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forgot to add that I'm also starting my own company as a side project. So I hate my life right now, lots of work, feel very lonely and eating my savings. But I think I'm fighting the right battle so I have no choice but to continue and try to have more fun. Are you fighting the right battle?

I feel really identified with your post! I am one of the first engineers of a Silicon Valley AI startup.I started working on it 3.5 years ago. I have been hearing about getting series A for the last 3 years and still hasn't happened. I have been working with a small reduction on my salary for the last 10 months. Just 2 months ago we completely ran out of money and I am working for free and living off my savings. We have been waiting to get acquired for the last 6 months and still hasn't happened but keep hearing we have to keep the lights on for a few more months to get acquired and make it big! If I leave I lose the chance of making it big but if I continue and it doesn't happen I'm also screwed since I lost all my investment in the company. It's one of those situations were you are damned if you do it and damned if you don't! I think the best thing to do is to keep going but figure out ways to make it sustainable. I'll go to Brazil for 1 month and want to go to Colombia after. We have to enjoy life while eating the glass. Maybe you need a vacation and have some fun so you can clear your mind!

Hi everyone, I work remotely full time as an AI software engineer for a startup that is not doing well financially right now but I'm still getting paid and have savings to live without working for 6 months. On the side I am starting my first online business while taking Leo's LP course. Since I work from Home and my country is going through Winter right now all days are cold and cloudy and I'm getting depressed, it's affecting my mood and my happiness. So I have 2 options one is to stay, grind through the winter and save money which I could need if things go too bad and the other one is to go to Brazil for a month and work there so I get some sun and have a little fun while still working hard, would cost money but may improve creativity and mood. Have any of you started a business while traveling? that lifestyle really resonates with me

I was dating a girl that was into scientology until a few weeks ago. She was very secretive to what she did there and how they operated but it sounded sketchy to say the least. At first I thought it was a normal job which is what she told me but they would work her to the bone, so she was very lonely and all the time she was doing these reports and auditing it was like they were tracking everything she did and she had to report to them. I didn't know anything about scientology but just from seeing that and the fact that they are a business that call themselves a religion I told her it seemed really sketchy but she didn't want to talk about the subject, it was an uncomfortable topic to her. I left her a week ago.

You are on the right path. Traveling is great for meeting new people and learning new cultures. it can also get lonely.but its great for getting out of the comfort zone

btw I started listening to this great audio book from Zan Perrion, he's a guy that talks about the beauty in women and how men that have the best relationship with women are the ones that love them the most.His thesis is that Women recognize which men have a deeply love for them and they want to be around those people, made a lot of sense to me: https://www.amazon.com/Audible-The-Alabaster-Girl/dp/B0BX4MSSVP/ref=sr_1_1?adgrpid=80724797239&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.M43n-reOsHN72ncyojurFy7BmS_a7iwxNtI0aD4zsvohf6BVcQQigDCGiuIxTENADI6_DqKgtJFN0g1CwxIz9OnJg1FnvsPLJ7Yiaii4Vu8IPuym5AEcqjzIhg-D3i76JWq8EC69MjnLIZxPT1A-eldOQuWkei-7AgPi8UVCmkme4xfPNdc78W8kYWmxwUwfo2ao0rKTnfeG_Olgc4W6n478vMbwkwEtkezG8vsvNVw.Amm-O6KgNnc94cx6wvsqflksVGFvY9dA7VxcNzttGug&dib_tag=se&hvadid=585479455892&hvdev=c&hvlocphy=9186399&hvnetw=g&hvqmt=e&hvrand=12381729741254892240&hvtargid=kwd-302026380958&hydadcr=22340_13333061&keywords=the+alabaster+girl&qid=1715976764&sr=8-1

This is my first game journal, I've started gaming 3 years and 9 months ago. have gotten laid 20 times and was in a 9 month serious relationship since then and have approached close to 300 girls mostly at daygame some at nightgame. Didn't game all weeks but had couple weeks a year where I would focus more on game and then focus on LP for the rest of the year. I have grown a lot but still struggle a lot to connect with other people, specially women. I'm 28 years old. If I can nail this thing when I reach 30 that would be good. I'm setting this goal.

I am cross referencing this great entry I made in my game journal because I talk about many important things there:

I'm starting this journal today. a super quick presentation I am 28 years old, my birthday was 2 weeks ago. I live in Buenos Aires, Argentina and work remotely as an AI engineer. Tomorrow I will travel to Colombia to see my long distance/ non monogamy girlfriend. I am happy I'm leaving Buenos Aires before Winter hits, this is becoming boring. Colombian girlfriend has been getting intense in the last weeks so not sure if we will still be together when I come back. Also when I arrive to Bogota I'm excited to enroll at a coworking space and at the Gym.Since I work from home I have not met any new people for a while and became less social and less happy, want to improve this. I will try to go to a coworking couple times a week and talk to some new people.

