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@Leo Gura Whats not Maya? How would you be certain that what you think is true isn't an illusion either, I mean the non-dualists were sure their perspectives were true. I feel like this is an annoying question ahahaha

@Butters don't quit, keep going.

Yes I agree on what you're saying. but let's not pretend that a lot of marriages end for very similar reasons. Like there are defenitly patterns to recognise. But yea I am different from you so my problems are going to be different from yours.

Your post is very well written, and this part really touched me. I think you are right, I am getting ahead of myself.

@Marvelllious Hey man. I read your story twice and you definitely have gone through a lot. I'm 19 aswell, we're in the same age group. I think the fact that you posted in this forum shows that you know intuitively that there's more to life than what you're experiencing right now. That's good news. That's better than most people. I want you to remind yourself the times you did achieve good results in life. The fact that you meditated for two hours a day is great, no-one does it. Take small steps. But keep moving forward. I am super dissatisfied with my own progress and have to keep reminding myself that compared to the person I was 2 years ago I am much better. I have exams right now, but we can get in touch after my exams finish. I'll be happy to talk to you if you think that would help.

Yes I know, I'm not asking you guys to tell me the answer for myself. I'm trying to see your opinions and experiences.

Wow ahaha, I guess you're right. The reason I wanted to know peoples opinions here is because I really want to understand what to expect from a relationship. Like my Parents are married and plan to stay married, but they also have a very unique situation, their marriage was built on sacrifice and they have the same values. But my friends parents, a lot of them are divorced, I mean it was crazy to me how common cheating was. Is it part of human nature to want to cheat? Because if I find out that the cost of marriage outweighs the pros, then I might instead try to have very fruitful relationships that don't last forever. Just seeing what ppl think yamean. Maybe that's more possible. idk.

@Jannes I have chatgpt premium, Im using Dall-E

@Yimpa skibi.....

@mmKay 3d earth buddhist rat pizza

@mmKay ahahaha damn I didnt think if that. flat earth pizza lmao. wb a 3d earth pizza, tf would that look like.

Prompt: Make me a truly unique and exotic pizza. The base is a dark red crust. On the pizza there's parrot meat that's cooked well, it also contains an exotic looking red egg in the middle. On the pizza there is anchovies, pineapple, avocado, watermelon and bitter lemon. Make it look very appetising.

Then tf is the point of spirituality, I mean Rupert Spira makes it seem that "once you understand your true nature" then you'll be much happier than before. Is the way he sees the world wrong? Also your recent post about genetics being the main factor to how enlightened you can be, doesn't that bring the whole materialism thing back. I feel retarded dawg.

@Schizophonia don't think its a good idea. I think he would have a way bigger impact if he just does what he does.

@Leo Gura I've dealt with people that are sadistic and draw pleasure from the pain of other people. People who enjoy causing harm, pain and exploitation. I figured that their just wired that way. Would it be "wrong" for this person to follow a life purpose where he harms other people? Its a hypothetical obviously but I mean considering that the person is literally wired differently.

Thanks guys.

I think many serious users on this forum have faced this problem in some way or another: I highly value Truth and don't want to give up on understanding it. However, pursuing Truth and trying to comprehend Reality often leads me to sacrifice sanity and comfort, making it tough to navigate life. For example, when I should be studying for a university test, I end up panicking because my understanding of reality is constantly being questioned. How can I perform well at work or school if I'm always battling over aspects of truth in my head? Sometimes I wonder if it would be better to stop focusing so much on finding Truth and instead prioritize comfort and sanity to actually live a happy life. Is this a viable option?

@Leo Gura Oh, I forgot to ask a question. Is it possible to know everything? Maybe I'm being a bit delusional, but I realized that the reason I put myself through all this mental struggle is because I believe that, in the end, I'll understand reality. Now I'm depressed because history shows that people who thought they had the answers often ended up being disproved (or extended). We see this in science, and also in spirituality (like Dvaita, Vishishtâdvaita, and Advaita). Leo, even you've claimed to have reached understandings that others haven't, and you often change your views (like when you felt like you were the Earth, which made you question Solipsism). One of the reasons I started this thread I realised is because, I'm deeply unsure if the pursuit of truth is even worth it. What's the point, if I won't find the answer or my conclusion will be disproven in some way later on. I'm also a neurotic and open person (I suspect), so I don't respond well to new information, but I'm always curious to know more.

@Leo Gura Ok will do, I'll organise my day something like that.

Thank you all for your responses. I've read each one, and they've been incredibly valuable. I think I will try compartmentalizing my life as suggested. There are definitely moments when I feel like abandoning the pursuit of truth to simply enjoy a relaxed, happy life. I'll continue my quest to understand truth deeply, but I'll prioritize survival first, as someone mentioned it might be better to focus on Maslow's Hierarchy. The truth will still be there later.

The way I deeply feel about a certain situation often aids me in making decisions in life. This is not a problem until it’s about big decisions as it’s difficult to delineate whether I’m feeling true intuition or some sort of irrational fear or feeling. for example, let’s say I get an offer from a job, it seems perfect. The work environment is ideal, it suits my life purpose, it will truly grow me ect, but I have a feeling that it’s a bad decision to go through with for no apparent reason. Do I trust this feeling? d This is a common theme is pretty much every decision in life, it almost seems compulsive, I’m not sure if it’s intuition or irrational fear

After reading "The Way of the Superior Man" a few times I decided it was time to find my true purpose. I sat in my room for a couple hours with no distractions or anything and it hit. The true desire that I really wanted was to know truth and enlightenment. This wasnt new to me, every time I am left with no distractions I end up obsessing about truth like nothing else mattered (until I get distracted by life again). The issue is, I have other goals that I want to achieve, like I also have a strong desire and huge vision to make music and perform, which is also something I absolutely want to do. I'm just afraid if the music vision is a fake desire or not (like influenced by society around you). Like I really don't want to give that vision up, I have an extremely strong desire to perform since I was very young. However when Im alone without distractions I end up almost always obsessing about truth. Also like I have other things I want to achieve, I haven't had an intimate relationship yet which kills me too. Like should I do the music thing first, or is temporarily ignoring the desire for finding truth going to fuck me up in the long run? I'm scared of choosing the wrong purpose, please help.

@Leo Gura Yea Im 18. Alright I will do that.

@Breakingthewall What does that mean to you? Can you please elaborate. How is the most authentic way to live in this situation?

Thanks for responding. @Judy2 I tried focusing on two things in my life and it's very difficult. Like I never made more progress on an area than when I focused a 100 percent on it.