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So, i NEED HELP!! since my sex-life in the last years has been mooving on a scale from miserable to non-existent, i decided a while ago to stop watching porn, which kinda works out well with minor draw-backs. now i also started to stop fapping at all and this is where my problem showed itself: THe first weeks i felt so good, so energized , i didn´t need to sleep , i felt like i got superpowers .... then serveral weeks in i´ve started to fantasice about various scenarios like in a day-dream, especially after seeing attractive girls .... usually very primal scenarios where i can impregnate the women, concensual and non-consencual. I started to fall back into watching a lot of creampie-related porn and now even hentai-over-the-top material where you can see women with hyper-fertility-traits like giant boobs , insane hip/waist-rato etc... (you might have seen this shit) getting fucked and impregnated ,in some videos you can even see x-ray depictions where the man shoots his cum in her womb and shit.... all the primal MOST animalisitc fantasies start to get sooooo strong since i´m not regularly fapping anymore. AHHHH!! Anyone know something about this? What could be the reason? Is this normal? WHy am i so obsessed with impregnating women seemingly? (BUT only in a fantasy , i don´t really want to have the responsibility of having to raise a child ...at least not yet) I definetly know that NO women could or would want to live up to those fantasies and that i am totaly screwing myself up with this hyperstimuli-conditioning. It starts to affect me in my reallife as well , the other day, one of my tinder-matches , who was by far one the best looking girls i got mathced with in a long time ... i actually made a joke to her about how i would like to knock her up (because i was so horny and couldn´t see that it is not funny at all) .... needless to say she reversed the match after that .... FUCK! i feel like such an idiot!!! It is not fair! WHy are women so beautiful and why do i feel like i want them, but i can´t access them in the no-effort way i am used to when i watch porn. I am preparing for a LOOOOOOOOONG journey of recovery from this shit... WIsh me the best & i´m happy to get some ideas.

Hey @Leo Gura , Hey everyone Cutting right to the case, i have the option of becoming the boss of the business i´m working in right now for a one-off payment (mid 6figures) which will put me into dept for about 7-10 years (depending on how much i plan to payback each year ofc), so it is the most long-term decision i ever had to make ... the business is quite stable for over 30years and i´m positive i can increase the turnover/revenue in the next years even more (i plan to go 7 figures revenue 2018), but still i heard from some business-people to never, NEVER!! NEVER THAT IS!! go into dept ...as if it was a deadly sin or something ... is it a fear / limiting belief that going into dept for a certain period of time is bad? i´m actually a bit afraid if i make an emotional mistake here ... what do you think? Thank you Also what Books can anyone recommend on money? Right now i´m reading Tony Robbins "Money Maste the Game" and "E-Myth" on how people mistake themselves to be enterpreneurs and how to actually become one ... more suggesitons?

Good that you see the harm, here is how i stopped my hardcore gaming addiction (spent almost 5000h within 3 years on LOL) yes it is possible 3years = 1000 days x 5h a day ..there you go uninstall all games withdraw from your gaming-community PEACEFULLY (dont you ...you guys are full of shit i am something better now! i life my life purpose while you are just loosers ...DONT DO THAT... instead just go ...well i have some other plan whenever some of your "friends" wants to involve you in gaming again... unplug the monitor and put it away, only plug it in when you wrote down on a paper what WORK!!! you need to do on the pc... then work it and then unplug the monitor again! prepare for extreme withdrawel effects ... your future self will be so grateful to you!! namasté mofos

HEy guys, Hey Leo, please tell me if you don´t want that @Leo Gura, but i wanna give value to the community by sharing my way of consuming your content. Which is by listening to it as 2x audio-format. https://www.mediafire.com/file/crcch2iflhdxban/TrainingEpisode.mp3 Enjoy!

Great Comment imho! It is exaclty THIS, a chance to FEEL the pain , to discover , to open up and allow the pain. Also i think when to horror and the pain gets so overwhealming you can let out an equally horrible groan just to express physically and let it manifest what is happening now! You wont believe how freeing this can be. (also make shure no neighbours are around or they will think you are either insane or into some really weired sex-practices ) ok namasté mofos

I just wanted to share some thoughts about: -Life Purpose, not living your life purpose & the feeling "what is Wrong with me!?" -the HORROR of not beeing in controll of your thoughts -Envy others, Letting go & Surrender -behaviour change (related to leo´s new video)

