Razard86

Only in certain states can this happen but yes I reached a state of consciousness where I couldn't feel pain. I felt something that was supposed to be pain but because I had so much love the pain was drowned by the feeling of love and it felt like pleasure. Pain is love. When you raise your consciousness high enough you recognize that pain FEELS GOOD and then it no longer feels like pain. I'll make a post to explain this bit in more detail but its pretty interesting to say the least.

This^^^^ Reality never judges you, all judgement comes from the individualized ego. Reality always loves you, its really funny when you discover that the only one that beats you up.....is yourself. It's so well hidden too.

1. Everyone is a critic. 2. Your critique of me being theoretical is itself theoretical. 3. You said I conveyed very little, what is seen by what I am saying is a cooperative effort. If you wish to understand what is being conveyed you ask questions you don't criticize. But if you wish to criticize you do it in a constructive manner such as actually pointing out the issue. You didn't point out any examples and then claimed I didn't give examples. Here is an example I gave but because you didn't PAY ATTENTION you did not see it. "The warrior mindset is about facing limitation (fear) and progressing to a new level. By overcoming said limitation you reach a new LEVEL." This is one of the biggest issues I have, people who give half-hearted critiques because they make half-hearted attempts to actually understand what is being presented. Actually spend time trying to understand someone instead of being quick to accuse your lack of understanding upon them. P.S. if the example above isn't a good enough example then you need to work on your imagination. Facing your fears is a common theme in pretty much every form of self-help, hero's journey, and spiritual path known to man, also central to the theme of epics and heroic tales. It's about challenging yourself to deal with things you perceive as your weaknesses. Such as public speaking for example, or learning to forgive, or trying a new vocation.

I've had more than one awakening to what Romance is. Romance is the essence of what makes something sentient, and what gives it intrinsic beauty. For example I was shown that violence is romantic. Romance is not logical, it is illogical. It is based on feeling, and intuition. A person who is too logical and numbers based, data based, will not understand romance. I've learned how little many Males on this forum understand the Feminine. If you do Spirituality without a deep seated desire to learn the Feminine perspective then you are not doing real Spirituality. Seek to learn what romance is, what beauty is, and why these two aspects of the Love expression are so powerful. If you seek to judge and have a bias against romance, THEN YOU WILL NEVER LEARN THE BEAUTY OF LIFE. A life without romance is a dead robotic world.

This guy has a lot of unhealed trauma which came up to the surface when he took 5 MEO. If you are going to trip understand your inner demons WILL come to the surface. Please learn how to heal so you don't have to go through the experience like this young man.

Violence is the masculine expression of romance. The masculine expression of love deals with impermanence and limitation. When something is not permanent it is limited, limitation deals with logic, it deals with standards, and organization, and knowledge. It deals with the SEEN aspect of reality. The Feminine deals with the unseen, what is referred to as FEELING, it can be felt or intuited and discernment or knowledge comes from that. To understand how violence is romantic you need to tap into two sources of information. You must first understand and integrate the Masculine Love expression and then integrate the Feminine interpretation of violence. The feminine loves the warrior mindset of the Masculine. The warrior mindset of the masculine is the expression of how the finite relates to the infinite. The finite has limitation. The warrior mindset is about facing limitation (fear) and progressing to a new level. By overcoming said limitation you reach a new LEVEL. The feminine expression is about the lack of limits. When the Masculine overcomes a limit to reach a new limit it joins with the feminine who nurtures it and gives it the necessary environment to keep PROGRESSING. The feminine expression learns what strength is through the interaction of seeing progress or growth and when it relates to the masculine together they journey forward forever. This is how violence is romantic and beautiful because mastery of violence deals with pain, suffering, and fear. The ability to deal with this adversity and overcome is beautiful and romantic and is why in some cultures in ancient times a man had to prove his mettle in hunting or interpersonal battle to be found worthy of marriage. The feminine is always attracted to the never say die of the masculine. With that said...the masculine and feminine always invariable collapse into one because they are two sides of the same.

REAL with a capitol R is equivalent to TRUTH AND LOVE. What is the best definition of TRUTH, REAL AND LOVE? That which is fully connected with itself and lasts forever. What we call REAL, What we call TRUTH, and what we call LOVE would overcome trials and tribulations and still exist. This TRL TRUTH, REAL, LOVE would never be defeated. It would overcome everything and always BE. This never say die attitude, this ability to be integrity, to HOLD TOGETHER THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS. THIS IS WHAT TRUTH IS. THIS IS WHAT WE CALL REAL. You teach this to yourself through relationships. When a relationship stands the test of time, it has INTEGRITY. It doesn't fall apart. It NEVER DIES which means it is eternal. THIS IS WHAT LOVE, TRUTH AND A REAL RELATIONSHIP WOULD BE!! This is what authenticity is and it is PURE MAGIC!!!

