Razard86

Irony I believe. Look how cuddly I am (I will destroy you!!!!) The answer to all questions like these is actually very simple. The implementation is the hard part. Your values are your values. There aren't good values or bad values in the case of what activities you like or don't like a person engaging in. When it comes to the things you posted above and saying you want to change it, take it from someone who is much older, you are going to be adjusting yourself for the rest of your life trying to fit everyone's criteria. So then you might ask so then what do I do? Simple...what to you is the ideal man character wise? I'm not talking money or status and all that I mean what type of person do you want to be? Forget conditioning and all that right now, who do you actually want to be? If you want to get over her having male friends then construct a belief that make it okay. What you are not aware of is everything can be justified but not everything is justifiable. What this means is human beings have an unlimited ability to justify their actions while also making claims that those actions are only justifiable in certain situations and they will argue and justify. So forget about what society thinks, or I think, or anybody else. WHO DO YOU WANT TO BE? Pretend you are a girl looking for a good man. What do you think is a good man? Seek to be that. Once you have accomplished that. Ask yourself what do you think is a good women? And pursue that. Only accept women who fit your criteria and live by the criteria you set for yourself. Through this you are true both to your individual self and your partner. See? It's simple. But it will take a life time of implementation.

There are infinite perspectives on any one thing. Orgasm is like a drug high, for a brief moment you enter the kingdom of God....then you fall back down LOL. Orgasm is a high of love, borne from the most intimate act of love between humans, and they chase that high so much. The first thing people discover after awhile is one night stands don't feel the same as an orgasm between someone you love. Another thing people realize is the orgasm feels intoxicating when there are painful memories (ups and downs) between you and your partner. This is why many people get trapped in cycles of toxic relationships because the makeup sex is addicting. It's even the case why two highly functional partners with little issues, start doing things like BDSM because they want to taint some of that purity with some toxicity even if its pretend. So yeah an orgasm can show you the enticing nature of the darkside, and the ecstacy of bliss highs you can get.

Well I wouldn't call it fear, because literally God is invulnerable. Does a game designer fear how he constructs his game? Only if he forgets its a game. So I wouldn't call it a fear unless you are talking from the character point of view. Also Death is the destruction of all meaning because Death is ONENESS. Notice that Enlightenment also is the realization of ONENESS which also destroys all meaning. So yeah in one sense death creates meaning because life is limited. But the only reason eternity destroys all meaning is because eternity IS DEATH. If you are eternal and cannot be killed, then technically you are already dead. You can't kill what is already dead. God is unkillable because God is death itself. We call form life, we call limitation life, so if God ever created an unlimited form that cannot be killed God would be the walking dead. LOL.

I've made a post about this before, but people don't like to listen. A significant portion of young Black Men do what I call revenge voting. They either vote against their interests by voting Republican because they see the Democrats as traitors, wolves in sheep clothing so they would rather deal with the "enemy that they know", or they refuse to vote at all. https://www.pewresearch.org/short-reads/2022/11/07/10-facts-about-black-republicans/ This is why I said the Democrats are WORSE than the Republicans. Why? The Republicans are lower developmentally. They are like children, the Democrats are like adults who know better and refuse to do what they say they are gonna do. It's cool to see the young idealist, become a hardened pragmatist that goes along to get along.

Yeah without the heart there is no life. That shit is dead. I had to realize that the delusion is what makes it alive and the end of the delusion is what makes it dead. So I get it, but you cannot live freely unless you are dead. So counter-intuitive. And yes he plays the game like the rest of us. I like this guy, he is real Authentic.

Sounds like you have heightened awareness, hopefully it stabilizes within manageable levels can't have you spazzing out 24/7 at the beauty of things....well unless you want too...

Yeah....its called DEATH. Hello ME!!

You gonna be setting boundaries for the rest of your life. LOL. You don't even control your response. When it is cold do you control your shivers? When something is too hot do you control your reaction to remove your hand? LOL. Just learn to accept what is happening and realize its temporary. Majority of the events that happen in your life you don't even remember. The shorter your memory the less you suffer the past.

