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It's called Maladaptive Daydreaming, you can look it up! I had it since I was very little, from 3-4 years old. I’d say to enjoy it if it’s not hindering your day-to-day life in some way. I used to do it all the time until I couldn’t anymore due to life’s responsibilities. Imagination is fun!

You said it yourself: The issue didn't start from “spiritual differences”; you fundamentally betrayed her trust. There’s nothing wrong with having spiritual friends, but the interaction went too far. You texted her, you spent time with her (potentially more than with your girlfriend). Why did she feel comfortable sending you half-naked pictures, etc.? There’s a lot of subcontext here that needs to be addressed. Did you tell her up front that you had a girlfriend? What did you text her about? How much time, attention, and thought did this girl consume compared to your girlfriend? When she sent you half-naked pictures, did you tell her to stop because you are in a relationship? Did YOU personally set that boundary before your girlfriend addressed it, or not? Again, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with wanting to help others, helping them be more authentic, or connecting with spirituality; these are beautiful things. But you need to set proper boundaries. Otherwise, you don’t seem spiritual; you seem like you’re using spirituality as an excuse to text a cute girl and potentially sext or get nudes. Did you have a spiritual phase before meeting this girl? How did your girlfriend react then? A lot of the time, it’s not the actual “hobby” that’s the issue, but the potential for betrayal and distrust that messes things up. Think of the equivalent of a girl starting to go to the gym, meeting a hot guy, texting with him, spending more and more time with him than with her boyfriend, and then the guy sends her thirst traps. And then she tells her boyfriend, “I’m just trying to take care of my health and nutrition! I love the gym, you don't, you just don't get it! I love motivating people with their fitness! You don’t really understand this part of me! You aren’t for me!” Ok, sure, it’s "noble" that she wants to motivate people in the gym, but… why is this guy sending her thirst traps? Has she been “motivating” other people, girls or guys, or just this one guy? Why just this one guy? Do you see how suspicious that sounds? Also, double-check if your girlfriend hates spirituality or if she is just now feeling distrustful of you. Any association with spirituality might leave her worried about you potentially doing something similar. That can also be a common pattern. For example, if a guy starts playing video games with another girl, then his girlfriend might start saying how she hates video games, but it’s not really the video games that are the problem; it’s the fact that now she’s worried you’ll do something bad while playing them. So make sure you can properly reassure her about the “incident” and see if she actually dislikes spirituality or if it’s just because of what happened with that girl. You really want to communicate clearly. Please don’t fall into the common trap of saying, “How you’re trying to open your heart, be more spiritual,” but then actually you’re just bored with the relationship or crushing on someone else. Check those things first with yourself and her. After all of that is done, and it TRULY is a compatibility issue, then you can break up with a clear conscience and no "what-ifs". Hope that helps!

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Esteemed traveler from the Alpha Ceti quadrant! There you are! Yes, yes! Your observations on the Zinats' hibernation are astutely noted. Indeed, the absence of their disruptive temporal manipulations does bring a rare tranquility to the sector. The Zibblespace instability is a common anomaly when the fathombwabwa field enters an unpredictable volop-phase transition. The inglip-synchronicity becomes destabilized, resulting in a temporal lateralization that can cause the perception of time flowing perpendicular to spatial vectors. This is why we advise all Zibblespace travelers to maintain at least a 10^-5 phase-shift tolerance when navigating near zizzlesnatch boundaries. However, perhaps a Zibble-vector recalibration could help realign your temporal perception. We’ve found that recalibrating the musblat-wavelength synchronizer with the salnip-modulator in a multi-phase overlap can restore your space-time equilibrium, with only minor disruptions to your existential axis! May your travels remain uninterrupted by the volop anomalies of this dimension, and that the Zinats remain dormant for as long as needed. Zibblespace Entanglement Studies Unit, Cetus Division, signing off.

