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What do you recommend I do to investigate what I'm passionate about? I've had your course for some time. I'll go back and utilize the tools you provided.

I keep seeing the number 333 and have found myself seeing other numbers in the past in odd patterns. I've never been able to relate them to anything, just that fact that they consistently appear over and over again and do not seem coincidental. I've tried journaling and contemplating the number but I haven't a damn clue what it means, if anything. Can anyone bring some light on this phenomenon?

I don't know, thinking is a bitch. Sitting for an insight or something like that seems to be the way to go.

How did you come to discover that meaning?

Does anyone have any experience with doing 10 days of nothing? Or any other amount of time for that matter? Any tips or recommendations? I'm going to do it, however, I'm asking this question to become aware of possible traps before going in.

I feel like this is a silly question, but I'm having trouble discovering what's authentic within me, especially in regards to what I want in life. I ask myself questions, sit and contemplate, observe periods of silence, journal a little, and I still get answers in which I'm not sure about. Am I missing something here? How can I get to my core answers or to that which is authentic inside me?

I've been here and there searching for my life purpose for the past two years and have found a progressive upgrade in suffering overtime. The suffering is related to not having direction or purpose and usually comes up when I'm thinking/contemplating about what I want in life (purpose). Is this a normal part of the process of uncovering life purpose? If yes, why is there suffering? If no, what am I doing wrong? And what would be a better idea instead?

I've spent over a day trying to take this in for you wrote a lot which spoke to me. From the first paragraph alone, I was able to see that I might be living my life based on someone else's desires/ideals. Though Leo and many others have taught me a great deal, I've inevitably adopted unoriginal ideas which have ruled my subconscious for some time now. This is of course no way to live if I want an authentic life. I think before I start looking at whether my desires are inwards or outwards, I need to first learn how to discern my desires from other desires. I know I have a lot of beliefs about needing to pursue enlightenment and this and that which I may have adopted from others. This is where the questioning you had spoken of comes in. I'll start doing that. The big thing here for me is when you said: "What is the issue with not knowing what you want?"... That sentence alone has been my greatest trouble for over a year now, ever since I discovered conscious life purpose from Leo. Like you said, I do actually feel that if I don't hurry up and figure out my purpose so I can start mastering it, I'll be missing out on something. If I'm honest, I find it very hard to rest in a state of not-knowing, at least in regards to knowing what I want in life. If I don't try to find a purpose or have a purpose, I feel like I'm wasting my time here on earth. This could very well be the beliefs I've allowed into my head but it is so hard to gain clarity here. I'm going to ask for more advice. Deny me if you wish. However, what would you recommend I do to help gain clarity on what I actually want versus what I think I want based on inauthentic beliefs?

Thank you for your concern. I do see you point and after observing the matter, I'd need more time to plan it. Not only that, but it would most likely be a max of 7 days based on my schedule.

Clarity by means of a removal of all distractions. There are other ways to go about it, yes. Could this way be foolish, yes. Am I open to other ways of gaining clarity, yes. However, at some point, this practice of just existing will have it's rightful place in helping me to become clear on something.

At what level would you interpret the saying? I understand the importance of taking the saying as it feels natural to me, however, I still seek your point of view on it. Taking time away to sit in nothingness is powerful but take too little or too much time to do and there would be consequences. So, maybe what I'm asking is, what do you recommend in terms of getting the clarity on what you really want? I think it's still useful to go above experimenting and seeing what I like and don't like, even if I do figure out my core desire/s to avoid becoming stagnant. Even so, it seems that overall you're alluding to a mix of both time in nothingness and time in conscious experimentation no?

How do you alleviate the suppression? In other words, how do you let go of the filters? Of course, I ask you both on a personal level and objectively.

I've allowed myself space in not-knowing before and have found it to be rather efficient. Since it is a space of not-knowing, a lot of tricky desires come up as well which can be hard to discern as worthwhile. Do you have a way for navigating that space, especially in regards to what is truthful or of most value?