The knowledge you are trying to unlearn is equally God because it too is part of your experience. But I know what you are trying to say. But remember they are too parts of the whole. You won't understand what God is doing if you throw away that "knowledge." Humans didn't really construct that knowledge....that was GOD. God does every got damn thing. Because God is ABSOLUTE. The dream/illusion is that there is something that isn't God. Society isn't a mistake its a perfect grand design of God, same with War, Conflict, etc etc. To understand God you have to look at it like a creator. Go write a compelling story, create some creatures, a system of government, religions, etc etc. See how complicated it is to create an immersive world. No Pain and Suffering no immersion. Consider God created logic to attach you to reality. Because everything that ever happens is INTENTIONAL.

I don't disagree with anything here, I'll also say we don't like being the same is in alignment with this. Ever part of God aims to be unique, because it is unique. So its design, its functionality, points to what it WILLS ITSELF TO BE. So God loves difference. Too bad difference is the cause of all conflict. Its a catch 22. But since God loves conflict and drama, its no problem LOL. Can't have a compelling story without drama.

^^^^LOL but its so funny!!! Cause sometimes...life will really try hard to pull you into drama. Once I was walking to class when I was in highschool and a guy came punched me in the back of the head. I found out later that he did it because he was trying to get into a gang and that was their initiation. They were like "wanna join our gang go punch that guy over there." I've had similar incidents every now and then where I am just minding my business and something "POPS OFF." That shit is hilarious because people think you can make sense of reality. I mean yeah that explanation makes sense, but it doesn't make sense at the same time. Why the fuck you wanna join people who want you to walk up and attack people....one day that person might be YOU. LOL. It's why most gang members don't live very long. In fact I think the person who did that to me died actually.

Believing you have eyes is one of the traps. Why do you think some people created the headless way to help people get it? LOL. You don't experience eyes. You don't see your eyes, you need a mirror to see your eyes. I'm not saying you don't realize that by the way, I'm saying people don't get it when they say direct experience. If a person never saw a mirror, a lake, or any type of reflection, they would never know they had eyes. They would know something was there, but would never know what they look like.

Until humans can expand their definition of existence as something that does not appear, they can never awaken. It makes perfect logical sense in that something has to be housed within nothing. That nothing has to expand infinitely otherwise you can't walk down the street. So a non physical space must hold all physicality. It's simple. I don't like saying stuff like that because it can fool the ego into grasping something. It's why its better to just call it a frame, an empty black frame, a mind, so it cannot be grasped. A character on your tv screen cannot grasp the screen because its inside the screen, the same is true of the human identity. It cannot grasp it, because it is it. Another way to look at it, close your eyes imagine you are walking down the street, then realize....you are dreaming all that. Watch this till you can see that this screen your typing words on can be zoomed into forever.

We are definitely all complicit, cause you cannot separate anything, but you can definitely delude yourself into thinking its true. Every story is only mysterious because it is chock full of lies and you have to unravel the tapestry to find out what is true. Also everyone is ABSOLUTELY GOOD at all times. You can't see it because you cannot see it in yourself. You actually delude yourself that people are different than you. Do you WANT to do harm in the world? If the answer is no, understand....everyone thinks the same way. They just define harm differently. We are all the same, we just define ourselves differently. That's all that's really going on. The same goodness in you is the same in all the world. Your goodness is equal to the goodness of everything. The world is just ignorance run amok.

Nihilism is part of the path, deep despair is part of the path, existential terror is part of the path, can't avoid it. Awakening is both simple and complex. The simplicity is its direct, but the fear makes the process very indirect. Awakening is like any relationship its a push and a pull.

I was waiting for you to say it. Did you know when he wrote his trip report he said it was love? Then he came back down and denied his experience. Crazy huh? Then he denies that he denies it. Infinity is a tricky thing....it just denies and denies and denies. It doesn't even care if it makes sense. SO FUNNY.

