Hi. I understand how you feel. there were few believers in my surrounding. It may seem silly, but I was afraid to visit the church. Although I need it. I have never been an atheist and was a believer at heart. I turned to my distant relative with this problem. He taught me a lot about religion. Then I started to grow in the grace and knowledge of Jesus. I realized that God’s power is almost everywhere. He doesn’t leave me when I am not at church. However, it is his home and serves as our means.