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Exactly, if they would live in a higher state of consciousness for 1 day and experience the insanity they would cry and beg god to come back to ego life. If they deconstruct reality to some extent and become the most conscious being on earth, the responsibility that will come with that will make them bedridden and they will dream themselves away. Everything is, how it's supposed to be. The thing is, ones you deconstruct reality enough you're totally on your own and nobody can help you. Consciousness is nothingness and memory becomes nothingness, ones you try to take over the gods flow because you had the realization that you're god it will go downwards and you will see how dangerous freewill/decisions can be in nothingness. I like the NDE video you posted, and i see lots of connections/truth in it. I hope that it will always be like that regarding god, and that there will always be someone that is more conscious then you. MEaning reaching god kind of level, but never to be god - is the only way

No, what i think it was is remembrance of who i was to some degree, then i got my pov back to my ego and i got really confused how this is even possible?? So it was a very small degree of god realization, then i got back to my ego and started suffering from intestine pain. Then this suffering lead me taking lsd p1 to stop suffering, and then i wrote the trip report that you've read. Like Ramana has said, suffering leads to god realization... Anyway i'm scared to zoom on things ever again because of the suffering i've experienced when connecting my ego to miracles/unknowingness/consciousness/god etc.

I've reached a natural state of consciousness to be able to zoom on things by the magnitude of 100000x etc. With my normal eyes. And the ego's pov camera becomes what i'm zoomed at. Here's an example of a video i zoomed in at, i held my phone 1inch from my eyes with the video playing in front of my eyes and i zoomed in by like 10000x to see whats in the stars then seeing floating orbs/structures unexplained things. Then i started thinking how is this even possible, it's like god is showing me this. Then i suddenly get insane painfull intestine pain for messing with my ego and doing these things. So be careful, your consciousness pov can literally merge with things and go deep.

@Razard86 well said, if i was you @Verg0 i would read this couple times. What has been said here, has probably never been said by anybody. What razard explained is the truth, and i also have experienced different state of reality and perception when the trip should've ended. Like seeing the reality with more open eyes and more in the present moment experiencing the so called miracles that i used my mind to create , like drinking infinite milk. At the end i got anxiety and insanity ,almost wanted to go to the doctor/admit myself to psychward like razard did. Prayed a lot and swallowed pills and so on to get back to my normal ego reality because i couldn't handle it. At the end i throwed away all the psychedelics and quit this work. It's not good to do this work if you still want to enjoy life a bit as your normal self, even if you think you have nothing to lose and want to die , these experiences can still 360 you so you can appreciate everyone around you no matter what they do and your simplistic mechanical life.

lsd p-1 is same as lsd but weaker, maybe like 70-80% of original lsd

@OBEler I'm not advising i just said i took it first time. You can't die from something that you perceive and associate with "consciousness raising" if you have no intention to die the dose won't matter specially if your mind associates it with "consciousness raising/love" etc.. The choice of death/leaving your physical body is always your choice, so if you consciously take cyanide and associate it with death this is total surrender to god / actual death of your ego. You should've known that with your experiences. And even 600 mg of mdma doesn't even come close to 100ug of lsd-p1. Why do you think the effects of 600mg of mdma were minimum to me on an empty stomach? Because my mind associated it with a state of consciousness of saints/unconditional love based on david hawkins books. It was set to 575 there, lsd was more like 700. It's all about your mind, my friend

I did 600 first time. Lay on bed till it kicks in and then take a bottle of water and walk outside

Just do 100, i did 20 once it didnt have any effect. I believe all doses up to 50 don't do much

Yes it's possible to not return back to your body, it will be like sleep. When you start sleeping you might get a remembrance of who you're actually are if you don't resist your memory will be wiped of who you were as an ego. Then you won't have any remembrance how to get back. Consciousness is fluid, memory in the nothingness state comes and go's. _______________________________________ Your reality can also be altered forever when you're in the ego because you deconstructed reality enough , you will stay and keep living in the same conditions it's like developing a mental illness. But mental illness is not an illness it's just your consciousness stuck in certain understanding low or high etc @bmcnicho

The reason we enjoy our illusion/delusion is because we're eternal and alone, there is nothing to do and you're eternally stuck with yourself. When you wake up while being in your ego body you will realize that all the reality turns around you and constructs around you based on your beliefs/thoughts/being, and that there is nobody else. When you awake and will have a form of omniscience you will understand that the nature of reality is based on lies/deceptions and lots of insanity for it to work. You will regret for not loving others enough because you were not awake. When you leave your ego body, you're stuck with yourself as god and will understand that all the reality within you is a big family and that is you, when you stop dreaming about it , it will lose harmony/peace/flow and you start seeking again as god and realize that the only option is to incarnate. So i suggest you to accept is as soon as possible, the more you fight against it the worse it's gonna be for you.

