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Thanks for addressing the fear I was feeling. I certainly see your point, The issue isn't just "life is short," it’s the deeper thought: “I’m going to die.” And that no matter how much you accomplish there's a nagging feeling that it's not enough. I seriously see how this feeling could just be a function of the mind, but also I think that there are people who genuinely take life for granted can defenitly benefit from appreciating and embracing life as an opportunity.

Maybe. Yea. Like I am repeating a year in university. It just seems short because I have the same subjects last year and this year, no real novelty in what Im doing, so I guess it makes sense why it seemed to fly by me so quick.

Great response. Thank you. I was curious on whether or not people exaggerate this topic. I never really made an effort to seek out Mentors. I will use what you said as food for thought. Appreciate it.

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Hey everyone, I’m running a personal experiment to test the Law of Attraction for myself. I’ve always been kind of agnostic about it (never fully bought into it, but a few coincidences in my life made me question whether there might be something to it). This time, I’m going all in. I’m specifically testing Neville Goddard’s approach. I’m using the ladder experiment: For those who don’t know, the ladder experiment is from Neville Goddard. You visualize yourself climbing a ladder every night before sleep, while telling yourself during the day “I will not climb a ladder.” The idea is to test if your imagination can manifest reality without forcing anything. I’ve tried this test twice before: The first time it "worked," but when I saw a ladder, I climbed it intentionally, which I don’t think is how the test is supposed to work. The second time, I only visualized for two nights. I imagined a really big ladder, and then I saw that exact kind of ladder at the gym while the owner was fixing something. But again, I didn’t climb it. Now I’m trying it a third time, and this time I want to do it properly, strict and focused. So, I’m curious, have any of you had real experiences with the Law of Attraction? Any genuine stories or tips to share? Also, any way to test the law of attraction more rigorously? Truth is important for me. Thanks

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For some reason, the notion that time flies hit me hard today. It's honestly scary. When you're aware of how fast time flies, all petty bullshit flies out the window. I really feel the desire to maximize the opportunities in my life and stop wasting time, stop taking things for granted, not one thing. I really really want to stay connected to this feeling. Im gonna write a forum post on this.

thanks for the responses. Im going on the second day of the experiment! I'll use some binaural beats

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@AION I’ve been meditating consistently an hour a day for two months now. if it makes you feel any better know that probably 90% of my time meditating I am thinking bout some girl or a problem etc. I’ve still gotten really good results (specifically with focus ability) stick with it, maybe try guided. But also know that your experience is normal dawg. maybe you can label your thoughts as just “thinking” or “noise” and get back to medutation. rarley do the epiphanies during meditation actually hold value, they just seem super useful in the moment but in retrospect it’s procrastination (at least for me)

Okay so I went out with the pretty girl. The date went well. I'll be honest she's extremely pretty, and above my league, but she's somewhat boring. I met her again today, and it's getting better the more I meet her. But still kinda mundane personality. I won't pretend like that doesn't bother me but I also don't want to fuck up something good (she is super pretty after all). From the way I see it, she didn't go out much before me, she just started dating. I just finished talking to a friend (girl) of mine that I vibe with. She's not as traditionally pretty as the girl I went out with (according to modern beauty standards not even close), but she's smart, super funny, we vibe a fuck ton. she's thicker, which I like. She's dated a lot, told me stories where she fucked some random guy. But you know we vibe more. Polar oposites. Idk Im just thinking. But also man this girl I went out with is super gorgeous. Not my usual type but model level gorgeous. She has no experience like me so I guess its great.

Quickly writing down because I am tweaking. Basically girl I was going to ask out asked me out. I am going out now. She is very pretty. Idk what to do. Im thanking god but I am nervous too. In order to make it to the date I had to skip gym today. I just came back from playing football for 2 hours, so that's exercise checked for the day. But I am tweaking inside I really didn't want too miss gym like its bothering me so much FUCK FUCK FUCK. That's one workout I missed man fuck. I also spent few bucks on food for my friend because I owe him some. But I was saving money so I can invest in courses and make money soon, it physically hurts to spend money, now I go on date and I have to spend money again. SkibidiSkibidi She is objectively super super super super pretty S tier pretty so I want it to work out. Damn bro crazy she asked me out.

