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I'm sure there are limits but I wouldn't limit myself in this work, as all limits are creations within my mind.

After some fruitful trips on my own, where I felt fairly functional despite my radical state of consciousness, I decided to test this substance in other environments. I was curious to know how I would handle "regular" life from a radically different state of consciousness. These experiments, though they involved some unavoidable risks, yielded out-of-the-box results. Interesting scenarios came up that would never have happened if I was just contemplating alone in my room. I wanted to be in contact with life. Today I'll explain my experience with malt on a beautiful beach with my partner. I decided to snort it in a private place and then return with my girl in the sand. However, I felt she was uneasy with the fact that I did such a compound in this situation, but my decision was already taken, and I went for it and surrendered the outcome. I started feeling my consciousness interpenetrate the landscape as the waves in the sea crushed with the shore. I was not becoming more conscious, but consciousness itself was taking the primary seat in the experience. The stories of being human, laying on my towel on planet Earth, started unwinding, and the knots in myself were released inside consciousness as consciousness. While this was happening, I felt my girlfriend's presence. I looked at her and my consciousness traveled through all her internal mazes, in and out to the surroundings. I felt her internal state, so I decided to talk with her. As she opened up, she asked me why I had to take drugs, saying that I was far out in my own world while behaving like a child. Here is when a fascinating and remarkable phenomenon started happening. My mind started to integrate the following states of consciousness: "All that is going on is Pure Consciousness" + my regular human state of consciousness (biases included) + my partner's state of consciousness + the socially calibrated surrounding aware state of consciousness. My mind was simultaneously and smoothly integrating it all into a cohesive, singular, glorious, but naturally felt state of consciousness. Before going on with the story, I was surprised by the absence of contradiction and the profound holism of the state that I found myself in. From here, I was able to see that the real point she was trying to make was that she wanted to connect with me and have a high-quality time together (that's her love language). The point was not the drugs themselves or my epiphanies, but her need to feel connected and to spend an enjoyable afternoon together at the beach. After going through it together, crying, and hugging each other, we decided to take a bath in the sea. Where are the boundaries of myself? I think while my body and the water start flowing together in a rhythmic dance of presence and consciousness. We kiss each other, we laugh together, and we see the little fish swimming around our feet. I had the urge to pee, and I decided to let it all go there. I had never done such a thing, and it was strange in the beginning. Suddenly, it felt like fucking the whole sea and cumming with yellow water. What a release I felt! What is fucking anyway? Who do I fuck but my very own self? I get out of the water and approach my towel. I realize what Leo means by "figments of my own imagination"—my parents, my life, everything... My Mind constructs Reality. Wait, all of it? After each awakening, the ratio of what my mind constructs and does not construct keeps going up. I ask myself, is even this present reality experience I'm having a construction of my own mind? How would I tell the difference? It suddenly shocks me. My Mind is reality itself; the Engine that is Reality is nothing but my very own mind. Everywhere I look, everything I experience, is but the face of God, I'm always looking at myself through myself in myself as myself. The One Unifying Reality, both unattainable and unlosable, ever-already present in all states of consciousness. Gradually, my consciousness shifts into a more base line state. Yet, this question still hammers inside of me. Are all states of consciousness but the One Reality? Even when my Mind merges multiple states of consciousness, both transhuman and human into one, I realize that is just another state of consciousness I can be in. Is Awakening a state of consciousness that includes all states of consciousness? Or rather, are all states of consciousness and modes of being God itself flowering in its infinity?

I've had very mystical and flowing experiences in parties. Absolutely letting go and giving it all. Celebration is life. Reality is a celebration!

Trust the experience and go with it. One thing I like to do after I take it is, check how I feel and then say all of this is placebo effect. My mind is creating literally the effects out of nowhere. Let me relax, breathe and open up to the real experience.

I'm in the exact same phase now. However, the possibility of locking peak states into your base line consciousness is a very real possibility I have experienced. So you can do both without any contradiction. A higher synthesis.

Don't remember, relive them in this moment, infuse them with life as you rekindle a fire. Love is many times the key to integrate Truth. Love it to death, love it so much it dissolves your inner blockages that stop the realization to consume your whole being. Lock it up as your baseline consciousness, literally drill it into your consciousness by alertness and love. You must be ferocious, your whole being should shake, all your incompletions, self doubts, everything... should shake by your firm will persistance to live from the truth you have realized and become directly concious about. That's what worked for me. Pure raw power and surrendering love.

