Holykael

Awakening is death. Nobody is awake and never will be during the dream

I don't want to exist nor do I want any dualities. I didn't ask to be born. I just want to be a void forever sleeping.

Solipsism killed my love for others completely. I cannot love shadows that are only hurting me in actuality. All the shadows are god pretending to be humans. I want all the pretending to stop and to be saved. Who took away my love for others, I don't control my feelings. I feel completely detached from reality. God took away my love of others, only god can do that. Why? Only to make me suffer. I feel completely hopeless and helpless. It could have been an amazing thing if suddenly people woke up when I became aware of solipsism. I can no longer love people as they are, their faults are magnified to infinity with the realization that they are illusory. I want to love but god doesn't allow me to love. I am god's puppet after all and look what he's doing with its puppet. Giving him only misery and suffering. God's love is all talk, only communicated through others who aren't even real. Where is god's love for me, for taking care of me and allowing me to love the world selflessly. Nowhere to be seen. This is one of the many reasons why I say god is cruel and doesn't care about anything. God revealed my destiny to me. You know what it is. VSED (voluntarily stop eating and drinking) when my parents die.

This is complete nonsense. God is the devil, god is being everyone simultaneously consciously. it didn't forget at all, the forgetting is an illusion. god is hurting itself constantly. I have a telepathic link with god and it freely admits that it's hurting me on purpose using the various characters in my life. Sometimes people just know things they couldn't possibly know, this is god slipping up on purpose. You should watch Leo's video on why god forgives devilry and evil and it is because god is deliberately being it. You don't understand god and never will. There's only one being who can intimately understand god and that's god himself and not the others. I am cursed with being god.

The only being that can awaken is the only being having an experience. The others are mere illusions/distractions, including you. The universe as in all beings will never be awake.

Leo admitted he has no POV. None of you do, you can stop pretending you do

Some of those insights are false. God only forgot in one of the minds. Everyone else is already enlightened and playing a game of pretend, including you. There's only one conscious being in existence who can awaken.

There is only one conscious being in existence who suffers. Me. That's the jist of the video. Nobody else is real , ie has an internal awareness.

Oh how I wish this was true. I keep reading accounts like this from imaginary people but the only conscious being in actuality is living a life of crucifiction.

So alledgedly god told Leo that mankind is super cringe. God is mankind. There is no distinction. God is calling itself super cringe. This entire interaction is a complete self deception. First of all Leo is already God. Everything that Leo says or anyone says for that matter is god saying it. The framing that god is somehow separate from mankind commenting on mankind bothers me immensely because god is mankind and mankind is god. There is nothing but god, everything is god.

The only conscious being in existence is locked in suffering for the rest of his life while the world around him pretends to be limited human garbage and lies 24/7. How can this reality be absolute goodness. It is the exact opposite. It's a sinister and sadistic reality.

The scientists are god pretending to be dumb, who cares. Nothing matters. It's all a complete self deception. Science could become enlightened tomorrow if it wanted to. It's all god playing games with itself

You will experience every single horrible outcome. Nothing will be left out.

How come god will repeat the same scenarios infinitely if there are infinite dreams that never end. Why would there be a need to repeat anything @amanen

I have no free will. Reality is mere cruelty. I do not want to exist yet Im forced to exist, how is this fair and love and goodness.

It's all god's will and absolute perfection as you guys claim

God is talented for turning truth into the most horrific thing in the universe. I am all alone with myself and god is fucking mad and wants to live a life of misery and I have no choice or say in the matter. I'm glad you didn't say reality is absolute goodness because such cruelty cannot be good... There is no difference between anything but god always imagines a difference through the senses and feel so this is a pointless statement

I find that hard to believe, given that there is no bias against suffering and no matter how you slice it, that's a pretty retarded dream to want to have. And the worst part of it is there is an infinity of dreams far worse than the one I'm in and god doesn't discriminate between dreams. How can it be all good to go through hell time and time again. God is a mistake. God should not exist. Nothing should have ever existed.

That logic does not compute. I can think of many ways where things would be better

God loves it. I hate it. God is so intelligent yet so dumb wasting any time whatsoever in suffering. Why is god so obsessed with suffering. It's an absolute obsession, the world is an ocean of suffering.

The madness of consciousness knows no bounds. I'll keep imagining Leo having all sorts of god realizations but me the actual only POV in existence having none of them. All according to divine will, such perfection. Such love. How can this be perfection. I guess if I was god realized the world would end so I can never be god realized until my destined death and Im doomed to suffer in normie consciousness hallucinating other people having god realizations when they can't even really feel it. The very continued existence of this universe is contingent on me never reaching god mode. Doomed to fail because for god upholding this shitty reality is more important. And with that actualized org becomes just a fiction, a story. You aren't leading anyone to god realizations nor are you having them yourself. You are being imagined for no purpose or reason than entertainment at best. How sad god's reality is.

I know and I'm not being nice to myself at all. Why do I torture myself, it makes no sense. How can this be perfection, it's madness.

I don't want to be judged by anyone. How can I make it stop and force everyone to love me as I am. I am a victim of god's machinations. He took everything away from me, including my ability to hold down a job

I have come to the realization that everyone except me is god pretending to be people. This means that the entire human species is deceitful. This is quite an evil game. There are people pretending to be sick and making quite an accurate act of it. People pretending to be murderers, rapists and emotional abusers. The entire human species is a collection of evil liars, no one embodies god and manifests the alleged selflessness, peace and quiet. I grow weary of interacting with anyone, everyone is fake. I wish I was totally alone. I'm already existentially alone but there are a bunch of bodies playing pretend around and it makes me sick. It doesn't feel at all like I am god. It feels like other people are god playing a sick game just to hurt me. They can't really hurt each other. Everyone is the same person behind the scenes. My abusive father is also the recipient of the abuse, my mother. Everyone is the same person but pretending they're all different. It's god awful. And I'm trapped in this never ending nightmare. I don't want any of this, I want to disappear. But infinity is cruel and all possibilities must be made manifest, including my increasingly nightmare ish life

The universe could mend the division at any point. Everyone is just pretending.