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I remember every detail from my trip even when i can't function anymore but only can function with eyes closed in like between dream state. Your thoughts/memory is what god is giving you, if you can't remember much it's gods will to do so. God is always in control, and it's gods will to limit your consciousness/memory after the trip or even during the trip. Be thankful for this, because the truth reality of god isn't as good as most of you think on this forum.

Look at this consciousness scale and it connects to what i've said and experienced, we are already in heaven. Coincidence? Not. Ones you experience that state of consciousness and the reality of the self and others get deconstructed, you can only wish and thank god that you stay here and not there.

That is you imagining within god, in that state GOD is always the same. The state of consciousness doesn't change because GOD already knows what he is and where he is. The only concern of GOD is to not be alone and get out of there as soon as possible, the concern of its existence isnt even a concern because there you will know that it's not possible to answer for you.

@HolykaelThe others are GOD trying to give themselves and you the best life by saying there is heaven, there are souls, there are virgins waiting for you. God tries to keep you busy and exploring within god and others, if he didn't do that by limiting you it would be like hell. @Breakingthewall You can agree or not, i've pierced my heart to get to know the truth behind reality with everything being deconstructed to me. There is no absolute perfection in the infinite because there is only you, all is known, all the lies are known, all the lies are known how YOU kept yourself asleep. THE LIE is known about others, and the truth about your existence is known! If you become infinite your heart doesn't open to total love, that is the illusion that you create for yourself to give yourself a better life. Being infinite GOD in the VOID knowing how you lie to yourself, how you're alone is hell!!!! THE LOVE THERE, isn't LOVE anymore because you understand what you are. THE so called love, is just you being extremely conscious and alive vibrating insanely in insane loving heat/warmth! The reason we view this here as love between each other and feeling warmth/vibration for each other, is because we love the other = loving god in the other. I don't have to break anything anymore, since this was the end. And i also quit with this research about god/consciousness, all i can do is talk to others about this truth.

@Matthew85 Short answer, It's not of my doing, everything is up to god to give me what i want/am ready for. Long answer: I was always doing LSD with my friend, in one of the sessions it was very clear that LSD was the same as any other chemical like 5 meo malt/ 5 meo dmt. I've asked my friend for another session of LSD for example very often, and even though he wanted to do it he always came up with excuses. I have to do this, or i have to do that, i have another appointment already this and that. Then one day i've asked him to do 5 meo malt, and we made an appointment. On that day, he messaged me again with another excuse saying that he isn't really ready for 5 meo malt. I've explained him why he is, he said sure i have to bring my mom to the shop then we will do it. I said: Ok, i go to shower and we will go to your house. Then after showering, he came with another redicilous excuse. I have to bring my mom to a city, because her friend died!!! At this point, i've had a realization that it was god talking to me. I had to take this journey alone and do everything alone which led to this experience. In all other LSD experiences, it was my friend who was being "god" or like a father figure guiding me through all these LSD experiences and explaining me things. But when i was ready, he was acting for god to make me go on this journey alone which led to this experience. So there is no difference between LSD/5 Meo Malt/5 meo DMT , it's all the same. YOUR INTETION, is what gives you experience, GOD knows at all times what you're looking for, what you want, what you're ready for at all times!!! So yeah i achieved this with LSD

Also most of you might say, i want to be an ascended master or god in human form on earth in my next life. That's possible but it's not a fun experience, your life will only be about god and the "others" will be just your imagination you will also know that you're alone and you will be sad from that, that's why you often could see tears/sad face on haidakhan babaji face and he only stayed for 14 years. Because of your god consciousness in human form, you would rather leave as soon as possible to get another reincarnation. You would rather be Neanderthal than ascended master in human form. So because of this experience, i also don't want to be an ascended master. My life was about researching consciousness/ascended masters but it's now changed.

