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It feels like interference from ego to try to end others suffering. But ego is also natural and part of life. So... Hard to decide anything. Sometimes I mercy kill them, sometimes I don't.

I don't want to derail this post, but I want you guys to answer this. When you see an ant slowly dying, agonizing, what do you do? Kill it or let it agonize to death thus not interfering with nature or whatever? Before you say it, I'm not comparing death sentence with mercy killing. Just asking.

Yeah Just hard to see beauty in it.

For fucks sake Leo!

Can you show us one of them?

@Inliytened1 Last awakening showed me that my body and the physical world are inside my Mind. The body was just one more piece of content, even if it had been blown into pieces it wouldn't matter, just a change in content. It was obvious how I was creating the illusion of being a human, other people around me, an outside world, etc. But like you said the physical reality didn't dissolve, even though I felt like I wanted to go deeper and deeper, it stopped there. Was that a shallow God-realization?

You complained about Nahm being vague and not helping. This ^ doesn't help, and you know it.

@justfortoday When you say God is experiencing every POV one at a time to infinity, that's the scariest thing ever. Just because God will keep dreaming forever, does that mean every possible POV will be experienced? If it is infinity, it could be living happy lives forever, it doesn't mean it has to live every possible miserable life I see around, because no matter how many lives it experiences it will be always infinetly far from an endind. You know what I mean? Always far away from every possible life.

@Holykael You can't be sure you'll experience every hell imaginable. Past and future are thoughts. And I know is hard to let these thoughts go, so... The only way to not lose my shit is to hold the faith that God in its infinite wisdom would not create an absolute hell.

@Recursoinominado I can't ever prove anything. @Leo Gura just search for Lula Mensalão and Lula Petrolão.

@Leo Gura I know that Actualized is not about healing traumas, but you said that one of the courses will be about reprogramming the mind. Isn't healing traumas and reprogramming the mind the same thing? Will I be able to use this course to heal traumas?

I think when I purchase the book list using Paypal, the blog automatically created an account with that email which is different from the one I use for the forum. Sometimes I auto-log into the blog using the forum email. Maybe that's the case for you?

It's so good when people understand this. It makes me feel loved and not alone. Much different than the "you can do it" bs.

1:18 - Listen to this.

@Leo Gura You almost made me cry with this. I love you!

@Leo Gura How much the new courses will cost?

@Leo Gura So my fear of fucking my "normal" life up if I keep going deeper with psychedelics is simply the ego holding on? And it will create all kinds of ideas to avoid awakening. After your blog post about mastering survival before coming to you for the dessert, I felt very bad. Because deep down I don't care as much about anything else other than the dessert. I'm a child who won't eat it's vegetables and want to go straight to the dessert. So right now, I'm kind of stuck with fear, but also curious and hungry to go deeper. Maybe balance both as best as I can? Edit: I recognize that I also want a human life (because I'm here).

@Kksd74628 Hey man! What type of meditation do you practice/recommend?

@Leo Gura If I stare at my buddha statue for a while, everything becomes one blurry undifferentiated "thing". Then for me to see a certain detail like it's nose I need to intend and focus on it. Is it like this that God creates reality? Through my attention, right?

@Leo Gura I just had a solid glimpse of nothing existing outside my Mind, because an outside is actually inside my Mind. I can't runaway from it. It's so fucking obvious ? and I'm not even high.

@Leo Gura The only reason I can come up with for God to want to imagine the worst possible situation is this: when I feel great, fewer things bother me and I am much more open to new experiences. In God mode, I assume I will be completely open and so free that imagining a hellish realm is not that bad.

The Game 1997 Don't watch any trailers.

"Psychedelics only work on the brain, and so can only alter your mental state and perspective..." I have experienced the "physical world" including my body as being inside my own mind. It literally feels like everything is inside my head (but it's not the human head/brain, those are inside my mind). It is undeniable. I wonder what Peter Ralston would say about that.

I get it, there's no "low state of consciousness", only consciousness.

Remnant: From the Ashes One of my favorites. It's like Dark Souls but with guns.