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Why did you frame it like this? For me meditation is all about consciousness

Of course! I used to do this from a self-contracted standpoint, really trying to figure it out from a place of lack... Not any more. Now I do it from playfulness. It's my way to celebrate existence. It is a real joy the whole proccess. Like dancing, I'm not trying to arrive from point A to B, rather just letting myself be a leaf in the wind, dancing and being uniquely myself. The moment I realized I am not human is when for the first time I started discovering what is to be human, who I really am and what I enjoy to do. And I enjoy the game of Whac-A-Mole

You feel like shit because it takes so much strain in your body to create sperm again. It is such a costly process in all levels of the human being. So much vitamins and components from each organ is taken out. Energetically and spiritually is also very demanding to create millions of replicas of you. I did not find clarity till I read this book and the possibility of sex without ejaculation demistified: Taoist Secrets of Love: Cultivating Male Sexual Energy I'm thinking about making a post about the author Mantak Chia, for being the first one (after really too much search) to explain how SEX and sexual energy REALLY work.

But isn't that reality you are spawned into after awakening? In one the spawning is like the frames where there, in the other it seems like it wasn't there. Yet in both it is a continuum reality that configures in that way. Meaning that, actually consciousness did not cease but what you are conscious of right now is that, consciousness tricked and imagined itself to cease. I think this could be accurate and also links it with imagination.

@Breakingthewall Wow that is exactly so. I have also reflected about what you are saying but you provided the missing pieces that I was lacking. What if I don't want to let go? What if you don't want to let it go? Can we choose to let go of things? Or do things let go of us? Tricky stuff, yet just playing with you. I get you and in fact I wanted to also let it go but it was to much of a hole in my understanding of reality to let it go, maybe you love her too much also to let her go and want to play your best game with her. Could you give any advise in someone trying to replicate what you have verified for yourself? I am actually going through an interesting proccess of posing this question to everything. If I am God why I procrastinate? If I am God why do I eat? If I am God why do I behave, think and feel like a limited human? In this way, I'm trying to ground all my human capabilities in service of who I am, Reality itself, Existence itself. I am not saying anymore how can I be consciousness if I sleep. Now I say, how can I sleep if I am consciousness. You see this subtle importante change in your framing of reality. I suffer so much, how can i be God? No... I am God, how can I suffer so much? I am God, how can I be so unconsciuous, so selfish..? Like this I am flipping all myself inside out to see what remains after this proccess is completed.

@Inliytened1 I don't think I understood you correctly. Are you saying that there is no deep sleep and all night long we are dreaming but when we wake up we have no memory about that? Or are you saying that even sleep is a state of consciousness? Could you please clarify what did you really mean? This is important for me, your help would be very much appreciated

You left me puzzled with that answer not gonna lie!

The problem is that you may eat hand full of seeds and have mild effects or just eat one seed and have an overdose and die. There is NO WAY to measure how much active ingredient you are getting, you are really playing Russian roulette. It's bad from wherever health angle you may look at it really (although the experience if safer would be interesting to have). It also can cause adverse effects for the rest of your life. You will be 70 still suffering from a stupid decision you made when you were young.

Any chemical that is direct enough in hitting my consciousness. That's how I frame it to myself and why I consider ketamine and salvia psychedelics. Although tecnically speaking they are entheogens.

NO. Here you can find the most crazy Psychonauts, if there is an agreement is on Datura. Proceed at your own risk This point you have no idea how profound is. You don't remember you have taken Datura! While tripping balls on Datura!!!

@Razard86 Yes, you have to jump and not only once, multiple times it happens as we all know. After some time you even enjoy it and feel comfortable in the unknown. Will there be sharks in these dark waters...? Is there something on the other side? Yes, the same side

@Someone here The inconsistency of your posts over the years is strange. Hope you get some clarity about where the gold is man, to go at least in the good direction. Otherwise you are striking blindly. You say intuition because you don't actually know, when you know there is no more intuition. You don't intuit that there is an existence right now happening, being, breathing, this aliveness is not an intuition see? It is actual, direct. In the same way is God and Iness. Reality/Truth is what you are intuiting but truth is already here, it is the here, the now. I'm not joking really, actually see this unbroken beingness. This is the direction, keep on going. Ground yourself in experience, whatever you are experiencing right now, it's it, this is it. See? Not that hard, keep going down this path of actuality and you will see what is actually going on here and remember always to follow your intuition in the way.

I'm searching to expand my taste in this domain. So far (Malt, LSD, AL-LAD, Mushrooms, Salvia, Weed, Ketamine, MDMA...) I'm interested in Blue Bliss pellets (5-MAPB+2-FMA+5-MeO-MiPT), similar in effects to MDMA but safer. I still have to make my mind whether to buy them or not. Any recommendations? What is that secret psychedelic that you hide in your drawer?