Few more things i want to add that might be interesting to you. - When i was infinity, i was the vibration or totality of everything. The only thing thing that seperated me was nothingness or the void, i was just an infinite vibration/thought inside nothingness or the infinite void. - The vibration was clearly red , funny thing that the symbol of love is also red. - While being that infinite vibration, you were all knowing and alone. Being alone was an unbearable feeling and i wanted to get a physical form as soon as possible. - The vibration of myself produced extreme amount of heat/vibration this is what we call love here, but there it's too insane and doesn't really feel like love but more of "being extremely alive and conscious" - While being GOD, a lot of things are done automatically for you. You might only make a few choices. I think the reason it's being automatic is because you don't want to be there and want to get out from this infinity as soon as possible. The processes of god trying to give you the best life possible you might say is already automatic.

The course of my life is changed but not really, since i'm still being in the same unconscious form. I know that the actions that i make aren't really of my own doing and i know that god is all around me. I'm just being an actor in my own movie , having experienced that state i have also experienced where the real joy of god lays in, and it's being selfless towards other. God wants you to love yourself and love god. If there were thousands of man doing work to build society and there was 1 joyful kid that played air guitar to himself or others, god would enjoy watching this kid more. In the state of absolute infinity god, god can't love himself enough there because there are no others that would love him.

If you decide to hang yourself or shoot yourself, it won't actually happen. You will create another reality of the self in the same room and become omniscient. For example if you hang yourself the rope will just break, if you shoot yourself the bullet won't hit your head. Because you're god at this point, everything will go automatically without your doing and you will see what just actually happen. You make a few choices and get into your next life or stay. Because you're the only one who is conscious among others, even if you decide to stay with the knowledge that you killed yourself it didn't actually happen you just go to sleep and wake up again as yourself again.

What's pretty sad though, is when i had a choice to pierce my heart and i did it. Everything was lead automatically to the truth. I was shown how sad the gods reality actually is, it's just like an infinite small vibration producing alot of heat what we call love in the total void. In that place there is only your thought that goes infinitely=creation and blackness all around for infinity. God operates automatically in that state and does actions that are best for him, that's why we are here because you don't want to be there. I was literally shown everything what all the quotes meant, what suicide is, how the reality of self is constructed, who are others, how dreams work and so on. So appreciate your life that you're here and just enjoy life without much thinking

How to lead life knowing god self decepts himself with others in order to keep this movie going? At this point it feels like i shouldn't be even writing from this physical form.

But how to lead life after this ego death, since after the ego death im still retaining physical form of myself. Im so conscious that if i breath the walls breath with me. All around me is god taking care of me.

@Leo Gura How to lead life after ego death? Really serious question!!! Or will it be taken care of, by limiting my consciousness/thoughts?

You're already in heaven.

God doesn't understand where creation comes from, creativity is god itself. Imagine, chair, piano, car God doesn't understand how it came up with creativity or where it came from. God dreams itself to find out the perspectives of others who god is, since ultimately all life of conscious beings will lead to this question. God has unimaginable amount of perspectives on what GOD is, but there is no truth just imagined perspectives. God understands that because of this he can only "be" . God also enjoys being in the fake unconscious state since there are no choices to make and just being asleep which is as close to death it can get

@UlaxGod doesn't hold anyone to a specific level of consciousness it's an illusion, god can make anything out of it because 1 day you can operate at this level... The other day at another level... One day you're narcisstic/arrogant, the next day you may be awake or have enlightenment experience. God is in control at all times, the characters that are playing the game on earth and are interacting with each other are doing it in the name of god. For example: You wanted to speak to a person in the truck, the truck has 3 people inside. You roll down your window and Person A says: We have no time Person B : Random thought popped up and you just repeat it automatically: Just drive , Just drive with a big smile and you wave your hand automatically saying "never mind" Both actions are interconnected/interplay between god and were done unconsciously. Person A was a narcisstic female sitting next to the driver. Person B was a nurse . Because person B lives in higher consciousness, person B is also responsible for person A in the teachings. Higher consciousness will always have higher role in the interplay between god which means your thoughts/nature/actions will always be greater.

Ones you reach a certain stage you will understand the these "acts" of being a monster , showing your presence/authority and so on are nothing more then acts of low conscious people. What you give, is what you receive and live in.

