Razard86

I believe you. I hope it was fun. Lol I can't wait till you eventually take a psychedelic. THAT is when you will finally understand. Your imagination right now is still human level, I can't wait till you experience God level imagination.

I turn into Goku a lot. But yes he is correct if you haven't done it then you don't know what Consciousness is.

Stan walks down the street and comes to a point where the path splits into two directions. There are two signs one says Infinite Love/Death, the other says Material 3-D Reality. Stan thinks deeply how he wants to seek the truth. He thinks inquisitively 'Why do they call it love? I mean come on!!! Love is just some concept!!" So he wrestles with what he wants to do and while he is thinking he starts walking lost in thought down the path with the sign Material 3-D Reality. As he walks and walks he comes to another path that splits and sees the same two signs again Infinite Love/Death, and 3-D Reality. He states to himself "I really want to know the truth of reality. Maybe if I think long enough eventually I will figure it out," as his body moves on its own and he continues walking down the path of Material 3-D Reality lost in thought. Eventually Stan bumps into someone and greets him "Hey how are ya doing?" The person turns around and its an older man dressed in some colorful garments with a long beard. The person responds "I'm doing fine how about you?" Stan responds "I'm okay but I'm a little confused about something at the moment." The man responds "Well tell me about it and maybe I can help you." Stan looks and sizes the man up and says "I don't want to bother you about it but thanks for asking." The man responds "Are you sure because I've seen you around here before." Stan responds "What do you mean this is my first time here?" The man says "Yeah from your perspective that is true, but from my vantage point you are just walking in circles. Have you not noticed you keep coming across the same two signs?" Stan says "Yeah but I'm clearly moving forward so how am I walking in circles?" The man responds "What's your dilemma maybe I can help you see what I see?" Stan replies "Well I want to know the truth." The man replies "What do you mean by the truth?" Stan says "Well why are we here? What is going on here? The man says "Ahhh the age old questions. I remember when I once had the same questions." Stan's eyes brighten up "Oh great did you find the answers you were looking for?" The man responded "No I did not find the answers I was looking for." Stan replies "Oh then you cannot help me then, I'm on the path to the truth and nothing will stop me from finding it." The man responds "If only it were that simple. Have you not realized that you are deceiving yourself?" Stan responds "What do you mean I am deceiving myself? The man says "Because you think you are searching for the truth but you are not." Stan replies "You don't know me or what I am searching for! Who the hell you think you are!!!" The man replies "You see that is what I am talking about. You think you have it all figured out but you don't even realize that the words that you say and the actions you are taking are INCONGRUENT!!!" Stan replies what does incongruent mean? The man says "In short you say one thing but do another. You claim you are pursuing truth but then asked me if I found the answers I was looking for. I told you no and you thought that was the end of that. But young man when you search for truth you don't look for particular answers. You search with an open mind and if what appears for you is dreadful you take it. If what appears before you is pleasant you take it. You don't search for the truth to be a particular way, you search and what appears over and over is true. The only thing that is true right now is you have been lost in thought walking in circles and I have been standing here the whole time watching you." Stan replies "You creepy old man what do you know!!! I'm on the path of truth what the hell do you know!" The man replies "Your right, why listen to the man who was once in your shoes! Why listen to the man who put these sign posts here to begin with! The very journey you are on I completed! But yes what do I know?" Stan pauses and after awhile replies "You are telling me YOU are the one who posted these signs?" The man smiles and says "Yes they are some beautiful signs are they not?" Stan says "That's besides the point they are a waste of time they don't lead anywhere. I am only walking in circles as you say because your signs are awful. The man states "Is it my signs are awful or is it you are afraid of love?" Stan states "No I'm afraid of death, that's not love that's annihilation!" The man replies "Well then you don't know what love is Stan because when you love something you get so mesmerized that the notion of YOU disappears. Are you telling me Stan you never found something in your life that was worth dedicating every fiber of your being too? Stan replies "Yes my search for the truth." The man chuckles and says "If that were true....you would have died already, why are you still here? You have yet to disappear and that is why I said you don't know love." The man states "You say some interesting things old man. I'll think about what you told me. Then the man bows and continues on his journey of walking the path of 3-D Material Reality. The old man laughs and says "This is the funniest shit I ever seen. I totally get the joke!!! I just told God how to discover what he is and God played dumb thanked me and continued to avoid the answer!!! I told him directly with a sign, I told him indirectly with my statement and he dodge both with ignorance!! This is why God is a miracle!! Because it takes a miracle for God to be so dumb!!!" The old man chuckles and says "Should I make it more obvious by putting on the sign Infinite Love is truth you idiot?" Then he shakes his head and says "Nahh he'll just argue with that too." The man chuckles and says "What God doesn't realize when he is dreaming himself as a human is he can only know truth through observation. Until he admits to himself that he is avoiding the path of death, and that he is walking in circles because the same signs keep popping up, until he admits that he is infinite he will never discover what he is in his human dream. God is a walking contradiction that can only find the truth through consistent observation and recognition and acceptance. Anything less will leave you lost in thought for eternity. It's a good job he set this shit up that one day the path of 3-D Material will turn into death anyway otherwise his dishonest ass will walk forever." Then the man says God is a paradoxical joke whose punchline is death!!!" As he laughs you can hear the boom like thunder...for eternity.

