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@michaelcycle00 Your full awakening is predestined by god, before the full awakening you can leave the dream at any time this will happen when you start telling yourself that you want to end life often, god will test you and in most cases you won't be ready. You control yourself, your life is predestined until you're liberated from suffering. God is always righteous in all his descisions. Not to interfere because they're all creations of yours and they don't know it in any other way, god contains and expresses all the possebilities. Their behaviour is not really them. They do have personal consciousness but it will never be higher then yours.

So i finally decided to take 100mg of mdma which was half the pill, and i laid on some cushions in my computer room. After 1hour i started to notice some slight effects just like on "lsd" but without the transition comeup. I tried as hard as possible to surrender while listening to music, some slight loving bodily sensation was felt for couple of minutes just like on low dose lsd and that was it. After that no matter how hard i tried to surrender, it didn't do much... I felt like this 100mg dose wasn't far from my baseline consciousness so i decided to take 200mg or a whole pill more. After taking it i decided to move to my bedroom and lay on the bed, after around 30-45min i said to myself "it doesn't work", and just when i said that the comeup came even harder then on the highest dose of lsd i ever had. The comeup was god's presence or extreme energy of becoming more conscious that sent me to another consciousness level. When this comeup came and lasted for like 10 seconds, my thoughts tell me to put on my clothes and go outside because i'm in a different timeline/consciousness right now. So i put on my clothes and look outside through every window in my house, i don't see anyone outside or hear a noise. I go to my backyard really fast and put my scooter helm on so i could drive on my scooter, i turn the scooter on and the engine starts running but when i turn the gas handle to drive forward on my scooter it doesn't work.... It's like god is preventing me to drive it, then in my thoughts i say "wtf" how is this possible and when i said that the gas handle started working again. I drive like 10meters in my backyard, and my thoughts keep preventing me from driving further. So i put the scooter back and put off my helm. I went outside and started walking, walking didn't take any effort or energy it's like i could walk forever and my body felt light or like nothingness. It was like i was an ascended master, not putting out any energy on walking. So while i was walking people appeared again, and i was witnessing how all these people and the things they were doing are god's constructs. I was the only conscious being alive, and others are me. While walking a car drove by, the car sounded extremely realistic almost like it was an imaginary construct. So i walked for like 1km/1mile not far from my parents house and suddenly out of nowhere i felt like i was dieng from extreme thirst and was about to pass out, the thrist was so extreme that i couldn't do anything anymore and i felt like running into peoples house to drink some water. While that was happening, god was showing that i could die and he can setup my death anyway he wanted. And i realized i couldn't get help because it's all god around me. I knew why god did this, and i told him please make it stop i'm dieng from thirst, i swear i'm gonna go to my parents and apologise if you make it stop. Just when i said it, suddenly the extreme thirst was gone and i felt again like an ascended master and walked towards my parents house. While walking to my parents house, i see how the things that have been said to me by others is gods doing. Like for example how my friend told me before my trip that had mdma before, that when you take it you will want to walk. Or how i've read if you take mdma you have to drink coconut water with elektrolytes because you might get thirsty. This was all god constructing reality all around me preparing me for this experience. So now i'm at my mothers house and my stepdad opens the door, then i started apologizing to him for everything that i did and then he called my mom. My mom came and i hugged her and started apologizing, while i was away for 1 year and didn't have any contact she lost all her teeth and had a heart infarct at work. My thoughts told me, that it was also her karma for the things that she did and now she is clean. We talked, and i decided to tell her what happend and how god made me come here again. Then she started talking and for the first time in my life i finally could see in her that her base consciousness was raised. She said that she went to church often and prayed that i would come back, she said that god told her that she was asking for too much. But her prayer was answered and i was forced by god to go to her house i think by making me thrist and asking me where i went. Then i started telling her about my life and the things that i experienced with god, she said that i was putting too much pressure on people with my talk because i knew so much. She said you should keep everything to yourself unless god gives you the right to teach others, she said everyone is on a different ladder of consciousness and you shouldn't interfere unless they are interested themselves. When she said that, i realized that she was right. Some people want to be where they're at, and interfering with their lives can actually put them in different situations but do they really want that? If i would force myself on my mother and show her a whole new world, that would change her life. But how would her life be after that? How would her relationship be with her stepdad? Perhaps her path would change and the relationship with her husband would change. Do i really want that? I guess god was talking through her, and i should listen to god. *Also when i was walking on mdma, i felt extreme peace every step i took. It was like i was liberated from any suffering and was just watching these people like they were part of me god and that i created them. There was 1 guy mowing his grass, i walked past him and didn't hear any sound. There were people talking to eachother and i didn't hear them, they just stared at me when i walked by. All the sound was only created when it was close to me or i allowed it to be created. Never felt such peace as i took every step. *also no teeth grinding or any other symptoms while i was on high dose of mdma, nothing... I was just myself in higher consciousness

