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Damn now i'm getting scared, and don't know if i should procceed. I know what consciousness is capable off, and i know that there is a possebility you can get stuck in another dream/dimension of reality if you're not careful. There is a reason there is saying " path to god realization is like walking on razor" . I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. I just work/sleep/drink and have little money to enjoy the life fully. I'm also scared that if i'm gonna do kriya yoga it will change the aspects of reality forever, and i don't know if i'm gonna be happy about it. I have seen at high levels of consciousness why GOD uses ego's. And the reason is against the eternal/loneliness and his own questioning about himself, like the question what am i? What i'm doing here, how did i came to existence. That's what i saw at the highest levels. I also know that life right now, is a projection of my ego mind. SO basically life right now is just my ego's mind/dream. What's the point being an eternal/infinite avatar that just creates everything with his own mind, eventually you will get bored of that. I think @Leo Gura , is giving great pointers. Do we really want to awaken, and then eventually restart the cycle again to birth/death? Because considiring everything that i know, the cycle of birth/death might be the only option/best option. "ignorance is bliss" From what i have seen if you die unawakened for example jumping down from a building, you will let universe decide. And i saw that i killed myself from jumping down and i got reborn as a beby boy with an empty/clean mind. I don't think any avatar or god has such a clean mind as being reborn again and not knowing what you are. I also saw at the highest level that i've reached, that this was the best option. God always goes for the lowest suffering possible considiring at all the things he has to look at, and this will is deeply rooted inside of you. I saw that it was better to reborn as a cave deweller than an ascended master that plays around with his mind/himself. @Razard86

@Ayham teacher is called veda guru dev and his guru was : Swami Vedananda Saraswati (Sannyasa, Swami, Bharmarcharya, Yogi) Who's Ashram Is Located In Dwarahat (State of Uttarakhand, India) @Javfly33 thank you man, you actually made me remember/realize some things when i was god. Yes you're right that kriya's were created by your highest self, and the reason it's always accessable because when you're in the god mode you can't really edit anything because everything what is there is already perfect and you're perfectly selfless. Basically you're so conscious that you see through all aspects of reality and all is perfect

I had a dream after this post, in the dream i saw myself as a kid and saw my parents throwing unwashed clothes at the floor. They were talking a lot of rubbish unconsciously, and all i said back to them 'i am god' all the time. They ignored me and continued. Then i wondered what this screen/movie was and dettached from it, behind this screen/movie was nothingness. It was like the movie was just playing, and nobody was actually watching it.

@TheSelf what are these energy currents/chakra openings , what do they do ? Like send you to astral/causal plane or what exactly?

So no point following online courses and live sessions over the webcam if there are dangers?

@TheSelf what do you mean exactly, like daily base consciousness? Can you give some examples

Reading your post and your previous posts i can truely say that you lack consciousness and understanding about the nature of reality or yourself. You're crying because you don't understand why you have awareness, and all suffering will be ever lasting no matter where you will be from that awareness. Learn to sleep properly, that's why you are here.

gonna read it next month

@Princess Arabiawasn't me, but some guy that experienced no others. And i put his video as an example, how it was also in my reality. When i stopped "looking" things seemed to change place but there were no people. Like cars etc. Just as this guy from the video also said, he said when he wakes up things changed place but there was nobody. So this last sentence confirmed that he might have also had this experience, and he knows that he is god etc. @Schizophonia From my understanding the reason the "phone" didn't work is because my will prevented it. In the sense that i couldn't disturb or mess the materialistic dream of my "ego" even more, because i had a sense that the more i disturb it the harder it would be to return to normal state. Imagine this: Here's normal Earth Here's same Earth but in the "death/after death state" You're still on the same earth but your "avatar" walks to specific places when it isn't supossed to do that, so in the sense you're creating many errors with your normal reality. That's the first reason that came to my mind when i was in this " after death state on earth". You have no idea how hard it was for me to come back to normal reality. You're literally so conscious that you prevent yourself from imagining others, for example. When i truely tried to imagine others from my heart, i could suddenly hear a sound of a car or a neighbour pop up for an instance and then it would be gone. I knew that nobody was actually there that made that sound, but i tried to imagine others for them to come back. Imagine the level of insanity i had to go through, when i finally came back to the ego world. I still experienced this almost schizophrenic high conscious insanity and almost admitted myself to psychward. Those levels of consciousness stop the game completely, the after effect/glow prevents you from working/society etc. Luckely i fell asleep 2-3 times for a short time and came back to my normal ego self. And you're too conscious to sleep, you're always awake!!