I found another good video to share that Leo posted on his blog years ago. This man is an academic who worked with high doses of LSD to gain Enlightenment. Notice how many of the things he states, mirror stuff I have said, Leo said, and others. Don't let anyone limit you with this genetics limiting belief if you desire Enlightenment authentically from the heart YOU WILL ACHEIVE IT. If you want to live from a non-dual state you can and the methodology you use to reach it is on you. One of the key takeaways he states which I believe is important is he mentions that you need to drop your attachments to things that make you identify as being small. THIS IS THE KEY! Another tip I can give you by using an example. Let's use the video game the Sims!!! Before you construct the Sims...there is nothing. Then you construct the game world and then you put yourself to sleep as the character in the Sims. How would you have to change your perspective from a character in the Sims, to the one who created the whole thing? I feel this might be able to spark some creativity in you, because to deconstruct your identity as a human you will need to be creative!!! Deconstruction which is death is equal to creation!!! You need to access your creativity to destroy.....good luck!! P.S.: I love he discovered what I did about ineffability. You CAN describe these experiences, sure I can't give you the experience in words, but that isn't the point! It's to spark inspiration in you and to help you ground or make sense of the experience in a way that allows you to open up your imagination to what is possible and to help you remain calm when you experience it for yourself! You would say, why doesn't God make it easier...because God is in the business of surprising itself. Only the ego wants to predict, God is in the business of being unpredictable!!!

However you perceive it, that is how you will experience it. When he mentions solipsism he is pointing to the fact that you can never know anything outside your perspective. Your perspective is the Absolute. So if I disintegrated your body you will still exist. Why because you are not the body. Your body is housed within your Point of view not the other way around. Thus if something is not in your direct experience it doesn't exist because you are Absolute Reality. You can argue this point but never disprove it. And if you open your mind to the possibility it will become your reality. So you cannot test it, but you can verify it. Oh and your character is no different than the other characters, it is just something being shown in your Point of view. Don't fall for the trap of thinking your character is more real than other people. Other people are equally as real or unreal as your character. Think of it like this. You are looking at a mirror and talking to yourself no different than a dream. You can close your eyes right now and do it. Your dreams at night are the same as what you call life. So if you think your dreams are fake then life is fake and vice versa.

This. You will know and the irony is you will be like...well it actually makes sense.

You have no idea how ignorant you are.

God contains everything. There is nothing God does not contain so the answer is yes.

Bias and limited thinking. Over a prolonged period the one that is exposed to rougher elements can evolve to handle change better. For example exercise is actually traumatic to the body but it can also make it stronger. Kids born in the lap of luxury turn out spoiled. You have no clue how beneficial suffering is. The average military academy graduate has suffered greatly but will be more responsible on average compared to some sheltered teenager.

Great! I'm glad you share his love of math. I hope I can can see its beauty more and more throughout my life.

This is an interview that Curt has with one of the people he admires. Notice the love being expressed here. Everything you do is love, see if you can see it being expressed here.

^^^^^ If you get nothing from your time on the forums THIS!!! This is one of the biggest problems we have on the forums. This is why intellectual honesty is so important in this work. Intellectual understanding is not awakening. If you have not experienced directly that God exists then all you have is intellectual concepts floating around. You must validate it in your experience. If you don't then you will eventually reject any notion of God as you must and as you should!! While getting an epistemological understanding is sufficient, eventually it must be dropped. Want to know where God is? Behind your intellectual conception of what God is. The only barrier between a human and God....is their human knowledge. This is why the tree of knowledge of good and evil is the fall of man. Man must drop his knowledge to find God.