It still wasnt more powerfull then lsd. My consciousness could easily handle it. My intention was to experience love or to see how it compares to lsd. Which was very similar to low dose lsd without the floaty visuals

@tuku747 Your post actually made me realize some deep things after my last trip on mdma, thank you for that. I swear it's like me (god) creating these things like your post for waking me up.

@KarlaYou don't need a trip sitter.... Don't you get it? Tools like mdma/lsd and so on give you high consciousness. The experience is lead by god and you're just being yourself. Everything that is happening is the will of god, trip sitters are useless as it is god too. If god wants you to die or stop with this life, it can happen at any time. It is always your choice to stop this dream, when you stop your dream you become omniscient and you will know that everyone else is a creation of yours and you're the only god.

I think the dosage might be a lot higher, i just weighed 1 pill on my micro gram scale that is calibrated with weights. The weight of 1 pill is between 380-420 mg which is like 0.4gram . So in total i took around 600mg when the average dosage is 1-1.5mg per kg

What does it do? Is it like weak version of psychedelics>? Yes it was my first mdma experience, prior i was eating very healthy foods for like 3-4 days and drank coconut water. I ate mostly different kinds of expensive sushi with salmon/eel and it had alot of healthy stuff in eat like avocados and so on. I knew the pill was 200mg is because it came from my friend that i taught a lot about psychology/god/spirituality, and he got it from his other friend that is close to god. It's also very large so i'm pretty sure if i weigh it it's gonna be 200. He said it's very pure mdma. The experience was like 4 hour. I couldn't sleep for the next 2 days at night so i called in sick to work because it was very much to handle, yeah i cried for 2-3 days after the experience

I wonder why there are so many mentally ill people on this forum, cant be a coincidence? Can be a scary thing for some people actually, they might start to think they're mentally ill too... Not a good thing about this forum to be honest

It's a bunch of bs that non awake people love to believe in, as long as there are others and you're in a physical body you're not god, you have a tiny fraction of what god is. Others are a slight mirror of your consciousness because you chose yourself how to interact with your other selves based on your beliefs and so on and you chose who to have in your life based on your own consciousness. Peoples personalities and behaviour is what is within god, you're not responsible for that so on a bigger scale and understanding they're not a reflection of you but a reflection what god has within. Stop with this nonsense and stop feeding people bs, being a snowflake or selfless isn't gonna get mirrored back to you or change god (others).

The love that you have for a person creates an illusion how you will see the said person outwards. Apperance is mostly an illusion of your own consciousness

Bullshit, when i was a 4-5 year old child. Pure and loving , but was still being abused and beaten by my mother. By talking like this you're putting a limit on god, relationships don't have to be a reflection of you... people act are what is within god just like in your sleeping dream. So don't feed people bs please.

Sounds to me like your ego digged yourself too deep , layer upon layer of different belief systems that aren't truth. There are a lot of pointers in your story that show low operating consciousness you live in.

Has it also to do with how you see yourself, for example when i look into mirror i look like me. Then at work someone made a picture of me for a pasport photograph and i looked there like a completely different person. Another example, i had an interview with clinical psychologist and when i entered the room she looked ugly and masculine to me. But ones i achieved the highest lvl of consciousness naturally i ever been during the interview she looked cute and beautiful to me and i loved her unconditionally very hard, even the room didnt look dark anymore but golden. So basically you see things based on your own consciousness and depending on your consciousness level the environment will reflect that.