One of the reasons I don't like going out is because I have an extremely strong inferiority complex. I hate going out and being with people who are taller, more handsome more socially charismatic than I am. Today I went out, had so much fun, but when I come home I am hurting really really bad inside. My friends who are tall and super handsome went on a trip and had cool stories with women they've picked up. Me on the other hand, am still struggling to ask out a girl. It seriously enrages me. I know I've come far but these things fuck me up really badly. I really have a strong desire to want to make them feel as bad as I feel, almost as an act of revenge. I want to become so much better, that they go home upset because they can't compete with me. This is a huge fantasy for me. I really want to be not just better than people, but so much better than people that they stop trying because it's hopeless. I know this seems very immature. I am writing these thoughts down because I am going through them right now. I know this is something I have to work through or whatever. But I really feel this way, I am not going to sugar coat it. Also another thing I hate is how people low-key look down on me because I am a virgin, like I feel it. Ik I can get some girl, but I want a good looking girl Im sorry. I seriously hate when people start giving me advice irl like I am searching for it, fuck off.

Macro midterm went pretty well. I'll be honest, I got a copy of last years midterm and a lot of things stayed the same so I got lucky in a sense. I am genuinely developing an interest for the subject. It's so fucking interesting. Even the fact that society runs on what is essentially trust (trust in money). All the policies that governments use to keep the economy in check is interesting too. Other than that, I lost my 20 day workout and meditation streak because of the 4-fluoromethamphetamine that I took (I got zero sleep and it fucked the next day up) Today I played some Mafia Definitive Edition. I'll be honest, I think I am developing this textbook toxic mentality for success. Whenever I take a break from achieving my goals, I get this constant reminder that I am slacking, wasting my time. I start comparing myself to other so much more. It's slightly ironic in a sense, because this constant self pressure usually does more harm than good. Like whenever I get into this mental masturbation mindset of critisizing myself, I just end up being way less productive. I should journal more often

Update, I went through the comedown but for some reason I had an insane come up. This is like second wave. I took such a small dose, I am supposed to be fast asleep but I can't now because I feel super focused and my thoughts are racing. Fuck. Shouldn't have taken the drug. I got. Pear pressured aswell. Next time when it comes to situations like this where I have to decide on whether or not to take a substance, I won't fuck this. I didn't even need more focus I already meditate and and happy with the progress. Im so pissed off.

I just took half a dose of 4-fluoromethamphetamine to help me study for an exam I’ve got tomorrow. I was a bit hesitant since I’ve been making real progress with my focus lately, and I didn’t want to mess that up. The effects kicked in after about two hours. Honestly, the focus you get from a stimulant feels completely different from the kind that comes from consistent meditation. With a stimulant, it feels more like you're being pushed into focus, like you're locked in, whether you want to be or not. Meditation, on the other hand, gives you this smooth, natural flow. You just ease into it. At the end of the day, I much prefer the clarity I get from meditation. This felt a bit too intense, and truthfully, I don’t think I need anything external to help me focus anymore right now im experiencing a sort of cooldown effect, where there aren't many thoughts. Kinda pleasant, but can't focus too much.

