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Yesterday an incident happened that I didn’t think was possible. I’m 25 years old and for the past months/years so have struggled with chronic illness. During the last few years I have also experienced my first awakenings and god realizations through meditation and psychedelics. In the past weeks/months I have somewhat lost faith/hope in my condition and started to question more and more why I’m even incarnated in this low consciousness 3d society, telling god that I’m ready to leave this earth plane for some higher planes of consciousness, since I thought I had advanced enough spiritually. Currently I’m on a heavy antibiotic and antiparasitic protocol from my doctor in order to rule out any chronic infections. This protocol made me really fatigued. Yesterday I decided to smoke some weed, since it is legal in Germany now. After taking a single hit from a bong, I immediately wasn’t able to stand anymore. I had to lie down and a bad feeling overcame me. I had troubles breathing and seeing clearly. I tried to stay as present and conscious as possible but these symptoms just didn’t leave. It felt like I was about to die and I felt God/my higher self pulling me from my body, telling me that this is what I asked for. In this moment I realized strongly that I wanted to stay and that I didn’t want to die yet. It felt like an extreme struggle for survival. In my almost comatose state, I made the following realizations: 1. I didnt want my ego to fully dissolve (die) because I didn’t want my mum/family to see me die like this. 2. I serve as an angel/protector for my family and people I care for, I have a part to play here 3. I am exactly where I want to be, I enjoy life on earth 4. God was teasing me that I’m not as spiritual as I thought. I do care for people around me and I don’t want to die, even if I thought otherwise 5. I should stop complaining, see all the good/blessings/opportunities you have in life here on earth. It‘s amazing 6. My mission here is not fulfilled, it isn’t my time to leave yet. I made a firm commitment to stay here / I begged god to keep me alive lol Since my physical symptoms got really bad and I was on the verge of passing out, I called my mum and she drove me to the hospital where I got some infusions and spent the night. Feeling well now. Wondering if it was just a horror trip or if I was actually about to die. It definitely felt like the latter. It reminds me of how Leo said that we are all full of shit and when a crocodile is chasing you, all your spiritual shit flies out the window. Im interested to hear your opinion about it. Practical learning: don’t take psychedelics when you’re on medication or don’t feel fit otherwise.

@Princess Arabia Thanks for your reply, I can deeply resonate with it and from my personal experience it is true what you are saying. I used the principles of the law of attraction successfully with money/business success and romantic relationships. Deep down I know that I will heal too when the timing is right. Gods delays have made me doubt and become discouraged recently. Sometimes I forget how powerful our intention can be. I guess I don’t really have a choice, but to keep going and keep the vibes high. This spiritual path is indeed an interesting one.

Since in Europe drinking is such a big part when going out, I wanted to know how you guys handle it during night game? Background: Due to health reasons I dont drink. When I get to know girls in bars, clubs etc., having drinks is a big part of what people do there and Im not sure how to go about it. Question 1: Do you order water in a cup? How do you react when girls as you if or why you dont drink? Question 2: What are some fun things you can actually do with a girl in a bar/club environment? I move her around, have silly and deep converstions to stimulate her emotionally, go to the dancefloor etc. But when you avoid the bar and drinks completely it feels like missing out on another fun activity. I read the goal is to go on as many mini adventures with her as possible/ move her around. Or is good verbal game enough and it really doesnt matter what you do? I really appreciate you guys and this forum!

Thank you for the soid advice guys (and girls)! Really helpful as usual to see beyond my own perspective.

One of my favourites

https://www.greatgenius.com/truth-about-what-happens-after-death Those are the relevant excerpts.

@Leo Gura I thought it was obvious that this was meant as a joke 😂 sorry for the confusion, love you man

That really hurt my feelings. I thought we had something going on here. Always knew you were an asshole..

