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Also: is it your view that at a point one should give up trying to put the finger then, once it’s realized that it is futile? And redirect efforts to other aspects of awakening like the why, the how, etc?

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Got it. So when you talk about being Awake, that doesn’t mean having the finger put on God. More like seeing EVERYTHING as God to insane degrees, but with the Mystery still intact. Right?

Relationship work with my gf. Find what you really want or love. And commit to it. It will require you to change, to face yourself, in order to satisfy that thing better. If you want/love it enough, you will answer the call. In my view, the "real work" is through LIFE, instead of some technique. Whatever you're most passionate about. I'm really passionate about growth in my relationship and overall as a man/being. This gives me a lot of energy to put in the effort, which results in change. Profound change, a lot of it. I'm a radically different man than I was just 1,5 years ago.

So what? Moving to off-topic.

Ayyy, happy birthday Leo. Wishing you all the best.

LECZ LUDZI DOBREJ WOLI JEST WIĘCEJ! I mocno wierzę w to, że ten świaaaaaaaaaaaat... Nie zginie nigdy dzięki nim! NIE! NIE! NIEEEEEEEE!

If it did „happen”, it wasn’t static forever because it’s not true now, so the ever-changing nature won after all and the „static infinity” didn’t happen. God is everywhere to be found.*

Well, is that true? I suggest it’s a matter of observing what’s true, not speculation. Notice reality is ever-changing in each and every moment. Some things seem like a possibility, eg. „If God is omnipotent, could God erase itself?”. But they’re just not true. Consciousness/God Is. Reality Changes. These „possibilities” are, in a way, mistakes in thinking/understanding. I suggest the only permanence is Consciousness itself.

Yeah, I get it. I'm young like you. You gotta work your ass off. Life is hard.

Your arrogance is appalling. What happened to not-knowing and humility, instead of this debunking mode and over-confidence? Such typical "spiritual person" behaviour. Btw, you also do the same shtick with your politics and that crypto-rightwinger bs. Ignorance under the guise of being "open-minded" and "conscious". Do yourself (and everyone else) a favour and stop thinking you know.

Evolution is a subset of change. Reality is Ever-Changing. This is true. But is it ever-evolving? Perhaps. I'd be inclined to say yes, since each new moment/experience is a broadening of what has been already perceived. And with new perceptions, new inspirations and thoughts arise, largely building on previous ones. Slow growth, but growth (= evolution) nevertheless. Processing things as part of backsliding (like we see right now with the US, for example) is also evolution. Even when it looks like regress. Evolution, however, is more of an interpretation of experience(s), while change is observed in each and every moment, in actuality. So I wouldn't be attached to the thought of evolution being permanent and absolute. There's truth there, but I don't think it's fully right. Change is true, always. Evolution not necessarily.

Food for thought. I think an "adult" by definition would be God-realized, at least to a degree. So 100%. But we live in a world of children. Myself included ofc.

You can talk to anything. Hindu people will talk to Hindu gods/goddesses. It's as true as you make it be.

Taking LSD on Saturday, first time in 1,5 years. Objective: awaken as deeply as possible. A lot is going on. Moving again to a new place with my gf at the start of May, a shitload to do at work, financial situation not the best… Growing deeper in love with my partner. It is very difficult for her to accept me taking LSD. Has been since always. But she loves me and I love her, so we’re working through it. She’s more accepting now - understanding that I do it for development, that I still want to be a stable man for her, that I’ll give her security and that it’s just okay every once in a while. Once every half a year is fine. April and May is the happiest time for me for sure. I LOVE spring. I feel joy going outside, can’t stop smiling from it being so warm and the smell of greenery. Life is good. Better than before, that’s for certain. I’m processing a bunch of heavy things and it’s difficult, as always. My work on Saturday with LSD will help me.

What a beautiful playful energy. You cannot not smile while watching this. Post other funny/cute animal videos if You want!

It is easier to deceive yourself or avoid facing a truth about yourself than stop your conscience from sharing out the truth with others. You're not lying to others if you yourself don't know what the truth is. So not knowing the truth is often desirable. It relieves you of conscience and of being honest with others. The way of the fearful man.

Data analyst 😋 I definitely wanna grow there and become a better analyst/data scientist because I really enjoy the field. But I'm fairly sure this is a chapter and I'll do something different in the future, although I'm unclear yet on what. Maybe start a business, maybe something more creative.

Something I found in my local vintage shop today. Not an AI pic but still.

Could you share what your way out was? If you're comfortable of course.

I will never be happy. What would ever satisfy me? How would I be consistent in peace or joy with waves of the vast ocean of all sorts of different energies constantly washing over me? I don't see a point in me. I am truly pointless. Even when things have meaning, they don't. Even when some of the stuff I do is cool, it matters not in the end. I might have literally everything, but I'm never capable of really appreciating it. The best partner in the world, a cool place to live, a job I like, everything. What a waste and a disgrace. I hate seeing the news constantly. I hate not wanting to do anything. I hate screaming into the void. And honestly, I hate myself. Expressing this is so stupid, BUT WHAT'S THE OTHER OPTION? I don't want to express ANYTHING, I find it dumb and pointless, and yet this is an expression in itself. Fuck my life, fuck me and fuck everything. The only reason I'm not killing myself is because WHAT WOULD BE THE POINT OF THAT. WHAT WOULD THAT ACCOMPLISH? NOTHING! LITERALLY NOTHING! I AM IN FUCKING HELL AND NOTHING I CAN DO CAN CHANGE ANYTHING. DEATH AND LIFE ARE EQUALLY POINTLESS. I DO NOT HAVE THE ENERGY TO KILL MYSELF, BECAUSE I FIND THIS ENERGY DUMB AND I DECONSTRUCT ITS MEANING ANY TIME IT ARISES. FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DOESN'T ANYTHING HAVE ANY MEANING?!?!?! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This place is some fucking purgatory and it's not making me laugh. It's literally preferable to stay at work or go to sleep earlier rather than engage with this experience. 😂 Fuck this piece of shit hellhole.

Locking. The user is banned.