Xonas Pitfall

I’ll try my best to explain this. But this is more about “bargaining power,” and depending on the society we live in, men and women will have different types of bargaining power. Or you can just say “power.” Basically, if you let ego run loose, both genders, humans in general, would love the scenario of: “I want one partner who will work for me and give me money; I want one partner who is the most hot and attractive and really gets my orgasms going; I want someone who has the same hobbies as me and whom I can talk to. I want one for this hobby. I want one for this activity. I want one to make me laugh. I want one to do my housework, etc. Gosh, if I could just flip and switch around and never get bored, that’d be ideal! Infinite love for me, infinite entertainment, and infinite resources for me!” Ego itself with no self-reflection or "empathy" will be very much like an idealistic child: “Me, me, me. I want this and this and this.” You want as many goodies for yourself as possible while avoiding as much responsibility toward others as possible, whether that means commitment, doing hard work, or having others do the work for you, etc. Human condition and Ego 101. So when you add gender, it is really just what society conditions you toward + your actual bargaining power, expectations, survival needs, and perhaps some biological factors. But I’d be careful not to over-map it onto biology, because a lot of people use biology as an excuse to avoid seeing the generic ego mechanisms that are present in all humans and somehow turn them into a much larger gender issue. Since, societally, women were more largely removed from resource-gathering and resource-controlling power, on both sides you would have: Men using women for labor, status, or resources: This can take many forms, such as relying on women for domestic labor, household management, social positioning, caregiving, or other forms of unpaid work. Men might benefit from women’s beauty and labour (through pimping, modelling, sex work, service businesses under this wing, etc), social connections, or labor while receiving most of the recognition or resources themselves. In some cases, women’s work was credited to men, or women had to operate through a man’s name or authority to gain access to opportunities. In more personal relationships, a man might rely on a woman to maintain his home and family while he focuses on his career, or ends up having a second family, mistresses, etc. Women using men for labor, status, or resources: Relying on men for financial support, education, housing, protection, social connections, or other resources. Women were restricted from working, owning property, or accessing education independently, making dependence on men necessary for survival. In other cases, women may intentionally seek out men primarily for their wealth, status, security, or connections, while contributing less to the relationship themselves. This can range from ordinary dependence within a relationship to more exploitative behaviors, such as gold-digging or using relationships primarily for financial gain. So you can see that both genders can follow the same pattern, because again, this isn’t fundamentally a gendered issue. It is ego. Ego will try to use whatever it can to get access to power, resources, sex, survival, and safety. That is the common rule. Gender is really just another overlay through which ego operates. The gender position you are born into is simply one of the cards you are dealt. The same goes for fun, lust and sex. A woman can also have preferences and have some “fuckboys” or boy toys who make her hornier than her “provider.” She might enjoy the sexual side more with one person, while choosing to stay with another person because that person is more reputable, stable, noble, useful, or beneficial to her in some other way. In the same way, a man might cheat with a mistress because he enjoys the sexual side more, while not wanting to actually be with the mistress because his wife is more reputable, stable, “pure,” noble, or useful to him in other ways. Again, the same pattern can exist on both sides. Both men and women love to have sex and have fun. Then, depending on the society, women might be more or less sexually shamed or repressed compared with men. That is why you might see higher divorce rates or more promiscuity as societies become more sexually free, because you are removing some of the blocks and restrictions placed on ego. And the same, of course, applies to this topic. If you let women’s egos roam completely free, you can end up with millions of simps who want to pay for her on the off chance that she might get with them. She can then find a non-attached friends-with-benefits partner whenever she finds someone attractive, or she can have one guy take care of her survival, money, and resources while she chooses to play around and fuck whoever she wants on the side. If you let men’s egos roam completely free, he can keep a wife who functions as his secure, safe-space home while having second families and mistresses on the side. Or he can have a harem. Or you might have women desperately trying to do favors for him, work for him, provide domestic labor, or perform other kinds of labor in exchange for access to him, all the while he doesn't commit to a single one of them because he simply can. Again, this is all ego. If you let ego roam completely free, then yes, ego will want people to do labor for it, get money for it, provide resources for it, and give it as much sex, fun, good times as possible with the people it finds the hottest or most desirable. "I want everything with the least commitment and responsibility on my end, but ideally, all of you are so obsessed with me and committed to me that you keep giving me goodies permanently!" And some egos will use restrictive laws, force, financial isolation, social isolation, or anything else they can to make this happen. The whole point of love is to experience actual depth and see the other person as an equal, as someone you do not simply want to control, use, abuse, swing around, or extract value from. But people often mistake ego-driven forms of attachment, desire, dependency, or “love” for actual forms of deeper, more genuine love. People need to first have an awakening to ego and survival, and how much they control 99% of people’s behavior. Gender is much more secondary to all relationship issues. If you’re still attached to some sort of fantasy where you want to be a harem king, being served by everyone, then you’ve dropped all notions of genuine love. Your best bet at making that fantasy a reality is to simply own what you’re doing and find vulnerable, desperate, needy people to fulfill your fantasy.