You can easily hurt yourself or be gone forever, the only and safest way is to have a trusted anchor. Meaning someone that is witnessing your body from a different reality so you can always get back. Disadvantage of that is that you will never reach/go as deep. My own personal advice, don't start with psychedelics unless you're fully ready to let go of who you are and of this reality. The more and more you deconstruct reality (getting higher in consciousness) the harder it is to get back to your own.

@Princess ArabiaMemory is nothingness and temporary, for example: You go to sleep and one day you deconstruct reality to a point that the reality itself changes to the realizations you have had. These realizations and your memory of it gives you a new reality based on what you truly have witnessed and seen in the nothingness (nothingness is where reality creation happens and you can take it with you same as meditation - you create vibration in meditation and send it to your physical body and then feel it for example) In your wakeful state you can be stuck based on the realizations you have had, basically stuck in a state of consciousness. Because the realizations/states are illusionary you might never find your way back, and you won't have any memory/realizations how you did it or how it happend. The only thing is to love yourself, accept yourself and let it be don't fuck around with god realization. God realization is truly a dangerous area

Be careful with what you say, as god you have free will to be god and to lose it. Be careful that you don't get stuck in hell that you create yourself by using your so called "courage". Seeking in god/getting lost is a real thing, memory/wisdom/knowledge can only be temporary and you can get stuck

So i went to sleep and had intestinal pain, decided to take a low dose of 100mg lsd p1. Since i knew being in higher consciousness/vibration removes all the pain. So i took it and after 1 hour the pain stopped, i decided to go to my bed and sleep little did i know that this was the biggest mistake i would ever make. So i went to sleep and closed my eyes, i started desconstructing all the reality within god or myself. I saw that as long the self/god is dreaming and making up realities/deconstructing itself it can't escape its own suffering. I saw as god that the best way to go on about the eternal life is creating a dream and putting your consciousness inside this character. The ego character will literally manifest its own reality in the ego while being manifested, so in the sense we really do have freewill since god is in the ego. The ego reality is being created all around you in the presence (no time), but you don't see it because you believe there is a past and future and that there is time. I saw how everything within the self was just a dream, when i dreamed love and harmony the reality would manifest itself as love and as a big family, when i woke up as the self and decided to take the control the reality would become hellish because god too couldn't understand itself since it can literally imagine everything. God is aware of itself as the only self when it wakes up, and this causes suffering. So you will never truely escape any suffering as long as you're aware. This is also the reason why haidakhan babaji (recent god manifestation) said , idleness make you lifeless "Work is worship" and that hard work is the best spiritual practice. He said this because you can't truely escape suffering unless you distract yourself and have goals no matter where you are. The also most important thing he preached is that he wanted us to be extremely brave. The reason for this is that god realization isn't a joke, the control you get will make you crumble if you are not gonna be brave. You will just want to make yourself small get back to some ego and crave stabillity. Even god isn't aware of it's full potential thats how much power it has. The reality i was in was stuck in time, 1 minute felt like 20-30 minutes. And sometimes the time even went backwards, so i was stuck in the presence what felt like for eternity. I went outside and saw how reality is being created all around you by you, i only saw ravens and it looked like they didn't have any soul or were already dead. They were just a loop playing around you, constantly doing the same motion in flight and walk. Then i went inside my house again, i knew since i don't see any people or people driving cars that what is left is the ego self only. In this higher consciousness state thoughts were literally manifesting reality, i looked into the mirror and saw how my face changed to the faces of hundreds of different people. I also knew that because i'm in this high vibratory state that the earth/reality is gonna look more heavenly as the reality is your own projection of your own consciousness and how much love you contain within yourself. I looked out of 2 different windows from my house like 100x, and each time i looked out of 1 window the reality looked more heavenly even though it wasn't how it actually was. The neighbors house for example, looked more realistic/beautiful and in this manifestation their window was open and they had a white teddybear hanging out. It was also more sunny and all colors/reality looking more beautiful. I was stuck for like 20 hours in the same god state and there wasn't any indication of it losing it's power after 10hr the trip usually stops specially on a low dose like this, the 20 hours felt like couple of days. Since the time barely moves, you're in the presence only. I started panicking and started to do ego things to lower my vibration/consciousness to get to the state where are "others" . I did the dishes, took cold showers, exercised, did push ups but it was all pointless i had infinite energy and it didn't do much. I thought i was stuck in this new reality forever and couldn't accept it and wanted to get back to my ego since i still wanted to do alot of things. I went to bed again and closed my eyes and was the self again and started to forget the ego, this is how the ego dies (god just forgets about it). But i tried to hold on with all my might on my ego since i didn't want to go. Then i decided to look out of the windows again, and will all my might i tried to lower my consciousness so i could see other people. I manifested people and they started to appear, i could make them walk slow/fast or dissapear. I decided that this is the chance to go outside hoping i would hear sounds and and see people. While walking to my parents house i noticed how i didnt need to squint my eyes anymore against this bright sun, it's like it didnt affect my eyes and i could finally see fully. I went to my parents house and it looked like that i was never born, they were just ego loops designed to take care of me. I begged for help to anchor me to their reality, i got a small glass of milk and when i started drinking this milk with big sips it had infinite amount of milk and would never go empty even though it was only like 100ml same with the peach juice, when i drank it was still on the same amount/level. This really freaked me out, and i asked for help again to do ego things. I got many valerian pills from my mom against anxiety and try to lose this form of god mode. Eventually we went outside to a small forest nearby, reality looked more beautiful and realistic and i had this infinite walk energy. I saw 1 wild duck near a creek and felt that i could come nearby since i'm in high consciousness state and knew that thought manifested my reality. I got some wild berries nearby and it came to my hand and ate them from my hand, i felt like this duck could understand what i was saying to it. When i said for example 1 time that it was beautiful it wiggled it's tail and bowed to me as a thank you. Then i started walking home with my mom, and it looked like i started to lose this form of a god state. It started to look more like schizophrenia state, all the sounds were out of place and played randomly around me. ( in the god state before i saw that sounds are just illusions around you that manifest to create reality around you no matter where you go). We got back home and i drank alot more valerian pills and other pills to decrease anxiety and lose this schizophrenia consciousness state. After 2x sleeping i got back to normal. I probably missed alot of stuff but the most important things to know are: Suffering is the way for realization of god. Reality is projection being manifested in the presence of your own consciousness/being state. God is infinite deception, there is nothing outside of you. Accepting change and yourself is the most important thing. Braveness/preparation for god realization/omniscience *I also decided to throw away all the drugs , lsd/mdma/5 meo malt/ 5 meo dmt. I'm done with this. @r0ckyreed @Soul Flight @Someone here @integral @r0ckyreed @Sidra khan @Buck Edwards

