UpperMaster

@Yimpa

Hey guys I am back. Uni started, a lot going on in my life. I strongly suspect that I have an incredibly strong victim mindset, especially when it comes to dating. Blackpill has poisoned my mind, and I am unable to break free of that completely. There are many men in my life that are not conventionally attractive at all and have good looking girlfriends. Despite this glaring proof, its hard to shift my mind completely. So I watched thus video: This video made me realize how important understanding self-deception is when trying to self actualize. I mean, I am dealing with these problems FIRST HAND. I am actively suffering from my minds self deception, and I now see how the mind can self sabotage you if you let it. It's actually crazy. I realize that understanding self-deception is foundational. I cant accurately assess and understand the world around me if I keep getting deceived by my mind. Now I realize how important this topic is. I didn't before and as a result I am suffering. I will dedicate my time into understanding self-deception because now I understand that if I don't grasp the ways my mind fucks me then I can kiss truth goodbye.

great response! I completely agree with everything you said. I just have one question: You mentioned that it doesn't make sense to reinvent the wheel. In your own life, do you tend to think for yourself more, or do you find yourself absorbing the teachings of others more often? Additionally, when do you think it's best to rely solely on your own thoughts and perspectives?

W response.

Yes I don't. Why should I. I become mega ideological and make bad decisions because Im scared.

Yea but everyone does that anyway. You're basically saying (if I understand correctly) that everyone has their own way of learning and you should follow your intuition. Most people just follow intuition and what they feel will be good for them. Most people still end up retarded.

When do you know? Is it intuition

I don’t believe that being anti-dogma turns into a dogma itself, but I do think it can make you indecisive at times, especially if you're still figuring things out, like I am. Being anti-dogma feels like trying to build your own boat while you're already in the water, instead of just climbing on someone else’s ready-made boat, at least for the time being. ps thanks for reply

I totally forgot to mention another major issue with the "think for yourself" mindset. Leo suggests listening to different perspectives, thinking through each one, and selecting those that you can logically and experientially validate to fit into your overall view of reality. The problem is, there are so many perspectives to consider that it can feel overwhelming to process them all, especially when you don't have much life experience and are still young. At some point, I feel like obsessively trying to piece together a perfect model of reality can actually hold you back from making progress. At least, that's how it feels to me. I think I'll just commit to following one "mentor" for a time being then after I exhausted his teaching, go to another teacher. This multi-perspective thing to me just seems overwhelming, and impractical to implement. edit: I didn't articulate the post properly this is actually the main issue lol (I realize)

lost hope, want hope

I rather die fighting though

Fuck self-improvement it literally doesn’t work. Most people that tell me that self improvement changed their lives are fuckin losers aswell. only a small percentage actually win. Spend money on some course and they find “life purpose” but their life purpose is not even an accomplishment it’s some boring shit. Niggas maxing out 200k salary and are like I’m successful. To me 200k is dissapointinf and I can barely make anything because I’m useless. Can’t work for shit. It’s not adhd I’m a pussy and retarded.

I hate myself so much. Everything I do gets fucked.

Hey everyone, I came across a video review on YouTube about Jordan Peterson's Future-Authoring program while searching for feedback (I'm currently going through the program myself). This post doesn't really have anything to do with the program itself, more so the video. In the program you just basically get to outline your goals. In the video, the guy shares his experience after using the program. I found it quite interesting because, although he seemed to have started working towards his life goals, he hasn’t made any substantial progress in any one area. This got me thinking about the possible reasons behind this and what mistakes he might be making. I ended up taking some notes and making my own observations. I don't want to end up in his position. 3.5 years into chasing your goals but not achieving them. I'd love for you all to watch the video and share your thoughts on why you think he's not making significant progress? What is he doing wrong?

@Asayake I agree with everything you said here. I think personally that he doesn't commit. You got an idea and was ready to do a music video, and then quit because he realized he wasn't as passionate. I think he should have created the music video, it would be like he has something to show. I also suspect that he has an expectation that he should enjoy everything he does, or all parts of the job should be enjoyble.

Last year I used a technique to get me to study and score high on a math midterm. I think that was the highlight of the year academically speaking. Apart from fear mongering, this technique is also something that worked. It's just more mundane, boring, and is bad for cramming but great in terms of putting in consistent work. I will start using that instead and report my findings here.

@integration journey you too G

I want to understand more of the benefits of speaking truth. I intuit it to be very important. I am going to commit to speaking and acting more in line with truth.

Been going crazy because I don't have any stable belief system or anything body of knowledge. It feels like I cant orient myself in any direction, I increasingly becoming more concerned because I literally have no foundation of knowledge to base my life on. Maybe a better way to phrase it is I am unhappy with my current understanding of life

I’ve been obsessing over things that are hard to change like height. It’s probably wasting a lot of my time. This started to happen only after consuming black pill content

i keep finding that for me, it’s very hard to separate my search existential truth from my career or other parts of my life. it just happened again, and it’s not the first time where, I was forced to confront truth of an aspect of life. But to understand any truth about life, it’s always in the context of existential truth. Example: what do girls find attractive? —> how do I know for sure, should I trust my own experience someone else —-> I should probably trust my own experience because that’s the only way I can confirm for myself otherwise it’s heresay ——> How can I trust my own experience, maybe my experience doesn’t represent truth —-> boom we entered existential domain, now I’m questioning what experience is, how can I know it’s real, how can I be sure that I can trust my rationality to get to the truth.

I got to start thinking for myself. I got to stop fearing being wrong. I end up adopting the beliefs and view points of others. I realise that when you adopt other people’s beliefs, you start living their life. You adopt their lens from which they see reality.

I've been trying to get a job. I applied to 5 dishwashing jobs. I'm thinking of developing my sales skill instead and get into sales.

Last few days I’ve been implementing a new tactic that seems to be helping become much more effective than before. I started to leverage my OCD or neuroticism. What I basically did was I made myself obsessive compulsive around the idea of doing things perfectly (perfectionism) to various degrease and found that it yielded a huge improvement in my productivity. Like seriously. I was super motivated. The cons of this was that you don’t feel relaxed ever. I’m going to keep trying to improve my productivity this way, and see if I can implement it in a more sustainable manner.