Holykael

What else is there to say?

It's more like a movie and you are holding a controller thinking you're playing the movie but you aren't. The movie plays by itself.

From a reddit post I saw. Found another interesting bread cumb God left for itself: "Everything you see is dead, a part of the eternal structure of the universe. You are its operant power. When you enter a scene it becomes animated. Then you become lost in your own animation and think it is independent of your perception. Looking at it, you cannot believe you are causing the animation, but you are." "Now buried in a world of eternal death, you are animating dead forms, believing they are independent of your perception of them." Neville Goddard, "Eternal States" 1968

I don't give a shit if someone is awake or not. What matters is what they say and it just happens to be true, consistent with solipsism.

Yeah I'm living in meaninglessness and resentment of said meaninglessness. I still have some hope that things will take a turn for the best somehow, some faith that the designer of this wasn't just a stupid fucking bastard.

I don't blame "others" at all. I blame god because literally designed all of reality and my own downfall. Ultimately I'm blaming myself because I am god after all. I'm doing my best with the hand I've been given but that literally doesn't matter because I'm not in control of my body. It does things on its own, I'm losing the doership

The phone isn't powered by the chips. It's powered by consciousness. The phone is just an appearance

Is this about god? Maturity isn't about god. It's more human stuff which I'm not interested in.

Science is all bs bro. there is no science, only imagination

There will be a reality with people but discernable language, they just spout nonsense sounds at each other that make no sense, they don't need to eat and drink, they spend time staring at walls, freaking out laying down on the floor having random retarded convulsions and they're all naked trapped in a room for years. Nothing special really happens, it's just that. Boring, random and nonsensical. Leaves me wondering why god embraces absolutely everything.

There is nothing quantum about reality. It's just a story. Reality is pure nothingness

I'd like to see that, if you can come up with more to say about god.

Either god is a finite being or god is in the god state. When one dies, one goes into the god state. There's either a reality or there is the god formless state. People die all the time but the god state isn't being manifested when they die. This means these people that die are not the cause of the god state. This means these people aren't actually real or having their own consciousness otherwise the universe would end and we would all be in god form. Only one person's death matters, mine unfortunately for me. I wish I was an unconscious being. When I die, the universe will end and the god state will come back. This is immutable logic, there's no denying it. No other model of reality makes any sense, only if you deny that god exists.

Oops double post

Obviously I do. I'm not addicted at all lol

I don't control how I feel. I don't control my state of consciousness. God is making me feel like shit in the present moment, nothing I can do about it. If god wants you to feel like shit you will. Whatever happens is god's will. How can I appreciate an entity that willfully desires your misery. I desired my own misery and I'll never understand why. I had a great life you know, now I'm paying the cost of having had a great life.

Meditation isn't free will at all. Just like taking psychedelics isn't either.

I'd rather be a chair tbh. Unless I had more options of things to do in this reality like having infinite money to travel the world. Getting back together with the love of my life, flying around, eating at whatever restaurants, getting any job I want. I want the cheat codes man. In fact I could have programmed this reality to provide with endless satisfaction just by looking at a wall, none of the above is necessary. I just want peace and satisfaction but clearly my true self doesn't want it. It wants tp feel like shit which is beyond my comprehension. I want an endless lucid dream where I have control over reality. I want an endless LSD trip with synesthesia and heightened art appreciation. I want the power of god but with this ego so I will feel good for fucking ever.

Im the only conscious being. Other beings exist but they are not aware, they are programmed objects. I'm also a programmed object but I'm having an experience of this body and this person's life which is tiring af, I wish I was just free in a black void feeling an infinite orgasm.

Everything is my mind bro. That's solipsism

God is mentally ill

Yeah. I still have dreams about my ex gf. In one of them she went demonic and told me I'd never be happy again

It's a long story. I don't want to get into it but it was basically the plot god made for me. It involved LSD, the Iluminati and visions/hallucinations, all sorts of awakenings in it I lost the love of my life, all my money, my dream job, all my friends, all my video games (I had a huge collection). I had god realizations and solipsism realizations. In the aftermath I'm a shell of a man with no prospects of a future, I lost the will and ability to take care of myself, I was in shape before and now im out of shape. Just kinda gave up on life

If god is the absolute infinity then this must be true

Let's not forget one thing. God feels a million times orgasm all the time. Why doesn't he extend the same benefit to his creations once in a. While at least. It's fucked up.