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I Watched Leo's video about having a common place book and it remind me of the value of one. I have one for persona life and one for work and they were both key of my productivity but I became lazy in the personal one. I'm in the process of cleaning it up and I already feel how my head starts to feel lighter

I deleted Tinder after 2 weeks with no Luck in Buenos Aires. I read old notes where I wrote several times that Tinder is a waste of time in this city. Good I had the notes!

respecting someone is not the same as not insulting them. I used to overlook the deepness and weight of the word "Respect". 1.5 g of shrooms changed my perspective of what that word means and the meaning of "treating someone with respect". we have respect and Respect. The second one involves a comprehension of the intrinsic infinite value of a person regardless of whether they are useful to us or not.

An insight that I had a month ago while observing people that lived in el Tayrona in Colombia(National park): there 3 spaces we can leave in, one more abstract than the other: lv 1: connected with the body, nature and people around us. This is the only real space: being in the moment. lv 2: How most people in cities leave their lives. putting labels in everything, rationalizing and with the focus on language to explain nature rather than on nature itself. lv 3: World of abstract ideas like: Math, computer science, politics or any idea that exists only in the mind. The higher the level the more abstracted we are from the only true space: Nature. The crazier and unhealthier we become. That's why if one lives in a city and works with abstract ideas it's so important to do activities that ground us to reality: work out, meditation, socialization and being in nature.

Porn is destroying my sexual life, will set a goal to not watch porn for the next week

doing the above helps me to focus on my LP but my social life suffers

I'm spending too much time alone and I like it but this doesn't seem good for my game. also I'm masturbating and watching porn every day

Donde hubo fuego cenizas quedan ?

3 months ago I met a girl on daygame, we had 2 dates and had sex in the second one. After girl became a little cold on text and was busy to see me again, I went on 2.5 month trip to colombia and meanwhile I would message her about once a month she would take often 24 hrs to reply but I was always able to exchange couple of messages. I came back to Buenos AIres yesterday and was not going to open her because of ego since she didn't show much interest however I decided to put ego aside and message her, I just sent her a short "Hola Angie!". I'm happy I was able to put ego aside. I will post later what happens. I don't have expectations since I think her behavior already showed she is not interested in me, but I lose nothing with trying again. if she fucked me it means she found me attractive at some point and AFAIK I haven't done anything that stupid to make her lose all attraction

I have ordered a kit for cultivating magic mushrooms. I'm so excited! since I started on psychedelics last year but my source started scamming me so I had to stop. Psychedelics part 2 is coming baby! I only hope these new guys don't end up scamming me. only way to know is by trying

it sounds weird to me that your fear increases on microdosis. Think whether it increases in a good and healing way or in an on unproductive way

you would be a pioneer in this OP, I've never heard of someone working on game while microdosing. maybe good or not, only way to know is by gathering data of people who tried it. If you keep doing it I would love to hear about your journey

Last weekend I did a short trip to a nearby town with a girl I met on Tinder, we hanged out and had sex couple of times. this girl is working/medium class financially and she would come over to my house and I would invite her small things like fast food or share a bottle of wine. Last week I told her I would go on a trip and that she was welcomed to join me. I never mentioned paying for everything. The minute the trip started every time the bill came she would not offer any money so I started paying for everything and told her I would take note of things I pay so she later gives me her part. She agreed so I payed for the hotel room, a day long tour, taxis and all food. She came to the trip with no money so I had no option except for leaving her there but decided to stay with her and pay. At the end of the trip she told me she would later send me her part but 5 days have passed and we haven't talk since then and have a feeling she will never do. I had a very good time but I feel really bad with what happened, I feel used. what are your perspectives?

Also this facade of being rich has ruined my finances. I live alone and have a good salary but spend it all in stupid things like expensive clothes. I have 0 savings. This is a reminder of how bad I handle my finances.

@Chives99 Thanks. couple days ago I messaged her and asked her when she was going to pay me. she told me to wait until yesterday when she gets paid and would send me the money. I'm not going to message her anymore. she already knows what I'm expecting so it's up to her. I don't think she will pay but I feel better after sending her the message.

thank you guys! next time I go out with someone I don't know much I will be more clear. I wasn't 100% clear because 1) I assumed she would be not abuse the situation(wrong, can't go through life acting list this). 2)I discovered that because of insecurity I put a facade of being rich with women which is not actually true and assumed that if I don't invite the girls to nice places they would dump me because that's the only value I can provide them. this ends up attracting girls that are not worth it and I end up feeling used so I will sell my personality to girls rather than my wallet. 3)Even if I make much more money than the girl, I think it's safer to be modest and not talk about how much money I spend. The focus should be in getting to know each other even if dates are on very simple places. I was putting too much focus on the place where we hanged out rather than on the interaction.

of course nowadays society punishes dating underaged people. as long as they are 18 it's fine

As long as they are sexually developed and are attracted to you there is no shame. I would date a 16 year old If I could(i'm 28 years old)

Also from the trip experience I take some of the blame(not all), next time I will be a little bit more explicit about the splitting expenses when I go on a trip with a person I'm not close to. I didn't do it last time because was worried girl would think I'm stingy. This is an assumption which could be wrong in reality I don't know because have never experienced this. I will next time

I have to stop being the money provider and rather see myself as an equal to the girls I date. they will like me because they see me as a friend not as a wallet

Also I do it because of insecurity why would a girl want to spend time with me if I'm not a money provider? The only value I have to provide to a girl is having great experiences (which most of the time are payed)

I feel so stupid about this: I contemplated this issue deeper because this is often happens me with girls. I try to put a facade of being rich to attract them and end up lamenting it. also this strategy doesn't work well I only attract girls I don't like mostly

It's been a month and a half since I started my trip to Colombia and I broke up with my girlfriend 2 weeks ago. I'm still sad but also happy because I think it was a good decision. I just read my first comment in this thread before the trip and there I wrote that that relationship my not last after this trip.I'm so happy I wrote that since it's a proof of how unhappy I was in that relationship.

Next time she brings this issue up I will definitely bring that up. I feel like she is being disgraceful. At her mom's house she's constantly doing chores. at my house there chores are virtually none thanks to the money I pay for making that possible yet she complains over having to wash dishes once a day!

If I didnt pay for all these things we would have to go to the supermarket everyday, cook lunch and dinner and also have to wash those dishes. She is obssesed with splitting house work 50/50 but expenses are spent 100/0. its so injust