All of this stuff is way too generic. This isn’t a gender issue in the slightest. What happened in your last relationship? Be honest with yourself and their side too. It is always easy to have a failed relationship and blame the whole thing on the other gender.

Exclusive commitment to men is also like exclusive commitment to women. You don’t see many men happily having their girl fuck and fall in love with other men either. In fact, they might be even stingier about it, with their obsession over “virginity” and “cucking.” There really is no difference here, but a lot of men want there to be so they can justify their lust: “Oh, she’s a girl, she’s different from me. She likes it. Girls can be made to enjoy this. I can make her love it. They kind of do already.” Then they come up with a bunch of “biological” and other cope arguments as to why.

I wouldn’t trust Leo much when it comes to his views on women, tbh. His positions on this subject have been biased and rather shallow many times.

Haha Nothing screams ego like: “I want as many people as possible to want to fuck me, obsess over me, love me, and want a long-term committed relationship with me, while I don’t stay committed or responsible to any of them. Infinite love for me, but not for thee!”

You can definitely derive Love from scratch. A = A, or correspondence. That is all you need for truth; in a sense, that is truth itself. From there, you can derive other aspects of truth. A = A implies Solipsism. A = A also implies Love (Union / Love / Being One / No Bias / No Separation). A = A implies Love, Is-ness, Truth, Unity, All, and God. It also implies Identity, the Self, and the “I am.” To be "One" is to unite everything, to connect everything. And to truly connect is to love. To hold something in your consciousness with the full intent to experience and understand it is, in essence, to love it. The deeper your desire to understand something, to take it in as part of yourself, the less judgmental you become. You grow more accepting, more compassionate, more loving. Think about the people closest to you. Why are they called “close”? Because they probably see and understand you more than others, because you have more experience with them than with others, because they probably care for and love you more than others. The more "connected" you are, the closer you are. The closer you are, the closer to One you are - merging together. We usually call this process "love." Oneness requires ultimate connection and a lack of separation. The process God uses to fully "merge" or bring parts "closer to each other" until they unite is Oneness, Love, Union, or even Sex. Even the physical act of sex is a symbol of this: getting as close as possible - literally under someone’s skin, inside their body - to create pleasure. To Love them properly and fully. Think about what we mean when we say someone is “close-minded” or refuses to empathize. We often say, “He can’t see the other person’s point of view,” or “He can’t put himself in their shoes.” In other words, he can’t imagine being close to that person, can’t imagine being them, can’t merge his perspective with theirs. He’s stuck in his own experience, focused on his Self, not the Other. He’s failed to connect the two into one shared understanding. And because of that, he is less empathetic, less compassionate, less loving. He lacks the Love to merge, to connect, to understand. However, God has an infinite supply of that! Hence the label "All-Loving" or "God is Love."

It’s a boring answer, yet it isn’t, haha. It’s tautological. It’s just all that “is”, AKA what is real. So, for example, when you tell a lie to your parent, friend, or spouse, you are essentially pointing to or describing something that is “filtered,” “fake,” or “untrue.” You’re creating a fake illusion, AKA separating yourself from reality, from truth. When you get direct experience of truth, you essentially remove the fluff of your ego: the imaginary stories you tell yourself about what should or shouldn’t be, the filtered opinions you have of yourself and others, based on your ego, bullshit, lies, etc. Like avoiding weighing yourself when you’re sober, telling yourself how you should look, filtering what the mirror shows you, or avoiding looking in the mirror or taking pictures. Then, in a more conscious state, you see it all as it actually is: fat or not, attractive or not, healthy or not. It’s just everything that actually “is there,” and everything that “isn’t” is falsehood.