@Schizophonia I think i made a thread describing that i tried to record, i took my phone and noticed the battery was at 5%. So i needed to recharge it , when i plug in the usb suddenly it started saying "can't recharge because of wetness". So 2 incidents at a specific time that didn't allow me to record and i only had my phone. When i came back to the ego world with others, after sleeping 2 times very shortly suddenly the "wetness" message from my phone dissapeared and i could recharge it. @Inliytened1 What do you think the cause was of that? Why couldn't i record? Is it because the "laws" were different?

@Inliytened1So do you think if your ego doesn't become "god realized" , you will associate your aging/death with actual death process like seeing a "white tunnel" and when you enter the "white tunnel" you will see out of your mothers vagina or any birth portal into a new reality. But who is responsible for this process and on who's behalf does it happen? Who is responsible for creating how we look like etc. This is what i don't get , it's like there are many "levels" of yourself that are responsible for some part of creation. Jesus said: If you associate yourself with man you will die like man. If you associate yourself with spirit you will have eternal life? Does this mean if we associate ourself with spirit, we essentially have eternal life and we can dig/experience realities forever until we develop to infinity or something? I also know that in these god realized states it's like your memory isn't stable anymore, because everything happends all at once. And this nothingness is responsible for our forgetfullness that we are god. It's like you fall asleep and forgot who you were, and perhaps wake up in a new reality? Because i almost forget who i was at some point, and it was like reality/nothingness wanted me to forget myself. And deep down i felt that it would be the end of my ego/reality.

@Inliytened1 do you think there is another form of you or "higher self" that shapes/creates this dream reality for your ego, or do you think your ego self creates a random reality on the fly anywhere you look/go? From the book seth channeling it was said, that your higher self created the reality for your ego to play in. But from my experience when i deconstructed reality and became god realized in the dream i saw that the ego is responsible in creating a reality for you in the "now" , because it is your will "to do something" "to experience" and it happends on the fly.

@Inliytened1It wasn't awesome for me, all the desires/meaning/value lose value. It's not like how when you're in the game of life with others. Everything of meterial literally had 0 importance to me, i only craved "others" "love" and "loving others" as much as possiible as i was the only one. When you become god realized in the dream at that level it's really strange, you associate yourself with nothingness and realize that there is nobody else to take control of that "nothingness". Then you realize you're god, but all value is lost because there are no others. These level of consciousness literally made me want to cut myself or jump to my death from somewhere. The reason i didn't go further or do anything stupid like go into people houses is because i didn't know how my god realized reality would affect the reality my "ego" was in. This is the hardest obstacle, as you realize that you can create a reality for yourself in the past/future.

I remember i woke up god realized to some level, after ingesting LSD and falling asleep. During the sleep, i deconstructed the reality in nothingness and when the deconstruction finished i woke up like a God or something. The reality became a bit like insanity, these levels of consciousness were hard to handle. There were no people anywhere, the earth was like a closed domain/death domain for my walking avatar. Because i associated drugs/consciousness with heaven, the window of my neighbours house changed and was opened with a white teddybear hanging out. The hallucination was so perfect i couldn't establish a difference between this ego life now and that reality. It was like reality/time stopped, and i could see the same pigeon fly over my head like 5 times making the same noises. Can you imagine seeing reality as "loop" as there was no time or people. I knew i was god realized and i was walking mindlessly in circles/same pattern. Then i did many ego things/prayed/washed dishes/worked out/cold shower etc. just to get away from that insanity and that level of consciousness to have some rest and be my ego again. I could literally take a small glass of milk and imagine me drinking it forever using my mind, it would never go empty. Thank fuck, i came back to my ego again. Now i just don't know how to procceed further, my only hope is that there is truely a god and that we will never be able to reach this "god level" as somebody taking care of us is the best thing we can have in life or any reality.

Probably non dried , raw mushrooms

Most of the people on earth have a concept that the Astral Realm is a Realm like Heaven where you will get another physical body or perhaps an avatar where you can explore the world and so on. Here's the TRUTH I have experienced the Astral Realm like two times that is within all of you. The astral Realm is an Imaginary Realm, and all the imaginary blocks/creativity are open to you as "God", it's a realm of knowingness meaning there is no "I that thinks" . So everything comes to you by your will, curiosity, imagination, truth. Because this Realm is close or infinity itself, all possible scenarios are there. Meaning there is not "1" event that is the truth or "happend" . In the Astral Realm, you're Alone there are no others and you're Aware that you're God. You don't have a physical body, you travel the Astral Realm by your imagination. The Astral Realm is a realm of rest/purity/love/quietness, and you have been there many times. The reason you leave this astral realm is because ofcourse like most of you know " you're all alone, and there is eventially nothing to do" because you're knowingness itself. This is not the highest realm of consciousness that you can experience, the highest is when you see yourself and outside of yourself as small point of vibrating awareness into infinite nothingness/void that stretches forever. Why could i experience the Astral realm and the highest consciousness level i ever experienced and be still in my body? Because your ego body is your main avatar/imagination/vehicle that you cling into, it isn't any different than imagination, So respect your ego/body/yourself just as much as you respect God, you're the one that wanted to experience others and life in all shapes or forms!

