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I had an interesting insight kind of related to this. I was walking while thinking and scratched my arm on a torn. This led me to realize that when you are conscious, alert, present, nothing can surprise you. It is like you see it coming from a mile away, before it hits you and by the time it hits you you might be already out of the way.

You already said it would be about reprogramming the mind. But I'm confused now because you wrote Mind with the capital M. 1:43:20 1:44:07

Will you try it? Let us know if you do

Now, start looking for birds sitting quietly in trees. You'll see a lot of them.

Do you see thoughts the same way? I've discovered that thoughts are "real things" but the content is just content you know. Reality is appearance, it's all as real as everything else. But some things are shallower than others, that is why I want the total absolute bottom line of everything.

Don't know man. I don't really care for lies.

I see now. Thought is not history, thought is not past. History (Past) is like a deeper thing, that ties everything together. If I think of an elephant NOW, that's shallower somehow.

@Findus Never mind.

@Leo Gura Are you saying that history only exist as a thought right now?

@Squeekytoy Are you @Michael Jackson by any chance?

@Squeekytoy Don't lie. Is this your first account here?

@NoSelfSelf You nailed it

@Yimpa Thanks. I shouldn't hold on to awakenings. What is true is what's actual right now. I'm so stupid sometimes, just to make a fool of myself in public.

What fucks me up is that I have experienced some degree of solipsism. I've seen that the world is literally my Mind. So is like one foot in one foot out of the river.

@Leo Gura Just to be clear. When you say Me, you are saying Me / Myself / I? Do you want me to go Insane?

Staring at anything for too long cause my vision to get blurred after the sitting. Will I damage my eyes if keep this practice?

Let's change the example. Is it possible that I could create terrible situations, that would cause me to suffer a lot, without knowing, while living from a lower state of consciousness where I don't see others as myself? If I was living from a higher state, maybe I could create reality and witness every little detail of the creation in real time, while "living" like a human. Even "terrible situations" could be used for growth, but will I submit myself to extreme suffering?

You know we can buy mushrooms legally in Brazil right? Let's hope Lula keeps it like that

@Jowblob Yeah. It was a stupid question haha But I respect you man.

Yes, I am. Most of the time.

Am I "low consciousness person"?

@Jowblob Once I asked Leo about this and his answer was something like: You're God but you still can get shot in the head. Meaning that I still can create hell for myself without even knowing.

God damn, I have a serious problem trusting myself. I forget awakenings and remember again when you talk about it. I remember witnessing how I imagine the world around me, how I created my neighbor in an instant, how I invent an outside in "real time". How I fool myself into believing I am a body. How I am infinitely intimate to everyone. And how I can't hide anything.

Yeah. I feel this hurting, devastating feeling in many areas. I read your post and thought, sometimes when I'm hurting I want everybody else to hurt as well... Kind of fucked up. Then I thought of those who kill, rape and harm people. Imagine what it's like for you to be fucked up enough by your parents, community and life in general, and that makes you go and kill somebody because you are hurting. Then others will hurt you for hurting people. They'll hate you and want to harm you badly. Isn't that sad? A different example of sad love. My nephew is 3 yo. When he wakes up, he wants to be with his mom, he wants to hug her and be safe with her. Isn't it sad that a child is thrown into this unsafe, chaotic world? You know what I mean?