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@Someone here You've earned my respect for your honesty brother!

@Leo Gura I have this very deep suspicion that people don't have independent consciousness long before Actualized, long before even hearing about solipsism.

@Leo Gura Whatever you write here on this forum, if I see it, you are talking to me, directly? That is obvious, actually...

Watch Unforgiving 1992 You'll love the realness.

@Sincerity What will happen when I awaken? Will I be in love with life once again as I was as a child? Will I be in touch with that mysterious beauty permeating everything again? Will I truly enjoy life?

Where do you get this bullshit from?

Yeah, try to meditate with the flu or sleep deprived

If you truly desire understanding, you don't have a choice. You are in the game and only understanding will fulfill you. Feel Leo's teachings touching deep inside you. Or, just be arrogant.

@Sincerity I remember when I was a kid, I used to enjoy and love way more than now. Is it possible to enjoy every situation? Do you? Is that innocence, openness, willingness, enjoyment, what is meant by loving what IS, loving God? Can I love and enjoy being sliced open? Or some other thing like that?

Nice! That is a great explanation for Self Inquiry.

@Leo Gura You know what? Fuck you Leo. Ban me if you want.

4, out of 40. This result actually concerns me. I might be so much of a narcissist that I don't even realize it!

Seriously man, 0.2 cm of skin is nothing. Try pulling out a tooth and suffering won't be imaginary. Obviously, don't try it. But I get your curiosity. Use moments like when you accidentally kick your furniture to practice staying in pain or putting your body in an uncomfortable position. Close your eyes and try to be with pain, don't run away from it. Maybe one day you become able to do a root canal without painkillers like Ralston allegedly did.

@Sincerity Yeah, I deleted it too late!

@Leo Gura

I feel exactly like that. Since 16 yo I can't understand how is it possible to go on living without knowing what the hell is going on here, and everyone around was like robots living without questioning anything and not acknowledging that this is the most important thing ever, how can understanding what you are and what is happening not a top priority? Is like a mission that I don't remember ever agreeing with, and it won't stop haunting me until I understand it.

@axiom What do you mean, exactly?

@Leo Gura My body disappearing and I know I am the visual field. Becoming conscious that the world is my Mind. Is that shallow awakening?

@Leo Gura If you know the right kind of focus, because you did it before and had an awakening, would you say it will still take a retreat like setting to reach that focus again without psychs? Once you understand it, it gets easier to find it again, right?

@Inliytened1 Yeah, I am noticing that. This last wave of suffering changed something in me.

@Inliytened1 I do. and thanks.

@Inliytened1 Have you meditated for how long before enlightenment? I heard you say somewhere that you practiced Self-Inquiry. I've been seriously practicing it for a few weeks now, and I know for a fact that I'm not practicing it wrong. Somehow I just know. But do you have some tips and clarifications that would help the process?

@Carl-Richard Do you mean Ramana Maharshi's self-inquiry? That to me is surrender. No objects, letting go of everything, being, conscious of nothing, conscious of "I am". I guess this has to be a practice, and maybe one day you can surrender totally.