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Nah see absolutely. I agree with the last part. The thing is I would also casually date, but I just feel like I wouldn't even enjoy that, not only because it's boring but also because I believe she wants higher investment. I'm assuming but that's the feeling I get.

Yes, I don't plan to mislead her. From what I gather this is also potential her first relationship and is more invested.

For some reason, the notion that time flies hit me hard today. It's honestly scary. When you're aware of how fast time flies, all petty bullshit flies out the window. I really feel the desire to maximize the opportunities in my life and stop wasting time, stop taking things for granted, not one thing. I really really want to stay connected to this feeling. Is life really short? How can I stay more connected to this feeling, and not take life for granted? I really feel liberated by how petty human bullshit seems to be irrelevant when you realize time flies and that you must capitalize on the opportunities in front of you. I wish to live a long life 120+ years ahaha. But I feel like even if you live that long, time flies.

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I dislike not being the best. I actually hate it. I am jealous of a girl, its the friend I talked about. I'm also somewhat jealous of my mother for the same reason. They have this ability to focus, do whats necessary and win. I lock in, but I can't get to that level. They both have this drive to finish the task. No matter what I will get it. I really hate not having that ability. I feel like slave the circumstance, whereas they seem to make things work regardless of the circumstance. I'm actually really upset I don't have this ability, I promise I will cultivate it and be even better than them. Then I can be the best. Then I can be so good, people cry. (my inner immature self coming out)

Thank you for taking the time to think and write this. This is great.

Wow. That's crazy. Yea full circle indeed.

I'll make 20 million way before I am 85 anyway so whats the point.

Defenitly thought about that possibility. Matter of fact, I am almost certain you are right. Several times now I realize I don't have the variety of new experiences to be happy. Im dislike doing and experiencing the same shit everyday. I am planning exchanges in university to fix that issue, I really hope it helps. I also believe that the fact that I still live with my parents severely effect my general freedom and autonomy in such a way where its harder to try the new things I want, but that could be an excuse.

Breaking down what you think the best way to live life depending w phases is nice. I defenitly agree about the "People in 20's are more into black and white thinking". I plan to spend my 20s doing a whole lot of new things, so Im glad we somewhat agree on how to young adults should spend their time.

Thanks for addressing the fear I was feeling. I certainly see your point, The issue isn't just "life is short," it’s the deeper thought: “I’m going to die.” And that no matter how much you accomplish there's a nagging feeling that it's not enough. I seriously see how this feeling could just be a function of the mind, but also I think that there are people who genuinely take life for granted can defenitly benefit from appreciating and embracing life as an opportunity.

Maybe. Yea. Like I am repeating a year in university. It just seems short because I have the same subjects last year and this year, no real novelty in what Im doing, so I guess it makes sense why it seemed to fly by me so quick.

Great response. Thank you. I was curious on whether or not people exaggerate this topic. I never really made an effort to seek out Mentors. I will use what you said as food for thought. Appreciate it.

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Hey everyone, I’m running a personal experiment to test the Law of Attraction for myself. I’ve always been kind of agnostic about it (never fully bought into it, but a few coincidences in my life made me question whether there might be something to it). This time, I’m going all in. I’m specifically testing Neville Goddard’s approach. I’m using the ladder experiment: For those who don’t know, the ladder experiment is from Neville Goddard. You visualize yourself climbing a ladder every night before sleep, while telling yourself during the day “I will not climb a ladder.” The idea is to test if your imagination can manifest reality without forcing anything. I’ve tried this test twice before: The first time it "worked," but when I saw a ladder, I climbed it intentionally, which I don’t think is how the test is supposed to work. The second time, I only visualized for two nights. I imagined a really big ladder, and then I saw that exact kind of ladder at the gym while the owner was fixing something. But again, I didn’t climb it. Now I’m trying it a third time, and this time I want to do it properly, strict and focused. So, I’m curious, have any of you had real experiences with the Law of Attraction? Any genuine stories or tips to share? Also, any way to test the law of attraction more rigorously? Truth is important for me. Thanks