When i rub my eyes when they're tired, i always see the same infinite tunnel that is always made of different colored cubes that look the same

I remember when i was between 4-8 i would go to sleep, and when i closed my eyes i started getting dizzy because i would see a shape, a circle for example becoming small then become larger, become small then larger... it would do this forever and my visual pov would start shaking with open and closed eyes. I experienced this many times. Now i didnt have a single headache for like 20 years. My first thought says , it's because the consciousness has a problem adjusting itself to being limited? Any other thoughts?

No i just put a lot of 0's without thought

From what i have understood the void/emptiness is a representation of gods limit, all existence leads to gods limit. The limit is gods question how it came to be, and why at the highest level it's the only existence. I think this is what void represents. Like in the void i was this infinite vibration/energy but i was just a tiny thing in this infiite void that was all around. It was like this is where everything starts. But the thing that i also understand, is that i was lead by higher power/energy to this void and it started with something showing me my heart beating twice so i could go to that place. I also have experienced/seen how much power i had just by mere thoughts, it was like i was god for some time. From what i understand and have seen is that there is some being/energy/vibration that keeps splitting itself constantly into different dreams of itself forever, in that state there is only "you" and you're the only chooser. It's basically like every single person that exist chose his own dream from that level and i also had a feeling that it operated like an AI and did everything automatically that was best for it. I think being infinite in nothingness is what god tries to avoid, it rather have an experience at all times then to be there for infinity. That's also the reason why god is so fascinated with death.

@puporing Basically i was like the only conscious being that vibratated extremely slow and powerfully in the darkness/nothingness all around me, all life/existence was inside me. This is very scary, you rather have an experience and eat shit then be in the infinite nothingness and be at this level where you're like the only conscious being. How did you experience this heaven/everythingness as you? @Breakingthewall The thing that gets me everytime is that just how you see the world with your eyes open, i was looking like that at my heart with my eyes closed. I could slow it down or make it go faster, but i knew that i had to stop it. 1st time i couldn't do it and i go up from laying, second time i lay again and close my eyes and god against shows me my heart beating. Then i pierced it, and i got into this void. I was like the only/most conscious being that has ever existed, which was so scary.

This is very important to understand!!! Not all people, if not most people will ever have contact with god on psychedelics, it is given by god!!!!!!!!!!! His personal experiences that he talked about, including god/limitless intelligence. It can only be understood and be given credit by people like me/us. Leo's purpose is given by "god" to be a guru/initiator for those that have been seeking on some level, he might be the only reason/initiator for some people that will be awakened by psychedelics or atleast reach a new level in understanding. Remember it's not a coincidence that like 90% of people if not more on earth have no clue what medicine like "LSD" does to them, they're so unconscious that they view it as a fun drug. You're probably 0.00000001% of population , if you have experienced and understand that you're god and that everything is inside you. Just as jesus has said "the kingdom of god/heaven is inside you". If you have reached this level then you can call yourself the most awakened person on earth. Everything is the doing of god, your thoughts are so powerful that they literally change the world around you!!!!

Actually made me smile and laugh irl , thanks god

@Hojo Yeah exactly, that's the reason usually the first thing god shows is the "void" , if you are done with this world and with everything. Being in the void for 7 seconds , experiecing only yourself and the void is hellish experience

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I did like 6mg intranasal and it was like microdose of lsd nothing more it barely had an effect. A friend of mine did accidently 80-90 mg intranasal and he said it was simillar to lsd and that it was too much that he had to puke after puking he was in bliss and meditated

I have asked 4 people irl that took lsd if they understood what it was, they didn't and i just got some gibberish back ... All of them said they went crazy, you have no idea how deep you can go on psychedelics or what understanding you can get. When you take a psychedelic it is up to god to give you a godly experience, most people won't gonna get it is because theyre too selfish and are buried far too deep in their own ego fighting god. Psychedelics are probably the only thing that can get you as close as possible to understanding reality, because you don't say this and don't understand this, anything that you write becomes invalid because people see you lack the understanding.

You guys are clueless, i see it's pointless for me to explain things. Just go ahead and make up your own stories...