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You do the same with your hand, and probably have had no issues so far in that regard! I see no problem

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It's either the practical value of it or genuine care for truth, depending on the situation at hand. Knowing when to balance these two is wisdom. To give an example: You might know, truthfully, that you're not the most charming person in the room. But you can have an "untruthful" thought that's pragmatically useful, like telling yourself, "I AM THE MOST CHARMING PERSON HERE!" Even if it's not true, it's useful to think this way because, in this moment, you want to be magnetic. So, this is the most practical thought to have. However, sometimes it’s important to recognize delusions, and that's when you need to confront them with the truth. For instance: "Oh, but... I researched the impressive quantitative metrics for my triptonized new GLP-96 medication. I'm so smart, PhD!" In this case, you need more truth, more care for the truth, and more value for the truth to break through your biases and genuinely see the situation clearly. Another way to put it: the quality of your thoughts is directly proportional to the clarity of the observed situation, or your consciousness, or wisdom, or awareness of the present moment and its context. A scientist who only considers one variable has a lower quality of thought than one who considers two, three, or more. But these are still less effective than a scientist who considers all variables, INCLUDING themselves as a variable (the observer/self), etc. That’s one way to look at consciousness: your ability to hold as many variables and pieces of information as possible, to synthesize, unify, and see the patterns and harmony in all of it, and then know how to act properly based on them in any given situation. I suppose the shortest answer to your question is consciousness. Consciousness determines the quality of your thoughts. In the first example, the person was conscious enough to realize they wanted to be magnetic, conscious enough to recognize they weren’t as magnetic as they wanted to be, and conscious enough to know that having more positive thoughts, even if deluded, would give them a better chance. They’d become even more conscious as they gained more information and understanding, observing each reaction and finding the right trigger points to immerse their friends and audience. So, their consciousness and understanding of what it means to be "magnetic" expand.

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Very True. Anyone who rejects you is just jealous, too entranced and magnetized, too overwhelmingly attracted, so much that your presence burns their eyes like an ultraviolet sun. They cannot even conceptualize a long‑term relationship with someone so exquisitely delightful, because you deserve more, in fact, you deserve an entire cultic hive‑mind of adorers, of hyper‑devotees to fulfill all your most utter narcissistic‑egoic desires (which you don’t even want to fulfill, since you are so perfectly humble and divine) and yet you still realize them anyway, because your godly, interdimensional potential cannot be dimmed by anything finite or compressed into such mere pesty human pursuits like a sexual relationship. They see themselves as blockages, dams, distortions to the Tesla‑Einstein‑Jesus-alien‑love‑infinite‑intelligence that flows through you. “Goodness,” they think, “I must get away from them or I will fracture the holotropic cycle of consciousness expansion if I project my mere animalistic needs onto them; I mustn’t even approach them, let alone look at them. Stop it... Get away from me, I am too attracted to you. Are they even real?”

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Amazing! I live nowhere near the US, but I'd be highly interested to attend at some point... I think ideally we could have a calendar of retreat dates, since the U.S. visa process can be tricky and lengthy at times to prepare for internationals. Or perhaps, European events?

