Darthcolo

Why? How?

Thanks to all for the responses. Some of them resonate more with me than others. @Wyatt I'm doing this since two and a half months now, and has helped a lot. Thanks for the advice! This morning, as I was journaling, I came across the fact that I'm easily sucked into a "dark place", in which I loose hope and start feeling apathy towards life. So, what I will do is to create a "rescue kit" to use in these situations (made of inspirational phrases, pictures, videos, etc.). It's easy for me to go to this "dark place". It's almost my default mode ofbeing, so I need to actively seek a way to avoid going there. I think I've never saw this situation in this way before.

I have pondered on this issue before... and this is how I think: There is no heaven, there is no hell, there is no religion, there is no God (at least, not real proof of any of that, only opinions and constructs of the mind). So, you are alive, and there is no other time in history on which you are goin to be alive (there is no re-encarnation either). What to do with the only living experience that you are going to feel in you life (redundant, but beautyful)? You can choose to make the most out of it, or waste it. What is that "most out of it" for me? Being the best version of me that I can be, and help others to achieve the same. This is the meaning that I choose to apply to this strange thing called life. What would be a waste? Living a flat, shallow, easy, confortable life. Not expressing my full potential. But in the end, it all depends on how you choose to make sense to life. Namaste (because, why no?).

I have been thinking lately about why I do the thing I do. Why do I go to work, save money, endure situations I do not like, etc.? I used to feel that it was for something (abstract), some hope of a reward, but never was much clear. Now I do not fell even that. It seems to me that I have lost my compass. Anyone have felt like that? Any recomendations? Thanks!

I have learned some weeks ago that if I do something, no matter how small it seems to be, that gets me closer to the best version of me, I will have lived a good day. I will not feel angry or disappointed with myself. I try to ask myself every day, specially in difficult moments: what would the best version of me do? Answering this question and taking action, on a consistent basis, is growing me almost without noticing.