LOL there are actually people more unconscious than him...his followers. So they are even more woke from that paradigm and they will tell you that if you talk to them.

The only issue with anything is lack of balance. If you overdo contemplation you will have analysis paralysis. This is because you have deluded yourself that you can know what to do absolutely/100 percent predict the future. You don't. Your whole life is just an educated guess.

Of course its a bias, also a lot of 20 years old who enter spirituality ALSO kill themselves. Have you not heard the stories? If not go research them. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8593880/ https://abcnews.go.com/Nightline/story?id=3685391&page=1 https://www.suicideinfo.ca/resource/siecno-19820064/ If you look for anything you can find proof for it. Is it a high risk thing? No, but for some people psychedelics are dangerous. Even Leo has started to backtrack on his advocacy on it and me too. The shit is dangerous for undeveloped minds and most 20 years are not sufficiently developed to be taking it.

I don't even recommend 20 year olds touching spirituality in most cases. Wait till your 30's.

^^^Exactly as long as you are living true to how you want to be, you can go peacefully.

I discovered I could put myself in a psychedelic state (sadly no intense visuals but the same intensity of the feeling is there) at will. Did last night and then asked for it to stop cause I wasn't in the mood. I'm telling people on here, if you want it you can get it lol. Just ask...that shit was unstabilizing I can literally ask for it like a menu in a restaraunt. "Umm sir I'd like to experience intense groundlessness." Sure coming right up........"Woahhhh I change my mind maybe tomorrow I haven't done that in awhile and forgot what it was like."