Note: This is a PARODY of Leo's blog post on Masculinity & Truth https://www.actualized.org/insights/masculinity-and-truth. I am not claiming that this perspective is true; I'm simply pointing out and trying to balance the biases I observed. We must remember that femininity and masculinity are dualities, each with its own survival-based strategies. These strategies offer different access to truth, with their respective advantages and disadvantages. I think Leo’s original post unfairly focused on the advantages of masculinity, so this parody serves to explore the feminine side. I’m NOT trying to promote an anti-men or women-are-superior agenda, this is simply a playful attempt to address and correct biases! Yay! Femininity & Truth The feminine has advantages in pursuing truth over the masculine. This may sound sexist, but here's why it’s the case: Since men are naturally stronger and bigger, it's easier for them in terms of survival, and therefore much, much easier to fall victim to their ego's desires. "I see! So, since I have the most strength and power, I get the final say. In that case, I'll just do what I want and make my minions serve me!" This approach leaves no room for the ego to grow, let go, or practice love and humility. Why would it? The ego is getting all the satisfaction it could ever crave. Now, the focus shifts to lying, manipulating, and forcing others, whether mentally or physically, to submit. Their ego gets wrapped up in dominance, ownership, pragmatism, and the ability to "bend" the truth to their benefit. We know that the ego is a lustful devil, and if you give it access to its desires, it will take them without a second thought. So, obviously, the gender that has more freedom to indulge in these desires will do so, and we can clearly see this pattern both in history and today. Eventually, society imposed upon them a role, and their duty became to focus more on survival in the "real world" than women do. They don’t care about truth because, functionally and survival-wise, they must manipulate, control, and change it to ensure their own survival and that of their offspring. Women, on the other hand, are either required to cultivate the virtues of submission and acceptance, qualities that bring them closer to the practices necessary for God-realization, or they are shielded by the protection of their man, with that burden already lifted. This allows them the freedom to focus on higher pursuits: honing intuition, engaging with beauty, children's innocence, and embodying the qualities of a sharing, nurturing, and loving mother. These practices are the foundation of spiritual growth and connection to the divine, as they are rooted in selflessness and an openness to higher, unseen realities. It’s easier for the feminine to be empathetic, mirror goodness, love, and not get so wrapped up in their own agenda. This is critical for actual truth and God realization, which is in direct opposition to the materialistic reality and egoistic behavior. Truth must be prioritized over survival. Cutting through illusions and fantasies is ruthless work, requiring self-submission. The masculine focuses on dominance, power, control, hard science, pragmatism, ego-driven battles, wars, debates, competition, external conquest, winning, achieving success at any cost, "owning" or "containing" the feminine, making her submit, "conquering" her, building empires, hierarchies, systems based on competition and survival, achieving individual success, protecting personal resources, whether through politics, business, or physical prowess. All of these aspects have nothing to do with spiritual truth but are all about the truth that the ego needs to continue surviving. This is the direct inverse of what is needed for actual enlightenment. Why do you think women are so drawn to art, beauty, and creativity? Because these are the most direct expressions of God. At their core, art and beauty represent a higher reality, one that moves beyond the superficial and taps into the essence of what is real. When you engage with these expressions, you begin to see that everything is illusory, everything is a reflection of beauty, a manifestation of creation. The true art of existence lies in seeing yourself in others, in understanding that everything is interconnected. Women, with their natural inclination toward empathy and intuition, are often more equipped to grasp these higher truths. Why do we often say that women are more intuitive, or able to feel energies? Why do you think nature made women capable of giving birth and creating life, similar to God? By this very fact alone, they are more connected to the creative nature of God. The masculine societal pressure and patriarchy push men to focus more on keeping their resources, power, and ego safe, so they can protect their family and create a kingdom for everyone. They have no time to ponder things beyond the tangible and ego, because that goes against their survival instincts. Men, societally, are more allowed to be disagreeable, egoistic, narcissistic, and violent, wrapped in their own delusional fantasies. Why do you think historically there has been so much inequality? Women only recently gained the ability to vote. History shows the evil and blind spots of masculinity. If masculinity was so rooted in truth, men would have realized that authoritarianism, wealth inequality, fascism, racism, sexism, patriarchy, classism, exploitation, colonialism, and the oppression of marginalized groups were rooted in evil and not truth; so why did it take them so long? It’s their ego, selfishness, and inability to hold space and empathize beyond themselves that locks them in this way. That’s why femininity is heavily needed. And by the way, all of these decisions were made by men on their own, with no women allowed to vote or suppress these actions. These choices are pure examples of masculine blindness. Women, on the other hand, are socially conditioned to be kind, soft, pleasing, empathetic, and understanding. They already know what it’s like to be victimized. They know how nasty ego corruption can get, and they already hate it. Therefore, they are in a much better place to realize the truth and go beyond this "materialistic" ego-driven reality. Look at all the current world leaders we’re accusing of child abuse, sex trafficking, music stars involved in scandals, criminals, and even spiritual gurus who use fake spiritual language to justify polyamory and sexual exploitation in cults. Consider the countless high-profile figures involved in scandals: politicians with multiple accusations of sexual misconduct or corruption, famous CEOs and business magnates exploiting workers or engaging in shady deals, grifting and insider trading, actors and musicians who abuse their power to manipulate vulnerable fans, etc. Are we really going to deny that the prevalence of these behaviors is linked to unchecked masculine power, entitlement, and ego? Who’s significantly and disproportionately involved in these actions? Men. Are we honestly suggesting that this gender is more grounded in integrity, truthfulness, and free from cheating and lying? Seriously? The feminine is less dominated by lust, horniness, and aggression. It is impossible to seek the truth if you are overly impulsive, horny, and angry. Too much masculinity leads to hard science, materialistic thinking, power-seeking, capitalism, inequality, oppressive, and tyrannical systems. Who do you think elected Hitler, Trump, and previous tyrants and leaders? Who do you think was doing the most of the oppression throughout history? Who do you think was suppressing science and calling paranormal research and spirituality "too woo-woo" for science? The masculine yearns for more control. The feminine is better at enduring suffering and is less prone to harming others. They have been perpetual