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@HojoEasier said then done, like i never want to go back to the void again but i think that's because my ego was fighting it. In the void you're like some form of god but i think it's not the max level, in the void you instantly get all the insights about basically everything. But i remember i had a pov of this infinite being in the void that reached its limit about its existence, and also a pov from infinite "blackness/nothingness". So i had both povs. Even though i was the only one there, i feel like there is more and somebody else was still in control as when i stopped my heart i was lead through these experiences. And even in david Hawkins books void calibrates around 850, so i think even if you're in the void god is still in control. I also felt like this infinite being in the void was fully automatic that kept pushing itself into different dreams. While being this infinite red colored being, this vibrations were extremely slow and powerful. Oh now i just remembered what it represented, it represented the vein just like in your brain. Basically you were inside your own "brain" seeing that red vein vibrating and nothingness/blackness, it's like your body that you have right now is GOD but i don't know why i got pushed/shown that i was this vein/vibration in the void. It was like i was everything and everything was inside me. It's like you're a mind in nothingness that studies itself here. Yeah i think that's what void is, it's god giving you more control over your body and you are becoming this vein/vibration/energy in nothingness but it is actually somewhere in your own body. Perhaps call Leo or other members to discuss the void, and if they have any more information on that.

It doesn't work like that i think, there is only 1 that will become conscious. You shouldn't seek wisdom or knowledge in others but only in god, the others are merely part of your story. The knowledge you seek can only be found in those that were known as reincarnations of god as only those masters had consciousness level that surpassed ours. Jesus/mahavatar babaji/Haidakhan babaji/yogananda and so on, this is the reason why they always say that they're responsible for our liberation

@Arthogaan I can only talk from my experience and understanding, i think there is only "one" in the dream which is you who will start waking up and becoming more and more conscious towards your death. All your life experiences and karma that you set yourself up with, are set for you to experience yourself and understand yourself from lower levels as gods/your thoughts only become materialized at these levels. You set it up in a way that eventually you will wake up from your dream and go back to (source) , from the source you will go back to astral. The astral is a place where the source projects itself for like 99.9% and this is where you get your own astral form, this is where you start creating things with your "original" thought. In the astral form you're nothing more then an energy creating whatever it wants in nothingness. When you become more and more conscious in the physical form is when you start judging your past actions of your previous unconscious self, and you're the only one that does the judging of yourself. But you also understand that it wasn't entirely your fault, and this is also the point where you should drastically start to improve as you start realizing that others are yourself. Jesus quotes - In Matthew 5:42 “Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.” - love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. and so on. From my understanding the way you will leave to source is you will just be catapulted with the energy of billions nukes until you're everything and you will be floating in the source in incredible ecstasy. How do i know? I actually experienced something similar 2 days ago which might be connected to your post. I was close to falling asleep when suddenly, you know how the psychedelics comeup comes when you're laying in bed? Like suddenly alot of energy get projected into you? Well i was close to falling asleep sober when suddenly i experienced a force of like 100 nukes take over my body and i thought i would be catapulted out, which felt really great. But then i stayed in my body and i got a picture shown from the movie "martyrs" it's like a tunnel that represented the source at the end. After that my body had a nice loving energy all over my body and i fell asleep. The only thing we can do, is surrender and trust in god with everything that we have. I think this is the only way.

1. Like i have seen on psychedelics how others are your constructs and that there might be no others. 2. I have seen how life turns only around you. 3. I stopped my heart with my consciousness and came back, was shown by god that i died. 4. In prior to finding spirituality i was playing a vr game called vrchat, you could use full body vr equipment to project yourself into an avatar in the game and so could other people too. I started noticing patterns that the "others" that projected their real selves into the game had a loop pattern in their behaviour, it was like i was the only one that was conscious and that reality has solipsistic nature. Like i know that the trust in god is the most important thing, but how to deal with when you start awakening more and more that you start witnessing that there is only you and that it's all a game created around you? Have you experienced this yourself @Leo Gura or others, and how did you comfort and withstand this? As you might know Leo yourself, that this is very dangerous territory and is close to death my question is how to handle it? Is the trust in god the only thing?

Yeah but i feel like at certain level, you will know everything about the "other" every action they take which is very scary since they just become a construct of your mind. @Swarnim I don't know how to accept this, even though i'm not at this lvl yet i know its true. @Hojo

I want to see what others opinion is on behalf of god, do you agree or disagree?

Yeah i was just talking and thinking about it, like i could literally see god playing all these roles sober

I didn't name any names in my post, i just said that the said person is a "moron". And you gave me a warning for that, and when you gave me that warning i instantly got a private message from someone saying that you're provoking people and many more things. I didn't even talk about you, but i guess it's gods way.