A slave who had their identity and ego beaten out of them can also appear extremely loving from the perspective of the ego, because they have been deprived of their sense of self. They become willing to do whatever is demanded of them because most of their aspirations for their own identity, life, and autonomy have been removed. At that point, they may care only about survival, or sometimes not even that. This is part of how you get slavery, brainwashed cultists, suicide bombers, victims of abusive relationships, etc. Note that if you were a king and these slaves were brought to you after the programming, they would appear quite loving to you. "Aww, look at my cute little puppy slave! They're always so happy to see me. They bring me my food, clean, cook, work for me, and never ask for anything in return. What an adorable, loving, obedient little creature. So sweet. So devoted. How admirable that they're always so eager to please me!" There are versions (or perhaps different definitions) of "love." One is love from the perspective of the ego. This is a childish conception of love, similar to a child whose parents give them everything they want: "Mama will protect me and care only about me." or "If only I had a partner who was perfectly aligned with me, did everything I wanted, let me do whatever I wanted, gave me whatever I wanted whenever I wanted it, and always cared about me, while I only had to care when I felt like it." It's essentially the aggrandizement of the ego and its importance. Whoever can appeal to the ego in this way will seem extremely "loving," but the underlying structure is immature because it denies the sovereignty of the other person. The other person becomes an extension of the ego rather than a sovereign individual with their own desires, boundaries, values, and existence. Then there is conscious love. You take yourself and the other person as sovereign individuals, while also realizing that you're creating a union through the relationship. Because of that, you might willingly give up certain things that your ego wants in order to care for the other person or for the relationship as a whole. You don't have to destroy yourself or your identity. You consciously integrate your own needs with the needs of another sovereign being. From there, you can expand this type of love beyond the individual relationship: to other humans, communities, societies, animals, ecosystems, the Earth, and eventually larger systems of life and existence. It becomes increasingly integrative and requires a much higher degree of consciousness, care, empathy, and ability to hold multiple perspectives simultaneously. There is another level where you become more directly "one with everything." where you become more directly "one with everything." This state is much less practical for human beings and their egos. It is more characteristic of certain yogic or monastic states, deep meditation, psychedelic or mystical experiences, or perhaps death, where the ego can become radically diminished or dissolve entirely. In this state, there is no longer a fundamental distinction between "me" and "them," "owner" and "slave," or "self" and "other." Everything is experienced as part of one unified whole. There is no specific entity that needs to defend itself or survive as an isolated ego. In that sense, it can superficially resemble the state of a completely submissive slave or someone whose ego has been destroyed. But the difference is enormous. This is why, from the perspective of an ego, these states can look deceptively similar. Any entity that lacks a strong sense of self, doesn't resist, doesn't assert its own survival, desires, or boundaries, and appears completely accepting and accommodating can look "loving." But the underlying structures can be completely different. It's basically analogous to the Spiral Dynamics model: You start with Beige, where consciousness is almost entirely centered around immediate survival and the self. In a sense, there isn't much conceptual "other" yet because consciousness is primarily organized around its own immediate existence. Then, as the spiral develops, consciousness increasingly integrates otherness: empathy, social awareness, perspective-taking, morality, cooperation, respect for sovereignty, systems thinking, and eventually increasingly holistic forms of identification. At the higher end of the spiral, however, you can reach a state where the distinction between "self" and "other" itself becomes transcended. You realize that all of these apparently separate entities are ultimately parts of one. So, if you looked only at the structure from outside the Spiral Dynamics model, you might say: "Beige and Turquoise/Coral are both kind of solipsistic. Both ultimately collapse everything back into one." But that would completely miss the enormous difference in intelligence, integration, consciousness, and complexity between them. It's almost like saying that a newborn and a mystic are the same because neither has the same kind of fully developed adult ego.

I wonder if women kept posting threads on the forum about how to manipulate a guy’s feelings to make him hooked on her and extract as much money as possible, how to do it over and over again, and flexing their “bank drain count,” along with all the stories of manipulation, would they be taken down? lol... Remember, guys: “Masculinity has an advantage when it comes to accessing Absolute Truth, Love and Selflessness.”

Correct. But here, that's the key distinction between paradox and contradiction. Once you enter the non-dual “space,” there’s no such thing as contradiction or paradox. It’s all just Isness, truth.

