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Thank for the responses, i was thinking and expermenting a lot with the sperm recently or atleast in the past months. Still not sure what it is, i think it might be just part of this machine/creation and doesn't do much in general or perhaps i've reached a limit on what it can do. When we were children we didnt even produce sperm or that creative force. Also in the unitative state that i get into, i feel woman and man are created out of the same energy and woman don't even produce sperm. So because i feel woman being of the same energy just like man, it seems like sperm is nothing more then a product of this human machine and god isnt found in sperm and is much more greater then that. The only option that i got left is that GOD is the "screen" itself, which means the screen you're using to see things.

Are you able to work after reaching this state of consciousness, or do you even have a job? When i quitted my job a while ago, i realised how it was one of the biggest limits that limited my expression and consciousness like it was made that way by god. Also how far do you think you are from a consciousness state where you dont have to work anymore to sustain yourself, meaning for example if you had 0 money in the bank but you still had to pay bills like electricity/water to be able to live in your house , where money would come from? I see only 1 consciousness state where you would be able to manifest or perhaps even transform metals or other things into gold etc. How far do you think you are from this state?

@TheSelf what do you mean it all becomes mysterious? How do you see "others" ? Do they also kinda blend into enviroment, do you seem them more like empty shells like any other object?

Suffering and happiness are always temporary nothing will ever change that. I think most people who voted that psychedelics changed their life, not in the way you think. I think it's more like the consciousness change was so drastic that it opened their mind more/opened a new reality/new possebilities. Thanks to these psychedelic events it definitally changed my life around, and my base consciousness increased to new levels i would never imagined (gained some siddhis). But you think in the terms of happiness/sadness still , psychedelics won't change that in the long term.

I feel your pain brother, as i have experienced this myself when my nervous system started upgrading. I wanted to hang myself, jump from rooftop apartment etc. The pain was unbearable and extreme. I remember my nervous system started getting so sensitive that even the sound waves of a meditation music on youtube was sending me into a bad trip because of new sensitivity to the enviroment. I think i lost weight from like 90kg to 65-70kg really fast also. Now i'm in a position that i can handle more heavy foods like eggs/flower etc. but i combine them with sattvic foods. And my diet still consists mainly of sattvic/alive ingredients. I guess i'm progressing towards where you are, but i'm not really doing anything as i trust in god and feel the presence of god near me a lot helping me out.

Ok thanks, this confirms it for me that you're on a different stage. Because usually ones your kundalini starts to activate at the base or your consciousness is close to activation, problems with solar plexus will arise. And you won't be able to handle eating certain foods as it will cause extreme pain at solar plexus because of nervous system upgrade. So what it means is, you're close or near enlightenment or already enlightened because then you can eat whatever you want.

Did you find that some types of food limited you somehow energetically or perhaps your prana? Perhaps it made you feel heavy or you had pain near solar plexus chakra? Or you never had these problems?

@TheSelf Whats your diet like? Do you follow vegan , or sattvic diet for prana. Or just carnivorous diet? Also im not sure if you're fully in non duality or not but can you taste the food ftom a video or manifest the dish infront of you?

You belong exactly where you belong, and i knew exactly that if i would say this stuff it would bring out your "ego" so you can see for yourself. My lady you know nothing.

Let's not forget and give praise to Leo Gura for how many people he also saved, only true consciousness raise can save people from themselves, including wars, other people, bad descisions, bad influence, people/goverment trying to control you and send you to war etc. @emil1234 My first psychedelic experience was also ayahuasca, the thing i like about ayahuasca is that it's so conscious and just works on you and brings things up that are deep within you and you need to consider. Everything is love and can be loved, but what about the ups and downs that foreverness or eternity brings can you love your "lows/downs" or "pain" forever? Don't think so, because you're stuck with yourself forever.

Playing the game well means fooling yourself to the "agreed" rules of society to the agreed ways of being, meaning playing the game of seperation. When you become enlightened there is no game, it's all you. If you play the game "well" like you said, you're gonna be stuck in it. If you dissociate and focus on God and breaking the limits that's how you come further. The choice is yours. I already made these choices, that's why i can feel you and your body or clothes you wear right now if i wanted to.

@TheSelf can you send me a video you have watched to gain mastery over orgasm and being able to hold ot prevent the orgasm? I really have trouble with this, like i still want to enjoy feeling others and stuff but then i orgasm and get again to point 0. I contract the pelvic floor muscles but it doesnt really do much, you were talking about the thousand point technique to prevent orgasm. But i think perhaps i'm not aware of this thousand spot yet, maybe this is the problem

Being above is not how you think happends for me, i have my human needs but it all happends within because i'm all. Relationships are part of the illussion of you chasing something for happiness because you live in seperation. The only true love relationship you will ever have is with yourself or God. And ofcourse keep in mind that i'm not saying that it is bad or wrong to have a relationship, as it is part of your temporary human experience. I'm just making you aware of the negative side-effects, specially when it will be time to let go to progress further. Also keep in mind that the relationship with others that you have is illusory and they're part of the enviroment or your own progression in consciousness, so they will just play the game along, you will never have a real connection with them, but you will think that because you're part of the system.