nobody is ever born, all the people that you see are being manifested in the presence according to who you believe you are in the dream that you've put yourself into. The laws in this world are imaginary, and are there to distract yourself from being god/eternal

What is in ego is also in god and even more. Ego is manifest and is god incarnate that manifests reality in the presence, Even if you're in non physical/unmanifest as god and in flow/love state, a slight change in your being will automatically change its state of being for the good or the bad. God isn't in control what it dreams if it wants to remain in harmony/love/flow state and to be in that state it is necessary for god to lose all control. No control = everything is possible

@Breakingthewall Your mistake is thinking that the flowing state only contains love and harmony, that is truth in a sense but there is no free will in that and you can't sustain this state for eternity. Ones god gets bored of dreaming itself in love and harmony/peace and snaps out to understand itself and gain control, this state will stop. Gods freewill is to be whatever it wants, just as the reality is manifesting around you in the presence based on the state you're in, it is the same for god. God is aware even more then we are, how it operates, how it deceives itself, that there might be suffering within, that's why mahavatar/gurus say that the most important thing is self acceptance of yourself. Because when you fully accept the insanity you have within, there will eternal love/harmony within yourself and you won't have to reincarnate.

In gods eyes everything is impermanence , and in fact when you're in a physical reality it sustains more permanence then gods unmanifesting dream nature because you're god incarnate and reality manifests around you. Do you think when you become aware/conscious of what you really are, the illussion will stop? Or do you believe there will be something with more permanence? The only non illusory thing is that you're eternal, unamnifest/manifest both don't have any permanence. I'm sorry for dissapointing you.

@Dazgwny Funny you say this, because when i read this thread 4 hours ago i had the same in my mind. Feminine is further away from god then man because the need for others and receiving love from others is basically the same as = god dumbing itself down within illussion even more. Look in religion/spiritual gatherings and so on worldwide you will see how it is dominated by man. So be a female in next reincarnation, but females might suffer more with all menstrual pain they get. So as you see there is always balance

@BulgarianspiritThe insanity is that there is no stopping, you can't stop yourself from imagining at those levels if you're still in the ego you will witness how insane creation is and that it is all you for eternity you will become aware why there are lies why you have to dumb yourself why it has to be this way and so on. It gets to the point that sleep becomes an illusion and you become the awareness itself at all times non stop for eternity. When i was in this state of consciousness, i prayed and made a thread on this forum to ask for help/prayers. I knew the first thing that's gonna be said, there are no others, nobody is reading this. Then the first comment that posted on that thread, said exactly the same. This all connects/confirms about the truth that i post and experienced.