The ego exists, the ego is your drive to survive. If I pointed a gun at your head or started to attack you physically your ego would respond. If it didn't exist...what is responding? Please stop parroting false Spirituality Teachings. If it didn't exist there wouldn't be anything to untangle. Your ego is your drive to survive which is life itself, existence itself. This drive to survive is infinite in power, but currently limited by your mind. This drive to survive has attached itself to an individual story about and individual human. If you want to say the story is an illusion go ahead....but I decided to kill everyone you hold dear and everything you hold dear you would fight to protect them. If I threatened to erase your life from existence and the memory of it...you would fight to protect it. That drive to protect it....is your ego and that ego...is LIFE ITSELF. That ego is ABSOLUTE AUTHORITY, ABSOLUTE INNOCENCE. This is why all this ego is an illusion talk is NONSENSE!! What doesn't exist is the ego you are imagining. But everything you hold dear...is REAL. That is what love is, love is connection and whatever love is connected too. IS REAL!!! THAT IS THE DEFINITION OF LOVE AND TRUTH A CONNECTION BORNE OUT OF TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS IS A REAL CONNECTION!!! Since Reality is Love, if reality says something is real, then it is real because nothing can tell reality what it is, but reality. Only a limited intelligence that has not learned what truth is would call the ego illusionary. It was never an illusion.

Why do yall make threads like this. Everybody you meet is YOU. So if you don't think you are a BOT then they aren't a bot either. You are actually making a distinction between them which is false. THEY ARE YOU. They have the appearance of being different because your MIND can dream up differences. Close your eyes, dream up a world right now. Imagine walking down the street...notice everyone in that scenario....is you appearing to be a different person. Now open your eyes....were they bots? NO!!! They were your mind!! Now notice....you are also within your own mind. Why? Because you are a MIND!!!!

The ego is eternal as it is a finite representation of eternity that finite will reside within the absolute forever. What surrender means is to surrender your desire to be selfish and not sacrifice for others. As long as you are willing to sacrifice for others then you are fine. The point is to grow your self-love and hating your ego isn't going to grow your self-love it will do the opposite. Glad you are on the path keep going.

If you as God don't believe in yourself....who else will? There is nothing GREATER than you. God-Realization is every human's birthright. Pursue the path of loving yourself. When you love yourself enough you will be able to love another.

Paul Smit is not awake. Reality cannot be bound. At the Absolute Level Reality is in control....because there is nothing else that can control it because it is ALL THERE IS!! What Reality is....it is AUTONOMOUS!!! This means Reality can set itself into motion and it does not need to be constantly controlling or micromanaging itself. It's autonomous. As a result from that perspective you could say there is no controller, but reality also does take control what do you think the SELF is? Reality is both Selfish and Selfless. The Self is a construction!!! Once reality creates a SELF which is what we call CREATION, that self can control itself. Now what reality does is it makes certain parts autonomous, they operate without conscious control this is things like your hair growing, or nails growing, heart beating etc. But here is the RUB!!! You can reach a state of consciousness where you can STOP your hair from growing, or stop your heart from beating. Why? Because you are ultimately the controller of EVERY FREAKING THING!!! EVERY THING!! You just do not need to control it directly once you set it into motion.

Of course I like him. He said "I never speak what I don't want to experience." I was like RIGHT ON, I LOVE THAT QUOTE!!

I know...and I don't disagree with what you are saying I agree with everything you said....just not the way you said that one part. People are starting a Spiritual Awakening, but that is different than God Realization or God Awakening. The truth of what we all are is the I AM looking through our eyes, looking at itself. I live from this state sober baseline...and it never gets old. It's literally heaven. Once you break through you are in heaven on Earth. It's quite shocking. I already know how to wake everyone up, the issue is are they open to it. I can coach anybody to God Realization if they are open to it because I discovered what the process TRULY is and current Spirituality Teachers are WAYY to judgmental to hear the process. It is very counter-intuitive. I'll share one of the secrets.... ^^^^This is the first step. You must live authentically from this perspective. Next step you need to see all of life as divine...ALL OF IT!!! If you can truly accept that everything is beautiful then the next step is possible. Meditate and contemplate, and deconstruct your mind till you free yourself from the materialist paradigm that you are some separate individual. This means you must embrace Absolute Solipsism. Reality is both Absolutely Solipsistic, and Absolutely Many. You have lived from the Absolutely Many state your whole life as an ego, you must now strip yourself of your individual ego and realize all ego are YOU. After that....the rest of your life will just be finding more ways to awaken to the beauty that is around you and create ways to share this with the other parts of you.