This is an update about what happened since the last time I wrote here... In March I did Tony Robbins UPW online seminar with friends and really opened myself up to the process. The 2 weeks after I had 5 dates(all from Tinder) and banged 3 our of those 5. One of this girls became a fuck buddy which I've been dating for 2 months. It's not GF material but It's great to spend the winter meanwhile I can focus my energies on my LP without worrying about sex. I just got Leo's LP course and I'm starting a new stage on my life where I want to build my own business. I am simultaneously working a 9-5 from home(I get payed for 8 hours of work but try to do it in 4) for a startup that is somewhat in line with my LP, trying to create my own brand online and brainstorming ideas for a business. I didn't want to forget the lesson I took from 2 months ago when I had those beautiful 2 weeks of dates: I realized that daygame was a waste of time, even though I fucked some girls from DG in the past, it got really uncomfortable, most girls I approached would not be attracted and I was putting a lot of energy into feeling awkward and making others feel awkward. I realized that I do get matches on Tinder but they would die in the first few messages. So I came up with a tunnel: I would first try to say something funny about their profile and chitchat lightheartedly while letting the girl know of my intentions, next I would move her to instagram and this is key: Girls from Tinder get to know us and to know if they want to fuck us more from our IG than from the conversation. So I polished my IG and made sure I would have good quality pictures with friends so they know I have friends and I am social. From IG I could jump to whatsapp or just close the date there. I would invite girls for Dinner so I would work out in the afternoon. I realized that If I make good money why not use it to make things easier for us to meet? that means I can pay for Uber and dinner so we can meet smoothly and also so I can get to choose the time and place which gives me more control of my schedule, I also show the girl that I'm a serious guy that works hard, trains hard so I have limited spots to meet but I'm also willing to invest in her by paying for her Uber and her food if she needs to, in a non needy way, A key concept that I realized at UPW is about leading with my heart in life, career and relationships. That means that when I talk with a girl on Tinder, IG or in person I don't think about how many messages I send, wether I'm replying too quickly or hiding my intentions. If we matched and I want to meet her it's beta to hide it and waste energy thinking about those things. A question that I ask myself is How would the most confident version of myself act in this situation? would he try to look cool or just express himself fully? Now girls know that I'm a busy man that doesn't have time for BS but who is also not scared of investing in them and telling them that I think they are hot or whatever I think. I am trying to allow myself to feel the beautiful feminine energy as fully as I can and realized I have a blockage that doesn't allow me to appreciate and connect with the beauty of women. I've been trying to work on this and not be afraid of appreciating beautiful women. I still struggle with it, probably because I'm afraid, I learnt at some point that it's wrong to appreciate feminine beauty, that women don't want me to see their beauty. This seems like a limiting belief! So this is what I learnt in the last 2 months, Now I'm focussing on my LP and hopefully you don't hear back from me for a few months and I bring great news next time I write. Cheers!

I bought Leo's LP course!! I'm working on starting a business on the side while working full time. I am so excited about this step.

I just use Claude opus for everything: coding, writing correction, philosophy, asking for steps to solving issues w computer, health and medical research. it's the new google

The difference with just asking chatgpt to write a report would be that my tool would be much more reliable. It would surf the web, aggregate sources and provide links to all the sources. I call this concept "deep search" since it would perform several searches and analyze different perspectives on a topic VS "shallow search" which is building an answer for a simple question using a few sources like google generative answers work today.

Hi, everyone I would like to share a product idea that I'm building. I studied computer science and have worked for silicon valley startups for the last 6 years. I'm currently full time employed for a startup that sells an AI powered search engine, so I have made good experience in the AI/information retrieval/NLP space. I turned 29 last week and I think it's time I start my own business, I've always wanted to run my own tech company and I feel like now it's time for me to start with an idea. I am spending 1 hour a day developing a tool that builds research reports for a given topic using AI. This is not just a short summary of a topic like any search engine today does but the goal is to be able to get a 5 pages long broad report that aggregates information from several sources and puts them together in a complete and comprehensible report so any professional can save hours of googling, researching and reading papers from it. The user gets a field of the land with these reports and he can later choose subtopics to dig deeper in. What do you think about this product idea? would you pay to use it?