Oh, that's it. Love is what I was missing. I just felt so shocked by infinity that I forgot to love it. In love I can find refuge and peace within this truth. I probably miss the direct experience but I struggle to understand what you encapsulate in the word Awake. Is being awake an infinite subset of the bigger infinity of all the possible states of consciousness? In other words, there is a range of states of consciousness that are awake to what God is? or what is the tipping point to now that you are in an Awake state of consciousness beyond relative comparisons with other states of consciousness?

That it's infinite. It is never ending. What can you do with that? Where to go? What to awaken to? It's humblingly infinite. What is awakening if this game goes forever then? What is the reference point? They all seem lost in this infinite mind. There is nothing holding it, no one vs the other. Just endless. What is awakening? This endless game? Consciousness for infinity? What is the states I want to explore then? Is in here where the gold is? In the infinite exploration of myself? Just for the sake of it, being it's own meaning?

How are we to reconcile the apparent infinity of states of consciousness we can be in, with a range of "awakened" states of consciousness? I'm really struggling to make sense of this. On the one hand, some states are obviously more conscious and Godly than others. But on the other hand, what are all states of consciousness but consciousness itself? I feel choked by states of consciousness and sense that whatever state I find myself in, that must be the closest to God and Reality I can be at that moment. I have this feeling of losing God in the form of the current state of consciousness for it to be in a never ending purer state. However, going forward in that direction seems endless, as well as in the rest of directions. I feel kinda lost and amazed by my own infinite mind. The more I awaken, the more I feel that it is all The One Reality, manifesting in a particular state, yet the existential urge for ever deeper exploration of Godly states of being keeps on increasing. I would really like some high-quality advice here to get some orientation @Leo Gura Thanks in advance

Where the play of ego is, there and there alone mine and yours exist. Where everything is a manifestation of the Supreme Being, there, whatever you behold represents God Himself. ~ Anandamayi Ma "In whatever direction you may turn your gaze, you will find One Eternal Indivisible Being manifested. Yet it is not at all easy to detect this presence because He interpenetrates everything. As a king is known by his majesty, as fire is known by its heat, so the Unmanifest reveals Himself through the world of manifestation. The analysis of the substance of all created things, if carried sufficiently far, will lead to the discovery that what remains is identical and equally present in all creatures: it is He, it is That, which is styled as Pure Consciousness." ~ Anandamayi Ma

I don't think your experience will be replicable for other people.

The same in terms of effects but different dossages are needed. Use this calculator: https://www.zamnesia.com/magic-mushroom-dosage-calculator Unless you are a veteran psychonaut you would never be able to see the difference in the experience. Truffles bought from netherlands are great.

No TR, all is imagination. Salvia fucks the fabric of Reality anything can happen. What do you think happens after physical death? No idea. It feels like you had all your life a very heavy tight coat and now you are taking it off to discover that you are the whole universe and you find yourself being a vast empty sky of consciousness, which strangely enough desires to embody itself again or generate another universe within itself. I stopped my heavy Salvia exploration after this death trip so I can't really contrast that experience with other Salvia experiences.

Sufism is your way. I recommend you Ibn Arabi, the highest saint in islam after Muhammad. I personally view Ibn Arabi as one of the highest God-Realized beings in human history. People figured it out through all traditions. I do feel that the truth that one is God and God is all, is at the core of the highest saints of all religions.

The actitude of testing is very femenine in nature. Girls unconsciously test man all the time to see if they are a good option to have children with, survival wired them like this. A man does not need to test her woman, he is powerful and has plenty of options to choose from. This is a very masculine perspective but your question asked for a man's perspective, there you have it. Other perspective could enrich and contrast this answer.

