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@LoneWonderer could you try any of the video recommendations?

@theleelajoker I resonate with what you share. Yes, I forgot to mention the jaw, lots of tension is stored there as well. Releasing the jaw in psychedelics feels orgasmic. Regarding not going to the spot with vipassana, I just love to go straight to the deepest tension but I've learnt to not overfocus either. You've gotta see the consciousness and emptiness of the core solidity. Then move on till you complete a cycle (what feels like an energetic completion) to go back again to the spot intensely. I really do my best to feel it and dissolve it. Very probably memories and thoughts will come as it's dissolving, let it all go through you without getting caught. That would be my advice. This is a challenging process. I'm happy we are all sharing our bit. I liked the second perspective you shared, I never thought to frame it that way.

On the Blindness of Scientism: I almost fell from my sofa laughing when the dude from the video said this: The cosmic humour here is just hilarious Getting serious, how can you really care about Consciousness and avoid the evidence of dozens of people sending you emails that psychedelics are revelatory to grasp consciousness and you just omit it. How on earth! I did the same process as that dude and when I encountered psychedelics, I just tried them, and there you have it, bombastic shock.

Lmaooo Let's see who are the best Dark Souls players in the world ahahahhaha

Videogame insight: Just imagine how wild gaming will become once we reach 360° fully multisensory Virtual Reality—where sight, sound, touch, taste and smell pull you completely into a Videogame world. Psychedelic Insight: Wait doesn't DMT and Salvia do That?

Honestly what you make about it is second order reality. The sensorial fact of your illness is first order and that is the only thing I can point to. You go about making sense of it.

@LoneWonderer I know how challenging it is. Trust the process. You're not alone. This is a good sign in fact. You're becoming so conscious that your own body and energetic system is becoming the bottleneck for higher consciousness, that's already a crazy level of spiritual development. You can say I've become so conscious that my body couldn't hold it and started upgrading itself!

How come an enlightened man reads the newspaper!

It's a long term process. I'm 100+ trips in and still working through them. This is my understanding: Don't worry because this is normal. What happens? Imagine your body as a fluid system. Now more fluid is introduced in the system and it flows more frenetically. This creates "bottlenecks" that weren't present before. That's what you are feeling in psychedelics. What exactly are bottlenecks? There are many ways to frame it. I sometimes see them as energetic/muscualr/biomemory contractions. Sometimes it may be karma or unresolved mind/body issues that are not consciously resolved and therefore unconsciously stored in the body (for example I had lots of fears in my ass, or insecurity in my stomach area). Now I simply see as the "lower" part of my energetic body, realising that I'm an organism or system that is continually evolving, there are parts of my psyche and self more evolved than others. So that contraction I'm feeling to release and resolve is only so in relation to the evolution of the rest of my body, but that same part, if took years ago, it would be the most evolved. This cleared the fear of how is it possible that after years of this work, I keep encountering "trauma", now I see, it's just the loose end of my system to be evolved, there are always rough edges so to speak. Around 20 trips in I realized I couldn't just be doing this work "in the trips" that I had to find a way to evolve my energetic system everyday. That's when I experimented with many techniques and the ones that correlate more outside and inside trips for this matter are: Kundalini and vipassana. (advanced non-doing meditation also works, but it needs some skills, you have to become conscious that you are clinching that zone and then consciously releasing, like a fist so tight for so long you forgot you were even doing it). So I'll leave you some resources:

"Worldly life is no doubt a battlefield. By becoming conscious of one's spiritual wealth one must strive to emerge triumphant from the battle."

@Carl-Richard We can dissect and explain intelligence in many interesting and nuanced ways. My insight though was in another domain. Regarding how is it possible that someone with all the traits you mentioned and even more, can still be utterly deluded and very very wrong about reality: both in the common sense and in the existential sense. This is a non obvious, non trivial question and that is exactly what my insight revealed. I wouldn't know how to go about properly defining or understanding IQ or Intelligence. It's something still in the contemplative machine.

Dealing with cosmic horror while trying to ace my ant life was the biggest challenge in the beginnings of my spiritual Awakening.