This is an idea that I’m exploring, I’m 28 years old and have never had a girlfriend. I’ve explored the PUA scene for a few years and have had a few fuck bodies and some 20+ girls I’ve slept with. However for some reason I struggle a lot to connect with women. I haven't had sex in the last 5 months and I know if I put my focus on daygame for 1 or 2 months I end up getting some. However I’m tired of this cycle of not getting sex, then focussing on game for some months while neglecting other areas, getting sex then having to stop due to LP commitments and then repeating this cycle. This is not a rant, I write this because I’m still exploring possible solutions and here I will describe one that I will try for the upcoming weeks. The desire for sex drove me into watching a lot of porn and even into spending 2K USD into a trip to Colombia to game there(way easier than in my city) but I changed my mind last minute and didn’t go so I lost that money(15% of my savings). So I’m 28 years old, can’t connect with women and desire for sex is driving me crazy but I’m tired of working so hard on my game and so many rejections when I prefer to spend that time on other long term projects where I do see the benefits. I have plenty of assets: I’m healthy, average looking, dress well, workout, live in a beautiful part of my city in an expensive flat, I make good money, I have high quality friends and family which I hang out with every other day. I travel often. I’m at a point in my life where I’m satisfied with all life areas except relationships with women and I’m not willing to sacrifice some of the amazing lifestyle I have to do daygame and get treated as a weirdo by strangers. I know that when I do daygame I have to work out less and even see friends less to focus on the game, I can’t do everything. The fact that I’ve had long and honest relationships with beautiful people(male friends) and I’ve created such a good lifestyle from nothing makes me realize that I’m capable of having a high quality relationship with a woman I admire. If I can do it with men I can probably do it with women too. My idea is to pay weekly to some escort or massagist to masturbate me or bang me so that I can release my sexual tension, this way I stop watching porn and can release the tension for sex. Then I will continue growing my men friends cycle, working out, improving my appearance and doing personal development courses(I will do Tony Robbins UPW next month) and have some breathing room to work on the root cause problem in the long term rather than investing hours in game which seem to go nowhere. Maybe I will hire a therapist or coach to work on this long term, but with the goal of being able to have fun and connect with women the same way I can do with my male friends

My goal for this year is to build a genuine connection with one woman! In order to focus on this I need to get sex out of my mind and this is the best way I can think of. I already tried it yesterday by hiring an escort for 30 mins and it was amazing, it felt like 20 kg were lifted out of my shoulder

Congratulations! I hope to do an ayahuasca trip this or next year but I need to overcome my fear first

I wanted to leave a record of a situation that happened to me 10 days ago. I opened a very sexy petite girl in daygame the day after I came back from my new year's trip. we hooked and went for a coffee. the girl was very feminine and I was feeling great with her, like I never did with any other girl. she confessed to me that she had been a victim of abuse for 5 years in her last relationship and very hard stuff of her ex which died 2 years ago, I took the fact that she was telling me all that as a good thing since it's an emotional investment. 20 mins in the cafe and she said she had to leave and I went w her to the bus stop while we waited for the bus we talked about our next date and she gave me her number. when the bus came she gave me a peck kiss and left. hour later I messaged her and it was the wrong number. when I look at the number it's weird, the pattern of numbers looks made up, like the number I would create if I tried to make it up on the spot yet was a valid number. This situation was so weird that I was sad for a few days. it's been a while since I go on a date w a girl which I feel so attracted to both physically and mentally. I wish I new WTF happenned.

Also if you feel bad for them I think it's nice to offer help, specially if you work with them. I would say show the other chick but slap when you have to.

If they are friends or distant relatives you can stop seeing them. Why having friends that don't want the best for us?. If they are coworkers which you can't avoid it's complicated. I was in this situation last year and tried to be nice to my team mate who was struggling, in return he treated me poorly so whenever I felt like his attitude was getting in the way of my work I would let him know politely, ultimately the conversations escalated and I took it with the bosses. They supported me and the guy ended up leaving the company when you are doing good it's inevitable to make some people envy you. it's sign you are living life as it should be lived so congratulations!

daygame session. 4 openings in total. wing Zen helped me to do first opening since I was feeling w low self esteem cause im not working out. second indirect opening he also told me to do and since hot girl was receptive I immediately did a direct opening after. girl was waiting for a bus and was last in line I did it even though there were other people close by. we had a 3 min convo and I left since I wasn't excited to continue. After I asked a girl for a cafe w Zen on my left. girl was reluctant to talk but after I made a few comments that felt honest she trusted me more and started speaking more relaxed. That felt great, something I did made me trust me. which is to show her a little bit more of myself. this is big learning, talk about myself so girl trusts me more. I even expressed an opinion when to 2 girls I told them that the cafe near by didn't look like it has good coffee and both girls liked that comment.

daygame session w wing zen. more than 3 direct openings. + at least 2 indirect. last one asked a girl for a cafe and she felt hooked and was very sexy to me but I chickened out and didn't escalate. she was my target(big ass, short and morena) and was walking slow wearing a yellow shirt and tight pants(leggings). thats a signal that she was looking for sex. damn I feel like shit for not escalating.

I'm very curious about trying microdosing but I'm dubious about whether any improvements experienced during microdosing would persist or go away after I stop doing it. Have you done microdosing and then stopped? when you stop did you lose your superpowers? did you experience any withdrawal symptoms? I'm thinking about mushrooms microdosing in particular since that's the only psychedelic I have safe access in my area. My main goal is to be more stable emotionally since some days I become sad and negative

Also it's not mandatory to connect with every waitress and barista one bumps into. Some are opened and others aren't looking for it.

helping a girl just because you want to fuck her is creepy and manipulative as hell