Only in your own mind because you can't handle the truth. I am at a level of consciousness/unity where i literally feel others skin/body/clothes etc. You're all chasing relationships because you're hopeless for happiness when it is within

I've been single all my life basically, realized there's no true love here. And human love is based on survival, if i was born in this world and have to survive and care about my resources and time, i rather stay single. That's why i'm retired at 31. There's no point wasting your life working till your 68 taking care of of others. The human love is based on survival. Ones you go more within, you realize everyone is you and get these energies automatically. This world is pointless and was probably made by god to forget itself in the working mode and survival. Also realized that you're "it" or you're "love" yourself and there's basically only being. Everyone is an actor in the survival game, chasing hopeless dreams and happiness in the eternal, you exist forever. You also have to keep in mind that the more you get attached to things the more harder it is for your consciousness to develop or grow, you have to remember that eventually everyone has to let go of their loved ones to progress further, and the grief will be insane because you realize it was just a game and you didn't love your loved ones enough, they were just part of the enviroment/game.

you still didnt answer the question, just that you're doing it to gain mastery over your mind. But you don't even know what it is

Some of the best songs i was listening a lot

@TheSelf Do you even know what semen actually is? If god is infinity then why do we have to gather semen or prana every time to increase spiritual energy? Gathering prana to semen just shows its finite nature? Don't you think it is just a concept that belongs to the created human body?

So vivec @Cubbage had an interview long time ago, and he said this was his most favorite trip report of all times and he had to reupload it again. I'm not gonna lie i've also watched it like 5-10 times, and it became also my most favorite trip report of all times. i think this is what @Leo Gura is basically teaching you all summarized in 1 trip report, correct me if i'm wrong. Here it is, because i feel like everyone has to watch it once.

The #1 thing people forget is that even sleeping and going to bed as a human is a construct, when you fully wake up i think you will be fully on 24/7 sitting with yourself being aware of everything. And i also believe it is true what Leo has said, and in my experience the body adopts very fast to new levels of consciousness or ecstasy, so at the max level the ecstasy or pleasures mean nothing, you're all alone. So i guess then you invent a world or a story and then put your consciousness in it and act like you're a human or a beby until you forget. I don't see any other way, or any other options... Perhaps someone can enlighten me to other options?

Hmm yeah 3 years is a very long time, to be honest if you held it for such a long time this yogic practices are probably unnecessary since your awareness is at a different level anyway and the cause of it was that you held for so long. So i guess you're so conscious right now that you can easily become conscious of your internal organs or spots within the body. But still in all honesty i think it's just a play of god or your higher self "to make you progress in consciousness" like you're doing something. Because in my experience that i had, when i came home from driving 850km from my guru and went to bed to sleep, i started waking up in my sleep to the astral body and it was see through and the ecstasy kept progressing to infinity until i couldnt handle it, i lifted my arm up and the veins or nervous system was just vibrations it wasnt blood anymore etc. That's why i said some people "die" and just wake up to this body , but in our instance we are just playing a game that we are doing something and are progressing. But i think it is done like that on purpose so that we can experience different states and feel like kids playing with it. Here is a picture that i found of what i was becoming aware of, in this body i felt a strong connection to god through my head and i became aware that God was using this body as an avatar/vehicle. So god is even higher then this indestructible body, i had the awareness through crown that god was even greater then this astral body. And i all happend in like 7 seconds

I don't think you can experience orgasm without ejaculation, i think the orgasm you're talking about is just ecstasy from the result of feeling others. Orgasm is like an explosion or a release. But as you have said kundalini is an intelligent energy ,so i will just trust the process for it to lead me further in the development. How long do you hold your semen by the way and is there any benefits for example for holding it beyond 30 days? I just feel like if you hold it too long, on 1 day it will just burn automatically and universe will consume it or something like that and you won't feel the maximum vibration anymore, atleast thats what i experienced when i held it for like 12-30days

Yes i used this technique before, but the problem with it is that it compresses ecstasy meaning it makes it stay around the same level or decrease. I want a technique to being able to hold more ecstasy meaning i want to feel even more without orgasming, seems then the only solution is surrender and trying not to orgasm

Because the houses are way cheaper and i don't have to pay mortgage anymore, and food and tax are way cheaper, and electricity is like 0.12-0.13 euro cent at day and like 0,06 euro cent at night for 1 kwh. And i got tired of the netherlands and working. And i also wanted to be close to the black sea, as i was born in crimea a city named feodosia

What techniques do you use, because for me sometimes i release semen/orgasm automatically from feeling everything in outer world? Like i enjoy the ecstasy but when it gets too much i orgasm/release semen, but i want to have a technique to feel even more without orgasming.