victims throughout history, "prizes" in war, raped, molested, enslaved, tortured, and used for men’s pleasure. Truth-seeking is all about the endurance of suffering, and who better to endure than the perpetual victims of history? The feminine has better emotional control because she is less controlled by her lust. She is more emotional on average, which means she is way more familiar with her emotions and knows how to be present with them. Societally, women are also less suppressed when it comes to sharing and expressing their emotions, meaning they are less prone to building up uncontrolled anger, depression, and bitterness. Why do you think there is so much more suicidality in men? Why do you think it's usually men who cheat or have second families and hide them away? In fact, today’s male mating strategy is largely based on lying, manipulating perceptions, and control. This mindset is far more popular than any female mating strategy. Women, by contrast, don’t have to lie to get laid; it’s much easier for them. Men, on the other hand, train themselves and others to lie constantly, both to themselves and to women. How do you think this perpetuating mindset will ever bring a gender closer to the truth? It cannot. Men do not want to accept the harsh reality that they are not inherently desirable by nature. Instead, they soothe themselves with OnlyFans girls, fake porn, fake video games, fake lives, everything fake, because they cannot accept the truth. Women, on the other hand, are more able to face this reality. Men are the ones largely living in delusion in this day and age. The notion that the masculine prefers to lead rather than follow is simply wrong. The second men start suffering (e.g., the incel pandemic), you get school shootings, murder, propaganda, and ideological torture. Women cannot lean on violence, so they have to learn how to control themselves, knowing when they need to let go of their desires and when their desires are valid. This is key to achieving God-realization. If you’re too wrapped up in your desires and easily spoiled, and instead of stepping back and thinking, you resort to complaining and violence, this is what you get. I can’t think of any female podcast as whiny as some red-pill podcasts, or huge oppressive systems and religions that use God in the name of oppression, keeping women away from education, self-expression, and only serving self-serving agendas. Masculinity, in its most toxic form, is completely identical to ego; it uses anyone and everything to serve its own agenda. And women are often on the back burner of that. From patriarchal political structures to religious dogmas that limit female roles, to economic systems built on exploitation, men often design these institutions to protect their own interests. Think of capitalism, which thrives on inequality, or the historical suppression of women in religious institutions where leadership roles were almost exclusively male. Even in many traditional societies, women have been restricted by laws and customs designed to reinforce male dominance. All of these systems are crafted to perpetuate the power dynamics that benefit one gender over the other. Men also love hearing things that soothe them, and once you can whisper those things into their minds, they too can be easily controlled, manipulated, and will submit to whoever the authority figure whispering sweet words is. The female's mating (and therefore survival strategy) is simply being herself. Throughout history, wars have been started purely over the natural beauty of women. Most women would likely reject a man asking them out, but most men would not reject a woman asking them out. Therefore, the gender more prone to using 'lying' strategies is the male gender. And remember, survival drives everything, and mating is a huge part of that. So, if your survival strategy relies more on your ability to lie and manipulate, you are much less likely to care about the truth. The feminine is valued for qualities much closer to the divine in its purest form: love, care, understanding, acceptance, purity, beauty, mysticism, unfilteredness in expression, and perfection. These qualities align with higher, spiritual truths. On the other hand, many masculine values are more rooted in survival and ego. Men are often more allowed, and even encouraged, to be impure, psychopathic, disagreeable, and harsh. Some male-centered spaces allow men to cheat, not control their lust, and even take multiple wives, each of whom they must keep under control, often lying to each one about how much they love her. These spaces often promote participation in degeneracy and pick-up artist behaviors, reinforcing a culture of manipulation, dishonesty, and the pursuit of power over genuine emotional connection or spiritual truth. Most of what men desire is deeply self-soothing to their egos. They seek a partner who doesn't question their intellect, financially depends on them, is more emotional, smaller, weaker, and subservient to them. They expect their partner to handle all the housework, be sexually submissive in bed, fulfill all their desires, and cater to their ego. They expect their partner to be virgins, pure, never grow old, never gain weight, never complain, whine, and wholly devoted to them, while they themselves are free to cheat, have multiple wives, and exploit their partner's labor however they desire. Meanwhile, men are often encouraged to maintain a strong ego and a sense of self, with no authority, societal norms, or mating strategies to ever hold them accountable or push them beyond their own self-centered existence. And cultural norms reinforce all the above. Historically, the feminine was often kept under control, branded as 'heretical,' 'witches,' or 'subversive' for daring to speak their own truths or practice spirituality outside of prescribed norms. Women have long been denied the ability to express their spiritual insights freely because their truths were seen as a threat to patriarchal structures. The very act of a woman speaking or living her truth often posed a challenge to the masculine order, which is why many women were pushed into roles of submission or suppression. If men are so naturally oriented toward truth-seeking, why then feel the need to suppress the spiritually gifted and label them as witches? It almost seems like one gender really doesn’t want the truth pushed when it hurts their agenda. Hmm... The point is that this issue is more than cultural, more than social construction. The biology and, therefore, the psychology of men and women is different. It's not good or bad, it just is what it is. And you will find handfuls of individual exceptions. In fact, a larger percentage of the highest values and pursuits are very much aligned with what we might call 'feminine' qualities. (Imagine an alien or an unbiased person with very little knowledge of what masculine and feminine qualities are reading this.) Values of: love, empathy, compassion, mutual understanding, unconditional motherly-like love "A face only a Mother can love", reconnection with the present moment, simply feeling and being, presence, acceptance, receptivity, ego submission, giving, nurturing, healing, supporting, purity, emotional rawness/vulnerability, seeing others in oneself, connecting with the divine, with Mother Nature, spiritual intuition. Overall, hardcore truth-seeking is going to align better with the feminine. And the hardcore part is important because the truth is hardcore. Truth-seeking has to be hardcore because it requires self-annihilation. Or in other words, pure Ego-submission. Men's egos tend to be much more dominant and stubborn. They shudder at even the mention of the word 'submit'; their entire lives, they are running from its very essence. They are too fragile to break through Maya because Maya is so powerful.

