms of Wonder. Impact on the world is essential!

Yes.

I'm feeling a bit down. ... Well, it happens! Isn't it interesting? The moment I notice my state, I'm instantly freed from its spell (to a degree, at least). Presence is awakening! Who would have thought. What a beautiful song. The God in me is singing it. Don't YOU want to be free?

Oh, sorry. I completely misunderstood what You meant by bed of embers. Also I thought of ambers, lol... I'd be unwise to make such a judgement as of yet. Nothing has really broken me so far, but it's only been 2 weeks. Most of the benefits I mentioned in the post are still active - to a lesser degree, but they are. However, I do predict that something will break me one day. I kind of intuit a storm is coming... I've been noticing clues. But who knows. Looking at this overall experience, how long it's lasted and how powerful it's been, I think that with further work "I" might really reach a more "permanent" level of highly elevated consciousness so that "I" can't be broken anymore... because there is absolutely no "me" left. I will burn myself to the ground. With Love.

Sure, I can provide updates. Not exactly sure where yet because I don't wanna resurrect the same thread endlessly. Maybe I'll make a separate post someday or just mention it in my journal. I'll be honest. An unstoppable bed of embers seems like a pipe dream to me. I don't know what Tolle is experiencing and I wouldn't presume if I were You. My state varies across hours and days. Sometimes I'm stressed out, sometimes I'm blissed out. Now that I'm 2 weeks later my high state has faded a bit (although I'm still experiencing most of the benefits to a large degree) and I assume it's going to fade even more. In my experience so far with this work it's 2 steps forward and then 1 step backward. One big cycle like this has been spanning like half a year for me usually. I expect the backward step to happen soon, since I've been experiencing the "2 steps forward" phase for the last 2 and a half months. I can still be at extreme peace at times during the day and sometimes even recognize what I am, but to be honest most of the time I don't remember anymore. I have to focus at least. And it's okay! I feel like my work for the future is to accept the "lower states" as much as I possibly can, from inside out. If God Loves them, so will I. I'll love "myself" to my God damn death.

Hey man, I'm going to move your topic to the Serious Emotional Issues subforum. I'm really sorry about your cat. I hope You and your wife get through this. If it helps, I'd honestly tell You that You are God and your cat is part of your Infinite Dream. That doesn't mean your beloved cat is not real, but it means it's all You. And if it soothes You, sooner or later You will be completely ONE as God, which is going to include everything, your cat too. BUT don't use that as a cope. Please, notice your sadness and be open to it. It's okay to grieve and please don't avoid this process with spiritual explanations. You are going to get through this and come out stronger.

I want to propose a simple model for understanding Infinite Love which relates to concepts of masculinity and femininity. Overview Infinite Love is Oneness of Infinite Desire (that wants to "penetrate the world") and Infinite Acceptance (that respect the will of "another"). Infinite Love is God, of course. Infinite Desire is God's Desire to Awaken Itself. (Masculinity) Infinite Acceptance/Respect is God's Acceptance of boundaries & what IS. (Femininity) God Loves Awakening and Desires to Awaken Itself, but God also Respects Itself Infinitely. What IS is absolutely perfect and God Loves it totally. True Love is completely accepting and enters only when invited. How it works ❤️ - Infinite Love, ⬛ - Resistance to Love, ⚪ - Surrender of resistance ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛ ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️⚪⬛⬛⬛⬛ ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️⬛⬛⬛⬛ Steps 2 and 3 happen at the exact same time. The INSTANT You surrender a tiny bit, Infinite Love fills the 'empty space' because of Infinite Desire. It doesn't go any further though because of Infinite Acceptance/Respect. These 2 steps (which are actually one step) repeat to infinity. This chain of ❤️s and ⬛s is infinite. Fear is infinite and Love is Infinite. Fear is infinite because of Love, it's a "consequence" of Infinity, it's Perfect Design. The only reason You don't see Infinite Love in your life is that You haven't surrendered enough. Also notice that surrender is acceptance. When You accept, You literally become more God-like because God is Infinite Acceptance. Conclusion Infinite Love is Self-Desiring. Infinite Love is Self-Accepting. A Perfect Oneness of femininity and masculinity. Additional insights & questions Selfish masculine energy is desire for freedom (of self). Selfless masculine energy is desire for Freeing/Freedom for All (Infinite Desire). Selfish feminine energy is love of freedom (for self). Selfless feminine energy is love of Being Free/Freedom (Infinite Acceptance). Why doesn't God just instantly awaken me and instead makes me suffer for it so much? --> Because God Respects your boundaries Infinitely. If You want to surrender, You can. But God is not forcing anything on You. How do I get closer to God? --> Let go. Are You God? --> Let me know what You think!

God damn. I'm sorry man. And my sincere thanks for sharing your wisdom. I haven't yet received a lesson of humility like yours and your post reminds me of that.

You haven't looked enough. Here is my post with "benefits" I'm experiencing because of awakening. It's been only 1,5 weeks so far, but still. I feel like it's only getting better. I've been shooting for God-realization and it's paid off immensely. And I'm only at the start of my journey, lol.

Great list! Your posts radiate awareness and wisdom. They're amazingly soothing. Thank You! Beautiful!

You're like a broken record. ? Fine, stay in your self-pity if You want. I suggest You're the only one making yourself suffer. Eh. Just another lesson in Love. ?‍♂️ God LOVES getting his threads derailed. ? God is Andrew Tate. The Final Realization hahahahaha.

@Arthogaan That's some good points

The day will come!!! ❤️ Have faith! If You really want it it's gonna happen.

Or Free Will is all that exists. I'm still unclear on the issue of will though. I have hunches but I'm not sure.

Have something worth fighting for. Distraction is much easier to set aside then, and it's done from the heart. No discipline and mental strain required.

I popped my 1000th post cherry yesterday. (I have an old account on which I have 606 posts.) Hooray?!

DAMN! No one ever told me.

[link removed] It's okay to stumble. It's okay to forget. You're not going to be in perfect flow always. Mistakes are a part of life. LOVE YOUR STUMBLES. LOVE YOUR FORGETTING. I recorded a second much better version of me singing this song but I deliberately posted this one to show You it's totally fine to be imperfect. Everyone knows this intellectually but do You actually accept yourself? I feel like I need to lead by example. Here is a picture of me crying. [image removed] Do You know realize many tears You're going to have to spill on the path to surrender? Well. Your journey will certainly be different than mine so maybe You're not going to have to cry and cry all the time. But also I feel like everyone has to learn to cry. Because crying is surrender, a letting go and release of emotional knots. Do You realize how weak You are in God? Do You realize how weak your love is? Do You realize how selfish and evil You are? If a serious contemplation of these questions doesn't make You wanna cry then I suggest You're blind. But You don't have to be, of course. It's okay to be vulnerable. It's okay to be weak. It's okay to cry. It's okay to surrender your clinging and let go. Nothing is going to happen to You, nothing can hurt You! Take a leap of faith You beautiful angel. You're like a scared little bird that fears jumping out of its nest to fly. You're not going to fall. Your wings are going to activate! You have divine wings but You've forgotten about them. What a stupid way to live - walking around all life when You could fly all along.

He's got some nice handwriting. Good for him!