Been there, let me just ask you if you take any drugs or substances even alcohol or cigarettes. If yes, absolutley start dropping those immediatly. Also stop hanging around with the people you hang around with and start eating healthy , also meditate consistently. Look inside what really brings joy to that deepest inner place. If you follow these action-steps , i hope to hear from you in 3 month! peace bro

living your life purpose and beeing spiritual is actually the same thing!! when you really dig deep it totaly is! 100% shure !! peace bro

Here is my take on it ... whatever you think is your life purpose... scedule a plan and then work on that purpose for 30 days in a row for some hours each ... (like 1 or 2 maybe 4 or 5h each day! depending how much other work you have to do... then after the 30 days take a resumée. was it fun? was it productive? will you definetly go on doing it naturally anyways ...or was it different than you thought it would be, how many days did you skip, and why? how did you feel ... Do that imo Peace bro

Worth it? What do you wanna get? Happiness , knowing yourself & knowing your life purpose , opening up to infintiy?? Whatever of those it is, no , researching conspiracies is only marginaly help... if you wanna entertainyourself, have some fun, enage in the monkey mind, just distract yourself after a hard day, and enjoy some fantacizing , then YES! it is worth it... peace bro

So most of us work 8h a day or more... Then go home and plan doing all these great things... but then you notice your energy is gone ... You just gotta hustle throu? is it even possible? How can you be stronger than your excuses? ---->>> WHat do you guys think?? I´m pretty shure 90% of us know this topic and struggle more or less with this ...

I lately was in a conversation where i suddenly realized that the topic for the last 10minutes was other people and what they did. I personaly like the people i had the conversation with (from work) and it would be a harsh oversimplification to call them "stupid" given the fact what they acchieved in their lifes and how they are in generell quite nice people with a good emotional intelligence i would say. But when in conversation i thought of the label "this is stupid". Also i knew i will be in it for the next hour since we were in a car (me driving) so i thought "whatever" and i engaged in it as well. I kinda thought, it is better to be part of it than be outside and judge them for beeing stupid, taking a moral highground based on what? But i realize that this behaviour can be quite dangerous. To join something that you think is "not right" just to feel good. But i felt i goes along with what i learnt in meditation. Also with the same logic i would have joined the nazis in 1933, which clearly can´t be "good" so! any thoughts on this topic?

Depends, lets pretend this is whats going on in your part of consciousness: i am Jospeh i have an ego, the ego is an illusion and not part of reality. so jospehs job is to do consciousness work, so he is not clinging to his ego anymore. If joesph can drop the belief in his ego or the clinging to his ego then jospeh will be enlightened, the new enlighten jospeh will be so cool!! so happy and possibly rich? he will be a super-jospeh , nice... Which sounds good, the problem is only that there is no jospeh with the problem of needing to get rid of his ego to begin with. THe fact that consciousness got conditioned into THINKING it is joseph who needs to do this and that in order to get that and this is what makes it feel that something is not quite right... so what is needed is not to ADD enlightenment TO jospeh, but to rid oneness of this joseph-idea, who is this joseph anyways? i heard he is quite a nice guy, i heard he will be rich soon, must be something about this guy

so let´s look at what happened. you felt something. there was something... an experience. you didn´t like it. it felt like what? fearfull? did you experience the emotion fully or did you start to label it and give it names and try to put it in a concept? like: oh i don´t like this feeling ...now i call this feeling fear, and fear exists in the subconsciuous. there is a place called subconscious ...so if i don´t like this feeling i can put this object called fear back in this place called subconsious.... this is the usual strategy. I recommend staying true and not engaging in the language and concept game too much, just feel the emotion that comes up, let it overwhealm you, if you think "NO! i will die if i let this happen" ...then remember ...who is saying this sentence? the character possibly? are you the character or are you what is prior to the chraracter? do you wanna be a limited charakter who is enlightened ....or do you wanna be light iself knowing it has the possibiliy to act throu a charakter but is not limited to that... like any psycheledic substance i recommend using weed only very rarely , maybe 1 or 2 times to see what happens and then go back integrating the insights and stay sober for 2-3 month before you engage with substances again ... (and 3 month might already be too short!) the REAL work comes AFTER the waking up EXPERIENCE anyways ... waking up is nice but then you have to clear up ... 4 billion years of evolution left us with mechanisms of jealousy, comparing , greed, agression etc... and these are just the super obvious ones. i hope this helps a little bit