Death? Not so much, no. Gradually losing my cognitive abilities, chronic health problems, the strength of my body, the vitality of youth, the joy of living, the brightness of hope, the clarity of thought, the vibrancy of passion, the warmth of connection, loss of loved ones, the slow erosion of relationships, the gradual fading of memories, the heavy silence in my mind, the looming specter of decay, the helplessness in watching others fade, possible ageism around me, dismissiveness of my worth, the alienation from society, loss of excitement, the hollow void inside, anhedonia, the numbness of feeling, the cold emptiness that replaces joy, emotional exhaustion, growing apathy, anxiety about the future, the sorrow of fading dreams, the weight of regrets, the fragmentation of identity, the erasure of purpose...? Yes!

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An old friend of mine briefly introduced me to witchcraft (also known as these "religions/cults") that are often associated with demons, Lucifer, Satan, etc. Funny enough, these religions used to be pagan religions before organized religion took over. You'll notice they had symbolism of actual good, helping, and giving power to their fellow man, and some still do. Organized religion then "renamed" and redefined these pagan beliefs to associate them with Satan and evil. It's a very standard tactic for any system or ego that wants to self-preserve: say your religion is one of love, peace, and beauty, and then demonize any pre-existing religions as Satan-worshipping to persuade and gain new followers. The irony is kind of cute! ^^ Satan represents selfishness, ego, and hypocrisy; any cult ever can be related to it.

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