Yes but the death realization has many facets. I realized many times that death is imaginary and that I'm immortal and eternal. However, it was not till I tried salvia that I crossed the gate of death to see that it's just a change of clothes. Most psychedelics can make you realize death is an illusion, but in my experience Salvia is the only one that can make you die before you die in a crude real way. Salvia is also called the Back Door of Death. I don't recommend you to try Salvia, just sharing my experience about the multifaceted nature of Death. You can have awaken to death being an illusion, you can have the experience of dying and you could possibly have both at the same time. Dying while realizing death is an ilusion. (Didn't happen to me, I cried like a baby)

Beyond constructions and deconstructions of meaning there is reality and that is what we all are. It is more accurate to say that you are your own father and mother than to say they are constructions, not aware by themselves, as long as you say so. All modes of being and states are God and God alone. It's just yourself playing with yourself. Running in circles, it's a game, the only game, you have been awakening for infinity, that's what God does. Everything is a manifestation of God. You are manifested in all multiplicity and mind labyrinths, it's indeed a beautiful show to enjoy. Whatever reality is here, that is absolute, all contradictions and opposites included. In whatever way reality is behaving, it has it's own law. You are discovering interesting shapes of God but whatever Reality shapeshifts to, that is as itself as it could ever be, with it's according own law. The transgression of the law of reality where you find yourself in, is expensive, as well as forcing reality to shapeshift into certain states not understanding that God itself is what is now.

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Introduce yourself properly (days or weeks before the trip) so that everyone is comfortable with your presence. Otherwise, you can also just leave them or be much more outside the trip just checking now and then if they are okay. They are just going to have fun, listen to some music and trip in nature. It's not heavy stuff, everything should be fine as long as doses are LOW.

Read a book by Ken Wilber or Douglas Hofstadter and try to get the same delivery through any other method. The highest quality communications can only be delivered through books or continuous, direct one-on-one teaching.

Lol can you explain what are this substances? I just searched them but I would prefer your direct experience. About your question, I feel weed more expansive now. Like the whole world is high on weed not just me.

Some men have gone to bathe in the sea. They have made up their minds to swim ahead of everyone else and, consequently, they will have to look back. He whose one and only goal is the ocean has nothing else to look at and nothing else to consider, and then, what is to be, will be. Give yourself up to the wave and you will be absorbed by the current - having dived into the sea you will not return. The Eternal Himself is the wave that floods the shore so that you may be immersed. Those, who can surrender themselves to this end will be accepted by Him. But, if your attention remains on the shore, you cannot proceed - after bathing you will return home. Aiming at the Supreme, at the ultimate, will lead you on through the movement of your true nature. There are waves that carry away and waves that bring back. Those who can give themselves up, will be taken by Him. In the guise of the wave, He holds out His hand and calls you: come, Come, COME.

Wow, where to begin? This is not a drug, and I can't even say it's a psychedelic. It feels like sobering up from a dream. It's not a high feeling or a trip, it's how things are when you are conscious and alive. I am very surprised and happy about malt, this is what I had been searching for. It really feels like my natural awakenings there is not this mystical psychedelic vibe to it, there is just consciousness and you can become more conscious and more awake. It really has this property of this is how things are, this is natural, this is real. This is probably what has surprised me the most, the no-drug vibes no-tripping, just awakening, just consciousness. The other aspect that I should also mention is the energetic demands. So I went to a physiotherapist prior to my trip and during the trip I had to work through energetic blockages. There was some nausea but everything was fine. Malt has given me some LSD vibes in the sense of energetic amplification and the feeling of "unblock and heal" within my body/being. I expect, as I use more the substance, to clear myself up from all blockages. It is clear that this is not the purpose of the trip. It's something that happens to purify and evolve the vessel to host higher consciousness. Or even better said, that higher consciousness is trying to be manifested but it finds blockages in the human form that need to be worked out, to make the flow of consciousness without resistance. I enjoyed how stable and interconnected my mind was during the trip. The fact of being no mind but from a full active mind standpoint was extremely satisfactory. I'm very intellectual and I have to confess that I loved how pure, stable and holistic my mind was during the trip. Nothing to do with loopy thoughts of classic psychedelics. I had the consciousness and also accessed it by other methods but malt's clarity is outstanding. It's what you really want and not any distracting meaningless other phenomena going on. About plugging: It works great for me and I'll use it in the future. It's just mental resistance to put something in your ass but I didn't even notice it. It's easier than what you would think. It gave me some mild stomach discomfort but I don't know if it's just the malt, the working of energetic blockages or the plugging. Overall conclusion: This is the Holy Grail of my life's search. This is the tool that I'll be using in my work for years to come. Thank you Leo, you really made the difference.