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idk maybe better be safe than sorry. If he goes to Joes podcast, it has to be perfect, as in Leo probably has to prepare tirelessly. This is will be one of his more viewed pieces of work instantly. Its fucked, cuz if I see him on podcast I'd be so psyched, fuuuuck man, but if not integrity then it means fuckall

idk if going on Rogan's podcast is a good idea. It seriously might be, but being intellectually integrous is so fucking important to me. Chasing quick fame isn’t worth it if the consequences don’t align. Going on Joe’s podcast would give Leo the kind of reach he might naturally build over the next 10 years, but instantly. That’s a huge time-saver. Still, as Leo mentioned, the quality of that reach matters. It feels more meaningful to grow steadily and influence the right people in the right way, rather than reach a massive audience that might not resonate deeply. That said, it could trigger a cultural shift. Leo showing up on a podcast like that might inspire more people to move in a spiritual direction, which could be either positive or problematic, depending on how it unfolds. Let's not sacrifice integrity please please please sooo important to me and many more.

I've been super consistent with working out and meditation the past few days. One challenge I'm dealing with is lack of time. There seems to be a lack of time to achieve all my goals for the day. I go to the gym, I go to school, I clean the house, I meditate for an hour and the day is damn near over. I realized that I am not consistent with my sleep schedule, and that I spend too much time in bed (not all the time in bed is for sleeping). I tried correcting my sleep schedule and was able to do so to a large extent. Past few days Id be in bed around 9-10 and wake up at 6:30. This really helped achieve any goals I had for the day. Today for some reason, I went to bed at the correct time but couldn't sleep. My mouth just keeps being dry even though I drank enough water. I just drank another bottle and it's still somewhat dry. I also feel very tense and uneasy, so it was hard for me to sleep. To aid sleep usually I have a wind down routine. First I stretch, use back roller. Then I boil water and steam. Then I listen to some nice music on speaker before sleeping. I've been getting rid of some of these steps due to laziness, I realize that I should wind down properly every night. I am writing this entry to wind down further, Im not sure why I am so tense. One reason why might be because I am pressuring myself to have a perfect sleep schedule, and have perfect performance which is bugging me.

I'm forcing myself to write this journal entry. I am so busy nowadays, that documenting my progress in a journal hasn't been a priority. The thought of documenting my progress since my last entry is daunting as there is seriously just so much to talk about, so many things going on, so much progress. It be smart to write down my progress, as I feel I will progress more and then it will be even more overwhelming to write everything down. 1. I overcame a large part of my ADHD (SERIOUSLY!!!) For context, to overcome my ADHD I committed to 30 days of Mindfulness meditation. It was difficult, but I managed to pull through (I did all it took, scroll up to see how (I leveraged OCD) ). Towards the end of the challenge, I honestly thought to my self "This shit barley works", but low and behold, a few days after the meditation challenge , I sat down at an accounting lecture and I could focus. I could fucking focus!!! I kept the one hour meditation practice as a part of my routine.The benefits became more and more apparent. I could finally make a plan for the day and actually follow it through. I could wake up say "I want to study math, workout, then practice a language" and it would get done. That fear or hopelessness was slowly fading away, because finally for the first time of my life I could sit down and do something I wanted to. Now, I go to class super consistently and I believe that my grades will improve. I go to the gym super consistently now, it's less difficult to be consistent. It's honestly amazing. I talked to my therapist about it. She is really happy it worked. She maintains that using OCD to force myself to meditate was a bad idea, and that I could have committed to meditation without such mechanisms. I'm not sure if I agree with her as using OCD was my ticket out daily ADHD symptoms. That said, I do agree with her in the fact that the progress I see today, was a result of more than just meditation. I was receiving therapy counseling, establishing boundaries in relationships, healing traumas, and developing myself in other ways. I definitely agree. There were a lot of things I did that probably aided me in regards to my ability to focus. 2. I am starting a management consulting student company in university Months ago, I was invited to start a student company by some of my classmates. We recently started actually working on the company. It is a lot more work than I initially expected, and I now realize that. I should have journaled more consistently the past month, that way it would be easy to document the specific challenges we faced real time. But fuck it I'll try. So as of now, I summarized and analyzed a service that another high level student consulting company did. The service included a presentation, with high level market research + legal advice too. The vision of our company is to connect students and companies together through projects. So if I student enters my faculty, and is interested in say graphic design, he would join our organization where there would be a mentor for graphic design. The student would learn from the mentor and also participate in creating services for actual companies. That way the student gets valuable experience. 3. Therapy updates (we talked about life purpose) I've gone to more counseling sessions. We talked about my concern surrounding life purpose, and how I want to pursue many different things. I want to have a rap career, I love business, I love philosophy. She said, pick 2 things, and really really commit to both. Then once you get a feel of both things, you can commit to the one you like more. She advised against a quick decision, and had a pragmatic stance. I think I will follow her advice, and also do Leo's course while I am at it. Before I pursue 2 things seriously, I have a number of things in my life to get in order. School to pass, A language test to pass, a driving license to get 4. Other amazing developments I quit instagram and TikTok. It was so toxic that quitting was easy. Unlike before, I quit merely because going on the apps "felt bad". Before I would try quitting for enhanced focus. This shift is astonishing to me, I have no idea why social media suddenly seemed like something I should so obviously quit. I won a business competition. I got accepted into a university for an exchange program. Super cool.