Objectivity is a human concept. There is no objectivity. Objectivity is the creation of group think. For example at one point poetry was considered absurd and a violation of the "proper" use of language. Now you would think that poetry is objectively a proper use of language. You only think that because it is accepted on massive scale. For something to be considered objective it has to be agreed upon. A chair is only a chair because we agree on the label, the definition, and the image associated with it. If I called a banana a chair you would claim that I was objectively wrong....but if I got the whole world to agree with me that a banana was a chair....then who is the one that is wrong? You would be the only one by yourself arguing that we are all wrong and we would silence you and thus a banana is now a chair. Ta da!!!!! So objectivity is just group think. Reality is just pure subjectivity, which means it has no inherent meaning and we are just making up meaning. To make something up is what we call a lie, or bullshit. So the secret is...everything is bullshit!! LOL!!! To truly understand reality....you have to drop labels. Notice you bring up the LGBTQ...that is just more labels. You are NOT a label and as long as you think you are....you will always be fighting against something. Because Good and Evil is created through the Tree of Knowledge. When the world of knowledge is based on labels....you create evil or what we call "THEM or OTHER, OR NOT ME."

See that post above....ITS RAW!!! LOL. Gordon Ramsay's ego can block any creative flow!!! But seriously what you described is completely normal and that is why anything you create will be beautiful. Know why? Because look what your creations have to deal with!!! They have to deal and overcome so much to be borne!!! That perfectionist attitude is normal. It exists because you want to do great work!! Because you care!! So you beat yourself up like an inner Gordon Ramsay until you churn out something you can be proud of!! So I salute you!! Keep doing your creative works!!! And if you don't mind...share them on the forums!!

Greatness is achieved through gratefulness. When you love an activity so much, that you are grateful for its existence. When you love it so much that every moment you engage in it you are grateful for the opportunity to engage in this activity that is when you are on the path to Greatness. This is why when a Master at something engages in that activity before you and their marvelous ability is so jaw-dropping that you are thankful for the opportunity to see that action all that happened is you received their gratefulness as your own. Want to be a Master? Want to be the embodiment of Greatness? Find something to be grateful for and persist forever in that activity. Then one day someone will receive your gratitude, and will give it back to you. This is why...life is LOVE!!! Love is to be grateful!!! To be thankful for the opportunity, and this is the path to greatness!

It's the most radical thing there is. When you become conscious of what unconditional love is...let's just say that shit is ridiculously powerful and frightening as all hell to embody.

Your not wrong, but what he means is you can imagine yourself as nothing. So when you sleep without dreaming you were experiencing being nothing.

The problem is he already died, he just came back and let his ego take control. So yeah he needs to do it some more.

In my 20's I was in college searching for the perfect perspective in life. I wanted to know the most accurate way to look at life because I realized that everybody was to busy trying to manipulate their way in life through lies and deception to get what they wanted. Since I saw the pain and suffering that caused them and me lol I refused to play that game. So I was trying to figure out what was the correct way to live life that would be the most noble honest and good life. It's like something told me from small, what everyone around you is doing...do the opposite. I've since learned it is not so simple, life comes full circle. But trust me if you tried to get me into Spirituality in my 20's that would have been TOO EARLY. I was no where near developed enough to handle it. The earliest in my 20's I would say would be 29 lol right at the edge. When I say development I mean two things. 1. The ability to deal with extreme pain and suffering and not fall into deep depression. 2. A strong enough ability to retain your authority in such a way that you do not allow yourself to be gaslighted into subtle forms, unconscious forms of self-hatred. Many people are still carrying limiting beliefs that were projected onto them by others who are full of self-hatred. For example one of the most rampant limiting beliefs is how visually attractive you are. Because many people see themselves as ugly, they will project that unto you and you can take that as true and walk around complaining thinking that you are visually ugly. This is actually one of the most rampant lies told.

To live a life that is meaningful and deep =happiness. Everyone is actually in a search for meaning (which you already know). You know fully well that happiness does not come and go like clouds in the sky. You know fully well that happiness is just awareness of yourself as Love. As such for someone to be happy all they need to do is raise their awareness. When you are in high conscious states it's literally impossible for you to NOT be happy. Don't worry I got you Leo. You weren't in the state of Consciousness to remember your best advice. Well here is your best advice!!!

Thought and being are different. You know this. All these questions and objections you have are a waste of time. You have taken 5-MEO before, take it again. Keep taking it till all your questions are done. You questioned love when you took 5 MEO, so either you didn't have that awakening yet or you denied it upon return. If it's the former then keep taking it till you experience it and if it's the latter overcome your fear. Also majority of people lie about their awakenings. What you don't realize is many people want to feel connected, and people who are interested in Spirituality because they don't fit in will join it and lie to fit in. Then there are those who have had Mystical Experiences but aren't interested in going deeper they just want people to speak about this stuff because they have nobody else. So what you will discover if you investigate is majority of people enter Spirituality looking for connection, NOT TRUTH. So when majority of people claim something I am automatically skeptical and then based on what they are saying I can tell at what level of integration they are at. Now it doesn't negate that they had the experience, they could have. But what it does tell you is whether they have been able to make sense of what they experienced. If you pay attention to numerous reports of people in Spirituality there is an overall theme. The most rampant theme has been LOVE. More people report experiencing unconditional love than any other facet....yet you resist this message. Ask yourself...why?