Holykael stop with your broken logic!! If you didn't feel he exists or I exists....YOU WOULDN'T BE MAKING POSTS!!! You are so illogical you are like the man walking down the street questioning whether he is walking down the street. If you didn't feel anything existed....YOU WOULDN'T BE EXISTING!!! Your very actions are proof, your actions are your own got damn authority. Do you not understand? Wake the fuck up!!! Wake up!!! This is your consciousness telling you stop denying your own existence. I once called you the most honest ego, because you were so honest about your negative emotions. You are also the most dishonest ego because you are not honest about your positive emotions. You refuse to be positive and then claim some other is controlling you. NOTHING IS CONTROLLING YOU!!! BECAUSE THERE IS ONLY YOU!!! Stop with this drivel.

I was with you until you said this (what I bolded)... the only way to wake up to God and what Reality is, is in the Absolute sense. You need to have a direct experience of Reality. This is what awakening is. If you do not have direct experience that everything is YOU and that your true identity is a conscious, loving, feeling, intelligent, shapeshifting, impermanent, permanent, infinite, totality ....then you have not woken up to God. Most people are waking up to individualism which is a MUCH lower awakening. Those people still think they are human and have a million questions about why they are here, and what is the origin of all existence but have yet to fully investigate it.

Preciate it and now is where I expand it. The dividing line we can place between Arrogance and Confidence can be two factors. Arrogance thinks it is better than what it is, and Arrogance wants praise for what it does. Confidence know how good it is at doing something and doesn't desire praise just completing the task at hand. Now notice this....a person can be confident and have another person praise them. The confident person gets the reward the arrogant person gives himself because an Arrogant person would want to publicly proclaim how great they are and look for others to agree with them. Now here is a question I propose to you. Let's say a person performs a deed, and internally brag to themselves how great they are....would you call that person arrogant in secret? I personally believe that everyone should be their own fan. So when you accomplish things in life sing your own praises in secret. Because I truly believe that confidence is borne from private arrogance. LOL. It has worked for me at least and it grew my Self Love for myself.

Each emotional expression has its pros and cons. For example Arrogance is often maligned but anybody who has been in a competitive environment understands the value of arrogance and why it exists. Arrogance is a ridiculously high level of faith in oneself. Arrogance gives you the ability to push past your current limitations by ignoring or miscalculating your current limitations. Arrogance is what fools do, but only brash arrogant fools have the opportunity of surprising themselves in the arena of competition to reach heights never dreamed of. This is accomplished only if those brash arrogant fools also add hard work to this emotional expression. Many place humbleness as a virtue not realizing that this emotional expression has drawbacks. Humbleness can create passivity, it can create a lack of standards, and create a permissive atmosphere where due care is not taken to show proper respect. Sometimes the proper respect is to demand it, and a humble mindset which does not include a healthy dosage of resistance will back down and create some justification for ill or improper treatment. Confidence is a healthy medium, where humbleness and arrogance meet, confidence is born. Confidence is a healthy understanding of one's own limitations. Confidence has nothing to prove, and only acts when needed or called upon. The issue with Confidence is, since Confidence abhors arrogance without a healthy understanding of one's own limits confidence can actually become a stop gap or limit on growth. The line between Confidence and Arrogance is so small at its edges where it meets that often onlookers will mistake Confidence for Arrogance and vice versa. When it comes to facing fears, Confidence is the most healthy/balanced expression, but Arrogance and Humility have their place as well. The key to balance, the key to confidence, is KNOW THYSELF. Awareness of your capabilities will come with daily observance of what you are currently capable of. There is a saying I have come up with in the past "Be a FAN of yourself." The same fervor you would use to follow a role model, or some inspirational figure, turn that same attention on your individual self.