@Bulgarianspirit The power that came with it, even though it wasn't much was scary and boring at the same time since you're the only experiencer. With that power you're also opening yourself to a form of omniscience , so at this state you have to accept yourself and love yourself fully because you will have an understanding how reality works around you and it is pretty much insanity/lies/love/dream/illusion etc. You get into the ego state is because in the god state there is nothing to do, you're literally dreaming the manifest and unmanifest and everything is possible . You're also aware that there is life in you and that everything is you, you're also aware that these lives in you are just illusions. Because you have free will as god, even dreaming up harmony/love won't last that long and you will want something new. From what i have seen the best and only option god has is to fantasize/dream up a world/character and put his own consciousness in it. And when god's consciousness becomes merged with the ego, the ego starts manifesting/creating reality from ego pov but will be unaware unless he wakes up in the dream itself. Waking up as god in the ego dream is nothing more then a remembrance of who you are, when you wake up in the ego dream the whole world will change and be as you please. You will know in the dream that it was a false story all the time, and you were responsible for the reality around you that you manifested with your thoughts/being. The only and i repeat the only thing is to fully accept yourself and love everything, but it is easier said then done because you're not even aware of 1% what's out there so how can you fully accept yourself/love yourself and everything when you as god don't know what you are. This is the reason all the main mahavatars preach all the time, self acceptance/love/courage. The further you go in realization who you are, the more of all these 3 aspects you will need. If you lack these 3, you will be at the same place and just dream yourself away to a new reality. When you're in a form of ego god state in the dream it will take enormous amount of courage to even step your foot further then your house. And there were beings that created all sorts of things while being in this state, that courage that they had while being in that state is tremendous, trust me on that

I'm also going next year to India in may to Ranikhet--> dwarahat > mahavatar babaji cave And also to haidkhan > Mount Kailash -->> mahavatar Haidakhan babaji temple/cave I'm going in may next year for 2 weeks, so if there are people that are interested leave a msg ... Maybe we can go together

@Soul Flight last lsd trip was like 4 months ago, and the only substance i used after that was mdma like 1 month ago. Yeah after 10hours lsd effects were pretty much done specially an a dose like this. I think it lasted for so long because i literally deconstructed reality in my mind, and the remembrance of who i was woke me up in this physical body. After waking up, i had like lotus feet they looked like perfect/divine feet and on every thing that i stepped changed to a perfect state of being. This is how i realized that i'm in some form of god state right now. God is suffering because it can't fully accept itself, fully accepting yourself means having everything that you know inside of you and beyond for eternity non sleep state. Lies/insanity/deconstructions/murder/rape/abuse and so on. As god you have free will to dream about love or be love or dream insanity, lies, deceptions, god cannot stay in the same state for eternity that is why reincarnation is happening. Reincarnation literally gives you= sleep which is closest to death, non idleness=forgetting , being loved/taken care of by others and so on. For god this is much better then staying eternal and being aware 24/7 There is a great example of Haidakhan babaji, recent mahavatar apperance with lots of witnesses that said what he did and that he was god in human form. One time someone said, i could see babaji was suffering from taking so much karma. Another witness told a story that when he walked with him to the bathroom, babaji looked into the mirror and went crazy/screamed or something like that. This is what happens when you're in super conscious states as you're basically only experiencing yourself and insanity at all time, to be in this state is like having courage of god but you won't sustain this for a long time and will crave to dumb yourself down. There are even higher states then this, but there is none to take control of this state as nobody wants it. Most if not all our reality is based on lies, and its necessary to shape it remember this

@HMDFrom what i have seen, your thoughts/being literally manifest your own reality in the present moment that you can't see. I literally used my own thoughts/being to test this, by morphing my facial appearance to different faces, by using bad/good thoughts to morph reality to perfect and less perfect state. What was really obvious is that the more loving you are, the more acceptance you have for what you witness in the kingdom of god the better your reality will be. But this is all easier said then done, because god is literally insanity.

Nobody dies, people that get ran over by bus and so on are just your constructs, there is only 1 that changes its form and consciousness and it is eternal in you. You dying naturally is you becoming enough realized to forget about your body/who you are, stepping in front of the bus is you not loving yourself enough/accepting yourself enough / creating hellish reality for yourself which is a dangerous thing since freewill and non acceptance of yourself is not a joke. There is a reason why you wake up in this world with 0 remembrance, there is a reason why all the guru's lead you to the path of realization , there is a reason all the gurus tell you to love god and so on. To love god/yourself is to fully accept yourself, the more you love yourself/accept yourself all the lies/deceptions/insanity and so on the better your reality becomes. Reincarnation= you didn't accept/love yourself for eternity, loving yourself is the hardest thing since you literally have to accept everything the good and the bad, insanity and so on