Gigsi

Sometimes when I’m in the middle of normal everyday stuff, working, cleaning, doing random chores, I suddenly get this strong feeling of alienationn. It’s like my attention drops the practical situation completely and all that’s left is this question: how is any of this possible at all? It doesn’t feel like panic or dissociation. It’s more like reality becomes too exposed. The fact that there is experience happening at all becomes the main thing. I’m just here, perception is here, this whole situation is here, and that alone feels strange and overwhelming. In those moments it also feels like this is all there is. And if that’s true then whatever people call God or infinity or meaning must already be here too, not somewhere else. But that thought doesn’t even stay long. What really takes over is this constant how is this possible. Like the mind keeps hitting something it can’t understand or get behind. No insight, no conclusion, just being stuck with the raw fact of existence. I’m not sure how to frame this or what to do with it. I’m curious if others experience something similar or have thoughts on what this points to.

Pure “capitalism” doesn’t really exist anywhere. Every system ends up controlled by whoever has the most money and power. They feed the rest of us whatever narrative keeps them on top. Yeah, it feels extremely unfair but “fairness” is just a human invention in this case. World doesn’t care about fair; it rewards the strong. The only question is whether the strong choose to restrain themselves with morals… or not.

Do you mean this as a universal truth that anyone can directly realize with enough consciousness work, or is it simply how your awakening revealed itself? How can i tell the difference between a universal insight and my mind’s interpretation of its own realization? Also, something I keep hearing, my girlfriend and many spiritual people seem to demonize anything that comes from “the mind”. But if, as you say, Mind is reality, I find it hard to see what’s truly outside of mind, or if that distinction even matters. How do you see this?

Hi everyone, i’ve been following leo’s work since i was 20, now i’m 23. his videos were one of the biggest reasons i woke up to spirituality and the metaphysical side of life. before that, i was more like a selfish atheist, thinking i had better understanding of life than most people, like i knew the truth or something since then i’ve watched tons of content, leo’s and others too, read books, meditated(but it never kind of worked for me, i could do it two weeks max consistently) , had conversations with people i knew before and after all this started, had several psychedelic trips, looked into different religions. right now the thing i care about most is just going deep into spiritual and metaphysical topics, psychedelics included, i dont know something in me finds these topics extremely interesting. but i feel like i’m stuck in a loop. i keep consuming and consuming, and i can’t seem to find a practice that really fulfills me. nothing gives me that feeling that i’m doing real work, the kind of work that actually grows consciousness or shows me my self-deceptions. no matter what i start, i move away from it quickly. and when i’m not practicing, i go back to reading or watching again, thinking like “ok i just need to understand this one more thing, then i’ll be ready” but that “ready” never really comes has anyone else been through something like this? what did you do that moved you out of this phase? much love and respect for you leo, one of the most important persons in my development, even though i know you just from your youtube persona. And all of you members of this forum too, i find your stories a strong inspiration to keep coming back to this work. Thanks for reading…