In a sense people don´t exist, yes! and that includes yourself. What does exist is "one-ness" or emptyness, or awareness... This oneness mistakes itself for a person ...and it IS a person ...but NOT ONLY! and NOT MAINLY a person...it is still mainly one-ness beeing conditioned for 4billion years to be human. (so quite a long evolutionary time isnt it, thats why you shouldnt expect the ego or the character to disapear anytime soon ... and it is ok if it doesn´t ...just don´t make the mistake to believe everything it says and see you are more than that! Do people exist? who want´s to know that? Awareness would not ask such a question. THat question is asked by your charakter not by one-ness , so let the question be there as what it is ..just form arising in your consciessness, but don´t give it too much attention, if you do, the ego will grow. and a big ego leaves no place for the silence of awareness ... peace

I feel like the new video on sutble addiction is one of the most fundamental & at the same time practical ones leo released this year! Absolute recommendation to watch It made me think what my subtle addictions might be. 1. The need for beeing the nice guy the normal guy, beeing "accepted", beeing correct , beeing "standart" so noone can take offense in anything i do or say!!! I just noticed that this not really who i am, but it is something i DO!!! Even thou i meditate consistently for a year, i still feel the need to be "normal" and "inconspicous" around people , especially new people, althou it feels horrible!! and boring!! and dead!! everytime i start opening up & get a little "crazy" it feels really good, but it is always an effort at first ... i think i REALLY! have to work on this one. 2. "having a cutting-edge work-ethic, beeing super-productivity, becoming successfull" ... to the point where i just started thinking ...hmmm maybe i´am addicted to this?! I mean it is a small degree. Of course taking action is the way to go & and people like richard branson are people i really think found an amazing way to take action and still have fun and enjoy life and even the buddha said something along those lines "meditation is great, but taking actions is better" (paraphrasing) ... so i am not shure about this one. I have trouble envisioning an alternative? beeing more passive? clearly this cannot be the answer. Hm ..have to contemplate this topic thou!! 3. Suffering in overthinking sometimes it feels , i just NEED! to have a problem that i can solve to improove. Even if there is not problem , i can only be OK if i improove and learn and have paradigm-shifting epiphanies if NOT!! i suffer! because i lack out on reaching my potential .... maybe this can also be a subtle form of addiction. so any thoughts on these? What about you guys? what are your 3 sublte addictions? How do you work on them? WHat are the underlying mechanisms for those addictions? can we find some kind of solution? Meditation for me is definatly the biggest source of freeing yourself over the course of weeks and month from these addicions! Has anyone found other solutions to add? Cheers.

I am happy for you that you had a positive and mind-blowing shamadi experience. In life there are painfull experiences and blissful experience, both of which you will experience more of in your life (judging from your pic you are still young and will hopefull live a long life Experiences are form. You can see them, hear them, feel them. Accept them as they come. If bliss arises in your meditation. Fine. If pain arises. Fine. "What to do now?" ...Hear that question. Accept it & let it be. "I feel like i should do something!" ...Feel that emotion, see it and let it be. Feel , See & Hear the form and stay silent and mindful.

The monkey mind is functional enough to give us an advantage in the course of the evolution, that is its valid point. if completeness and seperation are concepts that exclude each other, then it might be that your conceps may not be fully accurate. If time & space are entities separted from god , maybe your definition of that word "god" is not usefull and hence your problem/question. It is a follow-up mistake coming from an wrong assumption about time/space & god. again, what if you started holding an alternative concept in wich space&time and god are not exclusive... after all these are just concepts, sort of like fantasies ... know that you can do a lot with your mind , and not every thought you can produce is a meaningful one. In fact i would argue most thought, if not all, are just mental masturbation without actual impact. You assume that god is an entity that wants something, that feels something , you are attributing your fantasy of "god" with your own human characteristics. Might that assumtion be groundless? On what basis do you take your own assumption to be true? I hope contemplating these question will help you finding what you search for. Cheers

True story, i like it you could also re-name the thread positivly and call it "how to make real progress" Step1: Love & accept yourself. Which -i know- is easier said than done , don´t get fooled into this idea of a pathless path, in which you already are enlightened and have to do nothing (which might be true on a really deep level for people who already done a lot of inner work ) but for almost 100% of the people this idea of "there is nothing to do just love everything and there will be peace" doesnt lead to a better life, if what remains is still a toxic surrounding, ill food, negative/unproductive mental input + limiting beliefs that can´t be undone by just thinking "i accept everything" ...which is why the dirty work of actualizing (with all its manifold ways) is actually a really good method to go towards loving & accepting yourself consistently and in the long run... This mofokn shit is WORK after all! do the meditation, clean up the diet, do journaling, possibly do a therapie, hit the gym, read books, work on your own business, intergrate your life purpose ...and so on. btw ...life is amazing no joke...