Dream characters or others might not be real as i see quote often that they're being controlled by god, or the creation is already in place and everything is just being played out, my personal opinion it's both. It's already created around you, but god can change the script and force itself through you or through others. It's like in the waking dream you're the only god, but from higher level god can force itself upon you or others which is what creates growth i think. In real life for example i quote often have "no thoughts" , when i enter high consciousness suddenly new information and new thoughts starts to arrive. You see? It's like we're totally dependent on god.

@Hojo God is already doing that, but you have to remember that the "one self" is always active no matter what is being created by him. We can only gain wisdom here on behalf of god, the wisdom get intermixed between other selves and that's how growth occurs. But the growth always originally starts with god, as the thoughts of god are the original creation. From what i have seen with my own eyes, god keeps splitting itself into different dreams. When he creates the dream, he puts only "himself" or "one" character in this created dream. This is how god learns wisdom and how he creates imaginary others. We have to find a better way, but be careful we don't really want to forget our true origin for infinity and that might be the answer.

Because there is only you, right?

The problem of your "thought" is thinking that there is a difference between "unconscious" and "conscious" thought. It's all gods dream and gods cosmic dance. This is god, telling you.

I had a big awakening , and then your post came exactly describing it. So many miracles happend , wow

Like when i broke through and went with high consciousness outside, i felt powerfull and powerless at the same time. Powerful because i was free from suffering, and felt like a god manifest. And powerless because i was seeing how everyone is me and my construct.

Do you think it doesn't work like that because once you realize you're god you turn into nothingness and merge with the infinite divine will? So anything less then infinite power is however possible, right? Like for example God dreaming up Jesus, he won't have infinite power because he's the dream of god but because god dreams itself as all powerfull in manifestation that is however possible, right?

Yup and that is why we have no free will, everything is given by god. All your life and others is nothing more then a construct, the day will come when you will be liberated and you start understanding that you were all alone in this and not only did you construct your life but also life of others.

@michaelcycle00 Your full awakening is predestined by god, before the full awakening you can leave the dream at any time this will happen when you start telling yourself that you want to end life often, god will test you and in most cases you won't be ready. You control yourself, your life is predestined until you're liberated from suffering. God is always righteous in all his descisions. Not to interfere because they're all creations of yours and they don't know it in any other way, god contains and expresses all the possebilities. Their behaviour is not really them. They do have personal consciousness but it will never be higher then yours.