Death is just wanting to get rid or forget of your invidual avatar. If your desire is to live forever in the avatar or experience different dimensions or dreams it can be eventually be possible. Your avatar will keep developing and growing in consciousness. But ones the realization and the dimension sets in that there is only you creating reality all around you, and how much courage you need, it will usually lead most avatars to a breaking point. That's why it has been said many times by different avatars like Jesus, if you associate yourself with man you will die like a man, if you associate yourself with spirit you will have eternal life. Spirit is another word for associating yourself with consciousness. The thing that i realized about life and consciousness is that wakefullness and knowing isn't as beneficial as forgetfullness and not knowing , and that's why you're here

Based on your answer, you're totally clueless what balance is as expected. I'm gonna leave screenshots with my answers.

The reason being conscious is suffering, is because when i achieved the highest possible consciousness level with full wakefullness and awareness. I saw that God/consciousness is just an "awareness" stuck in infinite nothingness. God ponders how its awareness came from infinite nothingness, when you're there and viewing this infinite nothingness all alone you want to escape it as fast as possible. So you can't escape your own awareness and will always will be aware, the distractions of life and balance of life is basically how it needs to be to distract yourself from more suffering. And god isn't infinite like all claim here, it's because they didn't reach the highest level and are just speculating. The questions of God/Life become the "limit" of God itself. Meaning, God can't answer some questions about himself and eventually all life will lead to these questions.

If one is in the state of infinity or stuck in an avatars body that can give you any physical shape, then how is one reborn?

chill bro

Gonna speak based from the experience being on the highest level that i've ever reached in consciousness/being a while ago. When i was on that level, my pov/being was vibration itself.(use your imagination how it might look like). The vibration of myself sounded/felt like very slow extreme powerfull vibrating beats resembling the sound of "OHM", it felt like extreme overprocessing heat/energy resembling what we call here "love" and also felt like i've been here before many times. It also felt that i was everything and that i was extreme conscious. The state also felt like "AI" , meaning everything was automated. I felt i was automated like an "AI" because i gave up everything to not be there. This vibration of myself was in infinite nothingness, meaning my awareness/vibration was just a tiny point in nothingness that went to all direction for infinity. It felt like this "nothingness" wasn't really part of me, my mind questioned how this tiny point of awareness was in this infinite nothingness. And why this tiny point of awareness (god) was in this infinite nothingness. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ So essentially if this "nothingness" is apart from you/god , then it is essentially possible for infinite other minds to exist like your own. But because this "nothingness" is infinite , essentially only your own mind will be forever valid and you won't have contact with "other" minds/gods. Here i've asked someone to make a video representation what i've seen. 1. There are no stars like in the video. 2. It's more of like an infinite sandbox, the more you look in the void/nothingness the more you see that it has this grayish infinite texture in the middle that goes forever. So your vision is a square : upper part - black/nothingnesss - middle grayish infinite nothingness that stretches for infinity, downward part - black/nothingness. 3. There is no movement/flying like in the video, you're stuck at 1 place. The stars are there to give vision/representation. 4. Your own vibration is something like this, but much much slower and tremendously more powerfull https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8l1Z_VHEaQU

Psychward tries to bring you back to the consciousness and stability of the materialistic dream. And usually drug users that go to these places want it themselves. In psychward they will teach you and tell you that it was all ' hallucinations ' from the drugs. But deep down you know better, that's how they try to lower your consciousness to stability and your waking dream. I also wanted to admit myself to psychward at one point because i regretted going to such a high state where i was witnessing that my waking dream is just my imagination/mind or atleast my mind had some control over it , i was like god. Don't mess with psychedelics if you aren't in any danger and if you aren't ready to die. For people that are in jail or other forms of limitation that they put themselves into, high dose of lsd/5 meo dmt and your true will, will make you escape any jail or other limited situation like it's nothing. But don't think that your new form of existence would imstantly be better then you being in the jail, it takes work to control/stabillize your mind

No such thing as short or long in very high states. Be careful with your advice. Clocks stop tikking , no time