Chives99

II never get any matches, i prefer the magic in person

Should I form an opinion at all???? did i really suck at the convo? maybe me getting stuck in my head and forming an opinion is what knocks me off my centre ???? maybe i should just talk without any expectation of how its going to go down? maybe we just weren't compatible? what i said wasn't inappropiate as they werent angry or disgusted but it didnt entertain them as they walked away, but again maybe we just weren't compatible? ruminated just puts me in my head even more??? nuerotypicals dont really need answers so much they arent big thinkers. IS IT EVEN POSSIBLE TO KNOW??????????????? GOD MY AUTISTIC BRAIN JUST NEEDS TO KNOW EVERYTHING, can i really just let go of knowing this and just talk and not control anything, i know how to not be inappropriate, but even some times NT's are inappropiatte so why am i even concerned about that?

@Butters modaphinil makes me less autistic , gets me out of my head and makes me really confident and energetic

@The Redeemer join meetup its great for socialising

Sorry for your loss, take time for, yourself ,lots of love xxx

if you want women to feel safe and open to you, love yourself,it makes you happy, confident and loving, i had women approaching me on mdma,its crazy what love can do ♬♬

dont use apps and sites then lol i know theyre shit, its so much fun flirting in person , u get beautiful deep eye contact, great convo, humour ,flirting ,feels soooooooooooooo, good man, cant get that online

they just bitches no need to talk to someone like that if someones making convo and being friendly

Women want a deep emotional connection , having a partner that REALLY understands them with a man that really loves himself, if he loves himself , he has nothing to give but LOVE❤?❤ since he's not lacking , he's truly authentic and aligned with loving reality and making the world a beautiful place

get yourself out there and socialise, join meetups, social groups, organisations, volunteer, change jobs, also listen to leo love yourself, you will be magnetic to people if you love yourself. I even had women approaching me on mdma, that drug removes all mental filtration , it changes your body language somehow because how you feel inside is transfered to other people via body language. You could try therapy work through some issues.

Just take a chill pill man, talk to women and see who you click with, it will take a lot of searching, but im sure you'll find someone you have similar interests with. Remember they want to get to know you just as much as you want to get know them, women arent as desperate for sex which is why they aren't as needy, i mean they can get it when ever they want, if they lower their standards . but its the whole sex component tht makes men desperate

u get aggressive? maybe u should work on your self esteem , just laugh at someone trying to get under your skin

@Schizophonia if you have an insecure personality it will make you rage

@Butters I think it depends on your personality, if you have a good heart and are highly empathic , but shy and anxious, that cocaine will override your anxiety and self doubt

@Schizophonia @Butters People on cocaine are fucking annoying JESUS

@Butters i know autism is good for self reflection and its bad to beat yourself up, maybe just do some self relflection after the social event as pointers and let intuition guide the way.

This is what MDMA has taught me, neurotypicals don't know something that autistic people don't, they arent born with superior social skills, theres no free will remember. Autistic people are slow to learn to socialise and struggle so much because they're in their heads constantly , thinking ,rationalising, understanding, gaining knowledge (which is a very good thing for school, academia, work, technical stuff etc) , but it doesnt work for socialising, because theres nothing logical about communication and emotions. People have general guidlelines for socialising, but they're pretty flexible for most things that the autistic person worries about and you'll be surprised at how tolerant people are and the leeway people give. 93% of communication is non verbal, so whats not being said, so how can you formulate how to talk and get to know someone, when there is so many variables, you dont know what someone is thinking, what their intentions are or what their situation or their personality type etc. This means you have to be in tuned to whats going on, feel into your emotions, feel into your body, feel into other peoples emotions. are they holding eye contact? if not they've lost interest in talking to you . What is their tone of voice like? are they smiling? , are they giving you the 'gaze' . When you're on MDMA you dont gain any new social skills or personality traits , you're the exact same person, you are just so R E L A X E D , you can still say boring stuff or socially clumsy stuff, but you arent in your head so you are much more socially calibrated to whats going on , if you're in your head you're anxious and will not be able to hold conversation, when you're relaxed you feel so comfortable in your own skill , you can literally approach anyone . Most of the time the conversation fizzles out, you move on to someone else. It just puts you in the mood to socialise, you love yourself and everyone , you are so at peace. This transmits to other people as your body language is magnetic, women approach you. Neurotypicals dont know something we dont, they just dont beat themselves up and ruminate so much when bore someone or are a bit awkward they just trial and error , trial and error, trial and error. Autistic people dont have as much emotional robustness, so we get discouraged if we make a mistake and take it to heart, we then try to analysise and formulate how to do it , which never works , you cant formulate how to socialise. I guess i'm kinda blessed that my special interests are sociological and humanitarian based, it helps really helps for socialising as my autistic friends at uni, just stayed in their rooms mostly. L E T G O O F T H E M I N D, it only breeds anxiety, but use it for intellectual stuff not when talking.

If 93 % of socialising is non-verbal that means you really have to pay attention to social cues, your intuition has vast amounts of information in it than you could possible fathom beyond you're imagination, reminds me of an allan watts quote " To have faith is to trust yourself to the water. When you swim you don't grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. Instead you relax, and float."

I was born with hydrocephalus, but my sister also has it so it must be genetic as well

Society makes me feel like im a loser for not having loads of sex and engaging in relationships, i know beating myself up is just adding fuel to the fire, but people just get under my skin. I'm not even a virgin, but society makes you feel like somethings wrong with you, society is just so obsessed with it all. Now you have college drop outs working at mcdonalds thinking theyre better than you, yet they are as dumb as a post. I know its not rational but i just dont know how to let go , its the way society makes you feel, maybe im too impressionable, i just want to feel good.

@Sugarcoat live life by your own standards, there is no 'right' way to live it, but some ways are less conscious sure

@NoSelfSelf NT's do have rules but they break them all the time, whether tht 'rule' should be enforced is also up to discretion, how many times do the police turn a blind eye to stuff, in some countries you can pretty much just pay the police off

What I'm getting from this is grow s thick skin and be cocky back "why you so concerned about my life clearly nothing going on in your own "

Neurotypicals don't use them rules are just optional

im autistic i need less rules , rules dont work with socialising lol