I’m also getting flashbacks from Leo saying, “NO ONE IS AS AWAKE AS I AM! NO ONE! NO ONE!” Of course. People rape, kill, and pillage for their nation, tribe, clan, religion, or identity. People strap bombs to themselves for their god. People sacrifice their lives for their ideology, die defending their homeland, and dedicate their entire lives to spreading their religion or worldview. I think people were adding nuance to the concept of “love.“ Exactly. A group’s cohesion doesn’t necessarily prove that its members love or even fully believe in everything the group represents. For example, an oligarch might not genuinely love every aspect of an oligarchic system. But they can still strongly defend it because the system protects their wealth and status. A person might have serious doubts or dislike certain parts of their own tradition, but changing or abandoning the larger system can feel much more threatening than tolerating its contradictions. Usually, the more corrupt, biased, self-preserving, and unquestioning the system is, the more appealing it can become to the ego when the ego benefits from it. Even if you occasionally question whether it’s true, if the system gives you more status, security, power, or self-preservation, you will still be pulled toward it. The ideologies that offer the strongest ego incentives can become the ones that survive and reproduce most effectively. A culture with enough psychopaths in power can force its way into existence. The stricter the rules, the more coercion you can use to preserve them. An abusive father can beat his wife and children to keep the family hierarchy intact. A regime can brainwash children until they’re willing to strap a bomb to their chest for it. That’s why you get Elon Musk, who was initially more progressive, against Trump, becoming incredibly supportive of conservatives and Trump, funding his election campaign, and buying Twitter. Do you think it’s because he deeply LOVES conservative values, or because he benefits from tax-avoidance and asset-protection policies being implemented? Is it really “love” for the culture? That’s why you get Somalis crying when the age of consent is raised: https://www.instagram.com/reels/DPdQUspCF7f/; or when minorities are given more rights, etc. Do they really love their culture so deeply that they’re devastated when it changes, or do they realize they’re losing the “goodies” that the system gave them? Is it culture, or just the fact that the culture aligns more with the incentives of the ego?

When would you guys say is "a good time" to be doing consciousness work with psychedelics, intense insight/introspection, trips, inquiry, etc.? I’m asking because I imagine there’s probably some kind of sweet spot. I don’t really know how psychedelics affect us as we age, especially as you move into your 40s, 50s, etc. Would you say it’s not as smart to be doing this kind of work later in life, and that there’s more of a sweet spot from your 20s to 40s? What would you say?

The difference is basically your ability to “hold” a paradox or "be" a contradiction. For example, reality is everything and nothing. You could say that’s a contradiction: you can’t be everything and nothing. But reality can, because reality is above duality and bias. It can hold or be both without being “self-contradictory,” so to speak. All paradoxes are inherently contradictory, but the difference is that a paradox can contain and hold that contradiction. A biased, defined, dualistic entity like a human can’t do this as easily, because for a human to remain a human, it has to operate within duality. It can’t fully become a nondual entity. You could say a paradox is truth viewed through a 2D/3D “dual” perspective. From a 4D or “non-dual” perspective, there’s no longer any confusion about paradox. It’s all just Is-ness, truth.

Random tangent: this kind of reminds me of the “you can either annihilate yourself or become everything” path to enlightenment Imagine loving your culture so much that you’re willing to be shot in the head for it. Or imagine loving your culture so much that you make it lovable and accessible to everyone, so you don’t need to shoot anyone in the head to keep validating it or making sure it’s regarded as the truth. Annihilate everything so your culture is the only one. Annihilate all bias within your culture so anyone can love it. Something, something, something...

I suppose I just don’t know Miguel well enough. You’d have to give us information and concrete examples about how you approach the whole thing. How are you judging these girls? What are you talking about, and how are you selecting for them? What is your thought process? What are your expectations? How realistic or unrealistic do you think you’re being? How honest are you being with yourself about what you offer? And where are you even looking for these people? (The classic “looking for a bookworm in a club” problem, for example.) This frame of “proving her worth to you” already sounds potentially toxic. If they’re talking about juggling multiple girls, them getting uncertain about your intentions and going out of their way to prove their worth to you somehow, doing favors, etc., seems like a pretty unhealthy dynamic. I don’t know about these numbers, though. It’s possible you could have 5-10 interesting people you’re talking to, but at least for me, it’s usually pretty clear quickly which few people I’m actually interested in. But again, I don’t think the specific numbers really matter. If you have 5-10 people you are genuinely interested in talking to, so be it. If at some point there’s only one person you really want to focus on, then focus on them. I know it’s a really boring answer, but all of these situations could be possible. The goal is to narrow things down and focus, so the quicker you can do that, the better. But there’s also no reason to force yourself either if you just don’t feel a connection with any of them.

