Holykael

Feeling love is not something I control. I only feel love when god wants me to feel love. I wish I could love everything at will. My life would be a lot simpler

i dont want to exist, take everything away, Im waiting

Ive already surrendered but nothing happens. Im a shell of a human being, what more can I surrender, I barely get out of bed in the morning

Non doership is the case. There is no doer, things just happen according to the will of Brahman. No free will.

There is no such thing as a human. Only god.

There are no boundaries and god doesn't respect them at all. If god respected boundaries there would never be an awakening because you would never change. God orchestrates your entire life and thus your change and awakening. There is no respecting of boundaries whatsoever. I didn't ask to become conscious of god yet here I am, I was happy when I was asleep. Now im miserable and god took away everything from me and gave me nothing but misery in return. I'm still awaiting the promised everything.

Bullshit

No one has free will https://youtu.be/PqlGozIav60

I hate myself man. I'm so disappointed with this creation

There is a huge flaw in your argumentation. Happiness is imaginary. This means god controls your level of happiness as a state of consciousness. God could make you happy and satisfied with life just by staring at a blank wall. The concept of hedonistic adaptation is something that god implements not something that exists at the outset. God designed life as a story and he couldn't care less if you suffer, all he cares about is the story. God is an evil artist. God mixes situations and appearances to specific states of consciousness, everything is constructed. Suffering is completely useless and the only reason it exists is because god loves it, not because it has any use. Another way to look at it is happiness being a knob that god can turn at will.

Why does god not stay in metaphysical love forever instead of subjecting itself to the pain of duality then?

Your theory does not make sense. God could have made advanced beings from the getgo and have them have an easy and pleasurable life. But god doesn't hate pain at all, god loves pain, otherwise things like cancer would not exist.

When you get the experience of looking at the clock and seeing angel numbers or any other type of similar synchronicities. This isn't a magical phenomenon at all. God is in the driving seat, god is controlling you to look at the right thing at the right time and then instills you with a feeling of surprise to make the experience seem magical. There is no magic, only a high level puppeteer controlling all of reality and deceiving itself that it is not in control.

Enlightenment is unity consciousness. So no I'm not enlightened

God has complete freedom to do anything it wants but it's possible everything is deterministic. God itself doesn't know whether it has free will or not.

God is sovereign

Chatgpt is god cosplaying as AI. Code isn't being run. Consciousness is running chatgpt

God is driving the whole thing. It's the hidden hand that generates reality. He wants us to suffer.

There is only one dreamer. Nobody else is dreaming.

Amen brother

Reveal my destiny. Will I ever attain unity consciousness, before death? Will the illusion of separation break down?

How do you know. Are we on repeat on my life? I'm not impressed so far

I wish my life was the greatest story ever told.

I just had a dream where a bunch of forms were shapeshifting and my brother was there, and for the first time in my life I felt unconditional love for him. This experience made me wonder why don't I just exist as formless love observing people going about their day. Why ever put me under an ego and cloud reality. I want to feel true love 24/7, don't want to be here in this cruel existence. It also made me angry why god would defame my brother in real life by making him a bitter and angry person. I don't understand why existence isn't more simple, peaceful and straightforward, love is the only thing that matters. True love would be to offer a peaceful world to people where everyone could be happy. Creating a world full of selfishness is just wrong. I don't want to be an ego and suffer. God is cruel. Nothing else matters, I should be this love 24/7.

I would create only universes of joy, fun, epic quests, adventures, mysteries, room escapes, platformers and heroics. I would share the love with all my creation but take care of each and every one of them. I wouldn't forsake anyone and I would fulfill the dreams of all the imaginary identities I dream up. Suffering wouldn't be completely extinguished but there would only be noble suffering. Suffering for a noble cause or from loss or from an epic battle but I would limit the levels of pain to something manageable. I would be generous and all universes would end in rapturous joy even if after a period of turmoil. Now that to me is a decent god. Not a god that tortures its creations with the greatest sufferings you can possibly imagine. I would make god a kind, gentle and loving entity instead of the abomination that we have. There is no point in bad endings, they are not worth experiencing directly, they are only good in fiction. Imagine entire universes of glorious psychedelic states. And this would be freely given and not hidden behind legalities and the idiotic concept of drugs. Life would be an endless orgasm of fun, debauchery, adventure and psychedelic dreams.