UpperMaster

It's funny because right now, the reputation of European states that victimized Africa is much better than any African state. Obviously a lot of this is to do with development. But it still goes to show how it doesn't fuckin matter if you are viewed as evil if you can extract all the resources and get mega rich and powerful. Once super powerful can even control narratives, make yourself ethnically superior, make the other inferior and ultimately label yourself the good guy. ps. Western world has come a long way, European countries have a lot of great things going for them. I'm just giving an example, of how ex colonial contries acted, and what they got away with.

Leo tells us in Conscious Politics 1: The reason for NOT treating people as disposable is because there is a pragmatic cost associated with it. Historically, tribes simply raped, enslaved, or dominated one another. He claims this pattern is unsustainable in the long term, because eventually another group will overpower you, or the oppressed will revolt. We all live in an interconnected world, you can't just destroy a part of it and expect it not to bite you in the ass because you too are connected to it/them. History says this is bullshit. This seems like a common sense argument, so I would love some clarification. Colonizers didn’t “pay the price.” They got rich. Many genocides were successful. The perpetrators won, built nations, and moved on. The victims disappeared. We treat animals as completely fucking disposable. Humans can survive on plant-based diets, even if not optimally. If we applied the same moral standards we apply to humans, minor health benefits would not justify eating animals. Pragmatically, we don't face any real consequences (yet). European states that committed genocides faced little more than symbolic guilt. A few terrorist attacks decades later don’t even register compared to tens of millions murdered. This isn’t “tit for tat.” One side kills a hundred million. The other maybe kills a few thousand. History doesn’t seem to settle accounts that evenly. If someone is super selfish, super powerful and lucky enough, they can exploit others and sometimes face no real consequences at all. I mean seriously, what consequence will you feel from a tribe of people if they are all dead? And these selfish fuckers who want to genocide other tribes, love it, they don't even have any moral repercussions either, so like seriously they seem to just gain. Please clear this up for me. I would appreciate it.

I already knew that one of my best friends is a now a Nazi. In my head I’ve been shoving it under the rug. Yesterday I had a discussion with him, and the things he told me crushed me completely. I don’t understand how someone could be so heartless, act so selfish. How can someone so smart, so easily be seduced to such a backward ideology. He thinks he is a hero. I love him. I view him as my brother, but this is becoming too much for me. I feel like someone is carving the inner mass of my heart out, leaving only the outer layer. also vomiting. I feel it in my heart. Seriously. My language teacher told me: if you don’t take care of politics, politics takes care of you. I watched conscious politics episode 1. Politics is something that I never looked at. As a kid, I would deliberately stop myself from consuming anything related to the harsh realities of other people in the world, it was too painful for me to watch. I still do that. It’s time to stop doing that. For me to achieve success this year, I need to cover so much. I can’t procrastinate on politics and other important plans in my life anymore. I have to pay the price; insane amounts of emotional labour. I realise why paying the price is necessary. I need to pay the price, become financially responsible, become emotionally intelligent, fix dating and improve my political literacy. The world is changing, I have to take action, I am super ambitious, for me to do everything I want to do I have to psh the price of insane emotional labor

Asking the viewer to like and subscribe in the beginning go the video. I actually noticed a shift. Long ago, the ask to like and subscribe is always at the end, but now everyone does it in the beginning. Like that to me was just conformity. It makes less sense to ask for a sub in the beginning, you haven't watched the video.

Literally. The earth being round is not obvious. Most people can't even prove it. Honestly I can't prove it, I can just say that I've been around the world, all our maps work so the earth is probably round. Another big give away for me, is I've seen other planets through a telescope and their round, so earth being round makes sense. It frustrates me how earth being round is just this fact you should know, if you question it your a dumb dumb. But no-one fucking questions it. Like I really do believe the earth is round, but if I am being a 100 percent honest, I can't definitivley prove it to someone right now on the spot, nor have I ever cared to learn the physics to prove it for myself. Thats most people let's be honest.

Tommorow I have two tests. I am having a fucking mental breakdown. 1st test is in the morning. I didn’t study enough for it. 2nd test is a midterm for math, a subject from the previous year. I feel so scared of the second test (midterm), because math is something I dedicated a whole lot of time for, and now because I didn’t have time to study for it, I will achieve less marks than I probably deserve. for context I am going on exchange, my semester in my home school finishes later after my host school semester starts, so I gotta take final exams early. Math is fucking up my mental state. I know I can get full marks. It’s not a lack of talent. I did bad in math previously in life because I was too scared to try, now everyone will think I’m just untalented, I know that’s not true, from the bottom of my heart that’s bullshit. I feel so shit. I’m still a virgin. Recently I approached a girl in the library, we talked but I was too pudsy to ask her out. I made so many awkward moments I’m so fuckin stupid. I’m like old at this point and still have fear like this. Fuck. im so inadequate in so many levels. Idk how to keep fighting.