Yes, haha, that’s why I think it’s useful to clarify what we mean by “love” here. By this definition, Hitler quite “loved” German people “I love my child so much that I’d be willing to kill them if they don’t behave the way I want.” “I love my child so much that I’d kill anyone who refuses to listen to them on TV. I want everyone talking about them.” “I love this song so much that I’ll murder anyone who disagrees that it’s the best song.” An authoritarian government “loves” its culture; an oligarchy “loves” its social structure.

Yes, I don’t see anything wrong with this. Go on lots of dates, focus when something clicks, "has potential", reach out here and there in case a special connection develops, rinse and repeat. I really don’t see anything wrong with that. It’s probably something I’d suggest myself. It’s totally possible that in some “rounds” you won’t want to reach out to anyone again, while in others there’ll be one or two people you want to focus on. Again, as I suspected, it’s probably mostly a numbers game. I think maybe some of your posts just came across as a bit restless or impatient in your pursuit, so people reacted negatively to that. But this example seems reasonable to me.

To me, this sounds like you should just go on more dates until you find your person. I think people were mostly just worried and warning you not to accidentally dismiss someone because of your own judgment, impatience, or expectations about how the first few dates are "supposed to" go. Most dating issues, honestly, come down to these questions: “What kind of partner do I want? What kind of partner would they want? Am I that person? If not, why not? Am I looking in places where I can actually find this person? Am I giving off the signals that I’m the kind of person they’re looking for? How many dates am I actually going on?” If you can answer these honestly with yourself, you’ll find the blind spots you should work on.

I agree with this. Although I’d add that it’s also quite possible you just haven’t found your person yet. There may be someone who matches your intensity, and you might even bond over how you both went straight into deep conversations instead of staying on the surface. In that sense, it’s partly a numbers game and a matter of where you’re “casting your net.” If you want openness and deep discussion, being around people who are likely to enjoy that kind of conversation is crucial. You can be “deep” about almost anything if you’re both genuinely curious about the topic. So what would you actually want to talk about with your future partner? I’d also reflect on your previous relationships, especially whichever one came closest to being a long-term partnership. What made it work? Why didn’t it work? What patterns do you notice? Then ask yourself: “What kind of partner do I want? What kind of partner would they want? Am I that person? If not, why not? Am I looking in places where I can actually find this person? Am I giving off the signals that I’m the kind of person they’re looking for? How many dates am I actually going on?” Remember, if you’re looking for a lifelong monogamous partnership, you only need one person. It’s okay if it takes time to find them

I really loved this quote because it connects to something I’ve been thinking about, especially regarding intelligence and the distinction between AI and human intelligence. It seems like “consciousness” or “God” intelligence is very elastic, almost organic. You set a rule, but it can easily wrap itself around that pattern, rule, or bias. It can switch between contexts, and as it gets one thing, it bounces into another or creates something new. Kind of... that game you play when you’re younger: “Okay, I’ll think of the highest number.” “8.” “Well, I know 9.” “Okay, well, I know 10,000.” “Well, I know BILLION.” “Well, I know Googol.” “Well, I know imaginary numbers that go into negative infinity.” “Well, infinity + 1.” “Okay, infinity + infinity. What about that, huh?!” This ability to keep doing this without simply breaking your own mind is actually highly intelligent. That’s very much what I experience when my mind gets looser with psychedelics. It’s like a stretchy wrapper or piece of gum that can instantly wrap and hook back onto itself and mess with its own thoughts. You think of one thing, and suddenly another thing appears. Recontextualizing, changing the frame, bending and twisting the narrative, pattern interruption, loop interruption, infinite stimulation. It’s very loopy and jumpy by nature. So it makes sense that the ego = “God mind with a survival bias”, would have this property. You give it almost any rule, and it can find a way to wrap itself around that rule for its own service. The only way to escape the loop is to point out the very bias it’s using: survival. The moment you point it out, it stops being itself, and you get an insight into the “Truth/God.” “You bent all those rules because you wanted me to survive, you little Devil!” As long as that underlying need isn’t acknowledged, it can keep looping around its own thoughts. It’s really interesting to notice.