I watched the video and am once again reminded of the fleeting time one has in the human experience. Though I see the process I must go through, I still have one issue. Intuitively, I have a hint that my core desire is experiencing truth at its most absolute point. However, I don't know if this intuitive hint is what I should follow for I have other passions like music which I invest more time in and that seem more practical. I know my mind and emotions can play tricks on me which only leaves me the ability to truthfully listen to my deepest core. That feeling of depth and intuitive truth within me. Based on your experience, is that a wise source to listen to? If not, what is the more authentic thing to listen to inside oneself?

I understand what you're saying here. However, I have several problems in my life where I can currently see the potential in solving/providing value with them yet feel no desire to do so. If I had one problem that spoke above the rest, it would be that I'm not aware of absolute truth and therefore feel a lack which can only be cured by that experience. Do you speak here on doing these things for the good of them? Or for the personal passion one gets from them?

@enzyme @Leo Gura Thank you both for the clear insight. I'll take action from here.

I'm conflicted with two things. 1. There is a woman who I would like to be with as my partner one day. We have been together before but decided to split due the fact that both of us were not ready for a relationship with each other. This leads into the second thing. 2. I have many desires related to women in which I want to experience. I want to practice pickup, experience relations with varied women, have sex, and overall go through those experiences to both quench desires and become masterful with the feminine. Of course, the thought roaming in my head is to simply do none of that and wait for the woman who I feel I'll be with one day. If I followed that thought, would it be a recipe for regret down the road?

@integral Thank you. That is exactly what I needed to hear.

By this question. I'm asking how you were able to find direction in life and how you knew to trust it. I ask this question with the understanding that sources other than the Self might be faulty and inauthentic. However, my confusion arises when I have to decide between listening to my logic, dreams, intuition, etc., for direction. What I'm getting at here is two questions: Q1. What within myself speaks truth and what within me speaks nonsense? Q2. What worked for you in determining where to go in life? (What did you trust?)

I'm utterly lost in life. I feel many others are here too. I'm doing things but I feel like a husk and suffer immensely from it. It is as though I'm missing something. Actions I Have Been Taking To Solve This: Self-questioning/contemplation Listening to intuition for guidance Practicing being Putting down distractions like the phone Developing and creating with my passions Actions I Have NOT Been Taking To Solve This: Meditation Actual self-developmental productivity Questioning my fears and limitations Exposing myself to experience Seeking proper guidance, if any I'm seriously stuck and blind to something here. I feel like I cannot suffer in this ignorance any longer. Does anyone know what is going on? Or how to solve it?

Right now I'm in my first year of college, pursuing a degree and several different passions. Ideally, I'm looking to become a Yoga teaching and ultimately a guide for my own spiritual retreat center. I have a little scene that has been playing in my head for a few years now which keeps leading me that way. Besides this, I'm producing music, making mind opening videos, and going for a degree in and around English Composition. It is simply this lost feeling which has been plaguing me for the last few months. That said, I'm going to take your recommendation into action so I can stop looking elsewhere for answers and an end to my suffering.

@NoSelfSelf Very well. Thank you.

What do you suggest I do to deprogram this program? I can see what it might entail, but even now I can see the lack of self trust you are talking about. I would like to trust the self without reserve.

Thank you for the clarity and practicality you provided with this. I will get to work with it and experience what it does through action. Do you mean what I'm currently doing in life?

To put it simply, I've been indecisive about my purpose, direction, values, vision/s, goals, and more for over a year now. Even since gaining insights and slowly awakening to things, my life has been shattered from certain realms of ignorance, leaving me naked in unknowing. I feel like I'm stuck here with too many decisions. The point is that I'm very purposeful towards uncovering/creating a purpose in life. However, I cannot help but wallow in my own bullshit because of fear or something of that nature and I seemingly have gotten nowhere at the end of the day. I'm tired of being directionless and I really wish a flame could be lit under my ass so I could start going after something. Something in me wants to create and give and it cannot be otherwise. A life wasted on turning away from being purposeful seems extremely foolish at this time. So, in other words, how can I stop being indecisive about life? What is it I must actually do to get direction and go towards that direction? I don't mind if it changes overtime, I just want to get in alignment with my core direction and pursue it fully as it becomes whatever it becomes.