@Ima Freeman There is a correlation between peak consciousness and health, but consciousness still is the medium and essence of pain and suffering. You're conscious of all the disease you describe, in the same way you become conscious of a screen or the Infinite nature of reality. In short, yes to realize God, Peak consciousness and Infinity your consciousness must break all limits and serious health issues may be a serious constraint/bottleneck. To realize the existential nature of Reality which is Consciousness, it health or it's absence, is neither an obstacle nor helpful, because you're always existing, pain is existing, pleasure is existing, no matter the form, sensation or object reality takes, that's it, this is the Ever-present-Beingness Awakening so to speak, it's always on.

That's only a dimension of spirituality. No thoughts and Beingness is quite a basic level of realization, get over it. You're working only in the ever-present nature of Reality. That's fine and good, but once you master that, mystics naturally progress to the peaks of consciousness and Infinity. Sitting there just being, becomes a hindrance after some point, and you've already more than exhausted that point. Go have a new Awakening, you got 2/30 ( I guess you also realised no self)

Yes, it broke my mind. Like putting an insane gear in my mind and accelerating.

I've been contemplating on IQ lately and I've had an interesting insight that cleared lots of confusion for me. IQ is like horsepower in a car. It's the raw brute power a brain is able to exert, so to speak. However, skilful driving is not only determined by the car, but by its driver also. This analogy explains why high IQ individuals may be brilliantly stupid, because they are using all that horsepower for self-deception and getting into dead ends of contemplation. At the same way, it shows how average horsepower can get into truth and high intelligence, as a skilful driver gets safely to its destination. Finally, it shows how the best minds must meet lots of horsepowers with a skilfull driver (mature ego) to actualize the full potential of the Human mind.

This is one is really profound: https://youtu.be/Bs9g9B0O0to?si=ziIHPV9pucKgk2Nb The three videos on postmodernism really cleared baggage from modernist epistemology I had. It's good to think epistemology from scratch as Leo said, this is foundational, yet I have found that even in doing so, there are blind spots that go unnoticed. In this same line, that's why I also recommend the trilogy on deconstructing the myth of science.

Really loved the "c" te contextualization gif. I looked at it for quite some time.

Great videos

Take mushrooms, they are very good and guiding for healing. Enter into the experiment with the deep desire to heal and love yourself, to bring the light that in one flash will vanish all the darkness. I recommend to do some breathing, yoga, before the experience to start connecting with yourself. Pro tip: if you want lasting change figure out where in your body is stored that particular trauma and release it. Vice versa, you can start by a located physical tension and by releasing it in the trip all the stored trauma will be re-lived one last time before decompressing and vanishing. No, it's not useless ego game, shadow work and healing is an utmost necessary part in the spiritual path. Not dealing with it makes a bottleneck both in your personal life and in your spiritual path. You're having the right intuition and asking the right questions.

@OBEler I like Yogigems, any of her videos are nice but this one is the most condensed and effective in my experience:

Being God you instantly have the answer to any question. Question and answer coarise in your mind. Although you won't have the same human interests and concerns. You will only ask intelligent and meaningful questions, otherwise you'll bask in your own glory and perfection.

Yes, I know, I've undergone the process. That was addressed with the learning curve point. I just wanted to make a general warning about this trap: "spiritual practices need months of work to see results." I find this a waste of resources and an unskilful approach. Try kriya yoga 7 times, if you don't see changes in your consciousness go try another practice. Because I wasted many hours trying kriya yoga and it never suited me. On the contrary, kundalini worked profoundly from the first sit and it just increased in efficiency and potency. It would have been a huge mistake to keep doubling down on kriya yoga based on the mentality before exposed. Obviously some advanced techniques take much more time to master like comfortable padmasana, kechari mudra, etc. That is fine, but should be landing on basics that consistently work in raising your awareness and in shifting your state of consciousness.

In my opinion, if you have a spiritual practice that doesn't yield results in every sit... Better leave it and try another one. It took me some time to find the best fitting techniques for me, every sit makes me substantially more conscious, everytime, everyday. Of course, all techniques have a learning curve, but I'm very against this mentality of: practice everyday for months and maybe you'll see results, you're getting ripped.