SPOILER ALERT!!!!The follow passage has a SPOILER for the Marvel Movie Dr. Strange. Read it at your own peril if you have not seen the movie. Ever wonder why as a human you are not given reality creating powers on an infinite level? Easily....watch the 2nd Dr. Strange movie and you will understand. The villain at its core just wants to experience being a mother, because she loves her children more than everybody else on earth. Look what a person with such a limited form of love would do with that power!!! This is why the more partial your love is, the more disconnected from God you are and the more evil you will create. You see? Goodness is its own reward because Goodness creates peace!!! Notice how the villain has the ability to create whatever she could, and look what she chooses to create because she is not satisfied. But it goes even deeper than this!!! As a mother she chooses to hide her actions from her children!!! She would never want her children to know about her actions, much less emulate them!!! If any of her kids acted like this it would break her heart. So notice her self-hatred and hypocrisy!! Do as I say not as I do!!! Also because she wants to hide this aspect of herself from her kids, this actually forces her to be FAKE and INAUTHENTIC WITH HER KIDS!! She doesn't want them to REALLY know who she is, just who she PRETENDS to be!!! This movies is a WONDERFUL lesson why goodness is its own reward and living a life where you abuse your power to gain control over life will only lead to misery, suffering, and you spreading misery and suffering all over the place. Covid is not the real pandemic, it is you desire for control over others to get love that creates suffering. And lastly...here is the last point.....look how much destruction she creates!!! What type of world could you live in, when at the drop of a hat your mom could just nuke anyone and anything if it disturbs you? You can't know true love because anyone that deals with you will be acting out of fear or personal gain. You can't know empathy, because your mom will deny you of that by giving you whatever you want and threatening anybody who opposes you. I mean she literally cannot tell you to forgive and learn how to let things go, because she never learned that lesson. Watch this movie with THESE LENS and look how stupid the villain Scarlet Witch is!!! I mean she looks so stupid in this movie I could barely watch it because I see how stupid it is to have all that power and just abuse it. LOL. Such a waste!!

Yep and have you noticed how many people resist this? I can understand people outside Spirituality but how do you resist this when it is so obvious. It took me listening to that video Leo made one time before I was like....of course it lines up with everything else. It's why I call it the moment of truth. I've tried so many ways to make it easier to understand and people still fight tooth and nail to hold onto their imagination for dear life. What's worse is my sober awakening baseline keeps getting even deeper as my body is changing itself even more to dissolve the boundary even further. For example my vocal chords are merged now so when someone speaks I am totally aware that I am speaking to myself. This was all done without any substances with a month of meditation and a request to the Universe to dissolve the boundary further. My ego fought throughout the process but I just reached a new level of boundary dissolution. This is why at this point anybody that argues with me about it I just know they haven't dealt with their intimacy issues. All selfishness is just metaphysical intimacy issues, they are too scared to share themselves with everything and I get it, that shit is uncomfortable as hell but the reward is myself so what is there to lose?

Another old blog post by Leo. It was a commitment he made to himself a couple years ago. https://www.actualized.org/insights/the-highest-purpose

https://www.actualized.org/insights/an-atheists-personal-experiences-of-god The part I want you to read more than once is this "What’s not being understood here is that the nature of reality is subjective and mind-constructed, and therefore “physical” reality can change if you just change the way you use your mind. This possibility is not taken seriously because Stage Blue and Orange underestimates reality. These stages assume that reality is a fixed, static thing, limited thing — which turns out to be a very mistaken metaphysical assumption." Many of you have had psychedelic states from taking substances and come back to baseline and assume that this is "normal" and how things just are. But how do you know you aren't constructing this and that is why it IS? One of the things Leo mentioned about the ego is that it likes to maintain homeostasis. What does he mean by that? Your current static experienced 3-D reality is maintained by your ego's homeostasis or inherent structure. Think of your ego as a living thing trying to maintain its form. That form is what you call your GRIP ON REALITY. What happens to many of you on these trips is you are not able to turn those states into a NATURAL STATE and you have a constructed belief that it is impossible. But what if it was possible? Have you tried? Have you honestly tried? How radical would your lived reality be if you did? Something to think about....