So i finally decided to take 100mg of mdma which was half the pill, and i laid on some cushions in my computer room. After 1hour i started to notice some slight effects just like on "lsd" but without the transition comeup. I tried as hard as possible to surrender while listening to music, some slight loving bodily sensation was felt for couple of minutes just like on low dose lsd and that was it. After that no matter how hard i tried to surrender, it didn't do much... I felt like this 100mg dose wasn't far from my baseline consciousness so i decided to take 200mg or a whole pill more. After taking it i decided to move to my bedroom and lay on the bed, after around 30-45min i said to myself "it doesn't work", and just when i said that the comeup came even harder then on the highest dose of lsd i ever had. The comeup was god's presence or extreme energy of becoming more conscious that sent me to another consciousness level. When this comeup came and lasted for like 10 seconds, my thoughts tell me to put on my clothes and go outside because i'm in a different timeline/consciousness right now. So i put on my clothes and look outside through every window in my house, i don't see anyone outside or hear a noise. I go to my backyard really fast and put my scooter helm on so i could drive on my scooter, i turn the scooter on and the engine starts running but when i turn the gas handle to drive forward on my scooter it doesn't work.... It's like god is preventing me to drive it, then in my thoughts i say "wtf" how is this possible and when i said that the gas handle started working again. I drive like 10meters in my backyard, and my thoughts keep preventing me from driving further. So i put the scooter back and put off my helm. I went outside and started walking, walking didn't take any effort or energy it's like i could walk forever and my body felt light or like nothingness. It was like i was an ascended master, not putting out any energy on walking. So while i was walking people appeared again, and i was witnessing how all these people and the things they were doing are god's constructs. I was the only conscious being alive, and others are me. While walking a car drove by, the car sounded extremely realistic almost like it was an imaginary construct. So i walked for like 1km/1mile not far from my parents house and suddenly out of nowhere i felt like i was dieng from extreme thirst and was about to pass out, the thrist was so extreme that i couldn't do anything anymore and i felt like running into peoples house to drink some water. While that was happening, god was showing that i could die and he can setup my death anyway he wanted. And i realized i couldn't get help because it's all god around me. I knew why god did this, and i told him please make it stop i'm dieng from thirst, i swear i'm gonna go to my parents and apologise if you make it stop. Just when i said it, suddenly the extreme thirst was gone and i felt again like an ascended master and walked towards my parents house. While walking to my parents house, i see how the things that have been said to me by others is gods doing. Like for example how my friend told me before my trip that had mdma before, that when you take it you will want to walk. Or how i've read if you take mdma you have to drink coconut water with elektrolytes because you might get thirsty. This was all god constructing reality all around me preparing me for this experience. So now i'm at my mothers house and my stepdad opens the door, then i started apologizing to him for everything that i did and then he called my mom. My mom came and i hugged her and started apologizing, while i was away for 1 year and didn't have any contact she lost all her teeth and had a heart infarct at work. My thoughts told me, that it was also her karma for the things that she did and now she is clean. We talked, and i decided to tell her what happend and how god made me come here again. Then she started talking and for the first time in my life i finally could see in her that her base consciousness was raised. She said that she went to church often and prayed that i would come back, she said that god told her that she was asking for too much. But her prayer was answered and i was forced by god to go to her house i think by making me thrist and asking me where i went. Then i started telling her about my life and the things that i experienced with god, she said that i was putting too much pressure on people with my talk because i knew so much. She said you should keep everything to yourself unless god gives you the right to teach others, she said everyone is on a different ladder of consciousness and you shouldn't interfere unless they are interested themselves. When she said that, i realized that she was right. Some people want to be where they're at, and interfering with their lives can actually put them in different situations but do they really want that? If i would force myself on my mother and show her a whole new world, that would change her life. But how would her life be after that? How would her relationship be with her stepdad? Perhaps her path would change and the relationship with her husband would change. Do i really want that? I guess god was talking through her, and i should listen to god. *Also when i was walking on mdma, i felt extreme peace every step i took. It was like i was liberated from any suffering and was just watching these people like they were part of me god and that i created them. There was 1 guy mowing his grass, i walked past him and didn't hear any sound. There were people talking to eachother and i didn't hear them, they just stared at me when i walked by. All the sound was only created when it was close to me or i allowed it to be created. Never felt such peace as i took every step. *also no teeth grinding or any other symptoms while i was on high dose of mdma, nothing... I was just myself in higher consciousness

It still wasnt more powerfull then lsd. My consciousness could easily handle it. My intention was to experience love or to see how it compares to lsd. Which was very similar to low dose lsd without the floaty visuals

@tuku747 Your post actually made me realize some deep things after my last trip on mdma, thank you for that. I swear it's like me (god) creating these things like your post for waking me up.

@KarlaYou don't need a trip sitter.... Don't you get it? Tools like mdma/lsd and so on give you high consciousness. The experience is lead by god and you're just being yourself. Everything that is happening is the will of god, trip sitters are useless as it is god too. If god wants you to die or stop with this life, it can happen at any time. It is always your choice to stop this dream, when you stop your dream you become omniscient and you will know that everyone else is a creation of yours and you're the only god.

I think the dosage might be a lot higher, i just weighed 1 pill on my micro gram scale that is calibrated with weights. The weight of 1 pill is between 380-420 mg which is like 0.4gram . So in total i took around 600mg when the average dosage is 1-1.5mg per kg

What does it do? Is it like weak version of psychedelics>? Yes it was my first mdma experience, prior i was eating very healthy foods for like 3-4 days and drank coconut water. I ate mostly different kinds of expensive sushi with salmon/eel and it had alot of healthy stuff in eat like avocados and so on. I knew the pill was 200mg is because it came from my friend that i taught a lot about psychology/god/spirituality, and he got it from his other friend that is close to god. It's also very large so i'm pretty sure if i weigh it it's gonna be 200. He said it's very pure mdma. The experience was like 4 hour. I couldn't sleep for the next 2 days at night so i called in sick to work because it was very much to handle, yeah i cried for 2-3 days after the experience

I wonder why there are so many mentally ill people on this forum, cant be a coincidence? Can be a scary thing for some people actually, they might start to think they're mentally ill too... Not a good thing about this forum to be honest

It's a bunch of bs that non awake people love to believe in, as long as there are others and you're in a physical body you're not god, you have a tiny fraction of what god is. Others are a slight mirror of your consciousness because you chose yourself how to interact with your other selves based on your beliefs and so on and you chose who to have in your life based on your own consciousness. Peoples personalities and behaviour is what is within god, you're not responsible for that so on a bigger scale and understanding they're not a reflection of you but a reflection what god has within. Stop with this nonsense and stop feeding people bs, being a snowflake or selfless isn't gonna get mirrored back to you or change god (others).