What was your life purpose before, what is it now?

I wish I wasn't so hurt. My goal in life is to create the most engaging life possible. But whenever I get hurt or get triggered, I get back the feelings from when I was younger. It's so intense, so painful, so bitter so angry. And it's like nothing else matters in the world. And idk what to do about it I feel so fucking hurt, and I feel like dedicating time to play out all my vengeance fantasies. The feelings are so extreme, I feel so emotionally violated. I wish I wasn't hurt.

I think there were many times when many people here including me simply adopt Leo opinions on things, I think thats conformity. We are comforting to Leo worldview, and it only gets corrected when Leo corrects himself and then your like "oh shit why didn't I question this myself".

Fighting

idk if this is mentioned on the video but TRT, and gym culture in general is so conformist omfg. I realized this and was like damn. Don't know a single person that isn't going or hasn't at some point tried to take the gym seriously. But also most people I know aren't in the best shape. It's just conformity, people don't even like doing it nor are they consistent enough to get results

I am trying to work 12 hours a day now. How I plan to do this is have two 6 hour sessions each 6 hour session would be for different subjects. Today I worked for only 7 hours. I'll get there. The minimum amount of work I said I could do is two 3 hour sessions, so its not horrible but I want to do 12 hours total which is hard.

Stages of viewing responsibility Victim —> Creator —> Acceptance Why is blame never okay: Never blame people things or situations. It's a low consciousness behavior that is usually created by the ego to feel better. You are making a distinction between good and evil. It's a false distinction created in your mind (relative, subjective). It allows you to say "I am the righteous one" and that thing over there is "evil”. Responsibility: You are the cause and can control an outcome of a situation Take 100% responsibility, because if you don’t your mind will conveniently hide reasons or ways you’ve contributed or caused an outcome. It is better to take over-responsibility rather than under-responsibility. If you take under-responsibility you will be permanently stuck. How to take 100% responsibility in your life: Recognize that you effectively co-create or fully cause every situation in your life. Commit to never blaming anyone or anything in your life. This is the solution to being a victim. You can control your interpretations of reality: When a negative event happens, you can chose to interpret it in the most powerful way. Acknowledge that your response to a situation is the thing that matters most, and not the negative event. People get hung up on past even and somehow use it to justify how their limited now. When you take responsibility for the now, then you’re always ensuring to pick the most resourceful response. When you’re looking at a challenge, you can frame it in terms of sacrifice. It’s not: Fuck this exam, the school system is so boring and hard these days, it’s hard for anyone to study. (blame) It’s: Whether or not I am ready to sacrifice the extra effort to pass this exam. Nothing wrong with choosing yes or no, but its my responsibility to chose. (responsibility through sacrifice framing)

There are so many video games I want to play. I played 10 min of Plague Tale Requiem and was blown I way. Then I was like shoot I gotta play innocence first. It's on discount I can get it for really cheap because it's Black Friday. But fuck, idk if Il have time to play it. I am spending my whole day tryna get myself to a decent level in life, and I feel like I already have too much to balance on my plate. I don't really nor like to do anything for enjoyment I'll be real, everything I do is just to increase the likely hood for success. The thing is, idk if I am even doing the right things for success. Right now I am focusing on getting to baseline. For me baseline level of success is Learn a specific language I need to know Have some income Be in healthy shape Be psychologically stable Have had some experiences with women Manage school (I am accomplishing this now) And I feel like maybe I should focus on getting money first, because it will act as huge leverage to achieving all the other goals. But at the same time, I am not in a position where I NEED money to achieve all the other goals, because I am financially taken care of by parents to an extent. So maybe thats just an excuse.

I went out with a girl recently. I had 2 dates with her. First date, I wasn't feeling her to much. Second date was great, we kissed a couple times. Apparently I kiss platonically lmao. I told her I didnt want anything serious. I felt like she liked me a lot. Today we planned out 3rd date, but she wants a relationship, she doesn't want to just have fun. So now its completely off. I hope I made the right decision, she was pretty hot, and really kind. Kinda hurts still. I didn't tell any of my friends about this. I wanted to keep my dating life lowkey, because I felt like they would influence me on this matter too much. The second date with her was the best date I've been on. I made sure I could experience the potential relationship I would have without any outside influence and ability to be completely vulnerable. I'll be honest, I am kind of having a reflex reaction. Idk if it's just related to this but I feel in desperate need of success again. Success here is defined as so much better than other people, they feel ashamed about themselves. I feel like I am deprived of success everyday, I want it more and more, but when smth like this happens it hits me tenfold.