@CoolDreamThanks I get what your point of view is: The world created by ego is evil and we need to overcome it through spirituality/truth. I don't think it contradicts what Leo says. He always says that selfishness exists. The more selfless you become, the more godlike you are. The more selfish a person is, the more he acts like a devil. The result can be seen on planet earth (wars, starvation, business scams etc.) You overcome this devilry by realizing truth. From what I understand it works like this: We are in "earth school". Most people incarnate are free souls with an intention to learn certain lessons. They need to take the curriculum as Ram Dass says. Some more experienced souls incarnate to also learn some lessons but mainly to awaken others. If I were God, I'd cast myself down to darkness and separation in order to free myself from delusion and find out all over again that I am love/truth/all powerful. It's just so juicy to realize and fun to play. Don't discredit Leo for his suffering. All the great saints suffered immensely. Dolores Cannon says in one of her transcriptions that the line for disabled/sick peoples bodies is longer and than the one for the normal ones. Why is that? Suffering erodes your ego slowly and binds you to the truth. It's the best catalyst there is. How I see my life purpose: I'm here to master my emotional state/frequency independent of circumstances. Help yourself and then help others.. or be the white dot in the YinYang symbol, i.e. the opportunity for truth in the dark. God isn't evil, there is always the opportunity to realize god. Bashar and some others said it: Earth is hard. So cheers to you brave bastards for coming down here. Sometimes I'm tired of this shit too and wonder why I was so foolish to incarnate here lol. God forgets quickly, the greedy motherfucker.

@tezk Thanks for the answer and the tips. I'll check out the book (also know him from YT) and watch your video. Very interesting stuff. If we can stay in this mindset we can handle it man.

Hey I'm 24 years old and suffering from chronic health issues. (Gut stuff and chronic fatigue mainly) I already did pretty much everything treatment wise and visited the best doctors/naturopaths/coaches, so I dont need tips there. My health definitely improved but I still experience symptoms. I can see now how this limitation keeps me humble and oriented towards my highest path which lies in truth and being love. It stops me from indulging in degenerative, self destructive behaviour and chasing dopamine highs. It lets me focus on my business in app development (thankfully already quite successful) and deepenig my awakenigs and cuts all the other crap out. It also helped me heal old trauma and helped to erode a big part of my false sense of self. Sometimes I still feel the pain of not being able to do stuff others are doing. (Which I ultimately know wont make me happy). But still sometimes its hard to accept limitation. I still believe I can heal myself if I make it a top priority, but it requires great self discipline. Because I slowly got the money thing down, I do engage in game/pickup right now because I know that's a karma I can't just let go of. It's fun but I still feel like this drains me sometimes and I need to be extra careful where I invest my energy into. I feel like playing life on hard mode. Also feel like it's me making sure that I go down the right path in life. The potential for inner growth is enormous but still it's fu*king hard sometimes. I know some of you guys and Leo as well have similar experiences. Do you have any tips on how to deal with limitation/illness mentally?

@Leo Gura Thank you. That goes to my reminders on my Smartphone. Not letting people gaslight you is a big one. Many simply cant understand (not eating certain foods, going to bed on time, spending time alone etc). Good thing Im aware that I am only imagining them lol. But I need to practice setting these boundaries with people. That is a good list Leo and the mature way to deal with it. I love it. Another question (less important but interesting): Do you tell people who you are dating or friends etc? I dont want to be commiserated. Tell them if relevant and then be lighthearted about it. Is that the move? PS: "Im Trimming my social garden" is a phrase that Mystery uses in many of his infields. The whole "I demonstrate high value by showing that I dont like to hang out with just anyone" seems to work well with chicks. Also good life advice generally probably.

Good one. Screenshoted it. Like leo said: Raise the bar of what you can love. Can you see the love in a rapist, your suffering or the dog shit on the side walk? This human experience is really a great tool to be a master of ones frequency independent of circumstances. I still think I was a little foolish in coming down here. Our soul forgets so quickly how intense the suffering here can be. Giving hints to others is a fun thing though and moving people closer to God/Home is fulfilling. Still, having experienced how much love is possible in this universe, I wonder sometimes why I came down to all this human ego bullshit and selfishness. What a life lol keep up the good work brother

The thing you call outbursts are love. In Leo's case well calibrated and sometimes tough love, which he knows is necessary for you to grow up. Like a mother who turns her child's TV off because she knows it's best for the child to stop watching. The child on the other hand cries about it and might even start to hate its mother. Eventually, the child will understand... Edit: it might help the child to learn about the nature of the universe amd realize it is god.

@Proserpina where did Bentinho say this?." A bit like what Bentinho talks about how if you don’t keep up once you reach a certain level you can become very unwell or die" it resonates and Id love to know more

@The0Self Thank's boss! It was today that I found out that I contracted Covid, so might not have been redistribution after all lol

After completing my first three rounds of chelation, (for confirmed mercury toxicity) I have a few questions regarding the dosage of chelators. Started my first round at 12,5 mg DMSA per dose. I felt very good during and after chelation. After reading that DMSA is less effective against mercury and not ideal for people with yeast issues, I ordered DMPS. My round with 10mg DMPS every 7h went so bad that I had to quit after the second day. So I halved the dose, based on the general recommedations in the ACC Facebook group, to 5mg DMPS on my 3rd round. Completed the round but redistribution symptoms are intolerable. I have a feeling, that going even lower is bullshit. I see a lot of people in the ACC Facebook group that take doses in the 0. mg range. Instincts tell me to jump back on DMSA, do a few rounds and try to double the dose. What do you think about this? Can dosing too low cause more harm than good? Of course, Further down the round I want to introduce ALA. (I read the books and even Cutler himself recommends higher doses) Thanks to Leo's video I knew that a single high dose of DMSA, which was recommended by my doc, would be stupid. So I'm grateful I didnt make that mistake.