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For some reason, the notion that time flies hit me hard today. It's honestly scary. When you're aware of how fast time flies, all petty bullshit flies out the window. I really feel the desire to maximize the opportunities in my life and stop wasting time, stop taking things for granted, not one thing. I really really want to stay connected to this feeling. Im gonna write a forum post on this.

thanks for the responses. Im going on the second day of the experiment! I'll use some binaural beats

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Okay thanks

@AION I’ve been meditating consistently an hour a day for two months now. if it makes you feel any better know that probably 90% of my time meditating I am thinking bout some girl or a problem etc. I’ve still gotten really good results (specifically with focus ability) stick with it, maybe try guided. But also know that your experience is normal dawg. maybe you can label your thoughts as just “thinking” or “noise” and get back to medutation. rarley do the epiphanies during meditation actually hold value, they just seem super useful in the moment but in retrospect it’s procrastination (at least for me)

Okay so I went out with the pretty girl. The date went well. I'll be honest she's extremely pretty, and above my league, but she's somewhat boring. I met her again today, and it's getting better the more I meet her. But still kinda mundane personality. I won't pretend like that doesn't bother me but I also don't want to fuck up something good (she is super pretty after all). From the way I see it, she didn't go out much before me, she just started dating. I just finished talking to a friend (girl) of mine that I vibe with. She's not as traditionally pretty as the girl I went out with (according to modern beauty standards not even close), but she's smart, super funny, we vibe a fuck ton. she's thicker, which I like. She's dated a lot, told me stories where she fucked some random guy. But you know we vibe more. Polar oposites. Idk Im just thinking. But also man this girl I went out with is super gorgeous. Not my usual type but model level gorgeous. She has no experience like me so I guess its great.

Quickly writing down because I am tweaking. Basically girl I was going to ask out asked me out. I am going out now. She is very pretty. Idk what to do. Im thanking god but I am nervous too. In order to make it to the date I had to skip gym today. I just came back from playing football for 2 hours, so that's exercise checked for the day. But I am tweaking inside I really didn't want too miss gym like its bothering me so much FUCK FUCK FUCK. That's one workout I missed man fuck. I also spent few bucks on food for my friend because I owe him some. But I was saving money so I can invest in courses and make money soon, it physically hurts to spend money, now I go on date and I have to spend money again. SkibidiSkibidi She is objectively super super super super pretty S tier pretty so I want it to work out. Damn bro crazy she asked me out.

One of the reasons I don't like going out is because I have an extremely strong inferiority complex. I hate going out and being with people who are taller, more handsome more socially charismatic than I am. Today I went out, had so much fun, but when I come home I am hurting really really bad inside. My friends who are tall and super handsome went on a trip and had cool stories with women they've picked up. Me on the other hand, am still struggling to ask out a girl. It seriously enrages me. I know I've come far but these things fuck me up really badly. I really have a strong desire to want to make them feel as bad as I feel, almost as an act of revenge. I want to become so much better, that they go home upset because they can't compete with me. This is a huge fantasy for me. I really want to be not just better than people, but so much better than people that they stop trying because it's hopeless. I know this seems very immature. I am writing these thoughts down because I am going through them right now. I know this is something I have to work through or whatever. But I really feel this way, I am not going to sugar coat it. Also another thing I hate is how people low-key look down on me because I am a virgin, like I feel it. Ik I can get some girl, but I want a good looking girl Im sorry. I seriously hate when people start giving me advice irl like I am searching for it, fuck off.

Macro midterm went pretty well. I'll be honest, I got a copy of last years midterm and a lot of things stayed the same so I got lucky in a sense. I am genuinely developing an interest for the subject. It's so fucking interesting. Even the fact that society runs on what is essentially trust (trust in money). All the policies that governments use to keep the economy in check is interesting too. Other than that, I lost my 20 day workout and meditation streak because of the 4-fluoromethamphetamine that I took (I got zero sleep and it fucked the next day up) Today I played some Mafia Definitive Edition. I'll be honest, I think I am developing this textbook toxic mentality for success. Whenever I take a break from achieving my goals, I get this constant reminder that I am slacking, wasting my time. I start comparing myself to other so much more. It's slightly ironic in a sense, because this constant self pressure usually does more harm than good. Like whenever I get into this mental masturbation mindset of critisizing myself, I just end up being way less productive. I should journal more often