That's what i wrote a while ago, there is even no truth in the state of consciousness all these people are experiencing, all these states are equal and have a form of illusionary truth in them but they're just perspectives from each operating inviduality. In actuality there is no truth just different perspectives in the illusion. God also understands its illusionary nature and all other masters did too, the only true teaching that can be given is towards god true nature which is its being, that's it and that's all, all other teachings are just different perspectives from different consciousness ladders within the illusion within God. All lives, all consciousness states are equal

The funny thing is, when i did LSD with my friend and he got into a selfless god state he was also emitting some kind of powerful love energy towards me. I really felt like he was my dad and i was his boy, so the true "father role" that is greater then your mom/father is a selfless high consciousness being in another words not human ego anymore. This selfless god, does things for you out of love and what is best for you because it's totality of all beings. Being in the present of this selflessness will make you cry and feel all the love it's like having a smaller version of god near you while you know that the "god" in this person is just being channeled through which is even more amazing!!

@Ulax Just finished this book today, it's basically a bit better versio then LOC from david hawkins. The biggest mistake they both make is to think there are levels of consciousness exactly like this, it's way more complicated and god can make anything out of it. God doesnt hold itself to "specific" level of operating consciousness.

Don't snort it, most of it will go in your throat anyway and give you nose pain and unpleasant feeling... It's the last thing you want during your trip, watch leo's plugging vid

@vibvExactly but you make a mistake thinking there is truth, there is not. Within the illusion of god there are only perspectives, at high level of consciousness you start even understanding that those perspectives are an illusion or nothingness within god. The only truth is the beingness of god within you

I have done/experienced many miracles, but i still don't get it. Is it me imagining my reality or accessing unity state of consciousness. Miracle from today: I'm waiting in my truck with other 4 man for 50 minutes waiting to get unloaded, while waiting i decide to enter a semi sleep meditation. Which is a meditation form when you're really tired and you're literally falling asleep and start dreaming but you're still conscious of your body being awake. ________ So usually 1 of 4 guys would come get us and give us a sign like waving from like 200feet away that we can drive further, while im being in the semi sleep state i'm sorta becoming selfless which means total relaxation ready to go sleep/dream no care about the body you're sorta entering a dream consciousness while being awake. So while being in that state and waiting behind other trucks, i see 1 guy walking towards the road and waving at us in my mind and then just when he stopped waving i hear others starting their truck engine. Then i enter the building and i ask a smaller guy, which guy did come get us the 300lbs one? He said, yes. Like so many times i've created or experienced miracles like this, but i still don't get it ... To me it seems those are 2 possibilities from all the experiences i've had. 1. You imagine your own reality. 2. Somehow you also have the possibility to interact with unity consciousness/god and it does things for you/from him I don't know which one is most likely since i've experienced both number 1 and 2 , i just can't comprehend it how both can be true. It's like you're god and do things on behalf of yourself but also there is unity god and does things for you. If we imagine our own reality is it possible that while doing that we're actually not following gods script and are temporarily awake and this is why it happens where we imagine our own reality?

exactly at my level of consciousness and the things @leo did for me , consciousness wise. His posts are obvious teachings and straight to the point, nothing wrong with that. When i was in selfless mode which is a form of god mode in the physical it was very obvious who Leo was, he's just an imaginary program that teaches a certain level and if it wasnt for him i wouldn't be at where i am now. There are many teachers like Leo that wake up people at certain consciousness levels/ladder, for example tom campbell is a teacher that takes dumb materialists and start teaching them about consciousness but in a different way so it would be easier for materialists to understand. If you know about Leo and learned a lot from first meeting him about consciousness and psychedelics then congrats you're on the next level in consciousness ladder. I also want to add, when i was in selfless mode it was so clear that me as God gave this illusionary tools like LSD to wake me up to certain aspects , it was told that there was no difference between these psychedelic tools like LD and meditation

No, that's not what i wrote. In the dream state i saw him walking to call us and wave his hand, when he waved and stopped all other truckers started their engine and i left the dream state. Then i asked a guy and confirmed that this guy called us and waved his hand. All happend on precise timing.