You are borne into a world. As a child you are told sharing is caring. You are told to be honest, to give your best effort, to prepare and practice because this leads to perfection. You are taught that there are values, things like beauty, efficiency, functionality, power, virtue, morality, and that there are things that are bad like ugly, inefficiency, lack of function/usability, weakness, unethical, lacking in morals. You notice the majority of the world functions off of this and this is reinforced in business, movies, t.v. shows, and the general population. You are born into a world that chases the acquisition, and expression of these things. You notice that things hold universal value, but you have not yet realized that the value they hold is dependent on the opposite. You also realize if you are objective that the opportunity to acquire and express these things according to how the world currently defines them is not equal. You realize that discrimination is inherent in this world view and then you get pulled into how to alleviate this discrimination to create a more equal opportunity world. But as you continue down this path you discover that biologically we are not equal either according to this constructed paradigm the world has created and also additionally these biological differences are not by choice, but some how you are punished for it as if it was. Now this confuses you too, humanity fights over things like intelligence, competence, physical attractiveness of appearance, country/town of origin, who your family is, how much money you come from. Then you start noticing you even get judged for your past actions, even though many of your mistakes were either a result of ignorance or lack of competence which is the same as saying immaturity or lack of development. You really start to wonder...what the hell is going on? How do I make sense of this world, because strictly speaking this world seems....insane. Easy....self-honesty. But you reply this world it doesn't even stick to its own metrics, they told me when I was a kid that sharing was caring, and to be honest, to give my best effort, to practice and yada yada yada. But they do the opposite!!! But look, religion is telling me to do the things they told me as a child, maybe I'll join a religion!! So you join a religion and everything they say makes perfect sense!! You are like, yes if everyone just lived in alignment with this message all the world would get along smoothly. But then..you notice...the religions are doing the same thing!! They each claim their religion is the true religion and even within the congregation they have cliques, there is gossip, there is politics and hierarchy. So you leave the religion because they are a reflection of the current state of the world that you think is insane. So now you go to the study of history, psychology, sociology, you want to discover why things are the way they are and why you function the way you are. You get into self-development and make it your mission to develop your body as well as your mind. You struggle with your failures and beat yourself up over them. You watch yourself like a hawk, you become your greatest taskmaster, choosing goal after goal, building yourself. Every time you crash, fail an objective you take it personal and crash with it. But you rise again. You fall and you rise, like the rising and setting sun you pursue and pursue. As you go through this process you notice those around you don't have this same fervor, they lack passion. You judge them, you call them out, you see them as weak. But at the same time you don't want to be mean, you don't want to be a bully but you just want to help them improve. You realized that because you took the lessons everybody gave you seriously you were able to see the value in the virtues. You noticed that you were more resilient, and you had less fear. You realized that it takes strength to be honest, it takes strength to be accountable, to have integrity, and you wonder why people don't do this? You noticed that these ideals that society says everyone should aspire for, are the same ideals that religion preaches. So you get confused, you ask so if everybody is saying the same thing then why aren't they actually doing it? This creates a righteous anger within you, you seek to go out and correct this. As you push this against the world, the world pushes back at you. This keeps happening and you get confused. Then one day you do a job for the first time and you are a beginner. Everyone is impatient with you, they judge you, they ridicule you but you are honestly trying your best. They complain about you until finally you breakthrough and become competent, then you become a master and everyone loves you. When a new beginner comes into this job you are patient and kind and giving because you remember what it is like to be a beginner completely confused and as a result you have compassion for them. Through this process you learn, that anyone struggling to do something is struggling because they are a beginner. To a master who has forgotten what it is to be a beginner, the beginner looks like a fool. They look lazy, undisciplined, clumsy, and as a result they berate them and insult them. For most beginners this would make them give up, why try when everyone tells you that you will fail. Why try when nobody wants to help you. Well the secret is, if you persevere you can become a master and then be the change you want to see. You can be the master that helps all beginners become a master by offering them the help that was denied you. But you ask why don’t those masters realize this? Because they have not mastered being a master. A true master remembers what it was like to be a beginner. There goes that truth thing again….always combining/creating a union between two apparent opposites. Be the change you want to see in the world. Everybody complains about the world, but nobody wants to be the reflection that they wish to see. Everyone always looks for someone else to fix the problem, to be the change. So why is the world in its current shape? Because the motto of the world is do as I say, not as I do. Notice a message like this resonates. I have never had this message not resonate, it has resonated ABSOLUTELY!!! Everyone agrees, there only disagreement is, why me? HAHAHHAH. They say why do I have to do it, why not someone else.....and then they realize they are just passing the buck to someone else just like the world. You see? It's so simple. Now someone will say, I hear you if we all act according to our ideals then we can create an ideal world. But that would take too long and I may not live to see it. To which I would reply, there is a secret. You see God is that which hides in plain sight, so God hides the truth of what is going on in plain sight. What is strength? Strength is the courage to do the right thing