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well, thanks for answering my queries forum. Helpful as always.

One of the things i wanted to ask. As i am one of those who's youtube gets hit with your jordan petersons/jonathan pageau's/alex o'connor, john vervake. And whilst i do agree with Leo's assessment that Jordan's shadow is primarily motivated to speak through his anger and emotional reactions. One of the criticisms he has laid out of the post modern ideology which i don't necessarily disagree with and Leo didn't adress other than he is consumed by his shadow when talking about this topic. Is that the post modern perspective deconstructs everything through the lens of power, who has it and who hasn't. And reducing all of history through that lens is a terribly destructive attitude to have. Because you essentially assume the worst from others. Whilst i'm not saying power is not an issue, of course not. The world moves from so many different tides, that reducing it to merely a power struggle is...childish. I tend to lean into agreeing with his analysis on this. And i'm inviting people here to offer a different perspective. That perhaps i haven't considered yet.

have you hear of astral doorway on youtube? It's excellent.

Thanks for the info. Today i had one, where i saw a village and for some reason the idea came i was the village, a perception i never had and then the rush happened again. Nothin ever happens it's kind of like the sparklers, it goes off for a while and then always tapers out. I have opened some terrifying doors, I've dealt with what I am convinced atleast perceptive wise that they were some sort of demonic entity. Or you can also superimpose the framework of magnetic emotions in the astral. That pull you in, and it pulls you in, and your will at that point, is that even though you know it's not good, you want to partake in the emotion. And it pulls you in and it tears you apart, turns you inside and out energetically so your energetic orientation. Kind of like phasing from inverted and then a convulsion to the normal . You'r like a snarling dog biting the air being swept up by the force of a hurricane that is fuellend by your emotion. So as you engage, it gets stronger, and as you retalitate, it's dominion over you becomes greater. it's like it tears you up from the inside out. There is that dr strange movie in the multiverse where at the end he has to do necromancy and there is this movie digital effects where these demonic spirits swim inside him and as they do it kind of pulls him in all sorts of directions at once, convulsions in many different directions. I found that illustration to be very reminiscent and accurate to what it felt like in the astral. But through these experiences I learnt first hand that victim hood there is a profoundly satanic element to protraying yourself as a victim. As it empowers the self to cast judgement and act out in retaliation. Some of these have really shook me back on the straight and narrow, or atleast to the degree that i hone my bad habits in so that they don't completely swallow me up at night. I've had profoundly terrifying experiences but i always try to turn it into a lesson to learn something good from it. And in that sense, i can't tell wether it's a demon or an angel with a tough love approach. I've for a while moved on from these experience, as i seemed to have been able to curtail these experiences by openly asking the perpetators and conciously choosing not to engage in the energies that these magnetic vortexes seem to want to pull me into. Using compassion seems to dispell. But in these states, i've noticed for the most part i am a puppet, pinnochio and whatecer emotions come will have their way with me. And i've been working through it in my dreams. I've recently found Astral Doorway on youtube and his stuff is so usefull. I've been looking to no avail for information that i could relate to with regards to these realms but couldn't find anything other than christian channels crying demon all the time. Which also doesn't seem too farfetched considering some of the experiences i've had. It has certainly scared me back on the path. Thats for sure. Curious if anyone else has had similar experiences or knows some things about this area. As it is fascinating.

Having dreams where my head begins to rush. Like a waterfall of energy falling into my head and it's buzzing. Any ideas what this might be? It's been happening more often recently, one of the times i was lucid and decided to fly up. I went really fast and it was like my head was a comet with the same rush sensations as the comet frictions with the atmosphere. This have any spiritual significance? Or is it just a dream?

this transmission was meant for you. I say this as I sense a bit of frustration, perhaps lingering resentment in your post. Although perhaps I'm wrong.

Really cool. I have been doing morning yoga with a local indian community 6 am maybe 3 times a week. I strive for 5 but 6 am is too much for me every day for now. But i've been consitnetnyl been doing yoga for quite some time. On and off, but i always come back. It is good to hear this, because my intuition was telling me the same. I went the longest witout busting my nut and my forhead would begin to tremble right before sleep. I've had these sorts of things during sleep too. But it was something else entirely when i was still awake. And it was due to retention. So i thought i'd ask a bit more about it here. Thanks for the replies. It's very interesting to hear your perspectives on it.

just went to sit down to watch this. And went to put on my head phones to listen to it, and didn't notice because i was wearing a beanie that i already had my headphones on. So when the sound came on, i guess i recontextualised pretty quickly. i'll get my coat.

Just wanted to know. Theres a youtube channel out there. Masculine Theory. And for the most part it seems pretty sensible the stuff he's talking about. I think. But this thing, i just wanted to know what the good folk on here think and perhaps the OG Leo can give his thoughts. I'll paste the statement in question. "When you retain for long periods, your minds eye is forced open. Without concious effort, you begin to see the truth of things within yourself and within others. Self correction is automatic. That is spiritual growth and self elevation. Theres a lot of other things they say that i don't want to get caught up in because i'm not really interested in that. What i'm most interested in is what i highlighted. Does semen retention "force" open the minds eye? Is there some truth to this? What are your thoughts, would love to hear your experiences as it pertains to this perspective. Was it helpful? Or not?