@An young being This hits in so many levels. Funny that my partner is very close to Kali and I am very close to Shiva. I mean all of these are archetypes, unknotting styles we could say. When it clicks then it clicks, otherwise you end up looking at pixels or making stories. First state comes, then space opens, from that powers florish, when it becomes second nature, beingness is felt, superconsciousness then must eventually come. From superconsciousness a convenient ecosystem happens arround you and through you in all levels. These is true in microcycles and macrocycles

Having a loving partner pays dividents the rest of your life. I'm grateful for having an amazing girl besides me. I feel like we complement each other. Kundalini for me is when you become so conscious that the most embodied nature of your self is taken over by energy in pool like motions healing all your being and evolving the whole human vessel. I also intuit that it segregates some psychedelic chemistry by using the inner lab of the body, yet this is speculation. What I do feel is profound healing dissolving all contractions and knots in my body and mind, working towards an efortless flow of energy. Kundalini upgrades your baseline consciousness, after the whole proccess ends your ground of consciousness is forever upgraded. You are more conscious, every moment and you cannot fall from that checkpoint so to speak. You feel alive and energy feels femenine so it has this flavour. You really feel life and reality, like cleaning a mirror.

Hope you are doing better. We are all going through our own things. We are not perfect and it takes courage to speak and be honest with ourselves and others. When we help others we help ourselves. This remind me about an incident yesterday. I've been going through a kundalini awakening that is rewiring my whole body and was triggered by malt + cannabis and is lasting for several days as for now. Yesterday I had some joint left over from the trip and decided to finish it. The kundalini and energy in my body was given a boost to keep working. When I went to the bathroom, after peeing I flushed with my whole being literally gave it all, cleaning myself, in that pressing and feeling the water go down the whole toilet system. Yet it started to do some weird noises with the water, it was 3 am and I live with other people in the next rooms. I don't know why, I convinced myself that I broke the toilet and the water was falling down somewhere as the sound was very intense. I thought I would wake up everyone, while literally going through an intense Awakening. Some objectively low time after but subjectively long time after, the toilet stopped the sound when the water filled itself and silence returned. I was left there in my bed like: wow I've constructed all this in my mind. It was a humbling experience. It is also hard to communicate and people receive shuch stories when shared, it is something you live in the end, but we all live in some way or in the other, so intimate yet so shared.

The seed is already planted. Truth has is power even though it does not click immediately. It is indeed. I find that answers are usually some kind of unknotting in my mind that allow it to return to it's natural symmetry, but not an end in themselves. Reality is much juicer when it is naturally being itself, whatever that means

@Bazooka Jesus That is so beautiful. Thank you I really enjoyed it Idk why we are so serious, even here. Life is a celebration. Lots of love my friend

Answers make sense when they come out of direct experience and understanding, till then all answers are no answer really. Someone has to live it, to be it, for there to be an answer. This must be you. This must be myself. With this conviction inquiry is grounded in Truth and authenticity. Inquary is well lubricated and flowing towards a state and space where asking is answering.

Also talk to yourself, don't bring more cooks into the kitchen.

Also allow your inquiry to breathe and expand. By it's nature it is a practice that contracts and breakthroughs. If you are able to relax and open you will be able to contract and breakthrough more. Otherwise you strain yourself or burn yourself. Having some good breathes and expanding your sense of self to the space you find yourself gives room to broader and more holistic insights. There also comes a point where the contraction and breakthrough is not done through the body itself but through the expansion, a bigger reality is now juiced up so to speak to grasp and extract better what already is. In reality all is in all, in practice it usually happens like this. Your human mind is too little for genuine inquiry, grow over your human mind, expand to your room's mind and to universal mind. From Universal Mind, the length breath and depth of the inquiry is evolved to it's pinnacle yet the feeling of this is home and natural, keep on increasing. Chew all these again and again, otherwise you will throw it before getting the taste. All this can not only be experienced but be experienced continuosly in an unbroken chain of beingness. Just tune yourself, that is all, how easy and how difficult.

Facts. There is a threshold point where all questions solve themselves immediately. There is no question or problem in all levels that is not revealed to you. Then the game of question and answer does not arise, at all. You should know this is a possibility also, till then questions are needed and extremely important. When you walk all the paths in your mind and self then and only then, can be hope for something transhuman.

Straightforward intimacy is at the heart of all inquiry This understanding grounds inquiry: if it has to be done is to be done now, in the now, awakening in the now, understanding in the now, realizing in the now, if it is not now, it will never happen, now is the moment, now I have to know, now I have to discover, now I have to realize, now I have to experience, Now I have to Awaken. How Straightforward have you been with what I just said? How direct? Have you been intimate with these sharing moments? This is a little elaboration on the previous point, the seed is here you will have to chew it yourself to unravel the particularities for you.

Fearlessness and Straightforwardedness

Multiple reasons are there. For making videos also.