Hmm... Isn't it more like? “I love my child, so I want them to wear Christian robes, sing Christian songs, read Christian scripture, pray, go to church, follow Christian moral rules, marry within the faith, raise their children Christian, spread the gospel, and live according to Christian teachings.” “I love my child, so I want them to explore who they are and decide what kind of life they want to live, as long as they aren't doing injustice.” - “I love my child, so I want everyone to know about my child. I want them on TV, in the news, everywhere. I want everyone talking about them.” “I love my child, and I hope they become a good person and do whatever they want to do.” - “I love this song, so I want everyone to hear it, sing it, and pass it on to their children.” “I love this song. I hope other people enjoy it too, but they can listen to whatever they want, as long as they aren’t using their music to harm or oppress others.” - Obviously, I’m presenting the left quite mildly, politely here, haha. They have their extremes too

Maybe I misunderstood what “love” means here. I can definitely imagine someone loving their culture so much that they want to see it everywhere, spread it, preserve it, and conquer anyone who stands in their way. I just wanted to add that I don’t think people on the left hate their culture or don’t "love" it. It’s just that their "cult" or definition is more open and elastic. You can definitely see people on the left being extremely passionate about their values, views, and protecting against injustice, to the point where you get some pretty extreme people on the far left too. It’s the same way an atheist might be extremely passionate about scientific thinking, so they become very “biased” toward it and love it deeply. They just don’t necessarily have an entire way of life attached to it that they’re also biased toward. So even though both “cults” are biased, one is definitely much more biased and prescribes way more things strictly than the other. So if you define love by how strongly biased someone is toward it, then yes. Yes!

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with dating multiple people if you aren’t committed to anyone (as long as you aren’t playing manipulation games, like pursuing people who are vulnerable, emotionally unstable, leading on people who want commitment, or keeping people around without being clear about what you want). Although I guess you’d technically be considered in some sort of “talking stage,” not ”dating.” I don’t know how people define these things. If you genuinely want polyamory or that kind of lifestyle, you need to be extremely straightforward. Like people who are into very strong kink or BDSM dynamics, maybe even 24/7. You realize your preferences are a bit “out there,” so you try to disclose them early and be around communities, forums, etc. where you’re more likely to find someone who genuinely wants to engage with you. But if you’re still operating from the idea of, “Oh, I can take someone who wants commitment and somehow mold, bend, or change them to fit my needs,” then you’re acting dishonestly.

I wonder if it’s that they “honestly love their culture”, or if they’re simply less willing to leave room for a particular way of being “wrong.” People who are along the left "stage green-esque" kinds of communities, they come together around “injustices,” but they don’t necessarily offer a particular way to be. “You can be whatever you want to be, as long as you’re not abusive in whatever way we consider abusive.” So that kind of culture can create this more justice-warrior-esque style while also being very open-ended. And I think that can leave a lot of people wondering what the right path or way of living actually is. A lot of people just aren’t comfortable with that level of openness and prefer having some kind of structure or script. It’s analogous to religion versus agnosticism. With religion, you’re given a lot of things upfront: a community, family values, a way of life, routines, moral frameworks, ideas about masculinity and femininity, an identity, etc. But with agnosticism, suddenly all of those questions are left open. I feel it’s more about simplicity, comfort, and self-preservation than necessarily “honestly loving the culture more." You could say: Christians genuinely love their culture, whereas agnosticism/atheism do not. But agnosticism/atheism isn’t necessarily trying to prescribe one particular, “biased” way of being or make a specific culture easy to follow. The whole point is that you now have more choice. It gives you more choice, which is harder to sell but more freeing for the right kind of psychology.

I think insight is a “genuine connection between two or more concepts.” “Oh, I see! I was being judgmental there because I felt insecure about this...” “Oh, I failed this level of the game because I missed this obstacle.” “Oh, they painted that section of the artwork because it reflects this part of their biography.” “Oh! They used that shade of blush because they have high cheekbones.” That’s why, usually, if you grasp one “side of God,” you can have a chain reaction of connecting multiple insights, because it’s a connection after connection, a multilateral tautology. “Oh, God means that which has no other, no more than itself. Infinite. All there is. Forever. It’s infinity! Oh, so it’s only one. One, one, oneness. Oh, oneness, same as love. Oh, it’s love. Oh, oh no, it’s me. I am God.” Sidenote: I actually really love how people usually depict insight with a little lamp and a person looking up and pointing their index finger upward. I think it’s one of the more accurate “common” depictions of an "emotion" I remember one of the first times I had what you’d probably call a “quasi-awakening.” I felt a light burning warmth around my forehead. Although it was probably just the lamp burning into my face because I’d been staring at it for so long while tripping. At the time, though, I thought it was symbolic of my “enlightenment,” hahaha.