Good Topic! it is not neither / nor, it is - as so often - both! The real juice is 1lvl deeper, namely taking notes at ALL!! to build new neuronal pathways to remember yourself of insights and ideas! Note-taking is hugh wether it be in the phone or on booklets (highly successful people do it all the time, richard branson, jobs, elon musk...)

Haha welcome out here in the real world , you successfully left the rabbit hole whatever that means... Happiness can only be found inside yourself, nothing outside of yourself can fullfill you ... It is so obvious that we don´t talk about it but we should acually think about that every morning we wake up and base our lives on that knowledge...

Lol i experienced this today, i was annoyed with the (i thought) ignorant topics of some people (on a business-seminar) i was around today...topics like binge-drinking on weekends, complaining about co-workers, eating meat is a "must have" , "my boss is an idiot" and stuff like that ... i wasn´t around "such" people for a long time and i remembered how bad it feels , you feel excluded and like a different species almost ..I remembered how i even used to question myself in these cases when i was younger (they all seem to enjoy those topics - is there something wrong with me? hopefully i learned -getting older- that it is ok having a completely differnt approach to life) Today i´m more like ...cool the world is big, they are not bad people , it is fine but i just wanna go somewhere else and talk to other people now please i do understand they are not stupid , they are just embedded in a certain culture and have a certain way of coping with the issues of their life (and if they choose to binge on weekends and talk about how they envy their stupid boss who is driving a porsche etc - althou i am a bit shocked of how self-destructive without even knowing it their behaviour is ...i don´t really feel in the position to convince them to change) so i let them be.. at the same time i am not jesus-like enough to suffer because of them so i try to get the fuck away asap... ...have you ever tried to convince a bunch of 30 y.o. industrial-workers who shout stories about how many beers they drank on the weekend without getting drunk, to consider starting a meditation habit instead ...good luck!

I know weed is out ..5Meo is the only true substance to gain insights jk i´m still a big fan of just meditation itself ...also taking action in life is probably even better then meditation ...and maybe i´m wrong?! ...had anyone had experiences with meditation for a long time without any "modification" vs "weed" vs say with "5meo" ?

I first meditated 30minutes just to watch myself & to calm down and feel totally comfortable in my body. Then i smoked 0,4g weed (starting with a small amount, since i haven´t smoked in over 10 years) In the following 3+ hours i had an amazing meditation session, that i would describe best as a mix between unique insights & very deep shadow work, allowing me to dig deeper into my subconscious mind then i was allowed in before ... (i kept a script which is over 4 pages, this is just picking out some of the more interessting stuff that isn´t too personal or irrelevant for the readers) Part 1 : ramping up -feeling a bit "warm" and tingly thougts come in like i don´t think them but they start coming in, i enjoy it and let them come... -fear of beeing excluded from the group leads to dependency and is probably amongst the top3 reasons for not leading a happy life -the true tragedy of life is that things change so slow. Anything that can speed up the process of change is extremely vauluable! -I don´t have to be fearfull of beeing myself, I am ok!! (this one is hard to explain, but my bodyimage changed after this and i felt like a bad "ghost" had been excorcised) -A Scientist of consciousness!! ..that is what i want to be , i can´t think of anything more inspiring to do in life -Language is extremely important. The incredible significance that language has on who we think we are and how our society is structured is often overlooked in everyday life - like water to a fish. Our language is like a coding language that has a controlling function. Note to myself: i want to investigate into the field of NLP... Part 2 : connection -i could suddenly feel who i am, it was like a structure of light. I also noticed how afraid i usually am of beeing who i know i am. Wow! OMG all these years and i could not see this ...this is groundbreaking. I don´t have to be afraid... -Memories of beeing locked into my room as a small child came up. I remembered how i also had a very clear understanding of who i was back then, and it actually didn´t change in its essence compared to now. I wondered how i lost this feeling of presence over the years... -I regained access to my source , can´t describe this -this is fantastic!! WHAT! Part 3 : euphoria -Extreme inspiration suddenly came over me now: i want to solve the riddles of the world, what if everyone could access that source? What if i could find a way to make everyone connect to that empowering state? -it will be the dawning of a new age of mankind (lol now i chuckeld to myself noticing that i might have gone megalomaniac but i allowed more thoughts and ideas to flow in) -i wanna be an explorer of the human consciousness not more and not less Part 4 : creative flow -now i had the idea of building an "verbalizer" (a machine that can translate thoughts directly into a kind of readable code that can be processed into actions then ... i noticed that the body - in a sense - is that machine lol ) -Now i elaborated on the metaphor of language as a code and thought..."We have to become writers of our own code , not just readers of code of others" Part 5 : more insights... -Then it struc me : i am dishonest!!! I am a fraud! i am censoring my own thoughts all the time!! i noticed that when a thought came up that was in a sense considered "bad, offensive, or even insane" i instantly blocked that thought! WOW!! i never was able to see that so clear and "in flagranti" observe myself doing that, i also specualated that i do it and normaly can´t see it then probably all people are doing it ...and this makes society deeply "corruped" and controlled in a negative way. -Self-censoring is a huge issue! our whole society would benefit from it if we could find a way to open up these self-corruption-mechanism!! - "the last consequence of thinking is becoming insane" suddenly i came up with this sentence, it totally made sense to me -i played around with different thought of "what if our society is just an experiment on how people react to fear-inputs , similar to an experiment were you can observe rats change their behaviour whilst getting electroshocks" i didn´t really think this is what actually happens, but i toyed around with the thought and explored the implications...found it quite interessting and usefull as a metaphor -I noticed how primitive 90% of my thought patterns are , I´m basicly an ape i thought ...there is not much difference. I felt like i just leveled up my intelligence-state..looking back on a more primitive version of myself ... wow!! -humans spend 95% of their time slightly below the threshold of beeing conscious -if you can´t controll someone with fear you can just flatter him to controll his actions Part 6 : Relaxation & Calmness at this point i stopped taking notes since i felt exhausted and i just let go and meditated untill i slowly noticed that i feel "normal" again , the frequency of unique thoughts lowered and then around midnight i went to sleep since i had to work the next day (which btw was an amazingly relaxed working day i felt quite ...like ...like a lot of tension i usually feel in normal life has just gone , i will wait 7 days and then repeat the meditation hope you enjoyed reading this a bit