@The0Self Thanks for the summary! From the things I read, DMPS does chelate mercury, it just doesn't cross the BBB (blood brain barrier). I've heard it's a smart move to reduce the mercury load in the body first, before going for the brain.

@Leo Gura I just saw a good amount of people talk about "jump rounds", where they went from very low doses to moderate or high doses and did very well. I now guess these people didnt try to find their tolerance dose but just started very low out of the gates. This made me thinking that going higher in dose might be the right move. Since redistribution symptoms were insane, I'll probably go down to 1 mg DMPS.

@Nivsch Thanks I just wanted to confirm it, since I saw a comment of Leo that mentioned that a 0.1mf dose of Ala is not intelligent. Dont quote me on it though. I guess this means I have quite a bit of chelating to do as you said.

Does reaching/embodying higher states of consciousness contribute to the healing of physical illness in the body? As a 23 y/o male I have had some health issues that I've been really trying to solve for the past three years (wrecked gut health through parasite infections, antibiotics etc.) On the physical plain I'm doing everything possible (working with really good practitioners, diet, lifestyle, supplements, intensive research...) The extreme suffering this disease has caused me, led me to further go down the path of awakening and ego death, which is beautiful and something I'm really grateful for. I have reached enlightenment and most of the time I'm perfectly in a happy/loving/giving state of consciousness (of course, sometimes I still have slip ups). My fatigue and some other symptoms really hinder me though from doing a lot of human stuff (dating, holidays, more work etc.). The energy I have, I mainly use for business and practicing spirituality. Even though I managed to burn through a fair amount of karma (materialistic goals, women etc.) early in my life, I am not done in this regard and there are still many human endeavors that I want to experience. Therefore, I have the intention of living in a fully healthy body. I know that Leo has suffered from chronic illness. How does one best deal with bodily illness from a spiritual/mindset perspective? Do you have any experiences or know any healing stories? I really appreciate you guys!

@Razard86 Thank you! I have been reading his book, which is real practical and gives some solid steps for achieving healing. I'll give my best and will let you know once I've achieved my goal. Rj is definitely a master I have been looking for.

Thank you for your input! Yeah acceptance is a big one and always the first step. But many authors and elightened masters like Hawkins (in Healing and Recovery) or Wayne Dyer claim that you can heal the body and diseases like cancer through different techniques, LOA, visualization, miracles etc. On the other hand, I have heard of enlightened masters who became severely sick and died of cancer etc. So there seems to be a lot of contradicting claims. What are you as your higher self/god really capable of? Isn't the answer everything? I mean I manifested business success. The next thing I am manifesting is a healthy body. This shouldn't be that complicated. On psychedelics I have received some answers as to why my illness came about and on how to heal it, thought I'd share: - bodily sickness brought about through trauma, trauma is there for you to realize you are god - this body runs beautifully on every fuel (cancel all other belief systems/ they are just belief systems. By believing them they become reality) - once you have healed your human traumas all your health will be restored to you - this is a game for healing traumas. Traumas only are generated in infants so that they can heal them and realize they are god. Its basically a simulation to realize you are god. - all trauma comes from the innocence as a new born consciousness , i am a clean slate and truly innocent - if I heal my need for acceptance from others my body will be in full health/fitnness and 100 % strength again - all that happens in my life is trying to make me stay conscious of this truth Iam god Iam everything Iam the mastermind that creates this beautiful Illusion - my trauma/lower self seeks approval from others, I am healing that right now, I am healing this inner wound , forgive myself for it, let go and allow myself to heal - Just bc others arent there yet, dont be afraid to shine your light fully. - dont be afraid to express yourself , dont be afraid to get judged by others, they only see a higher level of being and ultimately want to achieve it themselves - stop judging yourself and others - In crisis say: I will not veer from this spiritual work - Be (a light of) love, then god will always take care of you There are a few more but those are my favorites!