When you get abused by some black migrants for the 6th time, how to not become racist? If your wife cheats on you, how do you not become bitter, and adopt harmful ideologies like redpill and blackpill? When you get betrayed by a friend continuously your whole life, how can you continue to trust people? Recently I've been thinking about how people get radicalized, and I don't know how to prevent this happening to me. Someone I know and who I take general life advice (because he is older) from got cheated on with his wife, and now is very bitter (I can feel it). He gives me advice like, "long distance relationships never work, if you leave your woman in another town she WILL cheat on you. That's how it is. Always." with full conviction. Honestly, I can see where he is coming from, I'd be heartbroken from his shoes too. I doubt that this is actually the case. My parents are together, I don't think either of them ever cheated, and they worked through a lot to keep their marriage going. The thing is, I don't want to be radicalized like this just because I have a bad experience or something. I am scared I am vulnerable to such radicalization. How do I prevent this from happening? It seems to be a very common thing for most people when they get hurt.

I'm progressing in school which is a good thing, confidence increased. passed Micro exam. Family were super stoked. I am reading models by Mark Manson. The book is really making sense to me and I am looking to implement all that is in the book. I've also discussed dating ideologies and dating advice (from ppl) I've received with my therapist. I asked her about whether to take any of these radical dating advice seriously, whether woman or men cheat more, what is a realistic view of dating. She told me that I am overthinking, she asked me why I am even asking such questions (alluding to it being a protection mechanism to prevent myself from being vulnerable and trusting life to take me where it may). She said that in general relationships end, and for young adults like myself they end quite a lot. Infedility is defenitly a thing that happens. But different relationships end for very different reasons. You cant be so stuck up trying to figure out why relationships in general end, there are so many factors. She told me to go into relationships looking for experience, she told me that I am overthinking way too much. She told me to be open, to be vulnerable, to get experience. I am going to do exactly that. I even asked her about people I know who become bitter due to past relationships not working out. She told me that people should actively work to bring closure to these relationships, to stop being bitter and ultimately close that chapter and move on. That's a pattern I notice with therapy, there seems to be an emphasis on closing chapters in life that are causing you to freeze, and moving on. Looking forward, moving forward not fixating on the past. I think that's really powerful. I think that's super practical. Oh and another thing I notice about my therapist is that she always uses "I believe", never "I know". I think it's important to stay open to new and better understanding, to know that you're constantly growing. To be humble. I think I take myself too seriously.

I have very high standards, that's just who I am. If I want to achieve a goal, I'll take the action first before overly analyzing whether or not it can be achieved. If I try and it doesn't work, then I know for sure, I can pat myself on the back and move on. But not trying will just lead me to regret. I will always try. I rather feel the pain of failure than regret. I know my failures will eventually lead to overwhelming success. It's easy to say everything is cope and then not try at all. It is easy to sob. Doing something anyway even though there is uncertainty is difficult. I always try. That's just who I am.