regardless of the results. Why is it considered strength? Why is it considered courageous? It is considered that because the results look disadvantageous, like a waste of time. Because you are taught that your time is only properly used in the pursuit of individual self-aggrandizement, self elevation, self-illumination. The world teaches you that visibility, popularity is self-illumination. The world believes that power, status, popularity, is enlightenment. This is why the world acts this way. You will often hear someone promise to give you a strategy or "game" on how to get something. This is what the world thinks is value. But notice, value is based on limitation. But isn't it true you can only know your value through self-sacrifice? A master of something has to give its all in devotion towards something to master it. But only someone who has experience in what the master is doing can understand the value of the master's work. Once you become a master at something you understand all mastery. Because mastery is self-understanding, mastery is self-illumination, mastery is enlightenment. So you see the world is actually chasing enlightenment they are just at various stages of development. Now once someone has chased mastery enough, eventually they will come to a realization that they are not in control. How does this happen you say? By living a life so steeped in a belief in control and pursuing it with reckless abandon. Eventually your lack of control will become so apparent, that you will surrender. Now the problem is, you cannot cheat or skip steps. If you attempt to surrender before you are TRULY WILLING, that will end in failure no different than if you try to perform a task that you are unwilling to perform you cannot give your best, which is your ALL. You cannot surrender all, if you are unwilling. Are you getting it now? Self-Sacrifice is equal to maturity. Maturity cannot be forced!!! You cannot force a flower to grow faster. You can biologically design a flower to grow faster, but notice....it is written into its design. However something is, is what it is. It is, its own limit. THIS IS SELF-ACCEPTANCE!!! So notice, once you get tired of trying to control or change things and can accept them where they currently are, then you can do that not just with your human self but with the ALL. A master has nothing to prove anymore, why? Because the journey of his mastery and the fruit of his results is PROOF ENOUGH. He has learned the value of the total experience of his strengths and his weaknesses and the miracle of self-surprise, of the surprise present. When you pursue something with reckless abandon eventually exponential growth happens, growth that you did not expect. Through this you fall in love with yourself, and as you fall more and more in love with yourself the less love you need from others. As you investigate the life you lived and look at the confusion around you eventually you realize even more what is going. The pursuit of value teaches the lack of value, which makes all things equally value. Life is absolutely relative because everything is inter-defined, but this is something only a Master can know because he lived the journey of walking the path of self-truth, self-love, and is given the gift of clarity. Think about it, if a man masters something could he ever feel like he has no value? He proved to himself his value in his mastery. His value has become SELF-EVIDENT. This is why you CANNOT BULLSHIT LIFE!!! This is why they say you can only cheat yourself! If you lie, cheat, manipulate, you bar yourself from mastery, self-understanding, self-respect, and ultimately self-love. As a result you live in Hell!!! This is why life is PERFECT!!!! The Kingdom of God is within!!! If you work your hardest and someone tells you your slacking off, you cannot be fooled!! Only you know the truth of your inner experience, if you gave your all you cannot be fooled!!! Are you getting it? You can only have low self-esteem if you take on the low self-esteem of others. Live by your truth to the best of your abilities and you cannot have regrets. Regret nothing, but learn from mistakes. You can learn from the past, but you cannot regret a past that was true. If you gave your all then that was the limit of your actions at the time. If you held back at all then that was not your limit. So you see? If you don't give your all and someone calls you out on it, they are correct. But if you lie and say you did give your best, you now have created a FALSE LIMIT. This is how LIMITING BELIEFS ARE FORMED. You do not know your limits, you DISCOVER WHAT THEY ARE!!! Knowing your limits is like you at 5 years old predicting how tall you will grow to be. The same way you have no clue how tall your adult height will be is the same way you have no clue how or what heights you can reach when you pursue something. An Enlightened Master has lived a full honest life of self-expression. He listened to the teachings of every religion HONESTLY. He has learned the value of self-sacrifice so when it came time to face his death he could surrender contently because he lived a FULL LIFE. I only speak of my own experience. Humans look for the kingdom of God on the outside, not realizing that Self-Mastery, Self-Knowledge, Self-Acceptance is forged within. Once you master Masculinity, which is the pursuit of mastery through action, can you surrender to being, which is the recognition of mastery through inaction which is Femininity. The value of Being is Self-Realized through the Self-Realization of Action. This is how the paradox is resolved that Being and Action are one and the same. A man that is a master visibly is seen as beautiful. A woman who is beautiful in appearance is treated with the same reverence as a master for her appearance. So a man who is considered ugly in appearance but whose movements are masterful can be given the status of beauty because of his action. A woman who is considered beautiful in appearance but whose movements are clumsy is only given the status for her being. The issue is a woman given beauty but no adversity will sit on her laurels, no different than a man born to unearned riches. Seek to forge both inner and outer beauty by discovering the interconnectivity of the ugly and the beautiful, the short and the tall, the strong and the weak. When you can merge action and inaction/being= BEING. T:L:DR "I can tell you all day you have value but until you prove that to yourself it is a mere illusion."

In one sense this is true, because you are aware its a dream. But you can certainly discover more and more levels of why you constructed everything the way it is. So one awakening is oh I'm God I created everything, the rest is like answering all the dumb ass questions your baby self has...ummm Why? Why? Why? Why is this like this, Why is this like this, and you can do that forever.