@Leo Gura Thanks Leo, yeah I'm very aware of it, serious work is the key, bit by bit
@Kksd74628 Like I said I have the impression that until I started questioning my intelectual path I have had no progression, so I started to search a more direct path, a more efficient and faster path to awakening, like I want to attain total awakening in this life, in my body's life.
For me total awakening means to be conscious of my true nature, but since I'm not enlightened I don't know what is awakening
That's my goal in this life