1. You have no clue what you are saying because you don't have direct experience of reality. You are not awake and that is why you say the nonsense you say. I will give you a scenario so you can realize how foolish you sound because your logic is so flawed at this point its laughable and its starting to get annoying. Let's say you are God, there is nothing else but a floating bathroom. You walk into said bathroom and look in the mirror. You see your reflection and that reflection starts moving on its own irrespective of you. It has its own opinions, personalities, etc. but you know this reflection IS YOU. Now because you are God you EXIST, but if you exist SO DOES YOUR REFLECTION!!! This is why your logic doesn't hold. If everything is YOU, whatever you say about anything you are saying it about yourself!!! So if you say someone doesn't exist, THEN YOU DO NOT EXIST!!! The reason why you are being tortured is because you are not taking the time to actually be logical and think through your thoughts. I have said MULTIPLE times that Reality is NOT one way. It's called Non-Duality because it is ONE conscious awareness. This ONE conscious awareness is the ONLY thing that exists. You do not understand what that means. Holykael is NOT consciousness, Holykael is an EXPRESSION of consciousness. So what is CONSCIOUSNESS? It is the feeling that you EXIST!!! You can replace the the word consciousness with existence!!! Now....existence can verify it exists through the FEELING that it exists. This FEELING is what you call your senses. All physicality is feeling. Light is feeling. Energy is feeling. You create everything THROUGH FEELING, through your universal mind. As such whatever you perceive exists, if it didn't exist it couldn't be FELT by you, notice you can also feel yourself, because existence can feel that it exists and that is how it determines that it exists. So notice I just destroyed your logic, breakingwall does exist because you feel that he is there. As long as that feeling is there he exists. That is how this works. You do not have a monopoly on this, no ego has a monopoly on existence so stop acting like you are the only ego.

This song does a great job of expressing how God loves its creation. This second song showcases the Feminine Expression of God loving the Masculine Expression through the human creation.

Not think, KNOW. According to current research Church Attending has dropped lower than it ever has in recorded history. This has been likened to what they call the "Death of God" when humanity stops believing in religion and God period and are either agnostic or atheist and this has happened at sufficient levels. Its fine though because many of these agnostics and atheists eventually have opportunities for direct encounters with the Absolute as a result.

This is what causes people to struggle to heal. There are no bad energies, only uncomfortable situations. All energies you come into contact with you can release or hold onto. When you create or believe ideology that says there bad energies to avoid you trick yourself into believing that if you come across uncomfortable vibes that you are stuck with them. I've recently come into the understanding that if you are not careful with the words and belief systems you have that you can actually create ways to personally traumatize yourself. There are no energies, beings, or deities, or any type of power that has absolute power over you. We have the ability to receive and release anything we experience.

I've recently gone through a healing process when did I say it needed to be all positive? Notice I said he should have gone through a healing process BEFORE he took 5 MEO. Please learn to properly understand what is being said instead of assuming. Healing work is not as tough as people make it. It's about facing what is there and learning to accept what happened to you. It's not easy, but not as hard as people make it out to be, but I would NEVER take 5 MEO DMT based on the trip reports until I have done sufficient healing of my personal trauma. 5 MEO uncovers EVERYTHING, so if you haven't done it....then it will bring everything up for you. Besides, I have the ability to feel the pain of others at a deep level, when I watched this video I felt ALL of it from him and became increasingly anoyyed. The person in this video is full of negative self-talk which is fueling his negative emotions due to him not dealing with his personal issues before taking 5 MEO. I both know how to heal from personal issues, but the problem I have had with those around me is they love and identify with their pain and the story that is connected to it that they cannot let the hurt go. When it comes to healing I don't expect him to heal all of it perfectly as there are layers to it, but I can tell before he took that substance that he was looking for the substance itself to heal him. If you look to 5 MEO to heal you, expect to lose complete control just like this guy. Thank Goodness he had a trip sitter.

The Ego is not evil, the ego just starts out dysfunctional. So what is the purpose of the ego? The Purpose of the Ego is to capture some personal individuated definition of what it knows from personal lived experience to be the highest expression of God and seek to express that in the most expansive way possible. For me, the aspect of God that I believe to be the highest is Beauty. I believe the highest expression of Love is to see its beauty, and that life is a game where God plays hide and seek with itself in showcasing its beauty to itself. It took many years for me to come to this insight, I now know what my mission, my purpose in life is. My purpose my mission is to share the beauty of God with all, illuminate the personal individuated beauty that all of creation has to the best of my ability. You are all beautiful, all of your expressions are Perfect Beauty being expressed and the only confusion comes from preference/bias. The Ego's job is to capture/snapshot a portion of Infinity and take it for itself. Leo demonized permanence, demonized the ego's desire to freeze Infinity, but it must be this way. Why? Because the individuated self is not large enough to fully express the Absolute so it must capture a part for itself and express it. As all the parts collectively catch and express their portion the Absolute's Will is then fully expressed through all of its SELF/selfs.

Try listening to this young lady. Maybe she can unlock those blockages. https://www.youtube.com/@AnimaUraeus/videos