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In one of my trips, I noticed that it doesn't matter / there is no difference between eyes opened and eyes closed when you are conscious enough. The same for sounds, with plugs in the ears is the same as without them while dogs bark in the background. You're conscious. Does consciousness disappear when you close your eyes?

@Leo Gura Thank you for changing your mind on this one.

@Carl-Richard My biggest problem in life is lack of confidence and fear. When I feel the fearless fire in me, I know it's real.

@Carl-Richard Still can't scare me, really. If that is necessary, so be it. But it might not be for me.

@Jowblob Thanks for sharing.

So what if I don't like it? I need to know MORE, ALL. What's the worse that could happen? Suicide? I've seen how I create the illusion of being a body, I've seen that everything is my Mind, I've felt immortal and my room was my divine heaven. I've seen how I was creating my neighbor, I've felt enormous intelligence "backing me up", and more... I also felt like those experiences were the best in my life, the joy of understanding and discovering is better than anything. And I noticed when the little drop of poison (fear) gets in, the whole juice gets bad. That's ego coming back online. And I wouldn't hurt my body.

@Jowblob Off topic question. How is your normal life? How old are you and have you had to work on your basic human bs (money, relationships, etc) before Awakening? I ask this because I'm so sick of feeling pressured to "work on the basics first" before being free to discover God. It's like a duty that people here in this forum make me feel like I must do before going more serious into Awakening. Since I was 15, everything in life became so meaningless and nothing was worth it. The most important thing since then is to understand what the fuck is going on here. Every death around reminds me that I can't stand being here clueless. So I say, fuck them all. I want to Know.

@thierry You sneaky devil. - Leo Gura

@Loveeee Could you share your sources for learning yoga nidra?

@Jowblob I don't get how God would find something unbearable when it's formless, unattached, untouched. Isn't something being unbearable an ego problem?

You know when you get up too quickly and start to trip for a few seconds and almost blackout? Once I recklessly did that on purpose trying to get to that edge. I blackout for half a second and fell down head first on the concrete floor. The moment I hit my head I felt so much regret and started to beg for forgiveness for harming the body as I was getting up in immense pain with a big ball in my bleeding head. Curiosity can be so stupidly naive sometimes.

@Jowblob Thank you.

Could you talk more about this?

Don't you even begin with this "other" shit But I get what you mean, if you start thinking you know much you become arrogant and closed-minded.

@Leo Gura I can't wait!

@Someone here You've earned my respect for your honesty brother!

@Leo Gura I have this very deep suspicion that people don't have independent consciousness long before Actualized, long before even hearing about solipsism.

@Leo Gura Whatever you write here on this forum, if I see it, you are talking to me, directly? That is obvious, actually...

Watch Unforgiving 1992 You'll love the realness.

Where do you get this bullshit from?

@Leo Gura So you are talking to me?

Yeah, try to meditate with the flu or sleep deprived

If you truly desire understanding, you don't have a choice. You are in the game and only understanding will fulfill you. Feel Leo's teachings touching deep inside you. Or, just be arrogant.

@Sincerity I remember when I was a kid, I used to enjoy and love way more than now. Is it possible to enjoy every situation? Do you? Is that innocence, openness, willingness, enjoyment, what is meant by loving what IS, loving God? Can I love and enjoy being sliced open? Or some other thing like that?