2 years is nice, so congrats on the consinstency. But what you describe (asking a lot of logical questions) sounds more like self-inquiry. Which is also or can also be important (althou i think inquiry is more benefitial for people who usually don´t overthink - it balances them out ..for people who overthink a lot , self inquiry can lead really on the wrong tracks where the inquirer feels he will get somewhere by just logical constructs alone and might possibly indulge in endless fruitless inquiry and getting stuck in his head. doing more body focused work like body scanns or SDS is better for "overhtinkers" at least that is my experience - having that tendency to getting stuck in my head ...what helps me most is connection with my body in any way (meditation is only one form , i also recommend doing sports or dancing or yoga) -principle of mastery is applicable to everything but don´t force it too much imo -the curve-model from mastery is -after all- just a theory , a map to help you in the actual "field" , don´t stick to hard to it - that beeing said i would say it totally depends from person to person and from time to time ... some month you get little increases then suddenly a big epiphany and then 2 weeks where you feel like shit and can´t concentrate or even feel pain ... everyone has to get to know oneself ...that is part of the practice and an important and very valuable part i think! -no it is NOT ok!! what if it is not ok? then you are a naughty brat and need to be punished srsyl ... everyone thinks while meditating the purpose of the practice is to understand the internal mechanisms of yourself and how you can relax and drop the thoughts, and understand the nature of your thoughts better... eventually surrender and bliss out -yes as long as you "say" sentences in your head you are using thoughts (words are a common form of thoughts ) mindfullness meditation is therefor often considered as a concentration practice more than a meditation -guided medis are using thoughts yes and there is nothing wrong with that to calm you down, loose your mind and bring you to your senses ... for example you can use guided medi as an introduction for 15 or 20 minutes if you like and then when it stopped go on and meditate for yourself without "sound-input" -the point of meditation is to understand who you are , how your mind works and dissolve the notion you get in everyday life (where this notion is usefull of course ) that you are an object in the world seperated from the subjects you are interacting with. It will open you up and make your more creative and possibly in a sense more intelligent and reflected ... your quality of life will improove because the chances you make horrible life-decisions that only serve other people and not your own purpose and happyness will get more and more unlikely since you transcended a lot of the wrong paradigms that society gave you and instead you trust your own senses. -how does it work? by monitoring yourself your consciousness can create new links and connections concerning the very fabric of your awareness ... it is like learning, learning how to it really feels like to be you. Actually it is quite simple, but it can shure take time and sometimes one gets confused ...but thats ok ... that is life peace